::That day After Victor and She parted Shea would head tot he cemetaray,a palce she had been ofren,witha arm full of red roses she would walk throught he tombs past them dropping roses to each one as she went,if she knew the person or not. Those thats he did know,got a bright blue rose.Then she would leave one by the tree for Adaron,One upon soild stone ground for Blahl, then she would walk,slowly to a plot that was empty and kneal.::

::The grass under her knees was green, and she was in all black,save for that green claoks hood over her head,she would lower that now as several rocks atrted to flaot towards ehr at her will. They would lay upon the grass before her.And she would chant something in elvish and the ground would softly move,but only under where she knelt those rock would melt ina heat that shea herself created. They would form up and in to a silvery grey tomb much like the ones around her,smooth yet rough. The tomb that grave marker was bare for a momnet as tears started to form in thsoe jade pools of hers.::

:: Then she would take off both of her gloves and look to that ring upon her finger there.Then witha Seday hand she started to press her fingers to the cold stone tablet,fire and ehat from ehr fingers pressed in to that stone and carve dout a name. That Name seen there,just as all the others were: Connar Valdor. After she finished his last name the first of many tears fell to that soil under her.Slowly under his name she scrolled what looked like elven wind desings and then leaves under that. There were No dates of birth or death....::

::Then under that scrolling of elven desings she pressed her fingers again to write the words Beloved Savior. More tears hit the soil. The she spoke,very sofly as he winds raced through her hair:: I know ye did not die on Rhydin soil,but this way,others can pay you visit,as I shall. I will miss you...my love,my friend. You saved my life more times than I can count. I know that you are at peace,and happy for me. You do not regret a moment of our time together and nor do I. I shall remember every pain,every tear,every moment.Flustered and smitten all. I have given your love and prayers to Wyh, and Des who shall give them to their loves.I still must talk to Shy and Miss Mercy...My family knows of your passing,and gives you their blessings to fly upon the winds of the north,to bathe in the light of your heaven.

::More tears hit the ground:: I still have your medallion,and that shirt you gave to me to wear after the fight with Rae. They shall go to join those things I keep at home,in that cabnet of old treasures from my loves past...::more tears now,sobbing openly in the day light:: Know that I am happy...Victor...makes me so.....::She looked up to the blue sky then back down to that tomb:: I do hope you did not have to die in pain,or suffering...some part of me ::she now pressed that hand with that ring on it to that tomb:: if there were ever some mortal part,would wait still for you forever more...::her eyes looked tot hat ring:: I am engaged now. I love him. Its not like what you and I had,its not like anything I've ever felt before. But I am happy. I knew someday I would lay you to rest,I just didn't know it would be so soon. :

:She pressed her lips to the cold stone just above his name:: I swore never to say goodbye to yu,and even though those words now utterd from my lips,I shall never truly say goodbye,for I shall remember you when I am old and grey...::then she would dig in to her coin purse and pull out one of those coins from her homeland,she would sob as she pressed it to the stone and let the stone take it in,then as she pulled away there under Belvoed Savior would alls ee that coin,dragon faced outward for all to see and that glowing blue-green gem there:: May the winds guide you,always my love,my friend...::more tears hit the ground she would pull her hands back from that tomb and slip her gloves on,then slip that dagger from its sheath and cut off a few long locks of her dark blue hair. She would palce it upon the soil by the foot of that tomb and weigh it down witha smooth rock,also there a bright white and red rose.Then she stood and pulled that hood of dark green over her head and left the cemetary...tears still running down her cheeks as she wlaked away back towards town,leaving her past behind her,as much as she was able::

* cross posted inRamblings of and Elvish Knight

::No flowers today did she drop as she walked to one gave and one grave alone:: I once told you that I tried not to let my past rule my life,you told me then it was sage advice if I could follow it. I could not then, I can not now. ::She pressed her hands tot hat cold stone, as she sat there before the grey tomb of her lost love.:: I know you did not die on Rhydins soils,I wish I knew if you...could hear me. But this sooths my soul none the less.I speak nothing of all these thoughts to anyone,my nightmares have returned, no matter what we faced in the past Raevyn, Blahl the dark magics of Crendia. I faced so much before that, my borhte his teacher, their fire rage. And a ll though yes as you may remember, Jinnalt came to me asking for forgivensss and he trianed me, so that I might be ready to face that smoky demaon that you helpped me face, the one from the orb. Hand in hand we faced dangers,you became part of a war that I know you didnt want to be in...

::A sigh passed through her lips:: I often wonder, if I had waited,for longer,if my heart had not been so ripe and ready for easy taking. Would I not be talking to this tomb, would I be sitting beside you,alive and well. Starring in to those hazel eyes which I shall miss. He does not know me as you did, and he knows me in ways you never could have.

I often wonder what was in his past, I knew of yours we shared them both by the fire sides many times, sleepingside by side...I learned much by your side, and I do not regret any moment but one....letting you go. That night in the alley way I should have begged you to stay...my heart aches to see you,my lips...:: tears ran down her cheeks:: and I know I should not be thinking these things I am engaged, but it is all moving so fast, yes there is love there, passion and desire. Yes I am happy....but there are so many things he does not know, so many things I could not begin to tell him....I tell no one..

I feel as if I am a dead woman walking,everyday ehre. I fight because it is what I must do for my friends here, for the peace of rhydin that may never come...::her fingers touched those marks upon the left side of her neck then she gazed to that ring on her finger:: I often wonder :her voice now a whsiper:: if I had waited,a month longer,if I would not be wearing this ring, this lovely ring...

but if I would be wearing a differnt one....I never to,d you this, but you remember how my uncle Dagor makes all the metal things of my lands, swords,rings armor so forth, and how he made both Salices and Shays rings....he tld me that he longed for the day he could make one for me, he made my mothers ring his sisters out of love,out of honor. He said he ahd the plans in the works for this ring he was tomkae me,that was mys ecret the whole time at winter fest. My family loved you, everyone of them, and little Vanya....I still close my eyes and see you two dancing....I still hear her calling you uncle connar.....I must confess soemthing sometimes when i clsoe my eyes its you I see....there beside me. I doubt very much that we would have ever wed..but I think about....

I know this ring is beautiful,to human and elven eyes it shall be, but I often think of what Dagor wold have made for me,I see it sometime sin my dreams. My sisters both ahve rings fitting to their perosnallitys and mage ablitys, salices so elegrant and fluid like water, shays so soild and study with that rose befitting the daughter of the rose...I can ofeten see mine, fluid and soft like a wind,like my mothers ring yet different. It might break Dagors heart to know that I have this ring,beautiful yes, but not the one i always invisioned. I dare not tell Victor that....

He wants the wedding here in Rhydin, I stillw ant it at home. Yes I ahve friends ehre, and no if it was at home they could not go. But if it is here it is more likely that my sisters will not be here to see me married. Salice is days away at best from having her child...Shavyn will be on her honey moon with Kulbin after spring fest, and yes Aiden may be the only one to attend....::more tears ran down her cheeks as she pressed ehr fingers to hhis anme there in that stone tomb::

I never got to thank you, for everything, for loving me, for helping me, for standing by me, for saving my life. ::Her hands were pulled back then: I shall visit this place often,for part of me will always hope that you can hear me....even if I can never see you again... ::She would place a soft kiss to that tomb:: Aman tel' Seldarine,A'maelamin ::Shea would then rise to her feet and cross out of the cemetary the wind would then take her away again,to sandy shores and waves.Where she could sit and think a while, ebfore going back to that inn to train ehr stuent. Once that trianing was done she woudl walk within her roo, and ask for some outside help:: *see elemental buisness