There was blood everywhere.
It collected in pools of coagulated crimson, forming that eerie, slick, warped mirror surface. He knelt, hunched over, methodical in this perpetual task. Fingers had long callused painfully weeks ago. Splinters permeated every last bit of palm flesh. Yet he persisted in dipping the ragged brush into the bucket full of a sickening concoction of blood, soap and water, and continued to scrub.
There was penance here.
Somewhere.
In the stone tiles permanently stained with red.
On the pages of the Bibles and hymn tomes now forever tarnished.
Spattered upon the pews and altar.
Sprayed onto the chest of the Son, who could do nothing but look down in sorrowful accusation at him from his post of eternal effigy.
He had spent weeks in this same position, trying futilely to discover where it hid.
Prior he believed that atonement would only be found in the words of his confession. The Bishop would come on his yearly visit, and there, in that booth he would air his sins. But this one" This one was much worse than his moments of weakness in seminary and early days of young priesthood.
The Bishop and the Church forbid his repentance. So he knelt down in the mess their soldiers had left in his church, genuflecting before a Holy Trinity that had long ago forsaken him. Necessary executions, they had told him. How would the populace learn their way was the most righteous without fear"
They were calling this war a Crusade. A Crusade that fed hungry on the deaths of those who were deemed unholy. A war to prepare for the rebirth of He who would come as the Lion, not the Lamb. Words the Church had told him to speak to his parishioners that he held no belief in.
Words that he never would speak.
Words that they used to excuse their genocide.
He would forgo food and drank sparsely each day. He couldn't find the stomach for either. When exhaustion took its hold he sat in the booth and confessed to a hymn of gunshots and explosions. His protection in the blood-stained black and white frock he wore. His protection in this building, his church, that he wanted to ply, stone by stone, to the ground. If the bombs didn't get it first.
The stone tiles caused his knees to bleed. Each time he shuffled forward to scrub another spot rends in his skin made each movement agony. The pain caused him pause, and his eyelids drooped shut.
What resided behind them was still vivid.
The soldiers were dressed in camouflage. Crosses had been sewn into their shoulders, showing their allegiance to Church instead of country. They stood in a perfect row, sub-machine guns shouldered at the ready.
The captain recited a verse from Psalm 7:11, "God is a righteous judge, a God who expresses his wrath every day." cold and rehearsed.
They were my parishioners. My flock.
And I did nothing.
He wouldn't dare look into His mournful, gentle gaze. Pitying him even as He hung in martyrdom.
Father, forgive them, the words echoed in his head and a solitary laugh erupted, for they know not what they do.
It collected in pools of coagulated crimson, forming that eerie, slick, warped mirror surface. He knelt, hunched over, methodical in this perpetual task. Fingers had long callused painfully weeks ago. Splinters permeated every last bit of palm flesh. Yet he persisted in dipping the ragged brush into the bucket full of a sickening concoction of blood, soap and water, and continued to scrub.
There was penance here.
Somewhere.
In the stone tiles permanently stained with red.
On the pages of the Bibles and hymn tomes now forever tarnished.
Spattered upon the pews and altar.
Sprayed onto the chest of the Son, who could do nothing but look down in sorrowful accusation at him from his post of eternal effigy.
He had spent weeks in this same position, trying futilely to discover where it hid.
Prior he believed that atonement would only be found in the words of his confession. The Bishop would come on his yearly visit, and there, in that booth he would air his sins. But this one" This one was much worse than his moments of weakness in seminary and early days of young priesthood.
The Bishop and the Church forbid his repentance. So he knelt down in the mess their soldiers had left in his church, genuflecting before a Holy Trinity that had long ago forsaken him. Necessary executions, they had told him. How would the populace learn their way was the most righteous without fear"
They were calling this war a Crusade. A Crusade that fed hungry on the deaths of those who were deemed unholy. A war to prepare for the rebirth of He who would come as the Lion, not the Lamb. Words the Church had told him to speak to his parishioners that he held no belief in.
Words that he never would speak.
Words that they used to excuse their genocide.
He would forgo food and drank sparsely each day. He couldn't find the stomach for either. When exhaustion took its hold he sat in the booth and confessed to a hymn of gunshots and explosions. His protection in the blood-stained black and white frock he wore. His protection in this building, his church, that he wanted to ply, stone by stone, to the ground. If the bombs didn't get it first.
The stone tiles caused his knees to bleed. Each time he shuffled forward to scrub another spot rends in his skin made each movement agony. The pain caused him pause, and his eyelids drooped shut.
What resided behind them was still vivid.
The soldiers were dressed in camouflage. Crosses had been sewn into their shoulders, showing their allegiance to Church instead of country. They stood in a perfect row, sub-machine guns shouldered at the ready.
The captain recited a verse from Psalm 7:11, "God is a righteous judge, a God who expresses his wrath every day." cold and rehearsed.
They were my parishioners. My flock.
And I did nothing.
He wouldn't dare look into His mournful, gentle gaze. Pitying him even as He hung in martyrdom.
Father, forgive them, the words echoed in his head and a solitary laugh erupted, for they know not what they do.