(Three years ago")
At his back, the sky is a vast sheet of lustrous, beaten gold.
The sun is rising, and the light crawls syrup-slow, catching in the puddled mud, turning filth to precious, blinding brilliance. It's an illusory tableau his shadow knifes through pitilessly as he ascends the naze.
She waits for him up there.
Her small, bare feet have left molten prints, brightly gilded as all else, and there"yes, trenches in the muck, the place where she must have fallen, his panicked quarry, and picked herself up again.
All those years she boasts of, and she hasn't the wisdom to avoid the wilds.
She hasn't hidden herself. He sees her almost immediately when he reaches the sprawling promontory at the peak of the climb, slumped and splay limbed, a wounded fawn of a girl, though he knows better than to fall for the pastiche. The delicately lace edged slip in virginal white is a travesty. The fullness of her harlot mouth incongruous with the delicate appeal she intended, and the Celestine blue-grey of her eyes too full of an old woman's bitterness.
He laughs because he can't help himself, his amusement candid. In no hurry to bring the fiasco to its inevitable conclusion, he allows her a moment to deliver the requisite acerbic condemnation. He listens with an equanimity which only has her delivering her words with more venom.
She's chosen a commendable proscenium for her last moments, with the waves rolling in stately serried ranks below, and the dead trees she's crumpled beneath stretching knobby branches like sun-bleached finger bones. He considers letting her live for long enough for the sun to fill the bowl of the valley and overflow across the flat headland, to glaze her in its amber warmth.
An ugly, choking sound interrupts her, and she paws ineffectually at her throat.
The blood is gathering in the hollow there, a cup runneth over to streak her chest with a single, livid line, rubine and glossy. His eyes linger there as much for the way the slick looking silk clings to her breasts as they do for the evidence of her injury. Barely a woman. She always had preferred the nubile state at the cusp of adulthood. Reliant upon the predictable desire she could induce in those who might otherwise oppose her.
He moves across the sere ground, whilst she cringes backward, mud-slick feet bloodying themselves against splinters and lichen stained rock. There is nowhere to go but to huddle into the tree.
"You're making this more difficult than it needs to be," he tells her doucely.
She says nothing for a moment, but the wheeze of her breathing, the struggle, makes her look no less fierce in her disgust. She bares her teeth at him, pink patina distracting. "And what was the casus belli for you, Kasimir" Did they fill your head with fabricated misdeeds, or did they bribe you? Was the promise of another ten years enough' Or did they threaten you with "Null" again?"
All those things and more. Worse. But she'll be dead in a moment, and he hasn't come to confess his sins and have her voice echoing in his ears for days. Only to kill her.
He grasps a slim, milk-pale ankle in his hand, and drags her, to Hell with dignity, towards the edge of the drop.
"They'll never cut the cord, fool!" Her voice is strident, catches in her torn throat. "You're meat like the rest of them. Carrion. Killing me won't save you. It won't buy them more time. The culling is desperation, fear— get your fucking filthy hands off me you mongrel bastard!"
Her weight is nothing to him, but her thrashing coupled with the silk makes her difficult as writhing polecat to keep hold of. For all the slip covers her now she might as well be naked, but her flesh can't distract him, nor the clawing nails at his face, though he twists away as she attempts, amidst banshee shrieks to blind him.
By the time her strength leaves her, her youth is all spent; there is too much blood lost for her to maintain the facade. She weighs no more than a ten year old, and her hair is falling away from her scalp in silvery threads, the sullen mouth shrunken over teeth grown long and brown.
He can't blame her for the flesh she kept young, but he feels immeasurably more sympathetic towards her seeing her ancient, wasted. Not that it would have altered his decision.
She's half-conscious at best when he lets her slip from his arms, and strikes the cliff face before she reaches the bottom with the nauseating crunch of things coming apart.
At his back, the sky is a vast sheet of lustrous, beaten gold.
The sun is rising, and the light crawls syrup-slow, catching in the puddled mud, turning filth to precious, blinding brilliance. It's an illusory tableau his shadow knifes through pitilessly as he ascends the naze.
She waits for him up there.
Her small, bare feet have left molten prints, brightly gilded as all else, and there"yes, trenches in the muck, the place where she must have fallen, his panicked quarry, and picked herself up again.
All those years she boasts of, and she hasn't the wisdom to avoid the wilds.
She hasn't hidden herself. He sees her almost immediately when he reaches the sprawling promontory at the peak of the climb, slumped and splay limbed, a wounded fawn of a girl, though he knows better than to fall for the pastiche. The delicately lace edged slip in virginal white is a travesty. The fullness of her harlot mouth incongruous with the delicate appeal she intended, and the Celestine blue-grey of her eyes too full of an old woman's bitterness.
He laughs because he can't help himself, his amusement candid. In no hurry to bring the fiasco to its inevitable conclusion, he allows her a moment to deliver the requisite acerbic condemnation. He listens with an equanimity which only has her delivering her words with more venom.
She's chosen a commendable proscenium for her last moments, with the waves rolling in stately serried ranks below, and the dead trees she's crumpled beneath stretching knobby branches like sun-bleached finger bones. He considers letting her live for long enough for the sun to fill the bowl of the valley and overflow across the flat headland, to glaze her in its amber warmth.
An ugly, choking sound interrupts her, and she paws ineffectually at her throat.
The blood is gathering in the hollow there, a cup runneth over to streak her chest with a single, livid line, rubine and glossy. His eyes linger there as much for the way the slick looking silk clings to her breasts as they do for the evidence of her injury. Barely a woman. She always had preferred the nubile state at the cusp of adulthood. Reliant upon the predictable desire she could induce in those who might otherwise oppose her.
He moves across the sere ground, whilst she cringes backward, mud-slick feet bloodying themselves against splinters and lichen stained rock. There is nowhere to go but to huddle into the tree.
"You're making this more difficult than it needs to be," he tells her doucely.
She says nothing for a moment, but the wheeze of her breathing, the struggle, makes her look no less fierce in her disgust. She bares her teeth at him, pink patina distracting. "And what was the casus belli for you, Kasimir" Did they fill your head with fabricated misdeeds, or did they bribe you? Was the promise of another ten years enough' Or did they threaten you with "Null" again?"
All those things and more. Worse. But she'll be dead in a moment, and he hasn't come to confess his sins and have her voice echoing in his ears for days. Only to kill her.
He grasps a slim, milk-pale ankle in his hand, and drags her, to Hell with dignity, towards the edge of the drop.
"They'll never cut the cord, fool!" Her voice is strident, catches in her torn throat. "You're meat like the rest of them. Carrion. Killing me won't save you. It won't buy them more time. The culling is desperation, fear— get your fucking filthy hands off me you mongrel bastard!"
Her weight is nothing to him, but her thrashing coupled with the silk makes her difficult as writhing polecat to keep hold of. For all the slip covers her now she might as well be naked, but her flesh can't distract him, nor the clawing nails at his face, though he twists away as she attempts, amidst banshee shrieks to blind him.
By the time her strength leaves her, her youth is all spent; there is too much blood lost for her to maintain the facade. She weighs no more than a ten year old, and her hair is falling away from her scalp in silvery threads, the sullen mouth shrunken over teeth grown long and brown.
He can't blame her for the flesh she kept young, but he feels immeasurably more sympathetic towards her seeing her ancient, wasted. Not that it would have altered his decision.
She's half-conscious at best when he lets her slip from his arms, and strikes the cliff face before she reaches the bottom with the nauseating crunch of things coming apart.