"Yes but no one else I ever knew did," there was a small shrug of his shoulders. It was something he was embarrassed to admit to because here it seemed so ordinary and at home it had been akin to mental illness. How was that possible" Jeremy felt sane, acted sane. No one had ever said his behavior was 'alarming' at any point. He could maintain a job and....well, maybe he didn't maintain a relationship so well. He jammed his hands into the front pockets of his hoodie again and smiled at her, "I came here to see if there was a reason or if something was wrong with me. Originally, I thought I'd just go back but I dunno. I don't think I can do coffee like my dad did."
His hands in his pockets, Layla lifted her hand away, her fingers smoothing down those jet black waves instead. She turned away, busying herself with pouring the coffee once it was finished. She was making Turkish coffee, a sweet, syrupy version of the caffeinated drink that was rich in flavor.
The artist poured one cup, having guessed that Jeremy didn't actually want any when he asked for water instead. That settled, she was out of things to do to keep herself turned away, and Jeremy still hadn't sat back down yet, so Layla wondered if perhaps he was leaving. "Well, I am glad you came here. I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but I am also very aware of what it's like to feel so....different." She gave a meek smile, then. "Do you still dream here?"
"I do. It's about the same so location doesn't seem to matter." Jeremy paused and then looked from her to the door, his hands burrowing even deeper into his jacket pockets, "Sorry, it's just....I'm not really sure what I should be doing. I told you about why some people get invited in and I keep feeling a little out of place." That they were talking like friends and not that clothes were disappearing. She had invited him in for conversation as it if was three in the afternoon instead of being closer to three am. He hadn't wanted it to nag at his thoughts, but it did.
She took a step back, taking a lean against the counter. The hour hadn't really occurred to her, and his apology had her wondering about the time. She glanced sidelong at a small analog clock sitting on top of the microwave and winced. "I'm sorry for disturbing you, Jeremy. I didn't realize how late it had become. You can ...." A wry smile. "You poor thing. You probably wanted to leave ages ago. Here, I can walk you out..."
"I didn't want to leave." He stepped up to her when she made the glance at the time on the microwave. His head was cocked to the side, a brush of his shaggy dark hair coming down to his brow, "But I was thinking that maybe I should. I keep reading into the situation a little bit different and..." he shifted his weight left, then right again before answering, "I'm having to keep reminding myself of how and why I'm here. You get used to things, you know, even if they aren't wrong or right but just are."
Confusion marred dark features. She didn't have a lot of experience reading the moods of men, and maybe that was part of it. He seemed restless, anxious to leave despite having declared otherwise. Layla's head tilted to the side, looking up at him helplessly. "I don't....I'm sorry Jeremy but I don't understand." Dismayed, the girl shook her head, her shoulders lifting in a shrug. She turned away from him again, taking up her small coffee cup and sipping from its rim. It gave her something to do, calmed her nerves.
Layla really didn't get it, either. She replayed the evening in her mind, trying to figure out what it was that had put him in this state of mind. He'd seemed eager to leave the ice cream shop with her, but reluctant to arrive at the shop. He'd wanted to come in despite warning her what other people sometimes meant when they said that, but suddenly he was restless and pulling away. But then she offered to walk him out, to let him leave, and he said he didn't want to.
None of it made any sense.
"I don't know what I'm supposed to...do...now..."
"You could kiss me or just wish me goodnight. I don't know which one I'm supposed to do right now, to be honest," his smile cracked for her just then, admitting the weakness of indecision in the light of everything else which was happening. Jeremy honestly didn't know how to approach her and that was showing. He didn't know if he should kiss her or back off, if she wanted him there in a friendly or romantic way. He wanted to tell her that the last time he was invited over so late that it wasn't with the intention that he would leave so early.
He kept in mind that she was different, though. It confused him as much as it gave him a feeling of exhilaration. At the very least, her actions were genuine.
Kiss me or just wish me goodnight. Layla's heart was loud in her chest, beating hummingbird-fast against the cage of her ribs. She wondered, briefly, if she had the courage to initiate a kiss like that, if she could be that bold. It was an intimidating, daunting thought, but only a short while ago he'd talked about not wanting to have to be the one who made things clear every time.
Taking a deep breath, Layla set the coffee cup aside. Being here was all about not being at home, right' Escaping the life that had been planned out for her almost from the moment of her birth' Pursuing her own dreams, doing what she wanted to do' Well, no time like the present to make that happen.
She took one step towards him, and then a second. The girl was nervous but determined as she reached for him again, her hands soft and warm on his shoulders just to either side of his neck.
His hands drew to rest just at the outside of her waist. It was a featherlight touch followed by a small, encouraging squeeze. Whether she had meant to or not, it coerced him into leaning down into her, lips pausing just before connecting with her. One day he'd have less hesitation when it came to her. He remember the cool strawberry of her mouth and wondered, now, what she might be like without that influence. What the kiss would be like when there was only her and him in it and not the outside influences of all those other things.
Still, he wasn't planning on the kiss meaning more than what it was, but that didn't mean he wasn't enjoying it. It felt like unwrapping something so new that all he could do was be careful with it.
Drawing the pad of her thumb lightly over the line of his shoulder, Layla's gaze was centered there for a time. She'd studied that particular line so many times since she'd met the blacksmith, but this was the first time she'd actually felt it with her hands. A dim smile touched her lips as she traced it, memorized it.
His hands gave her waist a gentle squeeze and there was something so reassuring about that, something so comfortable and at the same time thrilling. At length she lifted her gaze to his face, her mouth lining up with his as she tilted her head back subtly. In that frozen position, a heart beat apart and no further, Layla hesitated only a second or two more before gently pressing her mouth to his.
There were long pauses with her and at times he wondered if there was regret or the want to pull away lingering there. All he could do, really, was try not to press her too much when she kissed him like that. He had almost withdraw as the moment drew long and then, at the last moment, her mouth moved against his. He lessened in gentle apprehension and started to draw his tongue along the perimeter of her lips to coax her mouth to open. Something about the moment seemed forbidden, as if her overbearing father and brother could have walked down and 'caught' them at any moment.
His right foot moved to the inside of her's, the blade nestling in the bare arch of her foot as their lips connected.
It wasn't lack of desire that gave her pause, just the opposite, in fact. It was courage building, gathering the strength and resolve to override her training and pursue what she wanted. And right now what she wanted was to kiss Jeremy.
Mouths met and her hands slid around the back of his neck as if by instinct, weight lifting off the heel of her left foot onto its ball as the knee rotated out, to rest lightly along the outside of his leg. Her lips parted at his coaxing.
The girl was Turkish coffee and something of cinnamon and honey. The gentle scent of rosewater and jasmine in her hair and along her throat. She was desert heat with a lurking promise of summer floods, all quiet hum and secret glimpses of rarely checked potential energy.
One of his hands strayed from her side to take ahold of her backside, encourage her body to rock and curl further into his thn she was already. Sooner or later he would have to get past the apprehension her inexperience gave him. It affected things, like that current moment where his grip suddenly lost spine and went back up to her waist. His lips broke from her's to whisper a, "Sorry, I was just..." but no further explanation followed. What he was doing wasn't exactly a mystery.
"Do you still want to do dinner this weekend?" Had he asked for too much, taken what she offered him too far" He kissed her again, but briefly, hoping that it reminded her of what it was like being connected with him. He's still lingering strawberry and chocolate over the taste and smell that was just him.
Layla moved where she was lead, her pulse skyrocketing as his hand slid over her, pressing her closer. Her arms slid that much more completely around his neck, drawing her body flush against his, and just as suddenly as the shift had happened it was backing off again, melting into apologies.
She shook her head, though not because of the question of dinner. She didn't think he had anything to apologize for. "Don't be sorry," she whispered back, and it came out more of a plea than she'd anticipated. "I do want to make you dinner, still." He kissed her again and she kissed him back, growing more confident in the gesture.
"I should probably get going," it was said like something he needed to do, not that he wanted to do it. That staying would have perils of its own he wasn't ready to....deal with. Not yet. Not like this. His arms closed around her, coiled around her lower back as he looked at her, "It's getting a little late for you to keep entertaining me, I think. Not without me staying over and...." there was a small shrug of his shoulders. He would have liked to have promised her that he'd be a gentleman, but Jeremy didn't think so. Not with her dark eyes looking up at him with that kinda want which they carried.
"I will have everything ready for you and....I'll be counting the hours until you're over." Another kiss, but this time to the warm spread of her cheek. It was like being a kid again when he did it, gazing at her intently with a slow, gentle smile appearing. "We could call and text a bit until then...?"
Her nod was a reluctant one, as though conceding his point though not exactly happy about it. He was right to withdraw, though; what she thought she wanted and what she was actually probably ready for were likely not evenly aligned. "Alright," said Layla slowly, holding him close for several seconds more before she withdrew.
A little smile melted and spread more thickly over her finely carved features. Her gaze momentarily downcast as the smile grew, she nodded again. His cheek kiss was warm, and her fingers gently brushed his cheek, the edge of his jaw, down the side of his neck. "Alright. I would like that."
"You'll have to show me the way out," he pointed upward, to the shop overhead and the exit door he knew of, "I don't think I can navigate it in the dark without you and if I break something I'm not sure that I could forgive myself." His smile cracked a bit further then, wetting his lips and then tilting his head to the side to see if a more easy smile would break across her lips for him. Jeremy stepped backward towards the steps, but was clearly waiting for her to lead the way upward and through the dark.
That smile he was looking for blossomed on her face, completely unconscious and unbidden. She had dimples when the smile was genuine enough; they didn't show up all the time but they were on display now. Taking a settling breath, the girl loops shiny black waves behind one ear pierced in gold, and she followed him to the steps, slipping her feet back into her sandals. Gathering folds of her skirt in a double handful to keep herself from stepping on it, Layla began to climb.
Back through the work room into the dark showroom, and her hand reached for his to guide him through the dark.
At the top of the stairs she took the lead. Through the work room where their hands grasped one another's. It was a clear walk through and perhaps it was all about having one more moment where their fingers laced together to the front door of her shop. Once there, he gave her arm a jerk that was strong enough to turn her body back towards his.
It apparently wasn't too dark for him to find her mouth in the moonlight that shone through the windows of her shop. His lips caught her's and held them there, his body side stepping until his back was against the door of her shop. There was the smallest, gentlest moan in his throat, the only indicator of an impatient want for more. Of a regret for having to step out of the door like he was having to just then.
Pulled around and then into him, Layla giggled softly in the dark, and it sounded much louder in the echoing silence of the closed store. Their mouths met again and she was more ready for it this time, her lips parting easily as they kissed. His moan caused a curious reaction, a tightening in her belly that was unexpected but surprisingly pleasant.
He leaned back against the door and she followed him, seemingly unwilling to break away from him. Perhaps that want was more than one sided. When the kiss ended at last, Layla rested her forehead against his shoulder a moment, just savoring his presence. Eventually she stepped back, looking up at him with a faint smile. "...It's not....so many hours until Saturday, is it?"
"No, it isn't. I promise." His left hand cradling her face, partly, as she leaned it into his shoulder. There was a groan from him, his head bowing to press a series of kissed at the gentle curve of her neck that was offered up. Between kisses he added, "I will count," another kiss, "the hours." Jeremy smiled at her and then broke away awkwardly. Why was it awkward" He was unzipping his dark red hoodie, which meant a shuffling of hands and a forward lean. The hoodie came to rest upon her shoulders, leaving him in an blue-grey t-shirt with some company logo printed over his chest.
"That way you won't forget about me until then." He smiled, though, knowing it was far from the truth. Knowing he had come up with an excuse to impart his jacket to her, "Just bring it back to me on Saturday, okay?"
Those kisses brought a shiver up the back of her neck, pushing her closer to him. The words felt like a promise, and she responded wordlessly, spilling kisses of her own onto the ridge at his collar. All those lines that had transfixed her so, now under her fingers, under her lips.
She didn't understand why he was removing his jacket until she found it draped around her like a cape, filled with the warmth of his body and the subtle scent of him. Layla smiled, then, fitting her arms through the sleeves, and then she nodded. "I'll take very good care of it until then."
"I'll see you Saturday. Promise." His body bent down just enough to kiss her again. Left and splayed behind him to catch and shove the door behind him. Finally their lips broke and he broke away from her, stepping out the door but still looking over his shoulder at her with a smile. She was adorable in the hoodie that was oversized, wrapping her up and holding her in a dark, subtle red that complimented her skin tone.
His lips pressed in a line and then he walked onward, to what would be the outskirts of the marketplace and towards his bachelor apartment. There was cleaning and some haphazard decorating to be done.