Topic: Diary Entry of Dr. McDonald

Butcher Ben

Date: 2017-07-07 01:35 EST
2/12/2006

I'm at a loss with Ben. We've tried every legally permissible measure, from cognitive behavioral therapy to every class of medication; even ECT. He only seems to be getting worse with each passing day. Whether our treatments have caused him harm, or just the continued captivity in physical restraints is driving him to madness, I don't know.

I remember when I first met him. He had that look that I've seen in so many patients over the last thirty years: the look of a tormented child; a helpless victim of his own neuroses. I saw a good lad who, with my assistance and care, could have a promising future. Apart from his violent outbursts, Ben has fully cooperated with all my treatment plans and recommendations: it's as though he truly seeks to better himself. Alas, medical science can only go so far, and for the first time in my life, I feel it is I and I alone who has completely failed. The other doctors on the site have started throwing around the idea of lobotomizing him. Like hell will I allow a patient of mine to undergo such a barbaric procedure.

I hear there are rehab clinics in South America, founded and endorsed by experts in western medicine, that actually administer natural psychedelics to treat addiction. Ben's violent behavior has always appeared to me as exactly that: an addiction, as opposed to a symptom of an underlying psychiatric disorder. Unfortunately, we don't have the resources or the know-how to treat this particular addiction. I may very well lose my medical license for this, but I cannot let this boy down without exhausting every possibility. I know gentlemen among the Blue Blooded Brewers who should be able to get him there safely. I will simply declare him cured and arrange for his pickup within two weeks, God help me.