Topic: Dreaming of Adam

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-10 15:57 EST
A dull ringing interrupted her dreaming. Whenever she felt the body next to her move, her mind tried so hard to cling to fading whisps of what it had been thinking seconds before. Whenever she heard Adam grunt and pull himself from the warmth of their comforter she turned and tried to go back to sleep.

It wasn't dawn yet, maybe half past four in the morning. A haze was still hanging over Eisha as she turned. Time had passed, but she didn't know how much. A hand on her leg made her stir. Warm lips pushed against her own and she kissed back with a smile.

"I love you." Adam had such a sweet and gentle voice.

"I love you, too." Eisha strained to turn and wrap her arms around his waist where he sat on the eddge of the bed. She squeezed. He kissed her lips again and then her forehead. She sank back down and curled up with the blanket tucked under her feet. "Have a good day."

"You too, sweetie."

With that he rose and walked out of their bedroom, closing the door just a little behind him. Eisha listened as he gathered his bags and headed out the front door. By the time she heard his key turn the lock she was already slipping back into a deep sleep.

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-10 16:30 EST
Eisha didn't recall how she got to the party. She didn't remember dropping the dog off at a kennel or making the potluck dish she was carrying She didn't remember styling her hair or meeting Adam at work. All she knew is that now they were walking down a concrete path and there were voices growing louder with each step.

Today's gathering was in celebration of two graduations, a birth, and a commissioning. Everyone on her mother's side of the family was so loud. Before Elisha could even set down her dish she felt plump arms wrap around her and squeeze. It was her aunt. The woman who hugged her was red faced from alcohol and overstuffed from god only knows what. Adam took the dish from her and walked through the crowd. The moment he was out of earshot her aunts began swooping around her squaking like the pecking hens they were. No one in her family liked Adam.

Adam's family was poor. Many of them had been arrested at some point in their life. None of them had successful marriages. Eisha had always maintained that Adam was different. She loved him in spite of his baggage. He loved her in spite of her flaws. After seeing her sister's heart broken by an unfaithful man, Eisha had developed a sense of paranoia and need for control whenever it came it her relationship with Adam. With the patience and devotion of a saint he helped her through this and never once made her feel guilty for having to ask for his help.

"You should have married Carter." A particularly shrill voice rang out from a blonde, curly haired aunt. Eisha instinctively looked across the crowd to where a young man stood. Carter was a thrice removed cousin by marriage with no blood relation. She remembered her mother wanting nothing more in this world than for her to end up with Carter.

Eisha saw her sister and reached out for a hug. "She's right you know. Carter's fiancee just left him for someone else. He's absolutely heartbroken. Such a good man." For the moment she said nothing.

Saying nothing had been the wrong choice. You should never worry about being confrontational whenever the well-being of your beloved is on the line. Adam was standing behind her and she could literally feel him frown. "Maybe you should have married him." With that he walked away. Eisha instantly felt shame for her silence. The aunts in a circle all began to make faces and sounds of surprise. Adam cut through the crowd with emotional speed.

After a moment of feeling her heart thump in her chest Eisha followed him. Her high heels clicked in allegro as she moved down the concrete path. A man bumped into her as she started to run. She would never be able to forget his face.

It was then that the world started to twirl and fade into shades of black.

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-10 16:54 EST
There was a carnival. Eisha felt sick whenever she saw bright lights flickering above her head. Something felt cool. She was laying on grass. The ground was wet and cold. As she sat up she noticed rides, games, clowns, and people in every direction.

One heel sunk into the soft soil as she struggled to stand. There was a rip in her black party dress. She didn't really care. She stood on an island of grass and trees completely encircled by a concrete roundabout. With a frown she stepped onto the pavement and started to wander along with the current of chattering people. The air smelled like fried food and cotton candy. It would have been a pleasant mix if she was hungry. Eisha found herself walking behind a group of children holding multi-colored balloons. Ahead there was a teal booth with long tables, a grandstand and podium, and hanging tea lights.

Each of those teal tables must have held forty or fifty people. Eisha felt uneasy about the tea lights. As she stared a voiced startled her from silent thought.

"Miss." The voice was sharp. Eisha turned and saw a woman to her right. Next to the women were two dogs bouncing eagerly. "Can you help me?"

"Help you?" Everything in her head felt so fuzzy.

"Yes, help me. I'm trying to take a picture of Mr Wiggins and Muffie here and I just can't get them to stay still while I snap the shot. Can you please help me."

Eisha felt her body move without realizing what it was doing. Her eyes were on the little dogs. One was black and scrappy looking. The other was chocolate brown and curly like a poodle, but smaller. She had a dog of her own, didn't she" Why couldn't she remember. Eisha kneeled and held her hand over the black dog's head with fingers curled like they were holding something.

"Sit." Why was she doing this" Why was the dog listening. Wide black eyes looked up at her and obiediently a furry behind sank onto the pavement. The chocolate dog looked to its companion and then followed suit.

"Wonderful. Now, smile my dumplin's!" Eisha recoiled and a flash dilated her pupils. The woman didn't thank her. She just started baby-talking and went to collect her dogs.

Eisha turned her attention back to the teal booth and was alarmed to see a face staring back at her. It was the man's face. The man from the party who ran into her on the sidewalk. He was calling numbers. Bingo numbers? There were red lights all around him.

"B4. You can't ever be what you were B4." She squinted at him. Then, something changed. She heard music. It wasn't just tacky carnival music. It was music from a band playing somewhere and it was tantalizingly familar. She knew those notes. It was Adam's favorite song. He had played it for her so many times before and she had to ask the name of the song every single time.

Eisha turned and started to make her way through the crowd with the music leading her along.

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-10 17:17 EST
People groaned and shouted as they were pushed out of the way. Eisha was running, heels and all, towards the source of the music. The song had ended, but she could see the stage ahead. Musicians were walking off of it and the crowd was clapping. She almost felt like she was crying, straining to get there in time.

"Better get movin', sugarpuss." A man nudged her in the ribs as she ran past. She refused to look back and see who it was. Finally her hands wrapped around cold metal railing and she darted past the barrier to the area behind the stage. Everywhere she looked for Adam's face. There were all sorts of men standing around talking. Another band was going on stage. Panicked, she started looking in all directions. It was then that she turned to head around the other way and tripped.

The pavement bit off the skin of her knees and chin. A bit of crumbled concrete and dirt stung her face as she pushed up on now red hands. Either no one saw her fall or no one cared. Eisha looked back and noticed a guitar case. It was beyond battered. It was dark brown leather with black snaps and faded gold velour inside. More importantly, it was Adam's.

A gasp of surprise escaped her and she crawled over to the case. The fingers of her hand tried to push away blood and dirt from her face as she looked down with a smile. Eisha could have hugged the tattered shell with glee. This meant Adam was close by. He was going to be coming back. She could stay here and wait for him. With care she scooped up the case and brought it with her to sit on a trailer about two feet away.

"Please, come back." It was a whisper of a prayer to soothe her heart while her eyes searched the crowd. Suddenly she felt the trailer sway.

"He sold it." Eisha turned to see a man sitting next to her. It was that face....old, unsettling, shadowed.

"Who are you?"

"Who I am isn't really important, is it' What's important is you finding Adam, right?"

Eisha felt her eyes immediately water and her cheeks flush. "How do you know—"

"Also, not important. All you need to know, sugarpuss, is that he sold his guitar. Won't be comin' back for that case."

"He wouldn't sell that guitar. Dana gave it to him. He loves that guitar."

The man looked away from her before speaking. "He said that it wasn't important anymore. Nothing matters. Music was just a way to pass the time."

Eisha felt her throat swell. Adam loved his guitar. Music was his only real passion. But with his guitar gone, how was she going to find him' Her fingers dug further into the hard shell of his case and she held it close. Then, through the crowd, she saw his jacket. It was a faded leather. Searching higher she saw his hair. Her heart skipped a beat and she lept down from the trailer and started running.

"Adam!"

"Too late, sugarpuss."

Again, the world started to twirl and fade into shades of black.

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-13 09:21 EST
Gravity was pushing her down. Eisha could feel a strange contortion in her body. Whatever she was pressed against was unnaturally cold. After a few seconds of deep breathing and trying to get a sense of the world her eyes started to blink open.

There was a pillar in front of her. Beyond the pillar was a great window that was letting in harsh daylight. The cold against her cheek was reddish marble with swirling black and silver veins. As open palms pushed against the flat surface Eisha noticed that the contortion of her body was do to its placement over the edge of a stairwell. She could feel her knees crack and pop as they bent to try and support her frame. A group of people walked by and either didn't see her or didn't care enough to stop.

There were two distinct sounds in the air. One was the sound of a lecture from an open room to the right. The other sound was a dull hum, or maybe it was a buzzing. She couldn't distinguish exactly what it was but it seemed to be blocking out everything else in her head.

Although the marble floor was cold she kicked off her high heeled shoes and reached down to grab them. Vertigo sent her swaying and without reaching for the bannister she would have toppled down in an instant. Her dress had at least two more tears in the fabric. Thankfully she was nowhere near a mirror and was completely oblivious to the dried blood on her face.

Eisha moved very slowly at first. She climbed the two stairs she had previously been sprawled across. More people shifted through the grand hallway without giving her a single glance. The lecture hall was in plain sight, but she felt herself going in the other direction, towards the buzzing. Almost all of the doors in this building were open. It only made sense to walk to the closed door. The door with the golden plate on its mighty face. The door that vibrated with the sound of buzzing.

She felt her body tense as she leaned into the door and turned the knob. Part of her prayed that it would be locked.

It wasn't.

A green glow. A slime green glow was everywhere in this room. It tainted every surface it touched. Eisha noticed copper gears and tubes and pipes. Then, she noticed something far more disturbing. Attached to these tubes, with liquid running from turning gears, was Adam.

This was something out of a nightmare.

Restraints kept his body stretched out with arms and legs spread wide open. A metal belt with teeth faced inwards was wrapped around his stomach. Tubes, too many to count, were writhing from their places lodged deep in his skull, his shoulders, and all along his spine. He looked to be unconscious. She should at least be grateful for that.

Tears were already threatening to blur her horrific vision whenever Eisha started to frantically look for a way to release him. She looked for a control panel or something that appeared to be a switch, but the only thing she could readily see was an ornate brass knob on the metal belt that looped around Adam's body. Should she turn it' Which direction should it go'

With a wince her hand started to creep towards the knob. She couldn't leave him like this. She had to try and help. Eisha braced herself for whatever might happen as her fingers spread to wrap around the knob. The cold brass never touched her skin. Her hand was stopped dead by the sound of screaming.

Eisha

Date: 2010-05-13 09:40 EST
Soulful blue circles dotted with a pinprick of ink in the center....wreathed in blood where there ought to have been snow. Adam's eyes were wide and staring at Eisha whose body shook. His scream was so loud and pained that it should have attracted the attention of every single person in this building, but no one came.

Eisha could feel herself screaming in fear as she watched Adam's pain. She would do anything to take away that pain. Tears were falling freely from her eyes and the watering distortion almost made her missed some unexpected movement. As if on command from her heart crying out to save Adam, the tubes around his head began to pop free. It was then that she noticed their crude metal spearheads. Each one left a bloody gash on his body whenever they retracted.

The brass knob started to turn and the metal belt pulled away. Its teeth had also left marks in his skin. Abruptly Adam's screaming stopped. He was suspended against the torture machine for a few brief moments. Then, the restraints opened and released his body to go free-falling towards the hard marble floor below.

Eisha lunged herself forward to catch him and keep his head from hitting the ground. She wept over the horrors she had just witnessed.

"I'm so sorry." It was all her fault, wasn't it' If she had been a good wife, a good woman from the start none of this would have happened.

Even with those terrible wounds it felt comforting to be holding his body against her own. There was something so simple about feeling that warmth and connection. She could feel the rhythym of his breathing and the tempo of his pulse.

With some considerable effort Adam was trying to open his eyes. Eisha was so concentrated on watching him and feeling him that she never saw the spearheaded tubes reaching out. She never saw green liquid start to fill the machine again. All she felt was a stab at the back of her neck. Her arms went instantly limp and Adam's warmth and his comfort faded away as Eisha was hoisted up onto the machine.

It felt like she was screaming, but she never heard her own voice. The tubes dug themselves into position, the restraints looped around her wrists and ankles, and finally the metal belt snaked around her stomach....biting as it went.

Everything felt like it was burning.

Then something so sweet happened. There was Adam and he was standing and he was screaming her name and reaching for her. Even amidst the pain and the torture to come she felt so happy to have heard his voice.

Eisha saw a face in her head....and it wasn't Adam's face. It was that man's face. The old face with shadows on either side. He was smiling. That smile make her sick.

Her consciousness started to fade from the pain and the fear.

Again, the world started to twirl and fade into shades of black.