Topic: Moving Forward

Lurielle

Date: 2007-03-24 11:33 EST
Lurielle sat back, dropping her pen into the inkwell. She sanded the sheet she had just penned and looked it over critically, eyes scanning the words.

Jiraen,

Vedui', mellonamin. Amin uuma entula a'Winyandor vee'rato vee'duile. Amin utua mootamin na ner san' amin nowe. Amin naa dele ten' i'Ar'Tel'Quessir, ar' merna lle tessamin sienta en'ron tyarnie imyan'e nyentamin e'Rhydin.

Lle aa'atulta ai'beth a'amin ie'Tel'Red Dragon Inn, Rhydin. Amin tengwuva a'lle au' iire amin caela ner nyar. Amin eleuva lle rato, ar' elen sila lumenn omentilmo.

Lurielle Elentia

Her mouth tightened at the thought of deceiving Jiraen, even in such a small way, but telling him the truth in this instance was something the she was unwilling to do. After all, to admit to another elf that she was remaining longer in Rhydin than expected simply because a human had caught her eye would be asking for censure.

If it had not been for the real purpose of her visit, Jiraen would likely have insisted on accompanying her for protection, not that Lurielle thought she needed it. But no matter how good a friend he was to her, he would not intrude on her privacy, and Luri's reasons for returning to Rhydin were personal. She had come to say a final good-bye to the past, and Edan'En'Dur Rochtura along with it.

Leaning her head back on the chair, she closed her eyes and pictured her house in the glade as she had seen it earlier that day.

***

Dust lay thick on everything, coating the covers on the furniture, muffling her steps and betraying her passage with footprints left upon the floor. The smell of age and neglect tickled her nostrils, and silence reigned. It saddened her that something that once had been so dear to her, so much a part of her, was now little more than a tomb for memories that refused to sleep as the dead should.

She would leave the house as it was, for now. Lorindol could use it if he wished, though she doubted the accommodations were quite what he was used to. But really she meant it for her children one day. Until then, the dust and the memories would be the only occupants. She would not return.

Her steps led her to the spiral staircase and she ascended slowly, watching her gauntleted hand push dust up the railing it slid along. Suppressing a sigh, Luri walked down the hall toward her bedroom " hers and Aidan's. This was the one room she had not visited in her last trip to Rhydin and Quicksilver Glade. And even now she hesitated on the threshold, peering into the shadows. Her heart wanted to succumb to the torrent of memory that sought a way past her defenses, but her mind refused. Steeling herself, her face as grim as if she waded into battle, she walked into the room and began going through the items it contained.

When she emerged, she carried a small chest filled with odds and ends that she would go through later. Now that her purpose here was nearly complete, her footsteps quickened and grew more determined. It was time to leave this place and let the ghosts of the past haunt it unmolested. She descended the stairs and paused at her old desk, adding a bundle of scrolls and old correspondence to the chest. Then, lifting a leather satchel filled with books and papers, she slung it over her shoulder and turned for a last look at the room.

It was funny, she mused, how elves lived in the past even when the present swirled around them like the tide and the future, a wave of uncertainty, rushed to meet them. Once, she had believed herself different " she had believed that she had made peace with her past and moved on. But standing there looking over the place that had been her home for decades, Lurielle admitted the bitter truth. Despite everything, despite all the years that stood between them, she had always known in her heart that she and Aidan would be together once more. She had cherished the past with him and secretly hoped that it would turn full circle and become her future as well.

She had been wrong.

Her eyes, the blue of a winter sky, filled with tears as she turned her back on the room and left, closing the door behind her. It was if closing that door opened a hole of loss within, and she leaned her forehead against the gnarled wood, waiting for the pain to ebb. In time, she would fill that hole. She would move forward and be stronger for it.

Lurielle straightened and squared her shoulders. "Namaarie, Aidan, melamin," she whispered to the air of the glade. Then she mounted her horse, left tethered in the glade, and headed back to Rhydin.

She did not look back.

Lurielle

Date: 2007-03-24 19:25 EST
Her day had improved considerably since leaving Quicksilver Glade. When she had returned to the inn, Brendan had not been far behind her. They had found time to talk over a cup of coffee and her mood had been much happier. Only one thing had occurred to mar her enjoyment of his company. When he had risen to go, there had been such regret and hesitation in the kiss he'd pressed to her cheek that she knew her behavior of the night before still upset him. As she had mounted the stairs to her room, Lurielle had decided that she would do what she could to make amends.

Now evening approached, and she vowed to be on her best behavior. Of course, her best behavior might not be quite as good as the average person's, but she could only do so much. She would start with her appearance. After all, if she wanted him to realize that she was interested, a change in attire couldn't hurt. With a mind to that, Lurielle had spent the better part of the afternoon in Rhydin's Marketplace area, moving from shop to shop in an attempt to find just the right thing to wear.

Now she eyed herself critically in the mirror, noting the way the fine midnight-blue silk of the dress fit. It was snug in the bodice, emphasizing a narrow waist and making her curves seem slightly more generous than they really were by contrast. It flared only slightly past her hips, and the hem stopped just above matching slippers embroidered with thread-of-silver. The slim lines made her look a bit taller, she fancied. And she was tall for the females of her race, which made her an entire five feet and two inches. Her build was athletic, for she spent more time practicing the forms of a sword than putting neat stitches in embroidery. She frowned, wondering if that would be unattractive to Brendan.

"Lurielle, mani naa raika yassen lle?" she asked herself aloud, shaking her head in disbelief. Something was certainly wrong with her. When was the last time she had wasted even a minute in wondering what a man might find appealing in her" She was not about to change after so long anyway, so pondering it was ridiculous. Nodding firmly at her conclusion, she turned back to the mirror and lifted her silver-backed brush from the vanity.

Her irritation with herself lent a certain briskness to her strokes as she tackled any tangles in her red-gold hair unmercifully. She brushed it until it shone like silken flame, then caught it up above each lobeless, upswept ear with a silver and sapphire comb, leaving the rest loose to fall to the middle of her back.

Turning her head from side to side, she decided it would do. To the slim belt of hammered silver that rode her hips, she added one of the magical daggers that she usually wore. Even dressed as she was, the thought of going completely unarmed was so foreign as to be ridiculous. Besides, the glittering sapphire of Frostfang was a nice accompaniment to her gown.

Her toilette complete, she took a deep breath and left her room. This had all better be worth it. Sighing, she hoped behaving herself wouldn't prove too difficult.