((Follows on afterRenewing The Bond.))
The visit to the nursing home to meet Jason's mother went as well as it could have, considering his mother's condition. Visits always left Jason with mixed feelings, relieved that she was well cared for, but troubled that he could do so little to help her. Despite the nursing staff's insistence that she did indeed know he was there and that she drew comfort from his visits, his visits always left him feeling sad and guilty, as much as he tried to hide it from those around him, including Bethany. The walk back to the car was a quiet one, with him lost in his thoughts and unsure what to say.
Beth walked along beside him, knowing he needed these few minutes to feel and think and remember, happy to give him that time in silence. But she was also happy that she'd been able to engineer something else for him to think about. As limited as her experience in this particular field was, nonetheless she knew enough, and that little she did know had brought Jason's mother a few precious minutes of lucidity, where she knew her son and spoke to him, and proved that, despite the derangement of her mind, the woman who had raised him was still in there, somewhere.
He wasn't sure how she had done it, but those few brief moments of lucidity were more precious to him than all the money in the world. He wasn't sure how he could ever thank her for it, but he had an idea. He came to a halt beside the car and turned to face her, eyes watery with unshed tears. "Have I told you lately how amazing you are?"
She smiled, touched by the compliment even if she didn't believe a word of it. Her hand rose to stroke his cheek, her thumb smoothing beneath his eye to catch any of those tears should they escape. "I'm not that amazing," she told him. "Not as amazing as she is. She loves you so much, baby. I'm just glad you got to see it."
"I just wish there was a way I could bring her back, you know" She's not that old. She still has a lot of living to do." He frowned again, wiping a hand across his face to dash away those tears before they escaped. "I want her to see us get married." And whatever else comes after that, he thought. He wasn't sure if kids were in the cards for them or not, but that wasn't important right now. What was important was the fact that he wanted his mother back.
"There might be," she reminded him gently. "I'm not going to make you any promises, baby, but I'll look into it. If it can be done, Rhy'Din's the place to find the person who can do it." She rose up on her toes to kiss his cheek fondly. "She'll be at the wedding, no matter what. That I can promise you."
He smiled through the tears, her kiss doing more to make him feel better than anything anyone else could have said or done. He took her at her word, trusting and believing in her more than anyone he'd ever met before. Maybe it was the memories of that past life together that did it, but he knew without a doubt that she'd do everything she could to help him and, more importantly, his mother. "There's something I want to show you," he told her abruptly, with a gleam in his eyes and a dimpled smile on his face.
Beth couldn't resist the opening he'd given her, whether it was intentional or otherwise, smoothing her arms around his waist as she leaned in close. "Don't you think I've seen it all enough times this morning?" she teased him through her smile, glad to see that the lingering sadness didn't last too long. At least this morning he had something positive to hold onto from visiting his mother, not just another hour of sitting with a stranger and hurting.
He chuckled at her question, his arms moving to circle her waist, mirroring her embrace. "Try to drag your mind out of the gutter for a minute," he teased, dipping his head to brush a kiss against the tip of her nose. "This is something special. I could do it without you, but I'd like your opinion." No, it wasn't a house or a new apartment. Not yet, at least. She would just have to wait and see what it was he wanted to show her.
Giggling, Beth's nose scrunched under his kiss, her hands flat against his back as he teased her in return. "I'll try," she promised in a wicked tone, before making an effort to assume an expression that was only slightly less sinful. "Something you want my opinion on, hmm?" Down went her mind into the gutter again, but at least she didn't express this thought aloud. If he wants to get a Prince Albert, why doesn't he just say it aloud" Snickering at her own thoughts, nonetheless, she made an effort to sober herself once again. "Okay, I can behave. For a while, anyway."
He narrowed his eyes at her, knowing her well enough to know she was thinking something naughty, though he had no idea what it was. If he'd known what it was she was thinking, he'd have been mortified. "You better or there might be no wedding!" He unwound his arms from around her waist to tweak her nose, a teasing smirk on his face. Just what was he up to"
She laughed aloud at that, rolling her eyes as he tweaked her nose. "Like you'd survive explaining that one to my mom," she threatened him right back again, easing back to hook her hands behind her own back and attempt to look, if not innocent, then demure. "Better?"
"You think Miranda would have a problem with us living in sin?" It wasn't that he didn't want to get married, but there were a few things they needed to do first and if she wanted to get those things done, she was going to have to try to behave for a little while. "Hmm," he murmured, looking her over, as if he was sizing her up. "Let's see how long you can keep that up."
"Longer than you can," she snickered, winking at him with a playful smile. Perhaps it was odd that they could laugh and play with one another so soon on the heels of a visit that could have hurt him so badly, but then again, perhaps it was not. The dream they had shared had stripped away a lot of the uncertainties they had been feeling, leaving them far more comfortable in each other's company than they had been only a day before. "Okay, so ....you want to show me something?"
The visit to the nursing home to meet Jason's mother went as well as it could have, considering his mother's condition. Visits always left Jason with mixed feelings, relieved that she was well cared for, but troubled that he could do so little to help her. Despite the nursing staff's insistence that she did indeed know he was there and that she drew comfort from his visits, his visits always left him feeling sad and guilty, as much as he tried to hide it from those around him, including Bethany. The walk back to the car was a quiet one, with him lost in his thoughts and unsure what to say.
Beth walked along beside him, knowing he needed these few minutes to feel and think and remember, happy to give him that time in silence. But she was also happy that she'd been able to engineer something else for him to think about. As limited as her experience in this particular field was, nonetheless she knew enough, and that little she did know had brought Jason's mother a few precious minutes of lucidity, where she knew her son and spoke to him, and proved that, despite the derangement of her mind, the woman who had raised him was still in there, somewhere.
He wasn't sure how she had done it, but those few brief moments of lucidity were more precious to him than all the money in the world. He wasn't sure how he could ever thank her for it, but he had an idea. He came to a halt beside the car and turned to face her, eyes watery with unshed tears. "Have I told you lately how amazing you are?"
She smiled, touched by the compliment even if she didn't believe a word of it. Her hand rose to stroke his cheek, her thumb smoothing beneath his eye to catch any of those tears should they escape. "I'm not that amazing," she told him. "Not as amazing as she is. She loves you so much, baby. I'm just glad you got to see it."
"I just wish there was a way I could bring her back, you know" She's not that old. She still has a lot of living to do." He frowned again, wiping a hand across his face to dash away those tears before they escaped. "I want her to see us get married." And whatever else comes after that, he thought. He wasn't sure if kids were in the cards for them or not, but that wasn't important right now. What was important was the fact that he wanted his mother back.
"There might be," she reminded him gently. "I'm not going to make you any promises, baby, but I'll look into it. If it can be done, Rhy'Din's the place to find the person who can do it." She rose up on her toes to kiss his cheek fondly. "She'll be at the wedding, no matter what. That I can promise you."
He smiled through the tears, her kiss doing more to make him feel better than anything anyone else could have said or done. He took her at her word, trusting and believing in her more than anyone he'd ever met before. Maybe it was the memories of that past life together that did it, but he knew without a doubt that she'd do everything she could to help him and, more importantly, his mother. "There's something I want to show you," he told her abruptly, with a gleam in his eyes and a dimpled smile on his face.
Beth couldn't resist the opening he'd given her, whether it was intentional or otherwise, smoothing her arms around his waist as she leaned in close. "Don't you think I've seen it all enough times this morning?" she teased him through her smile, glad to see that the lingering sadness didn't last too long. At least this morning he had something positive to hold onto from visiting his mother, not just another hour of sitting with a stranger and hurting.
He chuckled at her question, his arms moving to circle her waist, mirroring her embrace. "Try to drag your mind out of the gutter for a minute," he teased, dipping his head to brush a kiss against the tip of her nose. "This is something special. I could do it without you, but I'd like your opinion." No, it wasn't a house or a new apartment. Not yet, at least. She would just have to wait and see what it was he wanted to show her.
Giggling, Beth's nose scrunched under his kiss, her hands flat against his back as he teased her in return. "I'll try," she promised in a wicked tone, before making an effort to assume an expression that was only slightly less sinful. "Something you want my opinion on, hmm?" Down went her mind into the gutter again, but at least she didn't express this thought aloud. If he wants to get a Prince Albert, why doesn't he just say it aloud" Snickering at her own thoughts, nonetheless, she made an effort to sober herself once again. "Okay, I can behave. For a while, anyway."
He narrowed his eyes at her, knowing her well enough to know she was thinking something naughty, though he had no idea what it was. If he'd known what it was she was thinking, he'd have been mortified. "You better or there might be no wedding!" He unwound his arms from around her waist to tweak her nose, a teasing smirk on his face. Just what was he up to"
She laughed aloud at that, rolling her eyes as he tweaked her nose. "Like you'd survive explaining that one to my mom," she threatened him right back again, easing back to hook her hands behind her own back and attempt to look, if not innocent, then demure. "Better?"
"You think Miranda would have a problem with us living in sin?" It wasn't that he didn't want to get married, but there were a few things they needed to do first and if she wanted to get those things done, she was going to have to try to behave for a little while. "Hmm," he murmured, looking her over, as if he was sizing her up. "Let's see how long you can keep that up."
"Longer than you can," she snickered, winking at him with a playful smile. Perhaps it was odd that they could laugh and play with one another so soon on the heels of a visit that could have hurt him so badly, but then again, perhaps it was not. The dream they had shared had stripped away a lot of the uncertainties they had been feeling, leaving them far more comfortable in each other's company than they had been only a day before. "Okay, so ....you want to show me something?"