Topic: A Happy Day

Clare Grey

Date: 2017-05-29 08:20 EST
((Contains reference to adult activities toward the end.))

September 20th, 1887

"Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to witness the joining of this man and this woman in holy matrimony ..."

Arden Chapel was shining on September 20th, 1887, bedecked with white roses and orange-blossom, autumn sunshine sparkling through stained glass to rest delicately on the faces of the families gathered for a wedding. For the bride, her father and mother, and her sister; for the groom, his sister and her husband, and his closest friend. A small gathering, for neither party wished for some statement to be shared with society. It was enough to be wedded, and begin their life together among family.

Clare stood at Lawry's side, her gown white satin and silk, her veil antique lace, her gloves soft white kid leather. She could hardly believe that it was her wedding day; that in just a few minutes, she would be Mrs. Lawrence Grey, Lady Arden. It was a sobering thought, but one that did not dominate her mind. Between the presence of Lawry on her right hand, and Louisa's badly muffled giggles on her left, she was trying not to grin like an idiot as the vicar spoke.

The groom was resplendent in a gray morning suit, complete with tails and an ascot tie, unable to keep his eyes off the stunning beauty that was his bride, arms eager to hold her, lips eager to taste the sweetness of her kisses, at long last. Though Lawry had been married once before, he could honestly say, without doubt, that today was the happiest day of his life.

Beside him stood his closest friend in all the world - a handsome man in his own right with dark hair and eyes and dressed in a suit that nearly matched the groom's. His eyes, however, tended to linger not on the bride and groom, but on the groom's sister, sneaking a glance here and there whenever he could, almost to distraction.

Standing tall beside her husband, Connie's eyes also strayed often from her brother and his bride to the man at his side - the old friend who, in a kinder life, might have been her husband instead of the cold man who gripped her hand on his arm too tightly for comfort. There was longing in those looks, but she dared not hold them for long, unwilling to risk an open argument at her own brother's wedding.

Mr. and Mrs. King stood together on the other side of the chapel, arm in arm, smiling indulgently at both their daughters; the elder being wed, and the younger trying her very best not to laugh out loud with joy and disrupt the ceremony. Thank goodness it was good luck for the ring to fall; the vicar fumbled it twice before Lawry got his hands on the delicate piece.

All things considered, it was a happy occasion and everyone there seemed happy to witness the union of man and woman that was, for once, a match not solely made for the sake of convenience or money. Though Lawry had not yet confessed his love to the woman who was about to become his wife, everyone in attendance could clearly see it in the way he looked at Clare. The only thing tainting the day was the presence of stodgy Edmund, like a gray storm cloud on an otherwise bright sunny day.

"What God has joined, let no man put asunder," the vicar intoned, raising his hands to bless the newly-wed couple. "Lord Arden, you may now kiss your wife."

Clare couldn't help the faint giggle that left her lips as Louisa lost control of her own laughter behind her, glancing back at her grinning sister just once before raising her eyes to Lawry.

It was a good thing Lawry was fond of Clare's little sister or he might have given her a scathing look, but he was determined not to let anything spoil his good humor today. Not even Edmund Stanley could stand in the way of his happiness. The smile he offered Clare as he took her hands in his was radiant and affectionate. Even if he hadn't admitted to his growing adoration, the look on his face could not be missed, and now it was at last, time to taste those sweet lips and claim them for his own. His lips lingered just a little longer than necessary against hers as he drew her close, almost forgetting that they weren't alone.

His lips swept her smile away, stealing her breath as she swayed into him. Her first kiss, and it was with her husband; not only her husband, but with the man her heart skipped a beat for whenever his eyes met hers. Even with her sister's giggles ringing in her ears, Clare's sole focus was Lawry, and this first kiss between them. Until a low muttering caught her attention.

"Unseemly display," Edmund Stanley was complaining, shushed by his wife but not soon enough. Clare was blushing as she drew back from that kiss, embarrassed by the man's lack of grace.

As for Lawry, he was too happy to let Edmund Stanley ruin his good mood, and though his lips temporarily parted from hers, the smile warm with affection remained etched on his face. He might have stood there staring at her all day if not for the clap on his shoulder by the dark-haired man who stood beside him, reminding him once again that they weren't alone.

"Congratulations, old man," he told Lawry before turning to Clare with an almost mischievous grin. "May I kiss the bride?" he asked, leaning in to brush a kiss to Clare's cheek before she could protest.

Thankfully, Clare's mood was easily revived, first with Lawry's smile, and then with his friend's mischievous grin. "Mr. Blackwood, such liberties," she laughed as he kissed her cheek, her touch on Lawry's arm released as she turned to embrace her own family fondly.

Connie left her husband's side to hug her brother, kissing his cheek. "I'm so happy for you, Lawry."

Mr. Blackwood - or rather, Oliver - only laughed at Clare's feigned indignation. Though an aristocrat, born and bred, he was a rebel at heart, refusing to adhere to the restraints of society almost to the point of scandal, but he had no intentions on staying in England long enough to care. His gaze drifted to Connie as she joined her brother, lingering on her a little longer than was necessary or proper, but then, they had grown up together and it was no secret that they'd once been close friends. Perhaps even more than friends.

"I am happy for myself!" Lawry exclaimed at his sister congratulations. "It's good to have you back in England, Oliver. You should visit more often."

"Indeed, you should, Mr. Blackwood," Connie said, without thinking, turning her smile onto Oliver as she did so. "You have been missed." Her eyes promised him that she had missed him a great deal, even as her smile faded at the sound of her husband's voice behind her.

"Come along, Constance," Edmund said coldly. "There's a wedding breakfast to attend."

Clare Grey

Date: 2017-05-29 08:20 EST
For the first time that day, Oliver's expression darkened at Edmund's summons. "You are not a dog to be summoned to follow at his heels," he whispered to Connie, under his breath. He didn't really care if Edmund overheard, but he didn't want to start a scene at his best friend's wedding.

"I am lower," she murmured back to Ollie. "I am just his wife." She pressed his hand gently, lifting her smile back onto her face for Lawry's sake as she turned to take Edmund's arm as he lead the way out of the chapel to the waiting carriages.

Louisa skipped cheerfully into Oliver's line of sight. "I do believe, Mr. Blackwood, that you have to escort me to the breakfast," she declared sweetly. "It seems I cannot be trusted not to annoy the bride and groom if I travel with them."

Clare laughed at her sister's comment. "Louisa King, you are going to scandalize Europe if you don't calm down."

Oliver's gaze momentarily followed Connie's retreat before turning back to the bride and groom, an amused smirk on his face as they were joined by the younger of the King daughters. "Ah, Miss King," he greeted her, offering her an arm. "It would be my privilege to escort such a lovely young lady as yourself."

Beside him, Lawry rolled his eyes and chuckled, despite the obvious annoyance both men were keeping just barely restrained at Edmund's behavior. "I refuse to let Edmund spoil the day."

"Yes, well, you aren't his wife, are you?" Oliver remarked.

Refusing to let confusion reign her, Louisa glanced between the two men, taking Oliver's arm with her bright smile firmly in place. "I would be rather worried if Lawrence was someone's wife, Mr. Blackwood," she pointed out. "That would rather make the procreation of children part of my sister's marriage a little troublesome, wouldn't you say?"

Clare colored at her sister's forward words, taking Lawry's arm with a smile of her own. "I feel I should apologize for my sister, but she is bound to say something worse the moment I do."

"Nonsense," Oliver replied, as he tucked Louisa's hand in the crook of his arm, a wide grin for both the bride and her sister. "I have always found the King women to be as charming as they are lovely, and that includes their mother," he added with just enough teasing to get away with it. The subject of Edmund was that easily dismissed for now, in the wake of such a happy event as a wedding. "Now, as we have been so kindly reminded, breakfast awaits. Shall we?" he asked, gesturing toward the carriage that awaited them.

"You have always had a pretty tongue, Mr. Blackwood," Mrs. King smiled at Oliver fondly, inclining her head as she and her husband moved toward the carriages waiting at the gate.

Louisa snickered softly. "You almost made her blush," she told Oliver as they, too, headed in that direction. "Try again at the breakfast, Father might even crack a smile."

"So long as he doesn't crack the whip," Oliver intoned as he led Louisa away in the direction of the carriage.

Behind them, the bride and groom lingered, left alone for a moment longer. "I should like to kiss you again, if I may," Lawry teased his new wife.

Aware of the vicar leaving to remove his vestments so he could join them at Arden Manor, Clare blushed as she looked up at her husband, her smile brightening at his teasing request. "I should like that very much," she agreed softly. "Though I do not believe you need ever ask beforehand again."

Lawry's smile widened at the reminder from his new bride and the realization that he no longer had to follow the constraints of society, at least where courtship was concerned. "Must we really join them for breakfast?" he asked, as his arms found their way around her waist. He had held her like this a few times before, when they'd been fortunate enough to find a few private moments here and there, and he felt as though he would never tire of the warmth of her embrace.

She laughed in her quiet way, rising onto her toes to touch the tip of her nose to his. "Yes, we must," she assured him, thrilling to his embrace as she always did. They had had relatively few private moments together throughout the course of their courtship and engagement, and yet, in just a couple of hours, she would be wholly alone in his company, traveling to the little cottage Constance had rented for their honeymoon. "If Louisa is not allowed to catch the bouquet, she may never forgive me."

"Darling, Louisa is the only unwed female in attendance!" Lawry pointed out with a chuckle. Also, the only female under the age of seventeen. Before she had any chance to reply further, he silenced her with a kiss that was markedly more passionate than the first.

He caught her soft gasp with that kiss, rewarded for his passion by the the sudden grip of her hands on his sleeves, the way her lips moved eagerly with his. Inexperienced she might have been, but she did not lack for passion of her own. Even standing under the eaves of the chapel, she had no compunction in looping her arms about his shoulders, pulling herself closer as a sound that might almost have been tender moan vibrated through her chest.

He smiled into her lips at the reaction he'd elicited from her with that one simple kiss. He knew she had never been with a man before, not even to share a kiss, and knew he would have to go slow and be gentle, but her eagerness was certainly encouraging. "We should join the others before they come looking for us," he murmured quietly, though he made no move to untangle himself from her embrace.

Breathless, she lingered with him for a long moment, her breath warming the air between them as her eyes flickered from his gaze ot his lips and back again. If that was the consequence of a single kiss, what was her wedding night going to do to her? She had a feeling her mother's half-hearted attempt at explaining intercourse had left a few things out. A slow smile crept over her face as she drew her gloved fingers over his cheek. "You're a cruel man, Lawrence Grey, to kiss me like that and expect me to be patient afterward."

"It is not what I expect, so much as your family!" he replied with a chuckle. Skipping the wedding breakfast after all the arrangements had already been made would be nothing short of scandalous. "We will be alone soon enough, dearest," he told her, before touching yet another slow, sweet kiss to her lips.

She trembled at that kiss. Three kisses, all so different, and all from Lawry - she could tell she had a lot to learn about being a wife. There seemed to be an awful lot more to it than just running a household. Even when his lips parted from hers, she stayed close, her eyes closed as a smile played about her lips. Then abruptly she opened her eyes, swaying back. "The breakfast," she said, reminding herself more than him. "Connie will need us there if she's to get through this with decorum."

Clare Grey

Date: 2017-05-29 08:21 EST
"At least, she will have your sister and parents there to keep her company," he pointed out, making no mention of either Oliver or Edmund or their quiet competition for his sister's attention, if not her affection. Edmund had lost that battle long ago and had never failed to rub it in Oliver's face that though Ollie was the one Connie loved, Edmund was the man she had married.

"True, she will," Clare conceded, reluctantly easing back from his arms. "But I'm hungry, dearest. One slice of bread and one cup of tea will not be sufficient to get me to the station, much less to the Lakes." She wrapped her arm through his once again with an arch smile. "To the carriage, Lord Arden."

"As you wish, Lady Wife," he replied with a grin, as he linked his arm with hers to guide her toward the waiting carriage. It was a short ride to the manor, where they'd stay only as long as was necessary before catching a train to the Lakes, where they'd enjoy their honeymoon and their first night as husband and wife.

Like so many things in Victorian society, even a wedding breakfast was filled with rules to abide by. The meal was to take no longer than an hour, and as soon as the couple cut the cake, they took their leave to change into their travel clothes before leaving the gathering altogether. In many ways, it was a relief to have to endure only a short amount of the tension that was brimming between Edmund Stanley and Oliver Blackwood - as much as Clare liked Ollie, even she could see that he was as much in love with Connie as Connie was with him, and the fact of Edmund was not enough to make them forget it.

It wasn't until the bride and groom made their exit that the real tension between Edmund Stanley and Oliver Blackwood reared its ugly head. There was obviously no love lost between the two men, but it was Oliver who was on friendly terms with both the Kings and the Greys, while Edmund was only there because he was married to the groom's sister.

Caught between the two men, Connie knew she was going to have to do something. She had not expected, however, that Mr. King would be her ally when it came to snatching a little time with Oliver. Alfred made a point of engaging Edmund in conversation about business, deliberately cold-shouldering Oliver for the time being. Flattered by the attention, Edmund gave his focus to the shipping magnate, and Connie drew Oliver out of the dining room.

"You must be careful," she told him softly. "His temper is very quick these days."

"I must be careful?" Oliver echoed her words, obviously seething, now that he no longer had to pretend any cordiality toward her spouse. "I think it is Edmund who must be careful," he countered. "I should have challenged the pompous ass years ago!" he said, so distraught he could barely stand still, pacing the floor like a wild animal trapped in a cage.

"Oliver, please ..." Connie glanced back toward the door in alarm, reaching out to touch his arm. "Please," she repeated softly. "Don't challenge him. Even if you were to win, his people would hound you to your death by hanging for murder, and if he ....I couldn't bear it."

"I tell you, Constance, it is I who cannot bear it. I cannot bear to see you with that ....snake." Not to mention the thought of her actually sleeping with the man. His glance darted briefly to the door to make sure no one was eavesdropping before turning back to her and taking her hands in his, propriety be damned. "Come away with me. Lawry is married now. He no longer needs you here. We can go wherever you wish. There's a whole world outside of England to explore, if you would only say yes," he implored, a pleading look on his face.

"Ollie ..." Her fingers gripped his tightly, clinging onto him even as she struggled not to break his heart with her answer. "You know I can't," she whispered, heartbroken herself. "He would never let us be. We would never be safe. You would never be safe." Her palm curled to his cheek, forgetting her own propriety, and even her husband's proximity, just to touch her Oliver. "I wish I was free to come with you."

But he wasn't that easily discouraged. He had waited all his life for her, only to have lost her to Edmund - a man she would have never chosen for herself. "Connie, please ..." he pleaded in return, lowering his voice so that his words wouldn't carry beyond her. "We could go where no one would find us. We could go to the Americas or even farther, to Australia. There is nothing I would not give you; nothing I would not do for you, if only you would say yes."

"We could never come home," she whispered, torn between her duty, her family ....and her love. Lawry would never blame her for it, she knew, not even for the scandal that would attach to his name for her behavior but ....Edmund. He frightened her, more than she had ever truly admitted. "I love you. But I'm so afraid."

"As I love you," he whispered back, clasping her hands tighter. It was not the first time they'd said these words to each other, nor was it likely to be the last. "There is no one but you. There never has been and there never will be, but I cannot bear to remain while you are married to that ....rat." They had been over this time and again, whenever he had returned home, his visits slowly becoming far less frequent as time went on.

Tears shone in her eyes as she gripped his hands, seeing no way out for the coward that she was. She could have run with him years ago, too afraid to leave Lawry, to dare the law and her husband's wrath. And now she was losing him. "You're not coming back, are you?" she asked hopelessly, knowing she couldn't ask him to keep returning, not when there was no hope.

It saddened him to see tears in her eyes, but theirs was a hopeless situation - one that had been created not by them, but by her father. She could have run away with him then, before she'd been forced into marrying Edmund, but for the love of her brother and her unwillingness to leave him behind, never to return. "I don't know," he answered her honestly enough. "You know I do not wish to leave you, but what else can I do?" If he stayed, things could only end in disaster.

"What will I do without you?" she breathed, forgetting the danger to rest her brow to his. "You are my only light in this world." And there was the truth. Now Lawry was married to a woman he loved, a woman who loved him, he didn't need his sister any longer. Edmund's treatment of her would only grow worse as the years wore on and still she did not give him a child. Oliver was the only light in her life, and soon she would not have even the hope of seeing him from afar. The thought of that darkness was too much to bear. "Edmund returns to York in one week," she whispered, her decision made. "He will leave me at Stanhope, as he always does. I'll meet you here. Just tell me when."

"As you are mine, dear heart," he whispered in return, daring to pull her closer, his breath ghosting hers, close enough to kiss her, if he so desired. It was a dangerous position to be in, with her husband in the next room, but she was far too tempting for him to resist. He had loved her since he'd been old enough to know what love was, blind to any other woman who was not his Constance, despite the temptations that awaited him in every port of call. He was about to promise that he'd at least write when she seemed to change her mind. His face brightened, brows arching upwards in surprise. "Truly?" he asked, afraid to get his hopes up only to have then dashed, and his heart broken yet again.

"Truly." Her lips closed over his in a desperate kiss, her hands clutching at his neck for just a few seconds before she pulled away. "One week, and I'll be here. I must go back inside before I am missed."

Clare Grey

Date: 2017-05-29 08:22 EST
He drank up that kiss, like a man dying of thirst, eager for whatever small bit of affection she might offer him. "One week, my love. I will be here. I promise," he told her, clutching both her hands and drawing them to his lips for a kiss. By God, she would be his, one way or another, or he'd die trying, for he could not bear life without her any longer. To hell with Edmund Stanley. He had his fortune and mistresses a-plenty. He could not have Constance, too.

She clung to his hands a moment longer, dragging herself away to return to the party in the dining room. Edith King took her arm immediately, drawing her into conversation with Louisa as though she had never been gone. With luck, Edmund would not have missed her at all.

As for Oliver, he did not return to the dining room, but prepared to take his leave. Now that the bride and groom had gone and Connie had joined the others, there was little reason to stay, and all the more reason to leave before he and Edmund came to blows or worse. There was business he needed to discuss with Alfred King, but that could be done elsewhere, and so he found his way to the door without bidding the family farewell.

Edmund would not care that he had gone, and the Kings would understand. That family had seen very quickly that Constance Stanley was the reason one of their hardest working captains found so many excuses not to take to the shore. And indeed, the party would not remain together for more than another hour. With the departure of the bride and groom, there was little to keep them at Arden Manor, and they had their own homes to go to.

While one couple was making covert plans for the future, another couple was making their way to their honeymoon destination. It was three hours from Warwickshire to Lake Windermere by train - three hours that seemed like three years to a pair of newlyweds eager to begin their honeymoon.

There was relative privacy in the compartment where they journeyed together, but Clare did not dare to risk losing sense of her surroundings by indulging in her husband too much. Still, their arrival at Windermere did not go unremarked upon - the locals could spot a newly-wed couple a mile off, and if Connie had not already arranged for them to be collected by the groom attached to the cottage where they would be staying, they would likely have been whisked away to the inn whether they wished it or not. As it was, Jimmy Mullins was there to set their trunks on the carriage and take them along the winding roads beside the lake to the Old Parsonage cottage, where a housekeeper and two maids waited to welcome them in with a good meal on the table after their long journey.

As much as Lawry had thought Clare might have enjoyed a trip to Paris or Rome or some other bustling city, he found that the simple cottage at Windermere was the perfect destination for a couple newly married who wanted to enjoy the peace and seclusion it had to offer. Their welcome was warm and friendly, and the meal that awaited them was satisfying and delicious. They could not have picked a better place, and he had to remember to thank Connie when they got back for helping make the arrangements.

When the plates were cleared away, the housekeeper and maids seemed to melt out of sight, leaving the newly-wed pair to their own devices. Clare unbuttoned her jacket as she moved to the window to watch the sun setting over the wild hills and lake that made up their vista. It truly was a beautiful place - wild and isolated. She was alone with her husband. As she raised her hands to unpin her hair, wanting it loose, that thought settled in her stomach, sending a flurry of butterflies to tingle over her skin.

Lawry paused a moment to enjoy the view, not just admiring the blue and green of hills and lake and sky, but the beauty of the woman who had stolen his heart. He moved up behind her, his stomach in knots at the knowledge of what was ahead. Would she want him to be gentle and go slow, or would her passion match his in a hurried frenzy to satisfy the hunger that had been gnawing at them both' In truth, it didn't matter - slow or fast, gentle or frantic - together they would find the right rhythm, the rhythm that matched the beating of their hearts and their shared passion. He drew his arms around her waist, leaning close to breathe her in, to memorize her scent, her presence, to let her fill his senses, daring to touch his lips to the side of her neck - the first but not the last of many such caresses yet to come.

Her head turned toward him as she felt his arms slide about her waist, the coil of her hair falling free over her shoulder. Yet before her eyes could touch his face, she felt his lips against her skin, and those butterflies erupted within her, sending that tingling sense of anticipation into a rippling cascade of liquid heat that seemed to charge every inch of her body with newfangled electricity. She gasped, her eyes falling closed without bidding as she leaned back against him. "Lawry ..."

He heard pleading in her voice, but he did not think she was pleading with him to stop. At least, it seemed so, if he was reading her right in the way she leaned against him and her breath caught in her throat at his touch. Did she truly want him as much as he wanted her? Finally, they were alone and free to share their love together as husband and wife, at long last. He let his kisses speak of his desire, softly and tenderly, as his lips explored the graceful line of her neck from just behind her ear to the collar of her blouse, while his hands moved to peel the jacket away from her shoulders, the first of many layers to be shed.

She twisted about to face him as he plied her neck with kisses, soothing the natural fear that she might not please him in the way a wife should. It was a matter of moments to remove her jacket, her hands rising with tentative desire to touch him, to curl her fingers to his cheek, into his hair, and dare to undo the buttons of his waistcoat as she brushed her lips to his jaw. "I ....I do not know what to do," she warned him in a soft whisper, unwilling to be a coward and simply lie back.

For the first time since he'd first spied her from across the opera house, he let his fingers wander into her hair, sliding his fingers through the silken red tresses he'd so admired from afar. While other women were fashionably blonde or brunette, it was her red hair that had first captured his attention, but her beauty did not stop there. He smiled at her confession, guessing as much and knowing there were no rules where love was concerned. What happened between a man and a woman behind closed doors was no one's business but their own. "Do whatever you wish to, dear heart. There is no right or wrong where love is concerned," he assured her, sweeping a hand through her hair and drawing her closer to capture her lips in a kiss that was deeper and more passionate than any he'd shared with her before, claiming her with his lips as his own.

She shuddered at the feel of his fingers in her hair, surprised by how possessive an action it felt, and by how much she welcomed being possessed by him. But it was that word - love - that gave him a gasp to taste as he claimed her lips, urging her to respond with all the love in her own heart. She had not dared to admit to that feeling, not even certain of it herself until this moment, when she suddenly knew that she was not alone in that maelstrom of emotion. Her arms curled about him, pulling him closer to her until she had no breath left, cursing her corset out loud as their lips parted.

Some people confused love with lovemaking. As a widower, Lawry knew what it was to be with a woman, but he had never felt or shared the same passion with his first wife that he did with Clare. He could not explain it or put it into words, but he knew there was something different when he kissed her, some special connection he'd felt only with her. Each kiss, each caress was a new discovery as he slowly unwrapped her one layer at a time to reveal the secrets she kept hidden beneath those layers.

Clare Grey

Date: 2017-05-29 08:22 EST
Perhaps it was just as well that Lawry was discovering newness in all this, for everything was new to Clare. Yet she did not feel the crippling shyness she had expected to as he peeled each layer from her form, warmed as much by the tenderness in his regard as she was by the way he welcomed her own tentative advances. As he unwrapped her, so did she unwrap him, forgetting to be modest as she explored this wondrous sense of freedom with him. With each kiss, with each brush of her hands over his skin, she learned more indelibly that any manner of mistakes could be forgiven, so long as they were made in love.

She did not disappoint, as each layer was peeled away only to reveal all the beauty she kept hidden from any eyes but his, and he reveled in the knowledge that this beauty belonged only to him. He took his time with her, as much as he could, a tender but untimid lover. Even as experienced as he was, there were always new things to discover, to wonders to explore. He learned how to make her sigh and moan, never pushing too far or demanding too much, until he at last claimed her completely, and even then, he was tender and attentive to her needs and desires.

Most men expected their virgin brides to be timid and shy, to need a heavy hand in guidance toward their ultimate goal, but Lawry need not have ever concerned himself there. The love in Clare made her bold, eager to learn with him as much as to be learned herself, and though no one had ever told her that she could find pleasure in the marriage bed, she went willingly with him to that precipice and beyond, shameless in her cries of ecstatic delight. If the small staff were in any doubt that this couple were in love, they need only listen to the sounds from the bedchamber to have their assumptions thoroughly disabused.

And even after, when breath returned and sense with it, Clare refused to part from her Lawry, curling close beneath the loose drape of the sheets with a sweet grin playing about her lips. "No one ever said it would be like that."

"Sometimes there are no words," he told her quietly, before touching a kiss to her bare shoulder. Wrapped in each other's embrace, with nowhere to go or be but in the other's arms, nothing and no one seemed to matter but this moment. "I love you, Clare," he whispered, almost shyly, despite what they'd just shared. He'd never spoken those words to anyone before, not even to the sister who knew that already without being told.

"You do?" Shifting, she tilted her head back, meeting his gaze with eyes that had grown impossibly soft. Made bold now by their intimacy, she raised her hand, tracing her fingertips over his face, his neck, down to lay her palm over his heart. "I am glad to know it," she whispered. "For I love you, Lawry. I did not know it for certain until today, but I do love you, with everything I have."

Perhaps it was lovemaking that brought them closer together, but in that moment, when boundaries had been broken and secrets revealed, he felt closer to her than he ever had to anyone before. Was this, then, what love was supposed to feel like" Like he was not complete without her, without the other half of his heart. They were good words to start a marriage by, he thought, and far more likely to bring them happiness than merely convenience. "I am happy with you, Clare," he admitted further, lingering in the warmth of their love for as long as time would permit.

They had all the time two weeks could give them, before they were expected back at Arden Manor, to take their place together at the head of the estate. She smiled, biting her lip for a brief moment before touching a kiss to his lips. "I will try to keep you happy," she promised him faithfully. "You don't smile enough."

"I promise to smile more with you as my wife," he told her, happy to share more kisses with her again and again, as long as she was ready and willing. They could not stay in bed forever, but for now, he was content to savor these quiet moments, knowing only too well how short life could be.

She giggled into those kisses, knowing how silly the promise was and loving him all the more for making it. Just a few months ago, she had despaired of ever doing her duty by her family by finding a suitable husband, and yet here she was - not only married, but titled, and in love with her husband. It was a wish she had never looked to have granted, and one she would never stop being thankful for.