Topic: Quiet Moments

Teres

Date: 2019-06-12 21:15 EST
What an exciting three days it had been. To propose, to wed, to bed, and back out to witness the marriage of a friend he had never thought would be so eager to find a wife - Ezra could never have imagined such a joyful conclusion to a chapter of his life that had been filled with loneliness and worry. He also never could have imagined himself sitting securely on his bed, his wife between his knees, brushing out the tangles in her hair and thoroughly enjoying every stroke.

Ezra wasn't the only one who was happy. That wife of his was overcome with happiness. She'd babbled all the way back to their quarters, laughing and crying at the same time and smothering him in kisses, until he finally had to calm her down long enough to get them both undressed and ready for bed. Oh, the last three days had been a whirlwind for all of them. The only thing that might make things even better was if, in a few weeks' time, she found herself pregnant with Ezra's child.

"I'm so happy, Ezra. Are you sure we're not dreaming?" she asked, barely able to sit still long enough for him to brush out the tangles in her hair.

"Would you like me to pinch you to be certain?" he asked her in a laughing tease, gently turning her head forward once again as the brush swept through the fall of her dark hair.

"You can pinch me wherever you like, husband," she said coyly, giggling before sighing with contentment as he went back to brushing her hair. "Did you ever think you'd be so happy, Ezra?" she asked him.

Gathering her hair into one hand, he laid the length over her shoulder, inching forward to envelop her in his arms, his chin resting on her other shoulder.

"No," he admitted quietly. "I hoped, but hope is just a wish you give to the Goddess. What She does with it will be what you need Her to do, whether you know it or not. I am very happy that She drew us together, askim."

"I remember you," Teres told him quietly, a soft smile on her face as she leaned into him, content for the moment just to be held. "I remember the shy, studious boy you once were. I think I loved you even then," she confessed, though it was likely not the first or last time she'd admit to it.

"Is that why you teased me incessantly about the fact that I never smiled at anything but Nasir's terrible jokes?" he asked, as curious as he was teasing in that moment, enjoying the quiet. The luxury of holding his wife in his arms and knowing he would have many more moments like this in their lives to come.

"I teased you because it was the only way to get you to notice me," Teres said, frowning just a little at the memory of those early days in the harem, when they'd just been children. "You were always so serious. I wanted you to smile at me and laugh the way you did with Nasir."

"I know," he murmured, "but as long as I didn't smile at you, I had all your attention. Perhaps it was selfish, but I have never pretended to be a saint. It was worth it to be able to tear you away from Safiya from time to time."

His own admission made her smile, softly, warmly. "We were just children then. And when you went away ..." Her smile faded a little, though he might not notice. "I didn't think I'd ever see you again," she whispered, a small hitch in her words. But it hardly mattered now - all the years of pain and worry and loneliness had been worth it, now that they were together.

"You need never fear such a thing again, askim," he promised her, soft lips touching her temple in a gentle contrast to the tickle of his beard. "I will always come back to you."

She smiled again, leaning into his embrace and settling his hands against her belly. "I have prayed to the Goddess to give us a child. I do not care if it is a son or a daughter," she told him quietly.

"Perhaps there is a child already planted," he replied. It was perhaps strange for others, how easily Ezra placed his life and his hopes into the hands of the Goddess, yet he had spent a good part of his life studying for the priesthood before deciding that was not his path. His faith was unshakeable, and it bled into every part of his being. He tilted his head, smiling down at Teres lovingly. "I think I would like very much to see you rounded with child and glowing."

"I am already glowing," she assured him, slipping out of his arms, only to turn and take his hand to draw him upwards so that she could lead him to bed. "Would you wish for a son or a daughter first?" she asked, though she believed it was not for them to decide.

His hand evaded hers, both rising to latch gently onto her hips and pull her down to straddle his lap as he encircled her in his arms once again. Dipping his head to the crook of her neck, he breathed her in for a long moment, finally looking up to find her gaze with a soft smile.

"I would hope for a daughter," he admitted, smiling at his own admission. "There are too many warlike boys in this world. The best joys of my life have come from women."

She giggled as he pulled her into his lap, all too willing to oblige him in every way. "Truly' A daughter" And here, I was hoping to give you a son," she admitted, smiling almost shyly at her confession. It filled her heart with joy and relief to hear him assure her that he'd welcome a daughter, especially in a place where sons were so valued.

"Do you remember what Baba always said when we were small?" he asked, nose to nose and smile to smile. "A son is a son 'til he takes a wife, but your daughter's your daughter all her life."

"If the Goddess so wills it, I would like to give you both a son and a daughter," she told him, brushing her nose against his. "But I would be very happy to give you a daughter, Ezra, if that is what you wish. A little girl who will adore her father as much as I do." She moved onto her tiptoes to touch a kiss to his nose. "Now, let us go to bed. If we wish to make a baby, we cannot do it standing up," she told him, playfully waggling her brows at him.

"How much would you like to bet on that?" he asked, waggling his brows back at her and, without removing his arms from around his wife, tipped backward, secure in the knowledge that they would both land safe on the bed in one of his fast becoming favorite positions.

She squeaked as he dropped them both onto the bed, giggling as she landed atop him and once again smothered him in kisses as her hands worked his nightclothes open, eager to taste and touch and memorize all she could of her Ezra.

He laughed into her kisses, easing his own hands inside her robe, smoothing it from her shoulders to toss it aside and let his touch begin the teasing trail up her legs that had turned her to jelly more than once already. He adored how sensitive his askim was to his touch, delighted to find that the wife he loved was not ashamed of her own desires in his arms.

Teres

Date: 2019-06-12 21:15 EST
She had opened to him, like a flower in the morning sun, blossoming under his loving care and affection. It had only been a day since they had been wed, since they had consummated that marriage in love, but she was growing bolder and braver with every moment spent under his tutelage. She reveled in the moments when she was able to make him sigh and smile, proving a willing and eager student in the ways of love.

And oh, how he loved his willing student, his loving wife. Ezra was never less than gentle with her, even when his hands were firm, turning her beneath him to worship every inch of her. Silk and satin found its way to the floor, giving way to skin on skin as he teased and coaxed, guiding her tenderly through every crest and valley until she could take it no more.

Until she cried out his name, begging her to end this exquisite torment, only so she could do the same to him, starting all over again, once they caught their breath. For now, though, she savored the quiet of the moment once again, tangled up in his embrace, hearts beating in unison, wrapped in his warmth and his love.

He drew her close, fingers stroking soothingly over her back and arm as he rolled to his back and pulled her into him, pressing a breathless kiss to her hair. "What were we talking about, again?" he asked, his laugh almost lost on his breath.

"Does it matter, my love?" she asked, wrapped up in his arms, her fingers lovingly stroking his chest. "We are here together, and we will be so forevermore. That is all that matters."

He chuckled, hugging her just that little bit closer. "So what do you think of the commander?" he asked, curious to know her view on his old friend and the eventful return he had managed to have.

She laughed, amused at his question, or more accurately, at his timing. "You ask me this now, when I should only be thinking of you?" she said, her voice full of mirth. "I think he is brash and large and handsome and all too full of himself. He is perfect for our Sasha!"

Ezra let out an affected gasp, unable to hide his grin as he responded. "You think another man is handsome?" he demanded playfully. "You say that naked in my arms" What a daring little wife you are, askim!"

"I think he is pleasant to look at, as a rose or a sunrise, but it is you I desire, husband," she replied. "Do not tell me you have not noticed the loveliness of other women? You are not blind, after all," she teased in return.

"All other women pale in comparison to you, Teres," he promised her fondly. "Other women are pieces of art to me. You are everything."

"There is no one like you, Ezra. Truly," she assured him, lifting herself up onto an elbow so that she could face him. "Every other man pales beside you, including the commander. If the King of Pomerania were to wish to woo me, I would tell him nae, for it is you who I love," she told him, leaning close to kiss his lips. They both knew it was highly unlikely such a thing would happen, but she was merely trying to make a point.

"If he were to try, I think he would have more trouble than you," he answered in amusement. "Since his wife is Lady Shahista's sister." He chuckled, smoothing his fingers into her hair as she kissed him, holding her close to kiss her in return.

She savored his kiss, lingered in it as long as he would allow, her nose circling his playfully when their lips parted to take a breath. "I am only making a point, askim," she told him, touching a finger to his lips to silence his objections. "There is no one but you." And with that said, she straddled his hips to take him to even greater heights than before, this time with her in control.

Silenced, he merely grinned back at her, lying back to let his beloved put everything she had learned thus far into practice for as long as she might want to. He would certainly repay her many times over, but she was utterly adorable when she was concentrating on him.

She had learned some of the places that made him sigh and squirm and even laugh. Each time they made love, she learned even more, and thus far, had only pleased him with her progress. For one who was new to the ways of love, she was ever eager to learn new ways to please him and never grew weary of her lessons. Perhaps in time, she would even teach him, but for now, each kiss, each caress was a new adventure in exploring her Ezra. If it took all night, it would be too soon, and yet, they had the rest of their lives together.

Idris

Date: 2019-06-12 21:16 EST
And in another part of the palace, a pair who had made the same vows were nonetheless having a very different wedding night. Idris and Sasha had retired later than Ezra and Teres, only now reaching their rooms after spending an enjoyable evening in the company of friends. Sasha could not help but hesitate as she glanced toward the bed, realizing that she would be sleeping there tonight, and not alone.

"Are you nervous, hanim?" Idris asked, noticing the way she glanced furtively toward the bed. "Would you prefer I sleep on the couch?" he asked, though he was far too tall to find it comfortable there. There was a hint of amusement in his voice, as though he found this entire situation amusing.

"You are injured, you cannot sleep on the couch," was her immediate response, her eyes turning toward him with a certain amount of command in her expression. "Are you in pain, commander?"

"I have had much worse," he assured her, not for the first time. She had already seen the proof of his claim in the scars that bore the evidence of it. "You should make yourself comfortable, Sasha. These are your quarters now, as much as they are mine," he assured her, with a wave of his hand at their surroundings. He had not been back long enough to really make himself at home here or to add any personal touches, but his set of rooms were quiet and comfortable enough for his liking.

"I should check your bandage," she answered, but she did venture further into the collection of rooms, orienting herself as to what was where. It was a small relief to see the little chest that held all her own belongings nestled in the dressing room, drawing a soft smile for something familiar as she stepped back into the bedroom. "I did not expect this to happen today," she admitted, raising her hands to fumble with the fastening of the necklace at her throat.

"Are you having regrets?" he asked, misinterpreting her statement as she rejoined him, to find he had already doffed his kaftan and was working on peeling off the second layer of clothes. His gaze flickered to the opals at her throat and he clicked his tongue. "Here, let me," he said, stepping close to help her with the necklace.

"I am not the sort to regret my decisions," she assured him, raising a brow as he clicked his tongue. "I am not a horse, koca." It felt strange to call him that - husband - but since she had yet to summon the courage to call him by his name, she was comfortable with it. She turned, drawing her hair over her shoulder to expose the fastening at her nape.

"I am not a beast, Sasha. I do care for you and I do wish to make you happy," Idris assured his new wife as his fingers adeptly worked the fastening open and drew the necklace from around her throat. "There. I assume these belong to the Teliran," he said, turning her to pool the opals into her palm.

Even that was an intimacy Sasha was unaccustomed to, feeling the brush of his fingers against her skin as he drew the necklace from her throat. "Yes," she confirmed, letting the strangely warm shiver flow through her. "I must return them to her. They were a gift from the king."

"They will be safe enough here for one night," he assured her. After all, there was no one there but them, and neither of them had any desire to rob their friends. He left the opals in the palm of her hand, trusting her to put them someplace safe until she could return them to her friend.

"Are you cold?" he asked, noticing her shiver, though he thought it warm in the palace.

"No, I ....I am warm," she said, seemingly confused by her own sensations. She had never shivered at anyone's touch before, and it was not cold in any way. Looking down at the opals in her palm, she smiled. "I will put these somewhere safe."

"They will be safe enough here, Sasha," he told her, closing his hand over hers and guiding it to a low table. No one would dare enter his rooms uninvited this night, and no one would dare steal the opals without risking the consequences.

This close, she couldn't hide the flush on her cheeks as his hand enveloped hers, letting herself be drawn closer as her hand was brought down to the table. "I did not mean to say that your quarters are not safe, commander."

"I know what you meant, Sasha," he assured her with a warm smile and a soft tone of voice, much quieter and calmer than he had shown her before. "Shall we retire?" he asked, wondering if she was going to stick to her promise to wait for the outcome of their wager.

Idris

Date: 2019-06-12 21:16 EST
Her eyes widened for a moment before she got hold of herself, swallowing hard. "I should change," she agreed. "And no one has looked at your bandage since yesterday."

"I suppose you are right," he said, releasing his hold of her hand and stepping back a pace to let her move past him, if she so wished. His side was aching, but he had been too distracted by her to pay it much heed.

She paused, reaching out to cover his hand with her own. "Be patient with me?" she asked softly. "I do not know how to be a wife." Screwing her courage together, she dared to peck a quick kiss to his cheek before whirling away, gathering an armful of nightwear and disappearing into the dressing room.

He smiled a little ironically at her question. After all, he did not know how to be a husband either. He chuckled a little as she whirled away, and touching his fingers to the place on his cheek where she'd kissed him, shaking his head as he turned to finish getting undressed - or at least in removing enough clothing that she could change his bandage. He left his pants on, more for her sake than his own modesty and turned down the bed covers as he awaited her return.

Thankfully, she was not a woman who spent too much time staring at her own reflection while she thought, returning to the room in a silk nightgown and robe, bare feet visible beneath the hems and blonde hair caught in a loose braid. Setting her clothing into the chest that held everything she owned, Sasha moved to collect what she would need before turning to face Idris, forcing herself not to admire his form when he was in pain.

"Will you sit, commander?"

He, too, was a simple man, who appreciated simple pleasures, though there was nothing simple about the woman he had just made his wife. He turned to face her when she returned, appreciating her simple beauty without saying a word, the hint of a smirk at her question. Though not the dark beauty most men of Valentia sought after, he found she possessed a different kind of beauty - one that was uniquely Sasha. He could sense she was nervous, though she had seemed so when she had bandaged him the first time.

"Yes, of course," he said, as he eased himself onto the bed. There were a number of other places he could have chosen to sit, but the bed was close and comfortable and it was where they were going to end up anyway.

Swallowing down her nerves once again, Sasha sat down beside him, reaching to undo the bandage at his waist and check the wound beneath. With that to focus on, she could forget that she was a bride sitting on her marriage bed with her husband, and find a little of herself once again.

"You should have rested today," she told him with a faint frown at the amount of blood that had soaked into the pad.

He only winced a little as she unwound the bandage from the wound at his side. "Bah, rest is for old women and babies," he told her, resisting the urge to wave her off. He wasn't stupid enough to dismiss her help completely. He knew if he didn't tend to the wound properly, it could get infected and that could prove worse than mere stitches.

"Then perhaps I should treat you like a baby for the next week," Sasha suggested pointedly, glancing up at his face with a raised brow. "If you do not care for yourself, you will not heal. I will not let you become a fool on the battlefield and off it with no care for your own well-being. I did not marry a fool, and I will not be a fool's wife."

"You talk as if you actually care about me, wife," he teased, making no move to fight or resist her efforts to tend to his wound and not so much as flinching all the while. Her scolding only amused him and made him wonder if she really was starting to care for him, despite only knowing him a few days.

"I would not have agreed if I did not have some feeling for you," she pointed out, as though he should have known that all along. "Hold this in place for a moment." She laid his hand over a fresh medicated pad laid against his wound, and reached for fresh bandages to hold it in place. "You will rest tomorrow," she told him firmly. "I will keep you company if you wish me to."

In tending him, she was almost forced to touch him, and she did so without hesitation. This was not the same kind of contact that took place between a man and wife, so much as a nursemaid and her patient, and yet, it amused him to watch her work.

"Only the king can command me," he pointed out, though his expression betrayed that fact that he was only teasing her again. "Shall we stay in bed all day then, wife?"

"Only a wife's desire outweighs a king's command." She wasn't sure where the phrase had come from. She knew it was almost a proverb, something the girls in the harem were taught to make it plain that a woman's power came from her connection with her husband. Sasha shrugged, tucking the end of the bandage securely in place before leaning back, meeting his eyes head on. "You will stay in bed," she informed him. "I am not an injured soldier who does not know how to look after himself."

"With one such as you to tend me, perhaps I should find myself injured more often," he teased further, lifting a hand to playfully tap his finger against the tip of her nose. He did not mean it, of course; no solider wanted to become wounded, but he didn't mind the attention, so long as she was the one tending to him.

Sasha felt herself laugh, even as she batted his hand away from her nose. "There is no one like me," she told him. "So you will simply have to put up with just me, and I will scold you every time you come home to me injured. Your life is not just your own any longer; it belongs to me, and to our children, also."

"Ah, but we must consummate the marriage before we can have children, hanim," he reminded her, unable to hide the smirk from his face. He could not deny the thought of lying with her was a tempting one, but he would not force it upon her until she was ready.

"That will not be happening until you are healed, koca," she reminded him in turn, one brow raised in the face of his smirk. She patted his knee. "Would you like a drink?"

There were many things he would like, but at the moment a drink was not one of them. He met her gaze, the smirk turning into a smile, but a pleasant enough one. "So long as it is not water," he told her. He might have suggested they celebrate, but they had done enough of that already in the company of their friends. This was their time - just the two of them.

Idris

Date: 2019-06-12 21:17 EST
"It will not be water," she promised, rolling her eyes at his comment. Gathering together her supplies, she rose, quick to put them to one side to be dealt with another time, and investigated the carafes set aside for them. Spiced wine was warmed gently before she served it into goblets, bringing him his drink before daring to sit on the bed beside him once again.

He remained silent while she poured the wine, silently admiring this beauty that had somehow come to be his; silently thanking the goddess for all she had given him. He held out a rough hand, callused fingers closing around the goblet as he took if from her. He did not bother to pat the place at his side, as she had already decided to claim it, just as she was quickly claiming his heart. The thought of that made him smile, too.

"Do you think Leyla will be happy for us, hanim?" he asked, lifting his goblet in salute of his new wife.

Sipping her wine, Sasha considered her answer before giving it. She had not forgotten his harsh view of her former harem-sister, a little troubled that anyone could see such venom in someone she had always known as sweet and kind.

"Happy but envious, I think," she offered. "She longs to be a wife, now that she cannot be the king's."

"There are plenty of other men who can take her to wife," Idris pointed out, before taking a swallow of his wine. As for Nasir and Ezra and Idris, they and their hearts were all spoken for. He was sure Nasir - or more accurately, Shahista - would find matches for all the women, but he was grateful he'd been able to make his own choice. "I have a feeling Nasir was hoping for this all along." Not only Nasir, but Safi and Shahista, as well. "I wonder if they hope to domesticate me," he said with a laugh.

"She wanted you," Sasha mused, looking into her cup. "But since we have already had one poisoning attempted in the palace, I do not think she would ever consider going quite that far to get you." She giggled quietly, looking back to him. "I do not believe you can be domesticated," she assured him. "Broken to the saddle, perhaps."

"I am not so important or powerful as the king," Idris pointed out, that that was not entirely true. He was, arguably, the second or third most powerful man in all of Valentia now, but he did not think in terms of power, only duty.

"You have the loyalty of the army," she pointed out. "You are, arguably, the most powerful man in the country, should you choose to wield that might against your king. But you are a good man, and a good friend. Nasir is lucky to have you with him."

His expression darkened at her suggestion, if only for a moment, before realizing she meant nothing by it. "Nasir is my brother, if not in blood, than in spirit. Anyone who thinks to use me against him would be a fool," he said, not in warning but as a simple point of fact. Something had happened in the past that had bound the three men together, but as of yet, none had spoken what that was.

She stared at him, aware of what he had thought before she finished speaking. "Do you believe me to be so disloyal as to grab for power over the bodies of the two people I consider my family more than any other?" she asked him bluntly.

He blinked, his expression softening. "No, not you. Never you. But there are others," he said, remembering the rage he had felt as he'd helped slaughter Nasir's enemies. He'd hung their heads upon the gates in warning to any others who might do the same and had paid for his loyalty with a wound in his side, but that had not been Nasir's doing. "It is not over yet, Sasha. Not until those who plot against us have been utterly defeated."

"I do not know much of how it all works, but I would assume that the Pomeran alliance will move on Lotharingia when the next season for war arrives," Sasha mused thoughtfully. "Next year, perhaps. It does not give us much time to secure our borders and the loyalty of our people."

"No, and we must be ready to stand with our Pomeran allies," Idris said, pausing to take another gulp of his wine. "But this is our wedding night, and we should not be talking about war," he added, dismissing the subject, not because he did not think her capable but because he did not find it a pleasant topic of discussion, given present company.

"And what else do you think will be happening on our wedding night, commander?" she asked in amusement, leaning back on one hand as she sipped her wine. Her dark eyes watched him over the rim of the cup, glad that she was relaxing into his company once again.

"Sleeping, no doubt," he replied, with a twinkle as his own dark eyes regarded hers. "Unless ..." he murmured, taking the goblet of wine from her and turning to set both goblets aside, for now. "Do you trust me, Sasha?" he asked, that bearded smirk of his lighting up his whole face.

Wariness lit up her eyes as he took her goblet from her, pushing herself to sit up once again in the face of his twinkling smirk. "I do not want you to harm yourself, koca."

"I will not harm myself, nor will I break your vow," he promised, though she had not yet answered his question. He touched her chin, tipping her face to meet his gaze. "Answer me, hanim. Do you trust me?"

What a question to ask her. They had known one another barely more than a day, yet she had married him when he asked her. There must be trust there, somewhere. Sasha looked into his eyes, her nervousness plain on her face. "Yes," she said, as confidently as she could. "I do."

He smiled, pleased with her answer. She must have trusted him a little to have agreed to marry him, and yet he preferred to ask, rather than assume. "Lie back and relax," he urged her, as he shifted to his knees at her feet. "If you cannot bear it, tell me to stop," he warned her, though his goal was to give her pleasure, not pain.

"What are you doing?" she asked, frowning in confusion even as she obediently lay back. She lifted her head to look at him. "I thought men were not supposed to kneel before their women."

"I assure you it is entirely for your benefit," he told her, his hands moving beneath her nightgown to find her legs, an almost lecherous smile on his face, knowing something she did not. He had not even kissed her yet, yet in his eagerness to please her, he dared touch her in such an intimate way.

She gasped, startled to find his hands slipping beneath the silk that covered her to brush against her legs. The calluses from years of weapons' use felt strangely erotic against the softness of her skin, sending a flushed ripple through her body as she bit her lip, trying not to tense up too much. "I-I don't know what to do."

Idris

Date: 2019-06-12 21:17 EST
"Just relax," Idris instructed, his hands pausing momentarily to allow her a moment to breathe and relax. There was nothing she needed to do but relax, though that might be hard to do, given the circumstances. Still, if she was brave enough to let him keep going, she might find herself more relaxed than she'd ever felt before.

Unable to hide the nerves, Sasha nodded obediently, lying back once again. This time, she closed her eyes, fingers drumming restlessly against the sheets beneath her as she fought to breathe slowly.

A smile touched his face as he watched her try to relax, his hands slowly sliding upwards against her thighs, the warrior's touch surprisingly gentle. Carefully, he eased her nightgown upwards, as well, little by little, while his hands inched upwards, slowly so that he didn't alarm her and gave her enough opportunity to stop him, if she wished.

Perhaps unsurprisingly, her knees clamped together tightly as he raised the soft skirt of her night gown, hands clenching for just a moment before she forced herself to relax again. She didn't open her legs, but she had definitely made an effort not to fight back.

"What are you doing?" she whispered, not really expecting an answer.

"If you let me, I'm going to give you pleasure," he replied, more amused than annoyed by the way she'd clamped her knees closed. "There's nothing to fear, Sasha. I promise it's not going to hurt, but if you aren't ready, I will wait."

"I've never been touched like ....like this," she managed, doing her best to swallow down her nerves. It wasn't as though she expected him to hurt her, but this was a long way out of her comfort zone already. He hadn't even kissed her yet, and now he was under her skirt!

"It is one of the ways men and women make love to each other," he told her. One of the many ways, in fact, though not all men cared enough to give their mate pleasure. Some, he knew, only cared for themselves and for getting their mate with child, but that was not Idris. "It's all right if you're not ready, Sasha. It can wait," he assured her, his hands moving downward, so that she wouldn't feel she had no choice in the matter.

She was shaking, those nerves impossible to control. "I-I don't want to disappoint you," she confessed softly. "I know I am supposed to know what to do. I am supposed to please you, but ....I don't know how."

"You could never disappoint me, Sasha," he assured her. He leaned back on his heels, letting her gown fall back to cover her legs. Perhaps it was too soon. After all, they had only just been married, and he hadn't even kissed her yet.

"I'm sorry." She opened her eyes, guilt written over her face as she moved to sit up. "I know I should be braver. I know you will not hurt me. But I cannot help fearing such intimacy, in a way. I have never been ....vulnerable ....with anyone."

"Then we will go slow," he told her, moving to his feet again and wincing just a little at the stitch in his side before moving back to the bed to sit down beside her. "We can go as slow as you want," he assured her, reaching out to touch her hair in a gentle caress.

Relieved, she let herself lean into the unexpected caress, not mentioning the wince he had shown her. He did not like to have too much of a fuss made, after all. "I am sorry," she apologised again. "I will be better at this, in time."

He smiled in answer to her apology. Though his body was fighting him in resisting her, his priority was her. If he could go slow and earn her trust, show her that he only wanted to give her pleasure, he would, in the end, find pleasure himself.

"There is no need to apologize, Sasha, but understand that I would never hurt you," he assured her. "May I?" he asked, indicating the space beside her, asking permission to lie down beside her, though this was his bed.

"This is your bed, commander," she pointed out, a twitch of her lips suggesting her amusement at his asking for her permission. She lay down once again herself, wriggling to set her head on the pillow as she rolled onto her side to watch him.

He didn't bother to undress any further, as he was already naked from the waist up, and he didn't want to make her any more uncomfortable by removing his pants. He was careful of his side as he laid down beside her and once again, reached out to touch her hair, to let the silken strands sift through his fingers.

"You are very beautiful, Sasha," he told her, perhaps for the first time.

She chose not to argue with him on that point, simply smiling as he stroked her hair. "I am sure you already know this," she murmured, "but you are a very handsome man, commander. I ....I was jealous when you were flirting with Leyla and the others."

He smiled again, a little amused at her confession. "There is no need to be jealous. It is you I was hoping to wed," he admitted, though that fact had even surprised him. He had not planned on taking a bride upon returning home, but if Nasir wanted to reward him by giving him a bride, he could think of none he wanted other than Sasha.

"I threatened you with a blade twice," she reminded him, relaxing a little more now there were no wandering hands. "Surely you would have wanted a wife with less of a tendency to lay hands on a weapon when she is angry?"

"Do you think I'd prefer a woman who would coddle me and tend to my every whim?" he asked, knowing most men might prefer that, but again, he wasn't most men. "I like a woman who has a mind of her own," he told her. "And one who is not afraid to express her own thoughts and opinions."

She laughed, nestling more comfortably against the pillow, wishing in the depths of her soul that she was nestled against him. "You may regret giving me such freedom," she warned. "My opinions are not very educated."

"Then I will educate you," he told her simply, grinning over at her from where he laid beside her. And he would educate her in more ways than one, when she was ready. "You should get some rest," he told her gently.

Idris

Date: 2019-06-12 21:17 EST
"So should you," she countered. "You have had a busy day, commander." She sat up briefly, pulling off her robe to reveal bare arms that reached down for the sheets to cover them both before lying back once again.

He reached for the sheets with her, trying not to gawk or appear awkward at the sight of her bare arms. She was still wearing her nightgown, after all, and it was not the first time he had been with a woman. "Good night, Sasha," he whispered, before turning to put out the lights.

She waited until they were both settled in, listening to his breathing for a long moment before answering in barely more than a whisper. "Good night ....Idris."

It occurred to him again that he had not even kissed her yet, and he frowned, thankful that she could not see his expression in the dark. She had not wanted to disappoint him, but he was equally worried about disappointing her. He couldn't help but smile a little as she finally called him by name though. Perhaps there was hope for them yet; perhaps in time, they'd be as happy as his friends and their brides. Perhaps.