Topic: Feathers of Four

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-08-17 06:59 EST
Feathers of Four. Once it perhaps had been a name. Halo of energy, painted her skin in a vibration. Doe dark and silent. Dirty water offered no clear vision. It would swallow the moonlight. Take the stars. Drown her in darkness.

There was pain. Where one gave love, there was blood. Her fingers would come back wet. Stained with the red where shining raven wing of hair would be touched.

Wild eyed, thankful her spirit was not peyote drenched. There was death around her, and it was everywhere.

Fight or flight. Instinct was nature born and driven. Waking up in the camp that seemed a slaughterhouse rather then tribe.

There was no place to go that would be safe.

She would search her memories, would find the way locked.

A snap of twig, gutteral laugh thick with greed and lust awakened her to one notion.

Run

It was just what she did. No direction. No path. No knowledge.

Only when she was far enough away would she stumble, fall in a field lacking poppies or forget me nots.

There was nothing.

She was nothing.

Nameless.

Lost.

Never to remember her name or why they had come.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-08-17 20:32 EST
"Tell them what you see Feathers of Four. In the heart of the man is there a beast' Or does he pretend, wearing only the skin."

The girl was beckoned to where the man knelt. Still within maidenhood the woman-child was sacred. Tribe members discussed in hushed whispers as they watched on. Soothsayer they called her. Mystic.

These were the terms more gentle to be spoken of, kinder titles then what they spoke in secret.

"He does not pretend. His spirit....howls."

Tiny palm cupped the warrior's face. A whisper.

"Come."

Lilting sweet serenade of summon. A spirit would answer, respond to beckon of a child. The man's beast rolled within him, stretching sinew and muscle where muscles were not meant to move.

The man groaned as he felt dark fur caress the very fiber of his soul. Head back and a baying howl.

Till the wolf stood there.

An exhale of breath was multiplied by the tribe. Uncertainty. Fear. Awe. She would be called from that day forward, the Bringer of Beasts.

The Nameless One would find a name. Nimue. For a name unknown to her, elusive to memory, she would accept a given name as if meant for birthright.

It was a Blue Hour.

The time between Day and Darkness.

When the moon matched the hue of the sky, she would wait.

Still unaware of what she was meant to be waiting for.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-08-30 19:13 EST
They left her alone. They had invaded the camp, burned down the tents. Tortured the men, raped and abused the women. They had taken all of them save for her.

She had known when they came that one was not like the rest. That he had a secret. He had pushed her to the ground. Forced her body to part for his and before he could take her, break her and steal her soul....she had touched him.

A whisper of protest. Spirit Born she saw what he was. What he kept secret. The man had a soul of bear. Her touch summoned his change, brought on the transformation.

There was no need for a full moon or incantation.

The discovery left his own men to slaughter him before her eyes. There was no time to scream. Turned as beast, died as man.

As they left her behind all she could wonder was who truly was the beast and who was the man

The Glen was quiet. Peaceful and Soothing. Unlike the four walls of the inn that tormented her spirit.

Her hands plunged into the water as they came back cupped. Water splashed along her face.

For a moment there was an image, a vision. Her reflection. Colored. Brushed with hues of savage war paint.

Her palms splashed in the water, broke the image.

Chased it away.

She knew nothing of what it meant.

A lift of doe dark eyes, she ever would be moon drenched in these hours when she knew nothing of herself, and everything of the world.

For one that did not know their own name, had no recollection of the past, she could not help but wonder if the path would be lost as well.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-08-31 19:30 EST
"What does it mean' What does it all mean." "You are changing. Those beasts that you have brought from the spirit of man have imprinted you. Left their mark." "Father, I do not understand." "You will in time, child. Seek the Shaman, he will show you the way."

Winds of Change. She felt it like a stirring in her soul. A deep stretch of the animal shields awakening to no longer be just guardians of her spirit but a part of her.

Imprints.

The beasts she would bring from the spirit would become her own to call. Part of her.

She was not a Skin Walker. No. Instead the Shaman had found a different name for her.

Spirit Walker.

Blue Hour. He warned her when walking the Spirit Path to stay from the Shadow Lands.

Feathers of Four was one not to listen. She wished to know what lingered in the dark.

A disturbance. Darkly written in the night as the doe dark of her eyes moved over the forest as she woke in the thick cloak of midnight.

Fingers palmed at her features. She had been dreaming.

Shadow creatures seeming wolven....seeming feline.

She found herself looking to her healed palm. Tracing the line of that jagged scar. No longer visible.

Had Amber's saliva and touch done something to her?

Nimue would not sleep that night. Her thoughts would consume her.

Instead she found herself staring up at the sky, forging beasts out of clouds.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-09-02 19:28 EST
The pain was unbearable. She was screaming to the point that she could not longer hear the Shaman's calming words.

Her fingers crawled like claws across her stomach. Feeling like there was something trying to claw its way out of her flesh.

"What is happening to her?" "She is changing." "Changing?" "Yes that which she has taken, those spirits she has touched to turn men to beasts....those beasts are fighting for dominance." "She sounds in so much pain." "And she will be until she decides." "Decides?" "What she wishes to be."

The screams were agony, rendering the vulnerable senses as they came out as raven cries and mountain lion screams, coyote barks, and wolven howls.

The Shaman and her father sat back, watching in silence as the Peyote was passed around....

Nimue found the quiet times as those of reflection as she curled her form on the marketplace bench, watching the world and the people pass her by.

Doe-dark eyes and they whispered of the deer woman as they offered her considering looks. Some soft smiles, some curious looks.

Deer Woman.

The words worked into her soul. Recollection.

The notion dismissed. Doe dark eyes would watch, understanding by watching, learning by society.

Quiet she stayed on the bench, never to make a sound.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-09-04 13:48 EST
"She's a pretty thing. But she's wild." "Maybe she needs broken." "Maybe she already is."

Blood and Pain. Fur and Claws. Was it an illusion, a nightmare or a dream that had her in the swell of a full moon to move as mountain lion, as coyote, as red wolf, as crow.

Fly Away. To be so tempted to that notion of flying away. Breaking away from it all. She remembered iron bars, rope and twine.

Treated her like a wild mare they were waiting to break, control and make a broodmare.

The fear and terror of it all being taken from her, the fear of what she was becoming was slipping away. Fed to the beasts that rolled now....moved and claimed her spirit.

Tranquility in action. Feathers of Four palmed the four feathers of various shades in her hair. The trinkets made by the hands of her tribe. Tiny carved beasts.

The additions, that homage seemed to quiet her soul. Peace again as she watched on, worry a black gleam in doe-dark eyes.

Tea's and Tome's and become an escape. A place for the quiet when the Glen was filled with too many beasts that would spark in her a reaction.

She still did not understand it, why the presence of beasts around her brought that quiet calm. More so why she was seeing now beasts in men and even women. Felt them stir like spirit guards brought alive. Awakened.

A gift it was to find the silence in McCarty's soul. He was a wild horse.

The nature of his spirit gave her a different sort of spark.

Eyes like frost that were as warm as fire. The Native American choker passed down through ages.

The intrigue was there. Silent in her soul. Unspoken.

Her words had been truth to him. When it came to discovering and remembering her past, there was no one to look out for her save for herself.

Perhaps Isaac when he was around. She didn't know Amber well enough to confide.

Unsettled and restless she stared out the window, the knowledge sinking in.

Alone. She would face it alone.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-09-15 17:19 EST
"She is useless to us. A burden." "Still she could unify the tribes with a marriage." "Who would dare marry her....knowing what she can do." "Bringer of Beasts. Perhaps we should teach her the shaman's path." "A man's position?" "It is the least we can do."

Words that would could seal a fate. Bringing forth the condition to learn the Spirit Walk.

Feathers of Four became a willing student for she had no desire for marriage. She would believe in love that led to marriage, not a binding of tribes to bring marriage.

Still she knew well that no man in her tribe or even those beyond it would dare choose marriage for her. They feared her.

She would throw herself in her studies. Dreams and Animal Shields, weaving dreamcatchers, finding a long road with the grace of Peyote.

Alone. Her studies took her soul and she no longer yearned for what was not meant for her

How many days had she spent in rest and repose within the teas and tomes hoping to catch a glimpse of the desert wind.

That wild horse of a man.

McCarty.

Nimue found herself seeking him out in every face, looking for him in every man, waiting for him in the long hours of night till she had begun to give up.

Perhaps he had been a hallucination. Just a dream vision to lead her on the correct path. The right road.

She should accept this. Still there were frustrated tears that would not spill at the very notion.

Without Isaac, without Amber, without McCarty she was alone.

Nimue had the sense she was used to being alone and to find reliance only in herself ....but deep down....she was finding she very much regretted the truth of that notion.

Fred McCarty

Date: 2009-09-15 21:43 EST
Not alone.

You can't attract the attention of one of the Guardians and be alone.

His home - now in Ghost Town - is spartan in its appointments, and he is rearely there. ut when he is, it is alone.

And yet, his thoughts dwell on the one that calls herself Nimue.

He had gone by the tea shop he had encountered her at, as well as the Inn, hoping to see her. But every time he had gone, he had the feeling he had just missed her. And every time, other matters had come up.

Being a Guardian had gotten busy of late, thanks to the ruckus over the proposition.

But even then, he finds his thoughts wandering to Nimue.

Beautiful, quiet, as gentle it seemed to him as the wind ofer a grassy plain in the beginnings of the autumn. And somehow, she reminded him of home, back when he was younger, before life had become a lonely expanse of wandering.

He sits on his bed in the run-down hotel, looking down at something in his hand.

Lupinius had told him how to make it, how to access the magic that allowed a Guardian to link himself to one person, for as long as they wished to remain with them.

Lupinius hadn't asked questions about it, either.

For a long time, he stares at the object in his hand. It is a crystal point, about the length of his thumb and no bogger around than his pinkie, looking to be flawlessly fashioned from ruby.

Blood red in color.

Just like the light from his amulet.

But to give it to Nimue, who so intrigues and attracts him, but whom he parely knows...what would that mean?

He's been struggling with this decision all day.

Enough indecision, he thinks.

He stands, heading out of the room.

Time to find out.

A moment later, out of the dry, dusty street of Ghost Town, the wind carries him away, towards the shop known as Teas'n'Tomes.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-09-16 06:22 EST
Soul bound ever to that Spirit Walk. She knelt in the tall grass of dreams, knowing the gold in the distance was wheat. Her fingers danced across the blades of grass.

Head bowed, a smile to herself as a spirit was invoked by a coaxing hand.Willing the world to breath and life for her.

Dandelion was pulled from the ground. So bold it was in its feather white ruffle to survive here now even when it knew autumn came.

Her lips pursed as she took in a breath. Closed her eyes. Breathed out a silent wish to scatter dandelion seeds as unspoken wishes.

The stem of that wish born weed dropped as she squinted in the distance. Feathers of Four saw that wild mustang. Colored like the dust and red dirt had taken a white coat and made the desert wind come alive.

The spirit beast of the mustang reared and pawed at the air with wild hooves.

She squinted again. Saw a man within it all. She closed her eyes tightly. Not willing to dream of things she'd never have.

Nimue started awake, blinking doe-dark eyes as her fingers grasped at a dream, a vision. Was that her past"

Chasing desert mirages of wild mustangs"

A wistful smile on lips as she sighed and curled in the chair at the teas and tomes.

She must have fallen asleep here.

A hand palmed the four feathers in her hair, thoughtful. A glance over shoulder. There to the door she would look.

But no one walked through.

A look away as she closed her eyes tightly just as she had in that dream. Or was it a memory?

Squinting her eyes closed. Wild Mustangs and Desert Wind.

Maybe Past and Present weren't so far apart.

Exhaled sigh.

Not meant for her. Not the beauty of a moment.

Fred McCarty

Date: 2009-09-17 16:11 EST
Could a wish made, even in a dream, summon that which is desired?

Perhaps.

Or, perhaps it's just a coincidence.

Right. Had he seen that dream, it would only go to further his own belief that coincidences are a nonexistent imagining of those who have no faith that all things are meant to be, in their own time.

Had she looked just a moment longer, she might have seen the beginnings of the swirling vortex of a dust devil, heard the hot, lonely sound of the winds gusting just outside the door.

But even if she missed that, there would be no missing the next sound.

A smooth, slow, metronomic sound of booted footsteps. A high, ringing note of silver chiming in rhythmic time.

A sound straight from old, faded movies of cowboys walking into buildings that stretched back into time, as old as movies themselves.

Stretching back further than that, into a time long since past, when such a sound could be the promise of business. Or death.

Or both.

He can't see the inside of the shop, nor does he care to. He had come to the shop hoping to find her, but if he doesn't...well, he can wait. Patience has always been one of his greater virtues, and he can wait for the time when she would appear again.

As soon as he pushes the door open, though, his heart leaps upwards at the sight of those four feathers, framed by dark hair, held within it as though they were embraced by a lover.

For a long moment, he stands in the doorway, simply looking at her. The woman who had, in just a few meetings, simply captured his heart in so many ways.

A reminder of youth and longing.

A prescence he finds magnetic and attractive.

Lovely features, dark and dusky, light and fresh as rain.

After a moment he wills his feet to carry him forward again, his booted, chiming footfalls no quieter for the slowness of his approach, as if he might spook her away by his presence.

"Hello, Nimue."

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-09-17 21:04 EST
Chasing the winds. Like she was wild. Free to run. She ran through those wheat fields, hands outstretched, catching gold in her grasp.

For a moment she was alive in the sensation. Wanted to go faster. Wanted to feel the wind in her hair....in her fur"

Lioness of mountains moved swift through the wheat. Stretching out sinuous limbs. Sunlight and heat. Alive and wild.

This was her freedom. She was alive and free.

Spirit roamed. This was where she was meant to be.

Could dreams be heard" Could wishes be called out and delivered?

Nimue did not think so until now.

The desert heat that rolled on through. Wild mustang forged of chiming silver and crisping ringing call.

Doom and Negotiation in the nature of steps crisp across the floor.

Still she would turn toward the sound. Slowly as she restrained that eager look in her eyes.

Shielded it so as a tender smile touched her lips.

"Hello, McCarty. It....it is good to see you again."

She was so still. Unmoving. Afraid if she moved even an inch he would disappear.

An illusion shattered.

He was everything wild and alive.

Everything free and untamed.

Unconquered spirit.

All the things she wished to possess....and belong to.

Fred McCarty

Date: 2009-10-01 16:03 EST
For a long moment, all he can do is stare. He had not seen her in days, and yet that intervening space of time, when his thoughts had been filled with visions of her, the sight of her every time he had closed his eyes, had not done her justice.

It takes a lot of restraint not to move from the place he stands, watching her, at a dead run to pull her up from the couch and into his arms.

Not to lean down and capture her lips with his, his arms moulding her body to his, holding her close against him.

He'd heard it said that absence makes the heart grow fonder, so many times.

From what he's seen in his life, that's all so much bulldrek, until he had a chance to experience it for himself.

Emotions intermingle. Relief that she is here. Fear that she may vanish as he takes a step towards her, and that, once his feelings are voiced, she might push him away, or worse be afraid of him herself. A lighthearted, happy feeling just to see her again.

Finally, he is able to make his feet move, and is pleased to find that they are not faltering or hesitant as he walks over to her chair, settling into the one next to it.

"I...well, to be honest, I missed ya, Nimue. I'm glad I was able to find ya here."

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-10-01 17:57 EST
"Feathers, mind your brother now. The hunt is not meant for a woman's aid." "I can help, father." "We have seen what you can do, Feathers....it is not right."

Lips twisted into a frown as she came to her brother's side, the line marking her brow as he pulled her into an embrace, a murmur against her hair.

"You hunt fine, Feathers." "I wish he would know though, Ghost....of what I can do. That I'm not just some....beast." "You'll never be a beast, Feathers, your spirit is too pure."

Too pure spirit. A sigh exhaled as she buried her head into his chest and closed her eyes. How long would they carry on the game where it appeared that Ghost was the one bringing home the kills, when it was actually both working as a team. As they always had.

"One day they'll see....I'm not what they think....I'll prove them wrong." "I believe you will, Feathers. One day....someone will see you as I do." A wisp of a smile as she pulled away. A whisper.

"No one will ever see me as you do."

She watched his approach with those doe dark eyes. The registered stray of emotions that passed along his features. Fingers palmed the feathers in her hair.

A tandem beat. Wild as any drum was her heart at that moment. Sent to racing.

Tentative with uncertainty was the smile as he took a seat across from her. She could only curl up deeper into her own chair to restrain the desire to embrace him. Breathe him in.

That Wild Horse of a Man.

Exhaling she hugged herself, arms about her waist as she looked to him. Warming smile as she agreed to his confession.

"I have missed you as well, McCarty."

Perhaps more then he ever would know from Nimue.

Fred McCarty

Date: 2009-10-17 16:22 EST
It's been long since he talked to the man he had called Father.

Oh, he's no fool. He knew the man, with his darker skin, distinctive Native American features, his raven-black hair, was not his true father.

But the man had raised him from a pup, had treated him as if Fred were his own son, had taught him, had been there.

One day he had seen a girl and boy holding hands, laughing together, close and affectionate, happy.

He had been a teenager at the time, and despite being brought in and raised with the tribe, he had still felt apart, alienated. Not by any actions of the people, to be sure...it was just the way he felt it.

"Do you think there may be someone like that for me, Father?"

His father had not laughed, only nodded, looking solemn. "We each have another half of ourselves out there, somewhere, my son. You will not know her until you find her, but when you do, you will be unable to even look at anyone else the same."

He had been confused, which had obviusly shown on his face. His father had held up a hand.

"Do not worry about this now, my son. Things go as they will. You will see."

Damned if the old man hadn't been right. His eyes ar for Nimue now, and try as he might, he doesn't seem to really see anyone else the same way. No shortage of attractive women here in Rhy'Din, but none so drawing as this one before him.

Reaching out, he takes her hands from around her own waist and holds them in his own, his icy blue eyes resting on her doe-dark orbs, a smile bringing out the faint lines of his face and at the corners of his eyes.

Listen, Nimue...t'be honest with ya, I know it's been a bit since we've seen each other, but...I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. I really like you a lot...if I were gonna be completely blunt, I think I might be fallin' in love with you."

All of it comes out of him in an uncontrolled rush, and the tanned skin darkens as blood touches his features, looking down at their joined hands.

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-10-20 19:18 EST
There was Love. Love in her dreams. Love in her Nightmares. Within the Forest and within the night.

Secret moments shared. Cherished. Honored. The lasting moments before everything would be taken from her forever. All she had known.

"Don't go."

She whispered to the trees because he was already gone. He would never leave her heart or her spirit but he was gone."

Feathers fell to the ground amongst the trees of autumn that already were beginning to die around her.

She wept for them, wept for her own loss. All around her....the world was dying. Her heart wept with the loss.

She screamed out into the night her agony, her misery, her loss. None of it would ever be the same.

Feathers had lost everything....and she was alone.

Hands were taken and it left her uncertain, and cautious. The only other that she had loved had left her for another. Bound by honor and the promise of binding the tribes.

Sacred vows.

"Falling in love with me" But....how could you love me when I....I don't even know who I really am?"

Those doe-dark eyes lifted to touch upon his own bright blue eyes as she smiled to that wild horse of a man.

Fingers were captured and she had no chance to brush the four feathers in her hair as the nervous gesture she often went through.

"I care for you too McCarty....I have never felt this way before."

Not for any that she was allowed to. Never before. All so new. There was hope in her eyes. She wanted it all to be real.

Fred McCarty

Date: 2009-12-24 14:07 EST
"It's time I told you about who you really are, my son."

"What do you mean, Father?"

"You know you are not truly my son, Frederick."

"Yes, Father...I've known that since I was a small child."

"I know, my son. What you don't know is what happened to your true family, your parents."

Confusion. "You told me they died, and that it was an honorable death."

"Yes, I did, and that is true. But there are things that I have not told you until you are old enough to understand. That day has come."

He had not truly known who he was until that day. But what the girl he knows as Nimue is saying is...different.

After all, he had merely forgotten a part of his life. And after he had been told the truth, very little had changed, except that he understood.

What if her memory returns, and she finds that she is sworn to another" If she is married" Or simply is in love with someone else and has only forgotten it"

How will he handle that?

Her hands in his, his icy-blue eyes locked on her dark ones.

It doesn't take long for him to make a decision.

"I know ya don't know who you are...but that don't matter t'me, darlin'. I know who ya are now, and even if ya should find out later that yer not who ya think ya are, it won't matter..." He takes one of his hands from hers and lays his hand along her cheek, a gentle touch from roughened hands. "...you'll still be the girl I care about."

The Spirit Walk

Date: 2009-12-26 06:52 EST
She had waited for his return. Days had become months, months to years. He had promised her forever at his side. His companion and confidant.

Still duty and obligations to the tribe had separated them.

Feathers heart day by day had become broken pieces. Without him she was losing a part of herself. She could not go on without him.

They belonged together...

Desolate and lost in despair she had left the tribe in hopes of finding the spirit path once more.

Only to find Death and War.

To have lost memories was that which Nimue felt was a part of the void within.

The missing parts of herself that she shut away.

What if it came to be that the woman she was, was not the woman she was now?

What if truly she was a monster, or that her binds to her fate would leave her not to know his companionship.

She was shaking as he touched her, doe dark eyes wide and uncertain to the vow and promise in his words.

Hand covered his own as he touched her, a turn of head and lips pressed to his palm.

"I believe regardless of what I find...you will be in my heart."