Topic: Treading Water

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-04-08 00:23 EST
Lately it felt like life was about treading water.

Things had changed, and he wasn't sure exactly what to do about them. He didn't have a friend to spill his concerns to. There was no template of experience for him to follow and the way people here handled things was different enough that he didn't know if he was going about anything the right way. Iona was an ex-lover now and he had no idea how to act around her anymore. It showed, badly, and she'd called him out on it. He couldn't seem to put the right words together....but that wasn't a new issue. Expressing himself had always been a hurdle he failed at.

At times it seemed she moved on and was doing just fine, as if what had been between them was some sort of very long dream. At times he thought he saw a give in her, the same sort of give he had. What was he supposed to do"

She seemed aggravated with him the last time they saw each other. He had been awkward as hell. Was he supposed to laugh and joke with her as if they had always been friends" Was he supposed to ignore the offhand way she treated things? The casual way of it all felt isolating, somehow. The danger with old lovers was that it was too easy to remember why there had been love and to fall back into that old pattern. He didn't want to be that guy that hung on stupidly, longingly, for something that had gone. He didn't want to be the idiot ex-lover and he was grappling, awkwardly, with how to just be the friend.

Living in the shop hadn't helped. He'd moved out, though, and that was good. Moving out meant living in a cheap, unimpressive bachelor pad, but it was better than living in the tomb of an old relationship. There were fresh walls with no memories of koi fish with questions and things there felt like they were new again. He kept that job at Iona's shop, which gave him the familiar anchor he needed to keep from just drifting away. He was glad that was still there for him. He even liked seeing the smallest, distant indicators that she might have been by. It had always eased him to know she was well.

Part of reshaping what his life was had to do with working. He wanted something that was his, something outside of that small world he had kept himself in with living and working in the shop. A woman named Echo said Miz Kitten was hiring. Maybe for a bouncer or maybe something else. It was best if he just kept busy....but the dark, directionless void ahead was offering little solace. He knew all he had to do was keep one foot in front of the other.

To shut his eyes, dream, and know it would be all right.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-04-11 12:19 EST
"How many does she need?" Jeremy blinked at the messenger, looking up from the piece of paper to him.

The kid was about seventeen and for some reason looked nervous. He reached out and tapped the paper where the order information was, "Twenty."

Jeremy had been working at the furnace all day. His skin was shiny from the sweat that made his black hair look wet against his skin at the back of the neck and his temples. His skin looked darker, redder than it actually was because of how the furnace had made him flush. The smell of the metal and heat was practically imbued in him these days. There were black smears up his arms and on the hand that held the order note. His hand holding it left behind the sort of fingerprint impressions he saw the police use.

His gaze lifted from the note and back to the messenger, "She wants twenty candlestick holders?"

"Yeah. They're for decoration and then also as gifts for when the esteemed guests leave. She also wants them glazed and done by Friday. She's willing to pay extra for the hurry."

Jeremy folded the note, shoving it in his back pocket. He looked over his shoulder at the hot coals and his tools, all of which looked as though they were waiting for something to happen. For him to come back and do something about it. His attention swung back to the kid, "She has to pay more for specialty orders, never mind if they are rush orders. Tell her I've got it."

The kid bobbed his head at him several times in a nod before he turned on his heels and ran. Jeremy arched his back to stretch it and returned to the fires.

Twenty metalwork candle holders in less than a week and then he might start that part time bit with Miz Kitten. The week was going to be exhausting. At least it would pay well. He sucked in a breath, eyeing everything he had in anticipation of starting the job. He was going to need to find a way to glaze the metal, too. He hadn't taken an order like that before. With all the shops in town, someone was bound to have something like that. Maybe a painter or just a supply store. It was just another catch to make a difficult project that much more challenging.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-04-24 10:00 EST
It took some asking around, but he got what he needed for the job with the candlesticks. It kept him busy all week and by the end of it he had wondered if the job had been worth it until he got that paycheck. The number was big enough on it that he thought the paper should have weighed more.

On the walk home to his apartment, it occurred to him that he wasn't even sure why the money mattered. Sure, money mattered. He needed enough to keep himself sheltered, fed and clothed. Once all of that was accomplished maybe he liked to get a few beers at the inn, but that wasn't often and didn't amount to much. A few bucks saved up for any problems wasn't bad, either. Earning money and saving it just felt like an easy goal to go after, even if there didn't seem to be much of a purpose or end game.

Once he was home and showered up, he thought about how it wouldn't be long until he worked his first few shifts for Mz. Kitten at the club. Or was it Ms. Kitten" He'd never worked at a bar before and still wasn't sure what to expect. He'd had a few drinks at the Red Dragon and even back at home he had done some indulging, but being a patron was different than being at work. At the very least, it was going to be something new, and that was the part that mattered the most.

As he walked home to the apartment he thought over the next few days. In the morning he'd need to jog. His body hurt but it'd be the only way to get the ache out of it. Then a hot shower, fresh clothes and he'd be ready for the day. There would only be the need to fill the hours until his shift started. He had gotten a new book about soldiers in a war that he was reading. They kept talking about how the generals were so brilliant, how their military tactics were awe inspiring. Jeremy disagreed with what some of the generals decided and wondered if he had been them, in that moment, if his choices would have been better ones than that of those men. Would fewer soldiers have died"

He opened the door to his apartment and turned on a light that buzzed whenever he had the switch flipped. He dropped his bag onto the small kitchen table and then went to the bathroom, where he brushed his teeth. Still, his mind was on that imaginary battlefield where he tried to predict the outcome. The thought that he could outwit an experienced, successful war-time general when he had never been to war seemed egotistical to admit, but privately he enjoyed the idea. Not just of being a hero, but being the better hero. That somehow people involved in the event would have known how badly it could have turned out and then how well he'd managed it. He liked to pretend his ideas could be revolutionary.

He spit the foam of his toothpaste into the bottom of the sink and washed off his face. He looked at his reflection in the mirror for a moment. Time to sleep.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-05-12 16:02 EST
Jeremy had been working on commissions, per usual, all that week. When an order came for items which would line the driveway, the patron offered him more just to get it all handled himself. They wanted metal spirals around ceramic pots which they would no doubt fill with something flowery.

The problem was he didn't do ceramics. He'd have to find the pots, or order them to meet the specifications he was given. That meant leaving the shop and going about town to find them.

It was thirty minutes after closing time that he did just that. The first three places he visited either had things which were inferior or shipped it. It was on the fourth try that he reached her shop, not sure he would be there or what he would find. Perhaps his blue gaze already looked dull with the expectation of imports or another 'no, we don't do that' response.

The door opened on a showroom that doubled as a mini museum, ceramics and pottery of all kinds displayed behind glass or on pedestals. There were sculptures and busts, but also elegantly formed vases. In one corner there was a whole display of whimsically formed monster mugs — coffee cups with eyes and teeth and garish faces. The shop held just a little bit of everything, but two things were certain: they were each handmade, and the artist who made them took pride in her skill.

Layla usually spent her Fridays getting everything ready for the weekend festivals. In work clothes that were covered in ceramic dust, her dark hair pulled up in a bandanna, smudges of damp and drying clay on her cheeks, it was overwhelmingly clear that she was not expecting customers today when the little electronic doorbell chime summoned her to the front of the shop. She was delayed getting into the showroom to find out who it was because her arms had been full of things she was collecting for the kiln, and she wiped her hands on her dirty work jeans as she approached, her dark golden eyes seeking out the visitor inquisitively. "Hi," spoke the artist with just a touch of an accent that wasn't entirely traceable. "Can I help you?"

Jeremy wore hoodies most of the time. This one was a dark blue zip up with open mouthed pockets. He didn't have the marks of dirt like her, but the whisper of old scars on his hands from where he hadn't been careful enough at the fire pit. Despite the casual attire, it was clean, which was a mark that he'd changed it prior to showing up. His dark hair was longest and shuffled. When he spoke it was uncertain, like he'd forgotten his index cards to remind him of what to say, "Hello, I'm looking for eight pots that are round, blue, and thirty centimeters in diameter." He knew that the chances of that being on hand were slim— what he was hoping for was her ability to make them per request.

As though she'd only just become aware of her disheveled appearance, Layla's smile bloomed self-consciously. She plucked the bandanna from her head, sweeping her hands over mahogany curls in a vain attempt at making them more presentable; she wiped at the smudge on her cheek with the back of her hand. Dark eyes luminous with embarrassment, Layla shook her head. "I'm sorry I don't have anything like that ready, but....you could special order them' Depending on when you need it by, I could definitely make you some...?"

"Five days." He knew it was a task to ask that of her. But if he had them in five that left him only three to do the metal work. The time line for that situation was tight, but not impossible. After speaking he thought that he should have said four days and given himself more wiggle room, but he didn't want to correct himself and seem even more uncertain than he already was. "They want them blue and with sort of....dripping patterns. The height needs to be sixty centimeters." Thirty by sixty. He had repeated it to himself over and over until he was certain that the details of the order were a fact.

Weighing the feasibility of the timeline, Layla tipped her head at him. "Here....let me show you some of my work that's in that vein. See if it's even what you want before I go rearranging my schedule?" With the kind of laugh one gave when they were feeling nervous, the artist directed him towards the display case towards the back where the cash register sat. Slipping behind it, she pulled several binders from the shelving there, laying them out side by side on top of the glass. "Here. Have a look" I am Layla, also. Are you are...?"

Jeremy didn't want to admit that he was slightly desperate for the ceramic pots. With the window of time getting smaller and smaller, he didn't have many options. It was another situation where someone was paying for it to be done, done right, and right *now*. Those jobs themselves weren't fun but the paycheck always sweetened how he thought back on the work involved.

Still, he followed where she led him to her work. It was better than he expected. They looked professional and smooth while also not having a face, mass produced feel to them. They carried a sincerity.

"Oh, sorry. I'm Jeremy." He shook her hand shortly and then started to look over the pieces she set out in greater detail.

Layla took pride in her work, from the very complex to the very simple, each piece was toiled over with painstaking care and utmost patience. Sure, some of them came out more successfully than the others, but she was the kind of girl who would work and rework the same piece until it had molded into the best version of itself, or shattered altogether.

While he examined the pieces in the portfolios, she tore a piece of scratch paper from a notepad she kept near the register. Reaching under the counter, the girl pulled out a sleeve of colored pencils next, shaking a handful of blue ones from the box. Quickly she set to work sketching what he'd described, scribbling the dimensions he'd quoted in the margin.

"So you're looking for something like this?"

"Yes," Jeremy nodded when he saw it, then made a motion with his hand, "Sort of oval shaped so the sides curve in at the top and bottom and is widest at the center."

The man had been specific in some respects about these items. It seemed to him that the project was something that needed to be done, like a decoration for an important guest, as opposed to a meaningful piece that the owner would keep hold of for years to come. Money was money, though, and so long as it spent Jeremy didn't mind it so much.

"Do you think you can get those done in the time frame?" Nothing needed to be scored and then slip used to attach another piece of clay like one did with a mug so there was an advantage to the pieces being one unit without too much flare. Her biggest issue might be with the glazing and these pieces being intended at outdoor pots. He pointed at the base of the sketch, "There. It will need holes for the water to drain out the bottom."

Making amendments to her drawing at his words, she jotted down some notes, reshaping the lines. With a nod, she lifted eyes like burnt amber to his face. "Yeah, I'm pretty sure I can do it. You need" how many did you say again?"

Straightening her back, Layla slipped her phone out of one of her pockets, scrolling through to the calendar app to see what else she had scheduled to complete this week. "Is there a specific shade of blue you need, too?"

"It's....um," he reached in his back pocket, hesitating at the greeting screen on his cellphone before he started to flip through the screens. He found the email and then asserted, more confidently, "It's eight." This wasn't the sort of number that could be messed up. She asked about the shade of blue and Jeremy's face tightened with the sort of tension which said he didn't like the answer he was giving her but it was the only one he had, "Dark blue with some lighter blue streaks. But overall, dark blue." He was aware that there were blues which looked greener, or purple. But that was what his patron has said.

He remembered then, that he pointed to something blue and the man had nodded, quickly, that it was the sort of shade he was looking for, "A cobalt."

Making a note that she needed eight of them, her gaze followed where he was pointing, zeroing in on the item in question. "Got it," she said, making a note of the color, both by name and with a complicated string of numbers. Then she wrote the word "outside" and circled it a few times. Taking a deep breath, Layla gave the blacksmith a little smile. "Okay. I'm pretty sure I can have this done in time, but it's....definitely going to be a rush job. Is that alright?"

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-05-12 16:08 EST
Jeremy didn't like his first meeting with her to start with being inherently rude. That was what it was when you came to someone and asked them to rush. It implied that whatever it was you wanted was somehow more important than everything else going on and they should be made priority. "Yes, it has to be. If there's a surcharge for that, it's fine." After all, Jeremy would charge someone for it. If an order meant making his life a little harder than the patron definitely need to pay more.

He felt like he should apologize to her, except h hadn't done her wrong. No, he was wanting to apologize on behalf of the patron and not for anything he had done. She was either not irritated by his order or was being professional about it. He hoped it was the former. If he needed more ceramics done in the future he'd rather not burn the only real contact that worked.

There wasn't a lot of call for 'rush jobs' in Layla's line of work, so more than anything,she was perplexed and maybe a little amused. Her smile was a reassuring one, or tried to be. "I'll make it work."

Her skin was a warm golden color, like buttered toast, that tended to bronze in the summer or prolonged sunlight. Between her complexion and her accent, the artist could be identified as one of the faceless many who had come to this place from Elsewhere.

Though her studio was established enough and made enough to get by, there had never really been opportunities like this one to collaborate, to work together, to make friends.

"I'll need to figure out the pricing and get back to you, if that's alright. I've never really....taken an order quite like this one." Her laugh was quiet, a whisper of a thing, almost inaudible. Like someone who was accustomed to concealing the things she found amusing. "What are you going to do with these, if I may ask?"

"Really?" He hadn't known his order was odd. Jeremy just sort of thought everything was odd and like her, had come from Elsewhere. One of the things he had learned about was cellphones and technology. There was still some struggle there but a week of forcing himself to work with it now that finally made it seem so much more everyday. Still, when he was flustered it made him feel like everything he learned was forgotten and he wasn't even sure where the on button was.

"I was told the patron wants these ceramic pots to be wrapped in metal and for it to be like....on a stake," he gestured in the air a line and then a motion at the top of it where the ceramic dish would be, "and that there would be some plants they would put in them to decorate the front drive of some sort of....manor for a guy that must not know what to do with his money."

Listening to his description, a shy smile brushed her lips, and when he was finished, there was that quiet, voiceless laugh again. Layla shook her head, combing dark curling waves back from her face and smoothing them, or trying to, behind one ear. "...I can think of better ways to spend this kind of money, but..." She shrugged, her gaze intent on Jeremy's face as she gave him a shrug. "We will let him spend it on us and then we will use it for better purposes, yes?"

He was glad she didn't snub him. At times he realized that he wasn't always as cultured as other people and thought that some expenses the wealthy did weren't ones that always made sense. Brushing her hair out of her face and smiling at him with the little playful bit in it made him feel like he hadn't struck her poorly with what he said. "Yes, that's true. It's hard to complain when you're the benefactor."

It definitely wasn't a snub. Layla often dealt with the very wealthy, and although she was glad to take their money and make them the things they asked for, she had to admit that the things they asked for often perplexed her. A great deal of money seemed to breed a great deal of specificity.

Glancing back over her notes, she nodded once, unsure what to say next. "...Ah, was there anything else you needed" Would you like a glass of water?" It wasn't that she wanted him to leave, if anything the opposite was true. She was just shy and feeling kind of awkward and didn't want to end up just standing there staring at him.

Jeremy was also a bit awkward. He had trouble, sometimes, with communicating. The offer of water seemed nice, but a bit odd. It was clear that their conversation had run its course, they had settled all the details. The query on the glass of water seemed to him a polite way of asking him to leave.

He smiled politely and took a step back, motioning with a jerk of his thumb over his shoulder, "I work at the glass and metal shop if you ever want to come by and check it out." Since he had been here in her's, it seemed like the sort of thing to offer.

It had been just the opposite, actually, a flimsy excuse to stay. The metalworker didn't take it, though, and Layla assumed he probably thought it was a dumb thing to ask, which it was.

Her face flushing pink, she fidgeted with the hem of her dirty work shirt — look at yourself, girl, no wonder he said no — nodding once. "...Ah, sure. I'd like to, thanks. Um." Blushing all the more deeply, her smile turned sheepish. "...Should I call you with the estimate, or...?" He hadn't left contact information.

"I'd just get to making them. Oh, I'm sorry," he reached in his back pocket and pulled out his business card, handing it to her. Her tapped the paper unnecessarily, as if she didn't know how to read a business card, "My number is there. You can email me but....um.....calling or texting is better." He was finding it a bit overwhelming to manage all of those at the same time. Then he had a strange reaction. She was blushing and, like a yawn, it caused him to blush and feeling inexplicably flustered, "So, yes, I mean....call me. But I'll need an invoice for the final bit when I bill the guy."

Jeremy was blushing. Why was Jeremy blushing" Layla took the business card with an awkward nod. Scanning its contents rapidly, she set it on the glass counter with the sketch and her notes. "Of course. I'll try to have it done ahead of schedule." Trailing off, the girl frowned, trying to think of what else to say. "Oh! Ah. Thank you for the order. I appreciate your trust in my work."

"Well, I hadn't been able to find anyone else who could do it. You were the first one I could find and I didn't have time to keep looking." That was....not anywhere near a compliment and it was only after the words left his mouth that he wished he could have raked them back in. He swallowed and motioned with one hand as he spoke, "I mean, your work is very beautiful, and I am glad that I've found someone who can do versatile orders. I don't know a whole lot about pottery but it all looks pretty good to me."

It was pretty hard to keep herself from looking crestfallen, and the girl probably didn't actually manage it. Her expression sobering, Layla nodded, looking down. "Ah. Thank you." The compliment there at the end felt like what it was, a last minute addition to soften the blow. Offering him a her bravest smile, the artist looked up again. "I'll get started on it right away."

"I just meant that I like your work, you know, from what I've seen. You were better than the other shops." Was he drawing more attention to his blunder, digging that hole deeper, or was he actually helping his cause by speaking of it further" Jeremy cleared his throat and made a small wave of his hand, "Well, I hope to see you around the shop. I might come by to check on our progress if that's okay?"

"That's be nice." He waved again for her, small and a bit worried, then turned on his heel, exiting her shop and feeling like he'd inadvertently been a jerk.

This wasn't the first time he'd been told he said the wrong thing. Or didn't say something when maybe he should. Today it was the wrong thing and he was beginning to wonder if that problem had a cure.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-05-12 16:14 EST
The day at work in the shop had been a long one for him. He had replayed his interaction with Layla over his head, wishing he hadn't said that stupid part about her work. Why couldn't talking be easier for him' Whenever he kept it short and simple things were fine, but that only worked for so long. He was left having to learn every lesson in communication the painful way.

At six he had shut up, got in touch with customers and cleaned up his areas. He was careful about his work area, making sure that it stayed clean and properly kept up. He didn't shower, he just changed out of his sweaty shirt and into a clean one, throwing on a black cotton hoody that was so thin the white t-shirt underneath could be seen. It didn't have a zipper but a pouch in the front for him to jam his hands into. Keys and wallet were in his pants. His black sneakers were lightweight and laced tight.

He felt fine until he reached the outside of her shop. At that moment, a quick replay of their conversation before haunted him. He was overthinking it. It wasn't that bad. It'd be fine. He pushed through the door and smiled, calling, "Layla" It's Jeremy."

The chiming of the little electronic doorbell alerted Layla that the front door had been opened. She was slightly more presentable today, but only just; in a pair of army green pants that sat low on her hips and a black tank top, there was a strip of bronzed skin that showed between the hems of each. Clay dust and strips of blue glaze decorated her bare arms and her shirt both, and there were smudges here and there along her pants, too. She'd been dressed more presentably during the main work hours, of course, but now she had set to work in earnest on finishing some of all these projects she had lined up, and it showed that she cared more about the work than she did her outfit.

Rising from her work bench, Layla took a moment to wipe her hands off, at least, before she crossed back over into the show room. "Oh, Jeremy, hi. I should have known that was you." She said with a polite smile. "Here, I have your test back here in the shop." Gesturing the door she'd just come through to invite him back.

Her eyes didn't look cold and at least she was smiling. He nodded and pointed at the place where they had spoken during his last visit, "I said the other day that I would come to check on progress to make sure we were on the same page before you fired or glazed anything." He said it as if she needed the reminder on their conversation. After speaking he thought that it was, perhaps, a bit odd that he had done that. She already told him that there was a test, she already knew.

Hoping that the slip could just go by unaddressed, he followed the motion of her hand into the back of her shop. He could smell the wet-dry of the pottery clay in the air. His shop felt like being in the bellows, while her's felt like they had crawled into a cavern where the stalactites and stalagmites were stacked on shelves and grew into figures that shone with a glass fired finish.

It did feel a little bit like a cave back there; the scent of damp earth and mineral glaze. It felt almost like it should be dark and shadowy, and in some places it was, but there were also brilliant lights here and there at the work stations. Although it was cool over all, there was a burgeoning heat source in the back that smelled of fire and heat — the kiln, too hot to be continually heated up and cooled off again, it ran twenty four-seven, chewing energy as it went like a dragon in a burrow.

She led him past racks and racks of pottery in various stages of completion to where she had his test subject set up. The little pot was made to the specifications of the drawing she'd completed with him the night before, with samples of the finished glazes she'd chosen laid out beside it. The holes he wanted in the bottom were there, even the vague-ish 'drippy swirl pattern' he'd mentioned had been replicated to the best of her abilities in a sort of water color wash to give him an idea of the finished piece. She gestured him forward to have a closer look.

"Is it acceptable?" asking in a soft voice after he'd had some time to investigate, the girl felt nervous, trying not to fidget.

The shop was hard not to be distracted by. He knew a few things about pottery, but had never developed the skill or really worked from it. He knew the principle of clay being heated and then the glazing. He knew things were hot and that they had to be done a certain way or the pieces would explode in the ov— the kiln. They would explode in the kiln. Layla didn't seem worried, though, that there could be an explosion. He supposed someone whose pottery was advanced didn't often make those mistakes. That, or the kiln trapped the problem and it wasn't nearly as dramatic an event as he imagined it would be.

Finally the piece she had done was brought up to his eyes and turned between his hands. Jeremy felt the weight of it and liked how smooth. It even still felt warm like a cookie just taken from the oven. The drainage holes looked adequate enough from what he could tell. His eyes, a flat cobalt that was less interesting than the changes and nuances of the glaze pattern she had made in the piece, settled on her, "And this will be okay outside?"

Layla watched him, her burnished gold eyes traveling his frame as he studied her work. It was with the discerning eye of a fine artist — there were busts and figure studies among the racks of semi-finished works in the shop. She studied the line of his shoulders, the curve of his neck, the set of his jaw. Almost like she was memorizing his lines.

Blinking a couple of times to bring herself out of her study when he looked up, Layla gave a crescent of a smile that was almost sheepish, hoping she hadn't been caught in her study. "Yes," she nodded, "I had to play with a couple of different ones to get the color right, but all of these are for outdoor use."

Jeremy's build had changed. His muscles were like wires when he first came to Rhy'Din. It took a lot of strength and gripping power to climb trees and collect a coffee bean harvest manually. As a teenager he would take the risk of leaping from one tree to another like a squirrel. When he grew up, and maybe a few scars later, he had to heave the ladder and carry the hauls back. The meal waiting him at home was a simple one. That had been his life until he came to this city.

The last year he'd packed on weight. He forged metal, which took the effort of hauling it. He went through a boot camp for soldiers. His diet was richer, too. His muscles devoured the more plentiful calories and constructed a fuller frame. Maybe Layla could not see the history of it when she studied him, but she would have known that Jeremy was a physical and active person. He probably went hiking or rock climbing when he had days off.

He was also strangely not observant of some things. It seemed he earnestly didn't realize that she was gauging him. He manipulated conversations with the aptitude of a teenager instead of an adult. Eventually he set the pot down and pulled out his phone, snapping a picture of it before he smiled at her, "Looks good to me. It's exactly what I was told they wanted the pot on the inside to be. Do you....think I could take this one, or do you need it to compare?"

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 19:57 EST
Since having done the job with her, he'd gone to the carnival and then had asked her on a date. There was a public function going on that sounded fun" Nacho night' It was worth a try, anyway. It was only after arriving and being there that he realized how informal it was. Sparring went on int he background and after eating some nachos and a taco or two, he suggest frozen yogurt since she had never had it before.

————————————————————————- Jeremy and Layla had just made it out of the Red Dragon Inn when he turned to look at her, smiling a bit nervously and unsure if it was still appropriate to have his fingertips be phantoms at her lower back. He liked it though, touching her. She'd made it clear that it wasn't something she was used to and he was trying to keep that in mind. For him it was all second nature and he could get touchy with people unintentionally. Not *that* sort of touchy, but in a way that was friendly but not always welcome. What he saw, though, was welcome. Maybe the sort that came more easily to her with the small boost that alcohol gave her.

"It isn't a long walk, I promise. Is that okay' It's in the marketplace too so it'll be near your home so....not a long walk for you to do afterward."

Layla came from a culture where it was wrong for men and women who weren't married to touch, it was true. But at the same time, a lot of her feelings on that had gone into a tailspin when Jeremy shared with her for the first time, when she'd so impulsively responded by putting her arms around him. It felt nice, that gentle contact, and the girl did nothing to dislodge or disrupt it, even when they were back out on the street.

She was tipsy, and it showed in the bright glow of dark eyes, the pink flush of her cheeks, the smile that rode surprisingly comfortably on her mouth. Her gaze went to Jeremy as he spoke, and she shook her head with a voiceless laugh. "I am not afraid to walk, Jeremy. I'm having a good time."

"I know you're not afraid," his smile broadened then and he looked over his shoulder to the inn which grew smaller and smaller behind him. He hadn't been the best at avoiding awkward moments with her. Tonight he had thought for a moment that he'd fallen into another hole, another accidental moment that dislodged her smile and left him making half-believed apologies. "I didn't realize that nacho night would be so informal and that there would be....people sparring and cheering and...." Yes. He had not selected a romantic location. He had just wanted something more casual than the pressure of a candle lit dinner.

Was that for him, or her, though' He'd done some dating, sure, but he was sensitive to the fact that every experience had the potential of being one she had never had. A candle lit dinner had just seemed presumptuous and somehow disingenuous. He'd just wanted to know if they could have fun together and....well....they did. So far. He thought. She was smiling and sounded like she was ready to laugh again.

It had been a positively lovely evening so far. Unexpected, to be sure, but also seemingly perfectly comfortable. Something about the crowd, the fighting, even the woman on roller skates had gone a long way towards erasing those strange awkward build ups of silence that seemed to happen when they were alone. Less room to be awkward, to overthink. Layla was enjoying his company and having fun, two things that were both relatively new to her.

Layla shook her head. "It was quite surprising, wasn't it' But exciting, too."

"Yeah' I thought you liked it but I wasn't really sure." It was hard to be sure what people thought or felt here. He had to pay so much attention to what words were used, what they said and how everything else felt around him. His hand became less of a brushing reminder and became a bit more steady, palming the curve of her back, "You know this is a date, right?" He had thought she'd known, but as some point an uncertainty about it hit him. They had done a job together and were, in a sense, coworkers. Was this about getting to know each other"

Was she so shy that saying no was a problem and the drink had helped and she was just resolved to enjoy her night out' The silence, the lack of other things interrupting, was allowing Jeremy to over think it quite a bit.

Layla gave that soundless giggle of hers, lifting dark cinnamon eyes to his as they walked. "I wish....that I could do what you do," she said suddenly, and maybe it was the tequila that made her bold. "That I could touch you," her hand moved, slipping behind him to rest on the small of his back the way his did on hers, "...and you would know how I feel already."

The girl's hand slipped away, if only because it was an awkward position to hold, though it lingered at her side near him. "I did like it, and I do know this is a date. I have never been on a date before, but this one is nice."

He was going to tell her that she could touch him, that it was the furthest thing from 'wrong' to do on a date. Then the other half of her sentiment came and he nodded, realizing then what she was really meaning. "I wish you could too but....I'm learning." He was getting better at some of the social hints which people gave each other. That being indirect was polite and that misunderstandings were common enough that no one thought it meant you were incompetent.

"Good, I didn't know..." he felt she had an idea of what he was trying to say, even with just that fraction of a sentence. The following thought was more important, "Sometimes people in different cultures do different things for dates, but I thought you'd know because of the time we were spending and how it wasn't about work. So..." there was a pause before he continued, "what were you wanting dating to be like?" What, in a world of no experience, did she think it would be? Some had open relationships, others became hermits locked inside their homes never to be seen outside of work. There was a staggering variety to how people handled it.

To be fair, the girl had known it was meant to be a date only because he'd told her so. She might otherwise have been under the impression that he was only being friendly with a new colleague, so his double checking now wasn't misplaced.

Their trip to the carnival, for instance, had been good bit more ambiguous, a spur of the moment thing that could be interpreted several ways. This evening, on the other hand, the artist had actually taken some time and care with her appearance for, and for once she wasn't covered in the evidence of her trade. She smelled of rosewater and soap, not clay dust and damp earth. It was perhaps the surest indication that she either thought it was a date, or wanted it to be.

Jeremy's question gave her pause, and Layla shrugged, her dark brows rising. "All I know of dating I learned from movies," her reply came on the heels of that soundless whisper laugh of hers, "...which means it could be absolutely anything. Mostly I just..." and here, that soft tinge of a blush was creeping back up into her features, perhaps she wasn't so drunk after all. "I just....like being around you."

Movies could be daunting. He had the misfortune of seeing a few romantic comedies. The men were always incredibly dashing, money was never a problem and he wasn't sure...exactly....when anyone ever seemed to be working. Beyond that, romantic gestures felt over the top, to the point that he wondered if the guy was wooing the woman or apologizing for killing her father. Perhaps that was him, though. With the constant sharing, with it being as immediate and intimate as it was, those displays to endear another person, to have them know you, did not require a boom box being held overhead.

His sampling of the movies, though, had been small. There was relief in the fact that her answer didn't indicate any disappointment or that she was holding her breath with expectation. She just liked being with him and that answer kept him from getting too nervous and uneasy.

After they took a corner in the market there was a lit up shop with white signs and a painted ice cream cone at the front of it. Jeremy smiled at the sight of it, having the thought just before he saw it that it might be closed. That he might be apologizing the walk for something she had never had being something she would continue to not have. "I like being around you too. You're nice." Nice, he had decided, was something he wanted.

Nice was a thing most girls didn't like hearing. With years spent having it pounded into your head that you should be a 'nice' girl, most of them quickly learned that 'nice girls' didn't have much fun. Nice was the kind of girl you took home to meet your mom, the kind you settled for after you'd had your fun. Nothing about 'nice' seemed to set the heart to pounding.

But Layla....Layla was nice, and didn't begin to know how to act any differently. Wouldn't know how to want to be any differently, either, even if the opportunity was there. Nice worked for her. She gave a little smile at his words. "I am glad you think so."

The ice cream shop was brightly lit, all white surfaces and fluorescent overheads. The girl's gaze turned from the painted sign to the shop's interior, noting the number of people still inside despite the hour. "Seems that tonight is the night for everyone to be out," she commented.

Jer wasn't aware of the nice nuance, clearly. He had dated aloof and fiery, he had also dated the not-quite-right girl, which was the worst. Back home they had gone to school together and had always seemed to sort-of be interested. Then one summer they just tried it, and the results were always lukewarm. They shouldn't have been. Jeremy was regarded as being attractive, as well as she. She wasn't dumb or inconsiderate, she just wasn't quite right for him. Their humor and values were fractionally off. Despite that they tried for three months to defeat the non-enemy that kept their chemistry at bay.

Then one day they had a moment where they realized that their relationship was built upon trying to create something that wasn't there because they thought it should have been. It was a wonderful revelation to have and share with another person.

Layla didn't feel lukewarm. Mostly because she stirred that slightly awkward unease in him and didn't seem put off, but interested in, his openness. He did not know if that would translate into jealousy. If someone who had rarely been touched, much less kissed, saw him befriending others and possibly being too friendly according to her conservative background. That was all putting the cart before the horse though, wasn't it'

His hand dropped away from her so that the thumbnail of his left hand could pick under the nails of his other. It was a habit he had sometimes when he was thinking because of work. At the coffee bean farm he was climbing trees and picking berries which meant having to clean out from under his short nails. As a blacksmith it was less necessary but still a habit he maintained. "I suppose it is." He was looking at the menu a moment before opening the door for her, his right foot wedged at the base of it to better secure it, "They have a cone that has three flavors to it and that might be good so you can know which one you like best."

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 20:01 EST
Layla could still feel the warmth of his hand on her back for several seconds after it fell away, a lingering chill that tingled a little as the skin rushed to normalize its temperature. It made her sad in a way she couldn't quite articulate, to have it gone — like she'd become accustomed to that gentle pressure and missed it in its absence.

When the door was held open, she stepped through it, her skirt a soft swirl of royal blue layers that whispered along the door frame as she moved past it. Once she was inside, the artist moved deftly to the left, clearing the way for Jeremy to follow along after. With a quiet smile, she shook her head. "I don't think I can eat that much ice cream at once" I'll just...have to decide on a flavor and take my chances."

"It's not that filling but....it can make you sick. The yogurt is better for that though. They don't make it as sweet so..." there was a small smile and a shrug of his shoulders that seemed to excuse it. Looks like there was a line though, ten people deep and of all manner of age and creature. One looked to be part goat and it made him think of Andu, though far less formidable in appearance. He didn't know what to do with his hands anymore so he jammed them into the front pockets of his hoodie so that he would at least have the sense to keep them to himself.

"What sort of foods are you used to, anyway?" Though he wasn't familiar with ice cream either, he wasn't sure how strange nachos and tacos had been.

As they stood in line, Layla read the menu, pondering her choices. She was still missing the gentle press of his hand, that slight but reassuring pressure. Jeremy's hands were in his pockets, though, so there wasn't a good way to encourage it. Well, maybe he was tired of touching. Her own hands twisted into the hem of her thin cardigan, curling into the material to give herself something to do with them.

"Food is very diverse at home, but very different from here. Well. More or less diverse, depending on how much money you have." A dim smile. "Things like pita bread, hummus and baba ghanoush, which is eggplant and tahini with spices. Rice, fava beans, lentils. Some fish, lots of vegetables. For sweets we mainly had basbousa, which is....um....a kind of cake made with rose water and lemon syrup."

"I'm not sure what most of that is but..." he smiled a little, happy that he could admit to two of the things she had mentioned, "I have had hummus and pita bread as an appetizer at one of the restaurants here. I have no idea if it was authentic or not," Jeremy didn't know how fancy or intricate hummus could be, and certainly had no idea that there were places that manufactured and distributed it in a large-scale manner. There was also the other, rice, but his experience with that had been at the chinese restaurant so he was silently ignorant of the differences which would exist there.

"Do you cook any of it' I don't know of anywhere that serves that cake but....I'd like to try it. You're trying this, right?" The line moved forward a few paces. Six customers were ahead of them but it seemed like they knew what they wanted. They weren't staring at the menu as steadfast as he had his first time.

There weren't any specifically Egyptian restaurants - not that Layla had found yet, anyway - but there were a handful that served food from the overall region, and there was one little market she'd found tucked away in a forgotten, dusty corner of the Dockside district that was run by a nice family from back home. The artist did most of her shopping there, both to support the family and because she knew how to make good quality meals for herself inexpensively using familiar ingredients. "Ramen" was a mystery the girl just hadn't tackled yet.

The blacksmith's words made her smile, and Layla nodded. "I cook for myself most every day, yes." There was a pause as she looked up at him, giving it a second of thought before she posed the question. Even though this was established as a date, they'd shared their meal from the same plate and it was even technically their second outing together, Layla still experienced a nervous thrill at her own daring. "I could....make you dinner sometime, if you're curious?"

The line moved forward, and that left her pulling her eyes away, trying to see if she could glimpse the round cylinders of frozen dessert inside the counter displays yet. She would need to make a decision soon, but she had no idea what to choose. "What is your favorite flavor?"

"I'd like that. I don't know how to cook much," he felt the need to correct himself after saying that, "I'm just not used to the cuisine here. I....it isn't that it's weird, I just can't get comfortable cooking it' So I mostly eat out or order something in when I eat. Get the food I know and order the ones I don't." Apples, for instance, were something that he knew well. There happened to not be much of a difference between those fruits at home and those here. The flour here was different, sweeter and more like bread. He wasn't sure why, if it was just a difference in the plant or if there was a difference in how it was refined.

At the counter he looked up at it and then motioned, "Strawberry. This one does them well, too. Usually they taste really....weird, sweet and fake but this place has a great flavor for them. And chocolate so....I do a bit of each." There was, perhaps, a guilt half grin that followed the admission. As if he admitted to some over indulgent behavior.

"What is food like where you are from?" Layla's eyes were inquisitive as she lifted them back to his face. She couldn't see around the people ahead of them yet, anyway. She couldn't imagine ordering in every time she needed to eat — she'd be lost navigating all the food choices, for one. The concept was an enticing one for her, though, to imagine trying all those new and different things.

"Oh! Strawberry. That's a good idea. I love strawberries, and the season at home is so short." Warm cinnamon eyes drifted towards the counter again, but there was a good chance she'd be choosing strawberry.

"It's kinda like a farm, the region?" he tilted his head to the side and then smiled at her, "Ummm....you know how certain areas grow something desirable" Like maybe in one place you get ore and in another you get fish' In my planet we have a very....desirable coffee bean." It sounded silly to say that, to think of something as having so much revenue, but it was bought in tremendous quantities. Unlike Rhy'Din, they had stable portals and not a nexus with which to do their trade. Turned out their coffee was a 'hit' and people wanted it. "There are cities and everything else but I was helping farm so....lots of coffee and fruits, vegetables, meats. We didn't do a lot of cooking and if we did it was mostly just boiling stuff so....sort of bland I guess" Like I didn't have anything spicy until I came here." There was a motion of one hand to his stomach as he recalled the "trauma."

"You still want to share one" Half and half. Strawberry and chocolate or strawberry all the way?" He grinned at her after he said it and took another step forward. Only one customer ahead of them now.

Layla knew about farms, though she hadn't lived or worked on one. She tried to picture Jeremy working on a farm and found that she couldn't, though her gaze lingered on the slope of his shoulders the way it had the first time they spoke. Shaking her head when she caught herself staring, the artist's cheeks colored faintly and she looked away. "I like coffee. Our food is....well, it has strong flavors, I think, but it's not....spicy. I don't think so, anyway." She gave a little smile. "Maybe you will tell me differently."

Only one person in front of them, and at last she could see the various tubs of ice cream in all the different colors and flavors. There were several that looked interesting, a few that looked positively horrifying, and then there was the strawberry. At his question, Layla shook her head. "No, that's okay. I'll just take a small strawberry, I think." He got so excited about the flavors, she wouldn't take that from him or make him share.

Jeremy smiled and opened his mouth to say something, but it was there turn to order just then. So he turned from her, ordering a small strawberry and then the combination of two scoops for him in the small cup. Money exchanged and then it was time for the wait. Since there was no hot chocolate, sprinkles, or anything fancy to add their order came up a bit more quickly than those who had been in line ahead of them. Jeremy smiled, picking up each of their orders in his hand and stepping away from the counter to the separate area where the napkins and spoons were.

"Maybe. We didn't use much to season but....I'm getting used to it." There was a small shrug of his shoulders. Jeremy had a climbers build, which had made him lean because of the hours of having to grip branches and walk his way along. It wasn't until he was a blacksmith with the richer diet of food that he had gained weight. It wasn't something he had noticed until his shirts got uncomfortable and even then, he didn't really understand why the change was happening. Being a blacksmith was just as hard, more or less, than what he had been doing. Instead of prolonged tension, though, it was bursts of energy and breaks not unlike doing reps.

"Do you want to sit outside" or we could get a table in here?"

Layla was quiet, watching the shop workers go about the business of filling orders while Jeremy placed their order and paid. "Thank you," her voice was soft, but her smile was warm, her gratitude sincere.

"Our food is not what I would call rich' My home is...mostly desert, and it's difficult to eat heavy things when it's so hot." But there were sections of the country that were practically jungle, the lush dense farmland to either side of the Nile, so she was fortunate to have access to a great many kinds of food, at least. Just....not so much tacos. Or Thai. "But it is very flavorful, I think. You will see."

She tried to make her smile as reassuring as possible. He gathered their ice creams and Layla turned dark eyes over the brightly lit shop and its cheerful patrons. "Let's sit outside, if that's alright with you. It's quieter, and the air is nice." It would be a nice change from the boisterousness of the fight night, at any rate.

Once they were seated at a table outside, her gaze lifted to him thoughtfully. She was mulling over what foods she might make for him when it occurred to her that there was a problem with her invitation. "Jeremy, the place where you live. Does it have a full kitchen?"

Using his lower back, he pushed against the doorway to open it as he spoke, "What day were you thinking of for dinner?" He knew where she lived, so that part wasn't hard. Just how soon she wanted to have him over was a whole other animal. His evenings were free, he didn't have any friends to pal around with and usually ended up occupying himself. Maybe reading a book about soldiers or something.

"Not....exactly full" It's a kinda small apartment outside the marketplace," he set down both of their ice creams and then took his seat. He could feet the semi-circular impression of the chair into his back and it caused him to sit up. The napkins and spoons were divided up and he handed over the small pairing of her long handled red spoon with three napkins, "I don't have a lot of counter space but I do have that oven-stove comb, a microwave and a fridge." there was about five feet of counter space to cook with that was cut in half by the oven-stove but luckily the microwave was poised over the over instead of dominating valuable counter space.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 20:12 EST
Layla had a moment's indecisive deliberation about getting the door for him, what with the ice cream and utensils and things occupying his hands, but in her paralysis he handled it himself and so she followed him out with a meek smile that was at least a little apologetic.

The girl didn't exactly have a huge social calendar, either. Mostly she worked in the shop and made things at night, either for the shop, for orders like Jeremy's, or for herself. Sometimes she had dinner with the couple who ran the market, listening patiently to their stories of their children, and sometimes she went out for walks along the city. Pretty much any day would do, so long as she could go to the store first.

Accepting the spoon and napkins, Layla gave a little nod of thanks. "How about this weekend" Gives me time to go to the market. It would be better if we used your kitchen, though; my space is very small." She lived in a make shift studio at the back of the shop — she had a cook top and a microwave. Layla had learned to do some impressive things with what she had, but there wasn't exactly space to entertain a dinner guest, either.

"Sure." He wasn't going to add that it would also give him time to sort of pick things up. He wasn't a slob or anything, but his apartment lacked a lot of personality. He had moved into it rather quickly and then put zero thought into decorating or anything. The walls were still empty and there was the sense that his place was what he was using 'for now' and not that it was any sort of proper home. Knowing that there would be a day or two he could get a poster or a vase, something that he liked that made the place seem more friendly than functional.

"How about Saturday?" His gaze looked at her like he was testing the water. A push of his spoon into the ice cream to take a bite of it and then smiling, shortly, at the fact that the strawberry flavor still pleased him. Just enough flavor without an overwhelming sweetness. Without looking at her he wondered if that's what her lips would have been like and realized, while trying not to show it, that she most certainly would have. That even if she hadn't, each spoonful assured him that she would be exactly that. It was hard to shove the distracting thought aside.

Layla nodded, still more engaged in studying her ice cream than actually eating it. It was a new experience for her and she wanted to savor it, perhaps; if she was one of those people who took pictures of her food, she would totally be taking one now. "Saturday would be perfect. I can go to the store after work and then come by?"

Dipping the red plastic spoon into her pale pink ice cream, the artist tried it at last, smiling wordlessly at how cold it was on her lips. The flavor was unusual for her: she'd been imagining strawberries and cream but colder. It was an accurate description, but somehow not — at once richer, and not as rich, as she was expecting.

She liked it, though, grinning despite the surprise in her expression. "Wow. This is...really good."

"If you come by after seven I should be home and everything will be cool then." There will have been time for a shower and picking up anything last minute if he needed to. Maybe a vase, something bright and meaningful in the corner. He watched her take her first bite and smiled, wondering what it must have been like for her. There was a grin, though, which was good enough that it could leave him imagining what she thought about it.

"I will warn you, though," he pointed the oval head of his spoon at the mound of light pink and brown in his cup, "that you can't eat it too fast. It's called freezer burn. Or brain freeze. Or something. But you'll get a short, sharp headache if you eat it too fast. So....take your time."

Turning the spoon over in her mouth, the Egyptian pulled her tongue over its concave bowl, savoring the soft strawberry taste in her mouth. The warning heeded, her next bite was a small one, and she seemed to be letting it melt on her tongue rather than swallowing it this time, like she was going extra slow to avoid this freezer brain burn freeze thing. Or maybe she just wanted the moment to last.

Dark eyes veiled in lush lashes lifted to Jeremy, gauging his reaction. "Is it as good as you remembered?"

His jaw flexes and he gives a nearly involuntary, "Yes." Though he wasn't sure, exactly, what he was saying he remembered. Most certainly it wasn't a full on reply to what it was she was asking him. The tip of his tongue pushed along the iced roof of his mouth before he spooned in another biteful. At this point the moon hung overhead as the sun should have. He would have blushed if he hadn't looked down at his ice cream and buried his thoughts.

"Is it a good memory for you?" Asking that, he could look at her. Blue eyes trying, with great effort, to gather her reaction.

He seemed distant, somehow; the blacksmith was looking away more, his answers shorter. Layla wondered where his mind was, what it was he was thinking about. Maybe he was remembering the last time he had this particular ice cream, or maybe a previous date. Maybe he was just thinking about work.

Her chin dropping once as she spooned another bite, Layla gave a little smile around the spoon in her mouth, slipping it free to answer him. "It is. I am....having fun?" Her voice tilted up at the end like a question, but it wasn't. It was just that it was something of a revelation; she wasn't sure she'd had much 'fun' since she moved here. There was right now, and....the carnival. With Jeremy.

He thought his eyes would broadcast his thoughts to her because sharing those thoughts was usually how dates and interactions with. He forgot that there was safety in not doing a full disclosure. It was hard to imagine that people would not know what he had thought or felt and that privacy was a short lived thing. That he had paused, a little too long, to wonder what it might be like to be the spoon in her mouth.

Layla was still so new and he didn't know if that meant handling her as if she was glass or treating her like any other woman who had boyfriends before and would compare him to those. At their age, there could be ex husbands and children involved as well. His default behavior to protect himself from being discovered was to look away and smile in that slightly nervous manner he had.

"Having fun?" He had mirrored the way her voice went up, how it made what she said sound like a question but not quite. Was she saying it was almost fun or that it was a type of fun that the word 'fun' just didn't encompass very well" Another bite or two of his ice cream before he spoke, "I was wondering what you thought about wanting when you thought about having a boyfriend."

He could forget that these questions presented awkward moments, places and times where she might have to admit that her heart throb had always been a blond haired man with a beard, but that he would do. Jeremy was used to open communication and found himself more awkward in places where it wasn't than where it was. The process of asking and the subsequent reaction was sometimes a different creature altogether. Still, he wasn't sure that she would answer him and if she did, if she would not slightly pad the answer to spare hurting his feelings in the places he did not 'satisfy.'

The way he parroted the phrase back at her, Layla realized she needed to clarify. "No—" Quick to give a shake of her head, to correct herself or at least the impression she'd given. "I am having fun. I..." There was a second shake of her head, and those warm cinnamon eyes were wide in the moonlight. "I just realized that as much as I like this place, I haven't had much fun here yet, except....with you."

Running the fingers of one hand through glossy dark waves just barely scented with jasmine, her smile is a self conscious one, her cheeks coloring at his question. Buying herself some time to answer, Layla scooped up more ice cream with her spoon. Only part of it made it into her mouth on the first pass, her lips closing over the spoon and dragging off half of it as she pulled back on the utensil. Letting it melt in her mouth again, she reflected.

"In what sense?" Asked the girl finally, hesitant to give answer that didn't fit his line of inquiry. "Do you mean....physically' Or what I imagine he would be like as a person?"

"Both." Physically mattered but it wasn't the end-all-be-all. Jeremy wasn't entirely sure that he had a 'type.' With women it was difficult. He had been fascinated by red hair at first simply because no one had that from where he was from. Everyone was like him and Layla with varying degrees of brown and black hair. When he worked on the farm he had even been more tan, but it was never the natural pigmentation that she already had. Despite being separated by worlds, she looked both familiar and exotic to him. The biggest difference was in her eyes and cheekbones.

"Since you hadn't done much dating," or really, dating at all, "I wondered what your thoughts were on it."

"Ah." She put the spoon in her mouth a second time, using her tongue to swipe the last of the dessert from its curved edge. It had melted as she held it aloft, and a small dribble of strawberry cream escaped the corner of her mouth. She licked at it to catch the drop, laughed at herself for it, and then dabbed at her lips with the napkin. "Oops."

Setting the spoon down, Layla wiped her hands on the napkin next. "Where I am from, there isn't....dating. Families arrange who will marry who, and then you see each other— with your family— a handful of times, and then you marry." She lifted one shoulder in a light shrug. "So the concept is....unfamiliar. I have only learned about it since I came here, observing others, on the television."

"But I have imagined....what a husband might be like, one day," the girl trailed off, hoping she wasn't being too forward, or sounding presumptuous. "Not that I'm planning to get married anytime soon —" she added hastily. "—that's one of the reasons I came here."

"I don't know how to treat you," he confessed, his eyes maintaining contact with her face though they had to lift up from her lips once she had finished spooning a bite of ice cream to her lips, "Here some women are aggressive and others....reserved." Obviously Layla was reserved. Obviously. Or she was like the kid that had been watched so heavily by her parents that cutting loose, being a little wild, occurred naturally without the guard being as present.

"I've wanted to kiss you a few times and I've thought....I don't know if I would offend you if I did." Saying that didn't make him blush or become sheepish. It was easy to admit those sort of facts about the self. "I don't know what I should and shouldn't do with you, Layla. If I should worry about it, if you're waiting for me just to do what comes to me or if you're wanting to take each small step slowly but deliberately." While she had smiled and been keen on him, it was a bit presumptuous to think she would have let him kiss her. Or that it was wanted. Mostly, he just didn't want to offend her like that day he had misspoke in her shop about the wares she sold. He imagined with so little experience in dating that his mistakes would echo through her for a long time.

Layla wouldn't interrupt, and she watched him intently as he spoke, her hands folded neatly on the table in front of her. For a time afterwards, she was silent. He mentioned wanting to kiss her, and her thoughts naturally gravitated in that direction - what it would be like to kiss Jeremy. To kiss anyone, perhaps, to kiss in general. But specifically, importantly, significantly, to kiss the blacksmith beside her.

Eventually she shook her head, hands spreading in a gesture of helplessness. Her smile did seem sheepish, at least somewhat. "I don't....know. I think I would like to kiss you, and at the same time the idea makes me dizzy." Which ....was the same as wanting to kiss him, really. "I....like being near you. I like the way your hands feel when you touch me?" She was trying to help, really, and probably making it worse in the process.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 20:17 EST
It was a little worse in the process. She couldn't say yes, but she didn't know enough to say yes. Women could be difficult in that some wanted a man to simply step up and make the move, roll the dice that they might be rejected or accepted after the fact. Others wanted permission to be established and that was done more easily by waiting for the woman to give signs she was willing.

With Layla it just felt impossible to know if she was giving him signs because she was still figuring out what the signs were. As she spoke he ate his ice cream, feeling his mouth get numb with the strawberry chocolate chill. At least he knew she was interested. No pressure. It'd just be the kiss she compared to all other kisses. A date that would be measured up to other dates. He swallowed and removed the worry from his mind.

Jeremy didn't respond, and because he didn't respond, Layla felt compelled to keep talking. Trying not to get flustered in the process — easier said than done when he was looking at her like that — the artist tried to answer the other part of his question.

"Something like you," she blurted out suddenly, her cheeks flaming with sudden color. Her eyes were downcast then, studying her hands, the grain of the table they laid on. "...That is. You asked me what I imagined physically. It..even before I came here, my ideal was....." She blushed more deeply. "Something like you."

Something. Not someone. But something. He noticed the nuance of it and then her verbal stumble over what she was saying to him and it caused him to smile just a little after she said it, knowing what she had meant even if it didn't come out right. It was nice to know that he wasn't the only person in the city that had trouble getting the right words out.

"Someone like me." His spoon shoved into the bottom of his ice cream before he leaned over, kissing her on the cheek. To do that, he was leaned over the table, right forearm and elbow atop the table, supporting his weight as he stayed there. The contact of his ice cream kiss still having his lips hover not far behind the connection. His pause is like a held breath, looking at her face. His head is tilted to the side with the question of what was next.

Confusion, at first. What was he saying" Oh. Layla nodded, scared to look up. "...Right. Someone. I still make mistakes sometim—-" Her words were cut off by the unexpected chill of his cool lips against her burning cheek, and the artist was looking up at him then.

At first she didn't turn her head, only her eyes craning all the way to the left to catch sight of him. At first, she scarcely dared to breathe. But then he lingered near, his presence warm despite his frozen mouth, and Layla really couldn't help the way she craned her neck, her upper body following, twisting to face him. The shift brought her mouth almost flush against his, her heart like a humming bird in her chest. The smile was there, though. The smile said yes.

He was waiting and there would only be a few seconds before he withdrew and sat back in his seat. The kiss to her cheek seemed like a place to be, to lean in and offer something more to her. Now it was up to her and she paused. Her head turned and he hesitated. Only a few seconds and then he would....

Her mouth was near his with the promise of more strawberry. Her smile was waiting, permission silently granted. His weight shifted further for their mouths to connect. He could taste the sweet, tart strawberry just on the petals of her mouth as they planted against his. He was like a state for her lips. Perfectly still as her mouth felt what it was like against his. Then he kissed her in returned, his lips moving like he was taking a breath from her mouth. Slowly, carefully, like a sudden movement might scare her from his lips.

A surge of adrenaline washed over the girl, leaving her feeling lightheaded and giddy. Her pulse pounded in her temples. Her mouth tasted of strawberry and so did his, strawberry with a deeper, richer note of smooth chocolate. The combination was positively divine, a heady cocktail of flavors and sensations, every one of which was new.

His mouth moved and she inhaled, a shiver snaking down her spine. Layla wanted to kiss him back, of course, wanted to take his breath away. The girl wanted a lot of things, but she didn't know how to deliver on any of them. She was looking to him for guidance, her innate shyness warring with an eagerness to learn.

The kiss ended up being broken, the metal shuffle of his chair scratching at the air as he pulled it back under himself when he sat down. There was a smile, though. It was the smallest show that her kiss had been a 'good' one. It had either been because they were in public or because she had been so still that he had broken it. There was even the smallest chance that he wasn't wanting to push her too quickly for too much.

But that smile, though. Jeremy was smiling like she'd given him something he'd always wanted. A little boy, excited, enthralled by a gift. It was such he case that one of his knees bounced up and down in that giddy, energetic way. He stabbed at his ice cream with the spoon, "I'd like to walk you home." As if there had been a question that he might not. The spoonful of strawberry taken into his mouth.

The kiss ended sooner than she'd expected it to, and there was a moment when Layla suspected she'd been disappointing. Her dark eyes fluttered open—she hadn't really even realized that she'd closed them — and her smile was a self conscious one. She cast her gaze down at her half eaten ice cream, what was left of it was basically strawberry soup at this point.

But then she noticed the jittering of his knee, and as her eyes traveled up again, Layla found that elated smile on his face, the bright light in his eyes, and a blush stole across her finely chiseled features, stretching her own smile into a wider, happier thing not unlike his as it went.

Layla nodded, that fool's grin still planted firmly in the corners of her mouth. "I would like that, thank you."

"It's late," he looked down at her bowl and stood up, his already caught in his hand. He was offering to toss her's out at the same time as his if she was done. He was pretty sure that she was but he wasn't going to take it from her until she nodded. There was a momentary bit of his upper lip, thoughtfully, before the corners of his lips turned upward again, "I could walk you now if you're ready."

He wasn't wanting to sound eager or disinterested. He was interested and he was, honestly, eager. It had been a tenuous moment where they kiss, one he wanted to flay open and enjoy longer in a place where people wouldn't clear their throat or tell them to get a room. He could still taste the strawberry-only of her mouth.

It had gotten late, and the both of them likely had work to do the following day whether their respective shops were open or not - such was the life of the artist. Layla nodded, gesturing the bowl with one hand to indicate that yes, she was done, and he could take it. The ice cream had been very good, but it was much sweeter than she was accustomed to, and very cold.

And probably she was a little distracted, what with the way her lips still tingled, the way she could still feel the phantom brush of his mouth against hers.

Layla pushed back from the table, her hands smoothing down the many layers of her skirt as she rose, as though to brush non-existence wrinkles or dirt from the fabric. Stepping away from the table, the girl gave him a little smile. "...Now is fine. I am ready."

The paper bowls made a swishing sound when he tossed them into the nearby bin. His hands pushed down the side of his jeans to get rid of the sticky feeling at the tips of his fingers. Her smile was met by one of his own, still touched by the moment they had shared seconds ago. Stepping beside her his left hand opened palm up to her, "I don't know if it's common where you are from to hold hands when you walk but I'd like to."

When he first came to Rhy'Din hand holding was relatively new to him. For a culture that was as affectionate and open as it was, hand holding wasn't so much of a thing for them. There were hugs and embraces and hands were gripped but not so much while walking or doing another activity. It was something he had learned about and had come to decide that he liked. Holding hands felt like a way o be closer, to make up for the distance established by limited communication. Layla was easy to be around, though. She broadcasted how she felt and he wasn't left having to pursue her with questions about it over and over. Her blush said quite a bit.

Holding hands was not at all common in her culture, but Layla had seen it done many times since she'd been in Rhydin, and she'd already admitted to liking the feel of his hands when he touched her. Besides, she reasoned, they'd already kissed, surely holding his hand couldn't be more thrilling or potentially scandalous than that' (If only she knew). The artist nodded, lifting her right hand to lay it lightly on top of his.

When she simply placed her hand on his he smiled, twisting a little to work his fingers between her's and then closed their palms together. Joined hands were allowed to hang between them as they walked towards her shop, "I never asked you why you came to Rhy'Din." Though mention of her strict background painted the sort of picture that made him feel that he had an idea. If things were that strict, that difficult to get around with arranged marriages and the like, she must have gotten the idea at some point to separate herself from that.

The pace towards her shop was leisurely, but they hadn't started off more than a few blocks away from it. It was practically in their line of sight at the next corner they took.

It took a little bit of maneuvering; even after their fingers were laced and palms flush, as soon as those joined digits were slack between them it became clear that their wrists were crossed the wrong way for the height differential. Layla's smile was equal parts sheepish and amused as she pulled her fingers free, moved her wrist behind his and then twined those talented digits into their likes once more.

The walk wasn't far, and the question had an answer he could easily guess for himself. Layla lifted her free arm up over and then behind her head, catching the curtain of glossy black silk tresses at the right shoulder and drawing it carefully across her neck and over the left shoulder, where it spilled over her chest.

"My family is very traditional, and very large. It was decided who I was to marry when I was four years old." The girl shook her head. "He's....not unkind, but his family is also large and very traditional. I would not have been allowed to work, or continue my art. It....I am not saying it would have been a terrible life — I am not one of the many tragedies you hear about here — but..."

Her shoulders lifted in a little shrug. "It would have been very boring. I heard some merchants in the local bazaar talking about their new trade arrangements with a strange and curious place where all things were possible, and I...." and here, her little smile, for the first time ever, showed hints of mischief, of quick witted cunning and guile. "I spent several months making friends with the daughter of one of them, and convinced them to let me come with them on their next shopping trip. When I got here, I....may or may not have disappeared in a particularly chaotic crowd."

"When you were four" Is there a lot that can be known about you when you are four?" Jeremy was obviously lost on the criteria for arranging the marriage of a four year-old child. If it was based on the wealth of their parents that was a possibility. Perhaps certain people could only marry other certain people and the other family was one that her parents preferred. Apparently traditional meant no work, no art.

"You mean that there are people out there, worried about you? Your parents and friends could think something terrible has happened to you." When he said it there was a heavy concern in his face, the sort of distress that told her he sympathized with the stress and worry other people could have been feeling.

"Do your parents think that they have lost their child?" It seemed likely that if he'd known her home phone number he would have called them that instant or give her a sad look until she did.

Layla shook her head quickly, stricken by his reaction. "No, no! My mother knew my plans. She understood, and I think maybe even wanted to come with me." The girl paused, her expression wistful. "Now I can't go home even if I wanted to, which....is good, I suppose, because I didn't want to."

Jeremy was right, of course. When you are promised to someone at four years old, it has nothing to do with your sparkling personality. Thankfully it also wasn't about anything especially unsavory — her fiance was only about nine at the time himself. No, this was all about old families and power plays and political maneuvering. Layla wanted none of it, and there were enough other daughters and sons willing to play the game that they didn't need her.

"Because of your father?" He had come from a patriarchal society as well, so that was something which could be understood, though it was women who held the family name. That was simply because the birth of a child was more certain than the paternity so a bloodline could be followed more earnestly that way. Owens was, then, his mother's last name.

"I was worried that you were being looked for. I don't know what I would do if my sister just disappeared one day." There was a mild lift and fall of his shoulders. His body rolled to a stop, looking at the face of her store that had grown more and more familiar in evening lighting. It'd come to them sooner than he liked and was an undeniable thing that he now saw.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 20:27 EST
Layla nodded. "My dad, my brothers. All the men in my culture, really." There was a dismissive shrug at this as the shop came into view. She'd done it on purpose, spending a specific number of hours "missing" before she called home. That specific number made the difference, the fact that she'd been unchaperoned that long made her unfit for marriage or....the family in general, really. Layla could go back to Egypt one day, maybe, but she would never be able to go home.

All the more reason not to adhere to the ideals and restrictions of her homeland, right' All the more reason to eat ice cream with an attractive man, to kiss him, to hold his hand. It made her heart race, and it made her free.

Reaching the door, Layla lifted dark eyes up at it as though the door itself had betrayed her, moving several feet closer to the ice cream shop than it initially had been. Turning to face Jeremy then, her gaze was soft as she looked up at him. "No one is looking for me, I promise. Would you like to come in" I have coffee and tea..."

"I'm sorry that your family and you aren't..." She mentioned not being able to go home. He wanted to ask her more about it but that was the sort of subject that left someone feeling alienated and in tears. At best, he could have only reassured her. Jeremy had left home before he could b exiled for his behavior. Otherwise, their stories would have sounded a lot more similar.

At the invitation he paused and looked away, down the alleyway and then back to her, admitting softly, "Most of the time when someone offers that, they're offering a lot more. Just....so you know." Layla wasn't. She really meant coffee and tea and probably to be kissed. He swallowed, jamming both his hands into the seat pockets of his pants as he looked at her, "I'd like some coffee."

His concern touched her, somehow, gave her pause in a way few things really had. Their hands were still laced together, and she squeezed his gently with hers, both grateful and trying to be reassuring. "You are so kind," said Layla softly, a dim smile on her face. "I'm quite alright though, really."

Jeremy explained about the hidden meaning in her simple invitation, and a fresh blush stained her cheeks. They were just...permanently pink around him, or so it seemed. "I....oh. I didn't know?" Her eyes, tilted at an unusual slant in her face to begin with, were downcast, thick lashes dusting her cheeks. "I didn't mean to..." And then he was saying he wanted coffee, and Layla was relieved. She nodded.

Pulling her hand free at last, reluctantly, the girl turned, pulling her keys from the front pocket of her embroidered bag so she could unlock the door.

He watched as she worked on unlocking the door, her back to him. The idea of taking her by the hips. turning her around and kissing her came to him. Instead, he bit his lower lip and kept his feet cemented where they were. Maybe next time. A following date. He wanted to do both baby steps and the leaps and bounds with her. He cleared his throat, checking that no 'suspect' people lingered nearby before he stepped inside her shop just after she had opened the door.

"I'm keeping it in mind," he assured her, though his voice was soft. There was some guilt in keeping in mind what she meant, versus what was socially implied but also....what he wanted. He didn't particularly want coffee, but he did want to extend the quiet, private moment with her just a little bit longer.

As soon as he was through the door, Layla locked it again behind him. She didn't turn on the lights; plenty of moonlight was streaming in through the windows and anyway Layla didn't really want to draw attention to there being movement or people in the front of the shop this late at night. The latch thrown, her face lifted to Jeremy once more. "Can you see alright' I don't like to draw attention to when I'm here and when I'm not," Layla gestured the windows, "so I tend not to turn the lights on in here after the shop closes. I will if you need it, though?"

Either way, in darkness or in light, Layla lead the way across the store front and through the door into the work room, which gave the curiously opposite impressions of being both cold and damp and dry and hot at the same time because of the clay in its refrigerated cabinets on one end of the room and the kiln on the other.

"I don't know where everything is so....you should probably let me know where I'm walking." he reached out to catch her hand when she lead the way forward. Jeremy was almost certain that nothing was in front of him, or about to be tripped over. Still, bumping into one of her pieces and breaking it wasn't something he wanted to risk. It might have also been an excuse for holding her hand again.

Once they were in the work room he inhaled the smell of clay, checking around him to be certain there wasn't anything to knock over. One might have thought with the concern he had that he was in a glass shop. "Must be like how it was for me at the blacksmith I worked at. Upstairs was where I lived and downstairs was all business."

Her hand fitting easily into his this time, there was a soft rush of breath that signaled her laugh. "Just walk in a straight line and you'll be fine," came the reply, but she made no effort to let go of him or free herself, either.

It was a straight line and it passed quickly, uneventfully— no catastrophes to report. "It is something like that, yes," Layla nodded, flipping on a light here and there as they passed once they were in the windowless work room. She led the way across and to a door which opened on a stairwell leading down, not up.

Down the stairs in dim lighting to a studio apartment that was more a cubby than a house. It was small and efficient, a tiny kitchen space that was also where the laundry was, a bedroom that doubled as the living room, a bathroom that was a 'wet' room — there was no separation for the shower because the whole room was the shower. It was reminiscent of the Asian countries - small but not cramped, the space clean and uncluttered. There were two small windows only because the shop was built into the side of a small hill and this lower floor was carved into its base. There was a small table with two chairs just adjacent to the pallet bed.

Layla gave him a little smile, turning to face him once she'd turned on the lights. "It's little, but it serves me well."

He realized he was still holding her hand when she turned to face him, "I thought my place was small. I can see why you asked about my kitchen," there was a glance to her's and he half smiled as he added, "It's a little bit bigger, which maybe will make all the difference." Cooking required there to be space and area for the produce to rest. He gave her hand a small squeeze, but he wasn't sure what he was trying to say when he did that.

"Are you going to move out or do you like it?" It was different when someone was single. All that space didn't mean much and most hobbies turned into work or simply just not being at home. With Layla, especially. Since he had gotten his own apartment away from the shop he had started to foster his hobbies a bit more.

"I have enough room for my own needs, but....if I'm going to cook like I did at home then I need at least a little more space," Layla agreed with a little smile. It was strange actually having someone in the apartment. It had felt tiny at first, but with time and adjustment she'd begun to see the place as perfectly sized. Any extra room would really just be more space to keep tidy. She had a laptop tucked into drawers build underneath the bed, and her clothes were in an armoire against the wall. There was enough room to do her morning stretches, and that was all she really needed.

Moving back towards the door, Layla slipped her sandals off, stepping out of one and then the other. Her skirt was so long that it covered her feet anyway, and the sandals were flat so it caused no difference in her height. Her gaze lifted to Jeremy curiously. "...So did you really want coffee, or were you just checking to make sure I'm not homeless?" She teased, her tone light.

When she moved to take off her shoes he didn't follow her, but took at seat the the edge of her bed. At the question of coffee he smile, eyebrows lifting up and then e looked down at his shoes. Was he being rude by keeping them on' "I mean....not homeless is usually one of the first requirements I have when I'm interested in someone." To really answer the question, though, he adjusted his request, "Water would be good right now, actually."

Her place smelled like it was underground. There was the soft, low notes of earth in it, though that very well could have just been the scent of her studio in her, her clothes and where she was. He hadn't noticed the smell of fire and metal on him until he'd lived away from the blacksmith shop a few weeks and then drew out an old shirt. Still, what you did for a living seemed to follow.

Layla didn't wear shoes in the house. The evidence was there in that the few pairs of shoes she owned were stacked in neat rows by the door. She did not, however, ask Jeremy to remove his — perhaps she thought it would be rude, or maybe she just hadn't noticed.

In a swirl of dark blue fabric she turned, stepping into the kitchen. She set her kettle in the sink, turning the faucet on so that it would fill while she opened a cabinet to take down a glass and then opened the small refrigerator to retrieve a filtered pitcher. Filling the glass with water, Layla turned off the faucet and replaced the pitcher in the fridge. Setting the kettle on the single eye burner, she twisted the knob to turn it on high and then brought Jeremy his water.

The girl took a seat in one of the chairs at the table, the one that was closest to the bed, the one that put her within inches of her guest. Her knees very nearly brushed his where one crossed over the other, her skirt tucked neatly over them. "Usually' There are exceptions?"

"Even angels get evicted if the circumstance is right." There was his smile when he said it, meaning to be playful and not entirely sure if she could see that he was. The water was a welcomed thing. Taking the glass he instantly to two or three swallows before speaking. It felt like he had to speak, that he quiet between them would have lingered awkwardly or too long to be good. "Anything I can get for you for dinner?"

At some point she would start to notice that he filled voids with questions and had a lack of ease with them. That was partly how first dates were, though. Unveiling certain truths and details about each other and hoping that the other person's gaze seemed unchanged if not more attached. That as the conversation took the corner that they both kept following the path that it took. If she had any pets, he couldn't tell from what he saw.

She grinned as she shook her head. "Oh, nothing. I will take care of the food." There was a pause, then, as she reconsidered. "Unless you want to get something to drink—beer or wine or whatever. I don't know much about all of that." The girl had no pets. Her shelves were lined with books, mostly. There were zils, as well, the small symbols that looped around the middle finger and thumb to be chimed together during certain dances. There was a ceremonial sword for the same purpose, its edges blunt. Layla didn't mind silence, but she was beginning to notice that Jeremy did. With an ear out for the kettle, her focus turned to him. "I just realized that you ask me all these questions and I don't ask you any in return. What do you look for, in a....girlfriend?" It made her blush a little to ask, but there it was all the same.

The silence did bother him. Maybe it was because he was still getting to know her and experience in the past said a woman was silent when she was displeased or angry. He wasn't acquainted with a pause that was happy without it being post-coitus. But Layla's pauses never seemed laced with unease or disapproval. There was never a moment he felt motivated to apologize or to try to 'fix' something he had said or done.

He shouldn't have been surprised by the question, but he was. Even so, he smiled at it, realizing at that moment what a direct question it was to ask someone, "I don't mind a partner who has a job and works but I think I want most of all....someone who trusts me. Who has a good time with me but is okay if I go out on my own. I know people like to gossip but I think I want someone who makes me feel supported....like, if they had something bad to say they wouldn't just do it infront of everyone, you know" And....yeah, I mean sex is a thing." Jeremy bit his lower lip and then tilted his head to the side as he looked up at her, "I dated someone who I think came from a very....misogynistic background. If I wanted something I was just supposed to take it and that always made me feel really....abusive and uneasy. I'm used to connecting and communicating and I think I want that in a partner. I don't want someone to make me sort of disregard their wishes for my own."

"You have not had that before?" Layla just assumed that he'd been with many women, as most of the men she knew had, or were assumed to have had. She couldn't imagine questioning or criticizing a partner. His talk of sex gave her pause, not scandalized but reflective. It was about that point that the kettle began its whistle, and Layla rose swiftly to answer that cry. She transferred it off the heat, quickly putting together everything she needed to make the coffee. "...so what brought you here, from home?"

"Not exactly." There was a small shrug of his shoulders at that point, "When you're young you're still figuring out what you want and it changes. Now it's a little easier....most of the people I meet have and idea of what they want to do, who they want to be." Another swallow of the glass of water before he stood up, placing his glass at the table she had been sitting at.

"It's hard to explain," why he was there, but the best way to summarize it he had found was to stay general. The specific issue was lost to most people, who dismissed it as something 'small' that people would get over, nevermind that enormous wars had been waged over less, "I just had an issue no one there could understand and I left before it got bad. You can sort of feel it, you know" When the tide turns against you. I figured if I left before I was asked to go that there was a better chance of just going back home one day."

Layla finished putting the pot of coffee together to steep, and turned to face him again, only to find him standing far closer to her than he had been. Startled but also pleased, she smiled up at him, that smile falling marginally as she listened. " So you are different, too, then." It was nice to know there was some commonality, anyway. "Is it a bad issue?"

"For where I am from....yes....but not here," there was a scratch at the back of his neck then, uneasy with explaining but pressing ahead. His free hand rolled in the air between them as he spoke. "I have dreams. I know, everyone here has dreams but at home....they don't. No one does. They thought I was starting to get mentally ill or something and I'm not really sure what makes me different or why I can dream and everyone else here does but....at home it was weird." It was the best method he had to explain the 'perfectly normal condition" that everyone here 'suffered' from and why it otherwise mattered for him.

The girl's reaction was not at all what he was apparently accustomed to. Layla seemed perfectly sympathetic, her expression exhibiting concern. She knew all too well what it was like to have something seemingly fundamental to who you are so thoroughly shunned by the people who surrounded you. "Do you still have them, now that you are here?" She didn't laugh, or make fun of him for being concerned about a seemingly innocuous thing. Instead, Layla reached for his hand again.

Jeremy Owens

Date: 2016-06-20 20:38 EST
"Yes but no one else I ever knew did," there was a small shrug of his shoulders. It was something he was embarrassed to admit to because here it seemed so ordinary and at home it had been akin to mental illness. How was that possible" Jeremy felt sane, acted sane. No one had ever said his behavior was 'alarming' at any point. He could maintain a job and....well, maybe he didn't maintain a relationship so well. He jammed his hands into the front pockets of his hoodie again and smiled at her, "I came here to see if there was a reason or if something was wrong with me. Originally, I thought I'd just go back but I dunno. I don't think I can do coffee like my dad did."

His hands in his pockets, Layla lifted her hand away, her fingers smoothing down those jet black waves instead. She turned away, busying herself with pouring the coffee once it was finished. She was making Turkish coffee, a sweet, syrupy version of the caffeinated drink that was rich in flavor.

The artist poured one cup, having guessed that Jeremy didn't actually want any when he asked for water instead. That settled, she was out of things to do to keep herself turned away, and Jeremy still hadn't sat back down yet, so Layla wondered if perhaps he was leaving. "Well, I am glad you came here. I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but I am also very aware of what it's like to feel so....different." She gave a meek smile, then. "Do you still dream here?"

"I do. It's about the same so location doesn't seem to matter." Jeremy paused and then looked from her to the door, his hands burrowing even deeper into his jacket pockets, "Sorry, it's just....I'm not really sure what I should be doing. I told you about why some people get invited in and I keep feeling a little out of place." That they were talking like friends and not that clothes were disappearing. She had invited him in for conversation as it if was three in the afternoon instead of being closer to three am. He hadn't wanted it to nag at his thoughts, but it did.

She took a step back, taking a lean against the counter. The hour hadn't really occurred to her, and his apology had her wondering about the time. She glanced sidelong at a small analog clock sitting on top of the microwave and winced. "I'm sorry for disturbing you, Jeremy. I didn't realize how late it had become. You can ...." A wry smile. "You poor thing. You probably wanted to leave ages ago. Here, I can walk you out..."

"I didn't want to leave." He stepped up to her when she made the glance at the time on the microwave. His head was cocked to the side, a brush of his shaggy dark hair coming down to his brow, "But I was thinking that maybe I should. I keep reading into the situation a little bit different and..." he shifted his weight left, then right again before answering, "I'm having to keep reminding myself of how and why I'm here. You get used to things, you know, even if they aren't wrong or right but just are."

Confusion marred dark features. She didn't have a lot of experience reading the moods of men, and maybe that was part of it. He seemed restless, anxious to leave despite having declared otherwise. Layla's head tilted to the side, looking up at him helplessly. "I don't....I'm sorry Jeremy but I don't understand." Dismayed, the girl shook her head, her shoulders lifting in a shrug. She turned away from him again, taking up her small coffee cup and sipping from its rim. It gave her something to do, calmed her nerves.

Layla really didn't get it, either. She replayed the evening in her mind, trying to figure out what it was that had put him in this state of mind. He'd seemed eager to leave the ice cream shop with her, but reluctant to arrive at the shop. He'd wanted to come in despite warning her what other people sometimes meant when they said that, but suddenly he was restless and pulling away. But then she offered to walk him out, to let him leave, and he said he didn't want to.

None of it made any sense.

"I don't know what I'm supposed to...do...now..."

"You could kiss me or just wish me goodnight. I don't know which one I'm supposed to do right now, to be honest," his smile cracked for her just then, admitting the weakness of indecision in the light of everything else which was happening. Jeremy honestly didn't know how to approach her and that was showing. He didn't know if he should kiss her or back off, if she wanted him there in a friendly or romantic way. He wanted to tell her that the last time he was invited over so late that it wasn't with the intention that he would leave so early.

He kept in mind that she was different, though. It confused him as much as it gave him a feeling of exhilaration. At the very least, her actions were genuine.

Kiss me or just wish me goodnight. Layla's heart was loud in her chest, beating hummingbird-fast against the cage of her ribs. She wondered, briefly, if she had the courage to initiate a kiss like that, if she could be that bold. It was an intimidating, daunting thought, but only a short while ago he'd talked about not wanting to have to be the one who made things clear every time.

Taking a deep breath, Layla set the coffee cup aside. Being here was all about not being at home, right' Escaping the life that had been planned out for her almost from the moment of her birth' Pursuing her own dreams, doing what she wanted to do' Well, no time like the present to make that happen.

She took one step towards him, and then a second. The girl was nervous but determined as she reached for him again, her hands soft and warm on his shoulders just to either side of his neck.

His hands drew to rest just at the outside of her waist. It was a featherlight touch followed by a small, encouraging squeeze. Whether she had meant to or not, it coerced him into leaning down into her, lips pausing just before connecting with her. One day he'd have less hesitation when it came to her. He remember the cool strawberry of her mouth and wondered, now, what she might be like without that influence. What the kiss would be like when there was only her and him in it and not the outside influences of all those other things.

Still, he wasn't planning on the kiss meaning more than what it was, but that didn't mean he wasn't enjoying it. It felt like unwrapping something so new that all he could do was be careful with it.

Drawing the pad of her thumb lightly over the line of his shoulder, Layla's gaze was centered there for a time. She'd studied that particular line so many times since she'd met the blacksmith, but this was the first time she'd actually felt it with her hands. A dim smile touched her lips as she traced it, memorized it.

His hands gave her waist a gentle squeeze and there was something so reassuring about that, something so comfortable and at the same time thrilling. At length she lifted her gaze to his face, her mouth lining up with his as she tilted her head back subtly. In that frozen position, a heart beat apart and no further, Layla hesitated only a second or two more before gently pressing her mouth to his.

There were long pauses with her and at times he wondered if there was regret or the want to pull away lingering there. All he could do, really, was try not to press her too much when she kissed him like that. He had almost withdraw as the moment drew long and then, at the last moment, her mouth moved against his. He lessened in gentle apprehension and started to draw his tongue along the perimeter of her lips to coax her mouth to open. Something about the moment seemed forbidden, as if her overbearing father and brother could have walked down and 'caught' them at any moment.

His right foot moved to the inside of her's, the blade nestling in the bare arch of her foot as their lips connected.

It wasn't lack of desire that gave her pause, just the opposite, in fact. It was courage building, gathering the strength and resolve to override her training and pursue what she wanted. And right now what she wanted was to kiss Jeremy.

Mouths met and her hands slid around the back of his neck as if by instinct, weight lifting off the heel of her left foot onto its ball as the knee rotated out, to rest lightly along the outside of his leg. Her lips parted at his coaxing.

The girl was Turkish coffee and something of cinnamon and honey. The gentle scent of rosewater and jasmine in her hair and along her throat. She was desert heat with a lurking promise of summer floods, all quiet hum and secret glimpses of rarely checked potential energy.

One of his hands strayed from her side to take ahold of her backside, encourage her body to rock and curl further into his thn she was already. Sooner or later he would have to get past the apprehension her inexperience gave him. It affected things, like that current moment where his grip suddenly lost spine and went back up to her waist. His lips broke from her's to whisper a, "Sorry, I was just..." but no further explanation followed. What he was doing wasn't exactly a mystery.

"Do you still want to do dinner this weekend?" Had he asked for too much, taken what she offered him too far" He kissed her again, but briefly, hoping that it reminded her of what it was like being connected with him. He's still lingering strawberry and chocolate over the taste and smell that was just him.

Layla moved where she was lead, her pulse skyrocketing as his hand slid over her, pressing her closer. Her arms slid that much more completely around his neck, drawing her body flush against his, and just as suddenly as the shift had happened it was backing off again, melting into apologies.

She shook her head, though not because of the question of dinner. She didn't think he had anything to apologize for. "Don't be sorry," she whispered back, and it came out more of a plea than she'd anticipated. "I do want to make you dinner, still." He kissed her again and she kissed him back, growing more confident in the gesture.

"I should probably get going," it was said like something he needed to do, not that he wanted to do it. That staying would have perils of its own he wasn't ready to....deal with. Not yet. Not like this. His arms closed around her, coiled around her lower back as he looked at her, "It's getting a little late for you to keep entertaining me, I think. Not without me staying over and...." there was a small shrug of his shoulders. He would have liked to have promised her that he'd be a gentleman, but Jeremy didn't think so. Not with her dark eyes looking up at him with that kinda want which they carried.

"I will have everything ready for you and....I'll be counting the hours until you're over." Another kiss, but this time to the warm spread of her cheek. It was like being a kid again when he did it, gazing at her intently with a slow, gentle smile appearing. "We could call and text a bit until then...?"

Her nod was a reluctant one, as though conceding his point though not exactly happy about it. He was right to withdraw, though; what she thought she wanted and what she was actually probably ready for were likely not evenly aligned. "Alright," said Layla slowly, holding him close for several seconds more before she withdrew.

A little smile melted and spread more thickly over her finely carved features. Her gaze momentarily downcast as the smile grew, she nodded again. His cheek kiss was warm, and her fingers gently brushed his cheek, the edge of his jaw, down the side of his neck. "Alright. I would like that."

"You'll have to show me the way out," he pointed upward, to the shop overhead and the exit door he knew of, "I don't think I can navigate it in the dark without you and if I break something I'm not sure that I could forgive myself." His smile cracked a bit further then, wetting his lips and then tilting his head to the side to see if a more easy smile would break across her lips for him. Jeremy stepped backward towards the steps, but was clearly waiting for her to lead the way upward and through the dark.

That smile he was looking for blossomed on her face, completely unconscious and unbidden. She had dimples when the smile was genuine enough; they didn't show up all the time but they were on display now. Taking a settling breath, the girl loops shiny black waves behind one ear pierced in gold, and she followed him to the steps, slipping her feet back into her sandals. Gathering folds of her skirt in a double handful to keep herself from stepping on it, Layla began to climb.

Back through the work room into the dark showroom, and her hand reached for his to guide him through the dark.

At the top of the stairs she took the lead. Through the work room where their hands grasped one another's. It was a clear walk through and perhaps it was all about having one more moment where their fingers laced together to the front door of her shop. Once there, he gave her arm a jerk that was strong enough to turn her body back towards his.

It apparently wasn't too dark for him to find her mouth in the moonlight that shone through the windows of her shop. His lips caught her's and held them there, his body side stepping until his back was against the door of her shop. There was the smallest, gentlest moan in his throat, the only indicator of an impatient want for more. Of a regret for having to step out of the door like he was having to just then.

Pulled around and then into him, Layla giggled softly in the dark, and it sounded much louder in the echoing silence of the closed store. Their mouths met again and she was more ready for it this time, her lips parting easily as they kissed. His moan caused a curious reaction, a tightening in her belly that was unexpected but surprisingly pleasant.

He leaned back against the door and she followed him, seemingly unwilling to break away from him. Perhaps that want was more than one sided. When the kiss ended at last, Layla rested her forehead against his shoulder a moment, just savoring his presence. Eventually she stepped back, looking up at him with a faint smile. "...It's not....so many hours until Saturday, is it?"

"No, it isn't. I promise." His left hand cradling her face, partly, as she leaned it into his shoulder. There was a groan from him, his head bowing to press a series of kissed at the gentle curve of her neck that was offered up. Between kisses he added, "I will count," another kiss, "the hours." Jeremy smiled at her and then broke away awkwardly. Why was it awkward" He was unzipping his dark red hoodie, which meant a shuffling of hands and a forward lean. The hoodie came to rest upon her shoulders, leaving him in an blue-grey t-shirt with some company logo printed over his chest.

"That way you won't forget about me until then." He smiled, though, knowing it was far from the truth. Knowing he had come up with an excuse to impart his jacket to her, "Just bring it back to me on Saturday, okay?"

Those kisses brought a shiver up the back of her neck, pushing her closer to him. The words felt like a promise, and she responded wordlessly, spilling kisses of her own onto the ridge at his collar. All those lines that had transfixed her so, now under her fingers, under her lips.

She didn't understand why he was removing his jacket until she found it draped around her like a cape, filled with the warmth of his body and the subtle scent of him. Layla smiled, then, fitting her arms through the sleeves, and then she nodded. "I'll take very good care of it until then."

"I'll see you Saturday. Promise." His body bent down just enough to kiss her again. Left and splayed behind him to catch and shove the door behind him. Finally their lips broke and he broke away from her, stepping out the door but still looking over his shoulder at her with a smile. She was adorable in the hoodie that was oversized, wrapping her up and holding her in a dark, subtle red that complimented her skin tone.

His lips pressed in a line and then he walked onward, to what would be the outskirts of the marketplace and towards his bachelor apartment. There was cleaning and some haphazard decorating to be done.