The following is a letter Jon pens to Vicki before he leaves to hunt the vampires with Lei. The envelope is addressed, "To Miss Victoria Marshall. Open only in the event of my death." The contents of the letter read as follows:
Dear Vicki,
If you're reading this letter, I'm already gone. I'm sorry I didn't have the chance to explain like I promised, and I'm sorry we didn't have more time together. I can't explain it now. Ask Shen Lei or Rufus Bennett. They can explain better than I. I don't have the right words.
My family doesn't understand. They don't know what it's like to wake up one day and not even remember your own name. People look at you and remember every word you've ever said, everything you've ever done, but you don't remember any of it. All I wanted was to know what they know, to know who I am.
But with you, it never seemed to matter. With you, it was a clean slate. You didn't care about the Jon Granger they write about in the papers. You wanted to know the real me, but I don't know who I am anymore, and I'm no longer sure it even matters. What matters is putting the past behind me and moving on, making a fresh start.
That's what I'm trying to do, Vicki, but if you're reading this letter, it means I've failed and for that, I'm sorry. I'm sorry we never got the chance to find out if we had a future. I'm sorry we never got the chance to fall in love, but I have no regrets, not where you're concerned.
My hand is shaking as I write this, but I've come too far to give up now. I want my life back, and this is the only way I can accomplish that. If I die, at least, I die fighting. At least, I die trying to reclaim what?s rightfully mine - my life, my liberty, my future. I only hope if I die, I die bravely.
I don't expect you to understand. All I ask is that you remember me and know that every moment I spent with you is special to me in ways I can't explain. I can't leave you with words of love and adoration. I would be lying if I told you I loved you, but you should know that the last night we spent together brought me more joy than I've known in a very long time. You saved me from the darkness and gave me the courage and the strength to go on.
You're special, Victoria Marshall, and given the chance, I know I could have loved you. Please don't grieve my passing. Remember the good and forget the bad. Don't think of me at night, but in the daylight, when the sun is shining brightly and there's not a cloud in the sky. Think of me when the sun rises in the morning to chase away the shadows of night. Think of me and know that you were, for a short time, my light in the darkness.
Have no regrets, Vicki. Life goes on for those who live, and for those who've died, there is peace. I feel peace in knowing I've done everything I can to reclaim my life and keep those I love safe.
If you see Lena, tell her I'm sorry. Tell my family not to grieve my passing, but to rejoice my having lived. Tell them I love them all, and if God is willing, I'll watch over all of you from Heaven.
Yours in memory, Jonathan
Dear Vicki,
If you're reading this letter, I'm already gone. I'm sorry I didn't have the chance to explain like I promised, and I'm sorry we didn't have more time together. I can't explain it now. Ask Shen Lei or Rufus Bennett. They can explain better than I. I don't have the right words.
My family doesn't understand. They don't know what it's like to wake up one day and not even remember your own name. People look at you and remember every word you've ever said, everything you've ever done, but you don't remember any of it. All I wanted was to know what they know, to know who I am.
But with you, it never seemed to matter. With you, it was a clean slate. You didn't care about the Jon Granger they write about in the papers. You wanted to know the real me, but I don't know who I am anymore, and I'm no longer sure it even matters. What matters is putting the past behind me and moving on, making a fresh start.
That's what I'm trying to do, Vicki, but if you're reading this letter, it means I've failed and for that, I'm sorry. I'm sorry we never got the chance to find out if we had a future. I'm sorry we never got the chance to fall in love, but I have no regrets, not where you're concerned.
My hand is shaking as I write this, but I've come too far to give up now. I want my life back, and this is the only way I can accomplish that. If I die, at least, I die fighting. At least, I die trying to reclaim what?s rightfully mine - my life, my liberty, my future. I only hope if I die, I die bravely.
I don't expect you to understand. All I ask is that you remember me and know that every moment I spent with you is special to me in ways I can't explain. I can't leave you with words of love and adoration. I would be lying if I told you I loved you, but you should know that the last night we spent together brought me more joy than I've known in a very long time. You saved me from the darkness and gave me the courage and the strength to go on.
You're special, Victoria Marshall, and given the chance, I know I could have loved you. Please don't grieve my passing. Remember the good and forget the bad. Don't think of me at night, but in the daylight, when the sun is shining brightly and there's not a cloud in the sky. Think of me when the sun rises in the morning to chase away the shadows of night. Think of me and know that you were, for a short time, my light in the darkness.
Have no regrets, Vicki. Life goes on for those who live, and for those who've died, there is peace. I feel peace in knowing I've done everything I can to reclaim my life and keep those I love safe.
If you see Lena, tell her I'm sorry. Tell my family not to grieve my passing, but to rejoice my having lived. Tell them I love them all, and if God is willing, I'll watch over all of you from Heaven.
Yours in memory, Jonathan