So now I find myself writing this, HA "Write down your life story" she says
"There are not enough bales of paper to write down an entire life story of even the shortest of lives" I shot back.
"If you want it all back, your humanity, your mortality then you will write it" Then the messenger smiled at me a moment "Summarize it..and you must make it freely available for all to read that is the cost of my masters favor"
This and the following scroll are freely made available to any who wish to read them. And there are many available to be found.
The Beginning
I tell you what if I was not forced against my will...no scratch that every acts to their own will, It is what they choose. Regardless of if the other choices are not real choices at all the choice still remains. What about the possessed you say they are forced against their will. I would have to say whose will is being forced if they are possessed that means their actions are the will of the possessor and hence it is their actions not the one who is merely the vessel. Enough of this circular philosophy though or I will never get through this all.
I debated starting my story when I first stepped foot in Rhydin however that would be disingenuous as who I am today started long before I graced this land, or this land graced me depending on your point of view. So I am forced to move back further to the land of my birth. Some know of it some don't I will not repeat it here as it is unimportant for the sake of the story.
A brief exposition of the world I am from I must admit are in order. Magic is fairly common place, that is not to say that every person you run across can perform it however it exists freely in the world to those with the willpower and discipline to use it. Mind magic (psionics to some) also exists, somewhat more rare yet still prevalent enough that the population knows of it's existence.
I was blessed with a great deal of the former and a moderate of the latter which is also fairly common as many of the same mental pathways used to channel magic are the same or similar to those channel mental abilities. The greatest of my non mage abilities was of a bardic bent I don't think I need to explain bardic abilities to anyone reading this if you don't know then go find another book and learn something. I was not unusual nor was I the most powerful not even close. However I did have a nice trick of being able to use my mage abilities to enhance my mental powers. I was not alone in this but, it was not a common trait.
That should be enough information as I just earlier if you want to learn facts go find yourself a history book.
I was high born and arrogant I cannot exactly recall but, I was a baron or some such rubbish, high enough to be M'lorded and bowed to but, not so high that I didn't have to bow to others. Ahh yes and the arrogant part, I was gifted..gifted with magic, gifted with a blade gifted in music and for those that met me all the years I still look the same so I was not particular ungifted in those areas either. The unfortunate part about it all was I knew it. This is not to say I was cruel in my arrogance those on my lands were well housed and well fed and happy it was those of equal or near equal as to make no never mind that earned my contempt.
An example you ask" I can offer one to show how I was in those days. It is no secret that even now I bed men and women though I do prefer a womens curve it makes no difference to me and never have, however many men find a liaison with another man contemptuous and those that engage in such act contemptible. So I would carry myself in the manner of the most outlandish fop I could muster and place myself in situations that those I had a distaste for would become infuriated and challenge me..then enjoyed the look on their face as their life blood ran freely on the ground. A noble pursuit some might say but, I did not do it do prove a point I did it so that I could kill them.
However I digress this story will never end if you let me ramble on so.
The trouble came when I was awoken by a dream, now I am not greatly gifted with the ability of foresight however I do, or did, have a modicum of the ability. Generally it was a gist a feeling of unease..the same thing many warriors develop on their own really. Scholars say you can't really feel the eyes of a murderer watching you but, those who have been stalked and watched will tell you scholars are idiots. The dream however was not a subtle feeling it was of bloodshed and death and it was centered in the kingdom where my realm was located. I believe I have said before I was not without power though so I was able to seek out and find the source of the war that was about to befall us and I was also able to find that I had two choices. I could indeed stop this army all on my own with merely the simple sacrifice of my life, or I could look the other way save the people of my own land and let all others good and evil, innocent and guilty die. At the time I did not even hesitate I gathered the people I was lord and master over and told them what was occurring and that we would leave. And the fools..the mindless sniveling worms that I had watched and cared for decided they would fight and die with the rest of the land. So if they wanted to die so carelessly I decided it was not their right to die by another's hand and killed them all man women and child till I was Master of a Domain of death.
I knew telling this story would be a mistake as in knowing this many will now find me a monster or worse.
I was not inhuman however and after my rage had passed and I surveyed what I had done I was...madness does not begin to describe my mindset and perhaps that is the source of the many personalities that do now exist inside me. I did know one thing I did not wish to live with the voices that still haunt my dreams to this day..begging and pleading with me to spare this one or that one. Now you might think then my choice was a simple one, I could indeed have partially redeemed my guilt by making that sacrifice that I spoke of earlier and therefore saving the rest of the kingdom. I would even be considered a hero as who would have suspected the horde that was about to befall the land had not slain my people before I was able to stop them. Again however I made a foolish choice and proceeded to take my own life...which if I recall would be the first time I have died.
I don't know how long I lay there in the wanning light I do remember the cold that had nothing to do with the weather as my life ran down my arms to pool around me. I don't even know how long the old man had been there watching me. When I saw him however I was still coherent enough to be startled however for hadn't I killed everyone.
"So boy be ye dead yet or are ye gonna make this one wait all night" He was gruff and indifferent and his indifference hurt more then what he actually said. More even then the blade did.
I tried to raise my head but, had not the strength.
"I have never killed myself before so I am not sure how long I will be. Though if you have somewhere to be don't let me stop you? Even half dead you notice I still had enough arrogance to joke.
For some reason he seemed to find that hilarious and laughed at my words, or me, for a great deal of time. Then he spoke again "Ye be knowing that your soul is forfeit ye have triple damned yonself, first by your life, then what ye have done here and finally by what ye have done to yourself?"
What was he talking about "Damned? Perhaps what is done cannot be undone though however. And I am past caring besides."
Again he laughed at me "Oh this one can still tell that ye care, and what if this one tells ye that there is another options, ye doan have to be truly dead and by indebting your service to this one your soul can perhaps one day earn it's way to a better reward then it be currently heading"
Now I must be honest, I really did not wish to die regardless of what I had done..both to the cooling bodies around me nor to myself. Not to mention I was intrigued this didn't seem to be an ordinary man.
The old man pulled a watch from his pocket and checked "Ye must be deciding quickly now there is not much time and they will be here for you soon" He nodded his head over to my right.
I found the strength to turn and for the first time in my life I was truly afraid for what he said was coming for me...I am sorry even now I can't bring myself to describe them..some of you may know what I saw and if you would like to share feel free as I cannot.
"I agree old man whoever you are" I finally relented it did not take me long "My services are yours to use"
Now the old man seemed to move with agonizing slowness despite telling me to decide quickly he unfolded himself from where he said and casually strolled up to me. "For now and ever till this one deems your soul worth to be released"
"Y..yes" I was finding it difficult to form words at this point
From seemingly nowhere, not even with my talents could I figure where though in my defense I was in no condition to puzzle it out at the moment, he produced a parchment, a contract I was still able to recognize though much of the world had gone gray around me. "Sign here" He indicated a spot and a quill dipped in my own blood he pressed into my hand and I signed.
"Now what" I think that is what I said to be honest I am not sure I said anything at all but, he understood me all the same.
"Now we wait for you to die"
This is all I can bear to dwell on those days for now and I am certain many of you have stopped reading by this time regardless. However again writing this is a part of the final act of my penance so I will finish the tale but, not at this exact time. I will share this the man..no obvious even to the dimmest he was no man the Being that I had entered the service of θάνατος.
*****This story here will be continued when I eventually get my own story folder****