Topic: Always

Randal Nichols

Date: 2014-11-23 20:56 EST
Spring turned to summer, and the garden burst into bloom with only a little help from Kit's absentminded hands. She was not the best gardener, not wanting to kill anything by accident, and besides, now the weather had improved, she was busy working on the present she had promised Randal at Christmas. He had been banned from watching her when she was in that particular part of the garden for several weeks, and finally, she was ready for him to see what she had been doing.

Standing in the hallway, she bit her lip, a little nervous. "Randal" Any chance you're, you know, waiting for the right moment to be visible today?"

No answer came from anywhere within the house, which might lead her to believe either he was having one of those days where he was not so much in control of his comings and goings, appearances and disappearances, or he simply had not heard her calling him.

She sighed softly, leaning against the wall, her nervous smile fading into a quiet pout of disappointment. After working hard for weeks, she had been hoping that Randal might be able to come when she called, but it seemed not. With a quiet sigh, she shook her head. "All right, love," she said to the apparently empty house. "Another time." Running her fingers through her hair, she turned back to the screen door, pushing it open to step out into the cooler evening air.

And there he was, waiting for her on the grass, a soft smile on his face. Apparently, he had heard and answered her summons, after all. "Did you call me, love?" he asked with that smile on his face, teasing her a little as if he wasn't sure whether she'd called him or not.

The disappointment on her face morphed into the brightest smile he had seen in a long time when she found him there on the lawn, her sandals flapping as she ran over the porch and onto the grass to meet him, only just stopping herself before she ran straight through him. "I thought you couldn't come!" she protested laughingly.

"Well, here I am!" he declared with a smile as bright as all outdoors, despite the fact that he was still a ghost. Thankfully, there was no one else around to see him but her, or they might wonder what she was doing talking to a man who seemed more like the projection of a man than a living person. "What did you want' It isn't often I'm able to project myself outside the house."

She beamed, her nervousness showing itself once again as she bit her lip, her hands twisting together in front of her stomach. "I finished your present," she told him, subdued excitement leaking from every pore as she bounced on her toes. "And I remembered to cover it up, because I can't cover your eyes."

He longed to offer her his arm so they could stroll through the garden together, but that day was coming. According to the calendar, it was only a few months away. "You could just ask me to close my eyes," he pointed out logically, but still with that amused half-smile on his face.

"Well, yes, but if I do that, then you won't know where I'm going, and I won't be able to lead you," she pointed out. "See, I thought everything through. I may be a complete ditz at times, but I do think sometimes." She grinned cheerfully, crooking a finger for him to follow her. "Come on, this present is long overdue."

"Ditz?" he echoed with an arched brow. She was using one of her modern words that he didn't quite understand. He could grasp the meaning of it from the context in which it was used, but it was still unfamiliar to him. "Where are we going?" he asked, stepping after her, wondering what kind of present could possibly be waiting for him out here.

She walked backwards, smiling innocently at him as she led the way toward the apple trees that had been in the garden for as long as she could remember. Three trees that had been set in a triangle, and grown together in a complex twist of limbs to make a completely natural gazebo. Beneath those twisted boughs, Kit had set a curved bench, but that wasn't the surprise. The widest of the trunks was covered with a loose dust sheet, and it was there she stopped, biting her lip nervously. "Are you ready?"

He had not ventured into the garden in a very long time, and it was with wonder that he looked on the trees and the bench she had set beneath them, as well as the mystery she had hidden behind a cloth of some kind. He could not imagine what it was she had hidden there or what it might have to do with him. "Please tell me you didn't carve a silly statue of me for the garden," he complained.

She raised a brow challengingly. "Is any of my work silly?" she asked him in a pointed tone, daring him to say it was. She'd spent all winter designing, and almost the entirety of July and August carving, hopeful he would at least not mind what she had done.

"No, I suppose it isn't," he replied, realizing his faux pas, though he was still secretly hoping she hadn't carved a statue of his likeness. He couldn't imagine what it was she had carved, but it seemed he was about to find out. "I'm sorry. I meant no offense. It just seems a little....egotistical to commission a statue of one's self for one's own garden." His thoughts touched on that blasted portrait of Isabelle in the dining room. One way or another, that thing had to go.

"Well, it isn't you, so relax," she told him, her voice warm as she turned to give the sheet a tug.

Carved into the living wood of the tree with loving precision was a cameo of two faces in profile, one within the other. The first was male, the inner face female, and set very carefully into the base of that carving was the original ivory cameo itself, protected from the weather with all kinds of little tricks. With any luck, Randal would recognise the original, if not the larger carving, for Kit had found it while rummaging in the attic. It was of his own parents, commissioned the year before he was born, and she thought that perhaps he would like to have them watching over him still.

"Is it you, then?" he teased with a small chuckle, but before she was able to set him straight, she had pulled off the covering and he turned to look at the creation with a small gasp of surprise. He hadn't seen hide nor hair of that particular cameo in years, but recognized it nevertheless as having once belonged to his mother. "Good God!" he exclaimed at the sight of it, a little shocked for a moment before moving in for a closer look. "Wherever did you find that cameo?"

Biting her lip, she held the dust sheet between her hands, twisting it nervously as he inspected her work. "I, um, I found it in the attic," she confessed quietly. "And, well, I took it to the local library, and the curator identified who it was for me. I thought you might like it to see the light of day again."

He made no comment whether he liked the carving or not, only stepping forward a moment and forgetting himself. "May I touch it?" he asked, though there was hardly any chance of that.

Still nervous of knowing what he thought, Kit nodded, gesturing toward the carving. "Of course," she assured him. There was no chance of any splinters from this work. She had sealed it with sap from the tree itself, the carven cameo perfectly smooth and polished.

Randal Nichols

Date: 2014-11-23 20:58 EST
There was little chance of splinters when one was a ghost, though he had managed to stick himself with one last Halloween night. Somehow it seemed like a long time ago now. Entranced by the carving, he reached out to touch it, forgetting there was no chance of him doing do while in this form, his fingers going right through the wood with little effect. A frown found its way onto his face, sighing a little in frustration, but saying nothing of it, only silently studying the intricate details of the carving, intrigued by the time and effort it must have taken to create such a thing. "This is lovely," he said finally, quietly, almost more to himself than to her.

Hugging the dust sheet to herself, Kit breathed a low sigh of relief at his quiet comment. She knew it wasn't really intended for her, as most artists and craftsmen could tell, but still relaxed as the understanding sank in. He liked it. That was all that really mattered.

"How did you manage it?" he asked, as if suddenly remembering she was there and awaiting his opinion of her surprise, her present, her work of art. He stepped back a pace so that he could take the entire thing in, amazed at how perfectly and meticulously the thing was carved.

"Well, I did sort of ban you from coming out here a couple of months ago," she reminded him with a soft smile. "It wasn't so hard, really. I got a picture of the original and blew it up to the scale I needed, and ....well, you've seen me work. I chipped back the bark and drew the lines onto the wood. After that, it was just a case of working it out with my tools."

"It's brilliant, Kit. Quite lovely. I-I don't know what to say really," he told her in his usual reserved tone, though he was deeply touched by the work, by the time and effort she'd put into it, and by the subject of the piece, not to mention the fact that she had made this with him in mind. "Really, I..." He trailed off, thinking words just wouldn't suffice.

"I hoped you would like it," she said quietly, still hugging the sheet tightly to herself. "I, um ....I've never made anything for someone I love before. I couldn't begin to count the number of times I panicked because I was sure you'd hate it." She laughed a little helplessly, shaking her head at her own nerves.

"Why ever would I hate it?" he asked, turning to her at long last, with an expression of bewilderment on his face. "It's quite possibly the loveliest thing I've ever seen and the kindest thing anyone has ever done for me. Thank you, Kit. I mean that. It's beautiful." Though not quite as beautiful as she was.

She blushed, not really used to effusive praise for her work. "I'm glad you like it," she nodded, smiling shyly for a brief moment. "I really am. I wanted to make something for you - not for the house or the garden, or for us. This is yours, love."

"No, Kit....It is ours. All of this is ours," he said, spreading one arm wide to indicate their surroundings. "This is your home and mine. Everything that is mine is yours, including my heart. I love you, Kit, and I want us to share everything." He stepped closer, though he could not touch her.

She gazed up at him, her dark eyes meeting his, sharing that deep affection back and forth between them without truly needing to hear or say the words. "Two months," she heard herself whisper, and in her tone was all the impatience she'd been feeling. It had been slowly building over the year, the day they were waiting for so close and yet still too far away to touch. "And you still haven't told me what your favorite meal is."

He wanted so to touch her, he couldn't help himself, lifting a hand to brush his fingers against her cheek, though all that happened was that strange tingly feeling she always felt when his fingers slid right through her. He smiled down at her, chuckling at her question. "My favorite meal" What use is that when I can't eat?"

She laughed, tilting her cheek just enough to feel the tingle that had long since ceased to be unnerving. It was him. "You keep avoiding answering the question," she complained in amusement. "How am I supposed to feed you on Halloween if you won't tell me what you want to eat?"

"If I tell you, will you promise not to laugh?" he asked, though he didn't really care whether she laughed or not, so long as she wasn't making fun of him.

"Of course I won't laugh," she told him, smiling as she shook her head. "You already know I'll do virtually anything for fudge, and it can't possibly be more embarrassing than that, can it?"

He laughed again, amused by her reminder regarding the fudge. "And when the curse has been lifted, I will buy you all the fudge you could ever possibly want!" he teased back, moving to tweak her nose and watching his fingers go right through her again. He sighed in exasperation, the smile fading to a small frown. October couldn't come soon enough for his tastes. "Why must we wait until All Hallows Eve" Why can't we end the bloody curse now?" Yes, he was losing his patience. Hadn't he waited long enough"

She sighed, as impatient as he, though she hadn't had to wait nearly as long. "It feels like such a long time," she admitted regretfully. "But it isn't. And think about how far we've come. Ten months ago, I told you I loved you, and I haven't strayed. I haven't even considered it, and it isn't for lack of opportunity, because you keep telling me to go out with my friends. Just a little over two months, love. And you didn't answer the question again." Her lips twitched into a teasing smile, determined this time to get it out of him.

He sighed, knowing she was right. Two months was nothing compared to 94 years. "Would you like to sit down?" he asked, gesturing to the bench amidst the tangle of trees. He wasn't ready to go inside yet. It was turning into far too lovely an evening, and he wanted to see the moon rise in the sky.

Her smile deepened, wondering why he was stalling on this question of all the questions she had ever asked him. But she couldn't deny him anything. "I'd like that," she nodded, moving to sit on the smooth seat, mindful to tug the hem of her summer dress down so as not to embarrass him with too much thigh.

He sat down beside her, or seemed to, though it was just something he had learned to do in order to seem halfway normal and to make his companion feel more at ease. He had only spoken to two people in all his nearly one hundred years of afterlife, and one of them had been Kit. "First of all," he started, "If we are going to exchange favorites, I feel I must point out that fudge is not a meal."

She giggled a little, but had to concede the point. "Fine," she answered his unspoken question with a flicker of a grin. "Roast dinner. With all the trimmings. And yes, I will even eat it in the middle of summer." Her smile seemed to suggest she'd backed him into a corner again, hopefully with his own favorite as his reply to get out again.

Randal Nichols

Date: 2014-11-23 20:58 EST
"Hmm, and do you know how to cook a roast dinner?" he asked, curiously. She never seemed to have much trouble in the kitchen, but he had yet to see her cook for anyone besides herself. He was capable of doing a little cooking himself, though he'd always relinquished the kitchen to his wife and before that, his mother.

She bit her lip, laughing self-consciously. What he'd seen her cook consisted mostly of meals for one, and the occasional big batch of soup or salad that would last her the week. "I-I haven't cooked a big meal from fresh for years," she admitted awkwardly. "And meat never comes out right when I do it. It gets burned and stays raw at the same time."

"Practice makes perfect, my mother always used to say," he offered with a smile, wishing he could link his fingers with hers. It seemed like such a simple thing to wish for, and yet, he had to wait. "Very well," he said with a bit of a crooked smile. "First, I will share a little secret. You say you would do anything for fudge. My personal weakness has always been toffee."

Just one little hint toward his preferences, and her face lit up with delight, filing this away for future reference. "Toffee, interesting," she smiled her cheerful smile, her body angled toward him, all her attention focused on him. Even when they couldn't touch, he still held her enthralled. "I have a recipe for toffee knocking around."

"It was a childhood favorite I've never outgrown," he admitted with a slightly embarrassed smile. Were he not so pale looking, he might have actually blushed. "I'm afraid my mother spoiled me rotten." He rarely spoke of his parents, hardly ever mentioning his father, for some reason. He had never said a bad word about either of them.

"Then I'm definitely going to have to get that recipe out and relearn how to make it," she said firmly. Any little snippet he offered her about his past, his childhood, his parents, she held close, treasuring each little hint as dearly as she treasured the beautiful ring she wore that had once belonged to the woman who had raised him. "You must have been an adorable child."

"Hardly," he replied with a chuckle. "I'm afraid I was a very spoiled brat. I was an only child, you see. My mother....Well, she had another after me - a sister - but the child was lost in birth, and the doctor told my mother never to have another or she might not survive. And so, my parents indulged me terribly. I was given my first pony at the age of three. Can you imagine?"

"I really can't imagine you as a brat," she giggled softly. "Although now I have a lovely mental image of you about yay big" - she held her hand around three feet from the ground - "with ringlets and a fat little Shetland pony waddling along behind you."

"Waddling!" he echoed with a laugh. "I'm sure I did more waddling than the pony. There are photo albums in the attic, I think. Didn't you run across them?" Of course, the photos that had been taken then were pretty primitive compared to that of modern photography.

She shook her head with a quiet giggle. "No, I haven't really explored the attic very much," she admitted mildly. "There's just so much up there, I don't know where to start. And I'm terrified of getting rid of anything, just in case it has deep meaning to you."

"We can go through it together," he said, putting one more thing on the list of things to do together when the curse of his existence was finally lifted. But he hadn't answered her original question yet. "As for your question, remember you promised not to laugh!"

"I never promised," she was quick to point out. "I said I wouldn't, there is a difference." Not that she intended to laugh at his meal choice, of course, but he was making her intrigued with all his stalling. "It isn't something impossible to make, is it?"

"No, not at all. It's just a little unusual, I suppose as my favorite meal of the day has always been breakfast." She might be able to guess from that hint. His favorite meal was certainly not porridge, after all!

She thought about this for a moment. Breakfast for her, when she remembered to eat it, could be anything from toast to a glass of milk, but she had a feeling she knew what he was talking about. "With black pudding and kippers?"

"I'm afraid so. The whole kit and caboodle. Awful, isn't it' You should have seen me in the war trying to fry my eggs on a..." He broke off, realizing he'd mentioned the war, as if it was some taboo subject, though it was as much a part of his history as was his childhood. "Well, anyway....There's just something about a full English breakfast that seems so very indulgent, isn't there?"

"How is that awful?" she asked, genuinely bemused that he had thought she would laugh at his preference. She carefully didn't mention his comment on the war, knowing it was a touchy subject, even at the best of times. "Do you like your yolks runny or solid?"

"Runny!" he replied enthusiastically as if he found the question itself exciting. There was no other way to eat eggs, in his esteemed opinion, though he kept that to himself for now. "What about you?" he asked, studying her a moment. Of course, he'd seen her gobble down a couple of slices of toast and a glass of milk more often than not.

She smiled, realising she should have expected him to turn it around onto her again. "I don't really like kippers or black pudding," she confessed, feeling oddly guilty not to share his love of these particular parts of his favorite meal, "but I do understand what you mean. I like a full English as much as anyone. And it is something I know how to make, too."

"Then it's decided! We shall have full English for breakfast and a roast for dinner!" he exclaimed with a grin. He didn't say when this would happen, but assumed she would understand that he meant All Hallows Eve.

"That was something I wanted to ask you!" It wasn't that she didn't agree, but his grinning declaration of their intended meals on Halloween had reminded her of something she still didn't know. "Where were you all day on Halloween last year?" she asked him, deeply curious. "I didn't see you at all until the party, and even then, not until nearly ten. You said you can't leave the grounds, so ....where were you?"

"Oh," he murmured, her question sobering him and catching him a little off guard. "I, uh..." There was that look on his face again, as though he was a little embarrassed. "I thought it better to wait until your guests arrived so that I could blend in." That was at least partly true.

A slow blush crossed over her face, recalling her hours of swearing and bouncy preparation for the party she had thrown last year. "You ....you saw and heard all that, did you?" she asked, her smile more than a little embarrassed herself.

Randal Nichols

Date: 2014-11-23 21:00 EST
He didn't have to ask to know what it was she was referring to. "Well, I tried not to, but it couldn't be helped. I do happen to live here, too." He frowned, more than a little ashamed of himself, though he'd kept his promise to her grandmother and not gone anywhere near the bedroom or bathroom. "Shall I move into the summer house until October then?"

"No!" Without thinking, she reached out to grasp his arm, as though to physically prevent him from moving into the summer house at all, and winced when her hand passed through him. "Sorry ....but no, no moving out. I like having you around. And besides, I've been a little less ....flouncy since I've known you were around." She laughed a little. "No more dancing around the house in my underwear singing terrible songs."

The passing of her hand through his arm didn't seem to disturb him in the least, causing her more worry than him. He hardly seemed to notice, focusing instead on what she was telling him. A small slightly mischievous smile appeared on his face. "I rather like you flouncy," he admitted, almost shyly. It seemed he'd witnessed some of that at some point.

Her brow rose slowly at his shy admission, a faint flicker of a smile on her lips. "You do?" She bit her lip, her smile warming as she considered just how much of her slightly hyperactive personality she had been holding back over the past months. "Maybe I should stop trying to behave like a lady so much, then."

He turned serious again, turning slightly to face her, wanting her to understand something once and for all. "Kit, I know we are from vastly different backgrounds. We were born nearly a century apart. The world I knew was very different from yours, but none of that matters. All that matters is that I love you, and I want to make you happy. I love you, don't you see" I love the little girl you were and the lovely young woman you've become. It's as if I've known you all your life, Kit. You don't have to pretend with me. You can just be yourself because it is you that I love."

"But I don't want you to be uncomfortable in your own home," she pointed out gently, her heart beating harder, as it always did when he told her how he felt. "I know you're not always prepared for just how immodest I can be, and it doesn't seem fair that you should have to adapt and I shouldn't. That's a part of being in love as well, you know. Changing little things to accommodate the person in your heart. It's because I love you that I don't sleep naked anymore, and I don't run through the house barefoot in my underwear to answer the phone. Because it makes you uncomfortable, and I don't ever want you to be uncomfortable around me."

"Yes, but once we are married, none of that will matter anymore. You can do whatever you like. You can run through the house naked, and I will run with you." He laughed at his own joke, at his own bravado for saying such a thing. He didn't want to think of Isabelle right now, of the fun they had once had together. He only wanted to think of Kit. None of what had happened before mattered any longer. "When you see me naked, I'm afraid you will laugh uproariously."

"When I see you naked, I will be too busy kissing, licking, and generally worshiping every inch of your skin to even consider laughing," she informed him, absolutely certain of that fact. "Besides, you've never laughed at my Cookie Monster tattoo, and I'm fairly sure you don't have anything even half as ridiculous as that on your body."

"Cookie Monster?" he echoed awkwardly with a small laugh. "I have no idea what that is!" She was, of course, assuming he'd seen her tattoo or at the very least noticed it. He might have caught a glimpse of it, but he'd no idea what that big blue blob of ink was supposed to signify or what had ever enticed her to mark her body in such a way.

"Well, I'd show you here and now, but I think you might have a problem with me raising my skirt quite that high while we're in the garden, love," she giggled softly. "Remind me to find you an episode of Sesame Street sometime so you know what the Cookie Monster is."

"I have a feeling I have a lot of catching up to do," he murmured to himself with a small frown on his face. Nearly one hundred years worth of catching up. Her grandmother had helped a little, but he still had a lot to learn.

"You have time," she murmured back to him, raising her hand to curl her palm barely millimeters from his ghostly cheek, the closest she could come to touching him when she wanted to. He was going to reap the benefits of having a very tactile wife, if Isabelle's promise was fulfilled. "And besides, won't it be fun?"

He laughed, wishing he could take her hand and press it to his cheek or touch his lips to hers. "Oh, yes, I'm sure it will be jolly fun! Katherine tried and failed to bring me up to date. A lot has happened in one hundred years."

Kit smiled affectionately. "It doesn't all have to happen in one night," she assured him, drawing her hand back to herself as she rested back against the bench, tilting her head to look up through the gentle wave of boughs and leaves to where the moon was climbing through the darkened sky. She sighed, content even in her impatience. "I could reward you for everything you catch up on."

"Reward me how?" he asked, curiously, one arm going around her, though she couldn't feel it, nor did it allow him to draw her close as he wished he could. He had one brow arched at her in curiosity, though he knew her well enough now to predict how she might answer. She was a saucy one, his Kit, and he wondered if all women of her time were like her, or if it was just her.

"By being flouncy." It could have been such an innocent comment, if only she hadn't glanced sideways to grin at him, aware through the tingle over her shoulders that he had his arm around her. She thought she might burst with impatience if she had to wait much longer to feel that arm about her and know it wouldn't disappear.

"In your under things, I suppose!" he added with a laugh. It felt good to be sitting with her under the apple tree with the moon shining overhead, even if he couldn't take her in his arms and make sweet love to her just yet. It wouldn't be long now - just two more months.

If only he had told her what he was thinking, Kit might have been able to allay some of his impatience. He made love to her with every smile, every spoken word, every tender look. She felt loved whenever he was near, whether she could see him or not, privileged to know that she was loved by a very special man, indeed. "Or maybe in nothing at all," she teased him affectionately. "In just an apron, perhaps. You won't know until you see it."

"It's going to be an interesting marriage, I see," he said, smiling and leaning over to brush a ghostly kiss against her cheek, whether she could feel it or not. "Thank you so much for today and for everything, love," he told her quietly, though there was no one there to hear but them.

"I've been waiting to give you this present for months," she admitted cheerfully. "If I'd been paying attention, I would have had it ready for you at Christmas. But then I had to wait for good weather, and I found the cameo ....It all got complicated." She giggled softly, turning her head toward him at the gentle tingle against her cheek. "I'd do anything for you, Randal. It was worth it."

Randal Nichols

Date: 2014-11-23 21:01 EST
"And I'd do anything for you, Kit," he replied quietly, that soft, affectionate smile on his face that was just for her. "Two more months, love. That's all we have to wait." Unable to kiss her or so much as touch her, he only smiled adoringly before turning his head to watch the sky as the moon rose up over the house and the gardens. "I've forgotten what it's like to be happy."

"I'll make you happy every day," she promised, her eyes upturned toward the sparkling night sky just visible through the twisted boughs above them. "And if for some reason I don't on one day, I'll make extra sure to make you doubly happy on the next. You deserve to be happy, Randal."

"So do you, Kit," he countered. In fact, he'd never met anyone who deserved to be happy more than she did. "I love you, Kit," he told her again, as though he could never tell her enough. She deserved it hear it every day and to know without doubt that he both loved and trusted her as he had never before.

She sighed tenderly, not letting herself dwell on the constant, quiet worry that perhaps he couldn't let go of his distrust of love. The way she saw it, the breaking of his curse, as he called it, was as much about her as about him. You couldn't have love without it being a two-way street, and she was determined to meet him half-way, setting aside her own quiet worries to linger in his smiles and his affection. "I love you back," she promised him in a low breath. "Always."

Always. He couldn't argue with that. Not long ago, he'd felt lost and hopeless, cursed to this hell he was living, until Kit had saved him, but he knew it wasn't just Kit had to be thankful for, but Katharine and even Isabelle, in their own ways. Because of them - a trio of women who had once cared for him - he would at last find the redemption he had hoped for for so long and he would at least be given a chance to live the life he had always dreamed of with the one woman who had so completely captured his heart. ((Always is a very long time! Will our hero and heroine find the happily-ever-after they so long for? Stay tuned to find out! Many thanks to my pard for being awesome!))