It is a peculiarity of the intelligence world that, when a mission in cover is completed - successful or not - the agents involved invariably find themselves pen pushing for a long time afterward. Most of the time, they find it an annoyance, but in this case ....
After the Spetses mission, the successful extraction and confirmation of connection aliases, Margaret Miller had been glad of a little time spent behind her desk. Time spent away from the confusion that was pretending to be someone else, in the company of a man who was also pretending to be someone else. The CIA agents had been whisked back to Washington within hours of their debrief in London, helpfully preventing any chance of AJ or Meg falling over themselves to avoid having that dinner they had initially expected to share.
A few weeks of trans-Atlantic distance, however, had done Meg's peace of mind a world of good. She had been allowed to settle into being Meg again; to separate out her own feelings from the simulated feelings of the aliases that had brought her into close proximity with AJ Doyle. And she had come to a conclusion that had startled her. She did have feelings for him - for the man, the agent, not the aliases he had worn for the majority of their time together. But acknowledging those feelings and acting on them were two very different things.
Unfortunately for her composure in the face of a vulnerability she had not had to worry about for years, the CIA and MI6 were so pleased with the way the Spetses mission had turned out that the two agencies had finally agreed upon a liaison officer - an agent swap, essentially, one from each agency, and Meg was the chosen sacrifice to go to Washington. With the support of her agency, she was transferred across the Pond within another week, settled into an apartment and provided with everything she needed. Just a few days later, she was walking into CIA headquarters without the first idea what she should expect.
Names on the other side of the Pond had been carefully considered, and it had come down to a choice between two agents - Doyle or Riggs. Neither agent had been asked for their opinion either way, and in the end, Agent Doyle had been almost relieved to learn Riggs had been chosen for the London position. But that was before he'd also learned that Riggs was being traded for Miller. He'd had one month to sort his feelings out and try to forget her, but as soon as she walked through that door, with all that blond hair and that doe-eyed expression, he knew he was in trouble. There was nothing to do about it, but suck it up or request a transfer. For the first time in his career, he thought he might need therapy. The only problem was he didn't think there was any cure for what ailed him. At least Agent Amanda Drew seemed happy to see her, along with some other agents who welcomed her and offered to show her around.
It was a relief for Meg, at least, to know more than one face at the D.C. office, and to be welcomed so warmly after her initial induction was definitely reassuring. She couldn't help looking for that one particular face, however, feeling an odd ache the longer he remained unseen. Amanda Drew, however, had her own ideas about how to make that reunion come about. It was after lunch when she lead Meg through the bullpen toward AJ's desk, tapping on the wood to get his attention.
"Doyle, you remember Meg Miller, right' She needs computer access - set her up, and no excuses, or I'll share that picture from the Christmas party last year." And just like that, there they were, trapped together after a month of trying to forget about each other.
Meg bit her lip, her smile shy. "Hello again, Andrew."
AJ scowled up at Agent Drew, who was in actuality a close personal friend, though Agent Miller was the one thing he had refused to discuss, even over a couple of beers since his return from what was now being referred to as "The Spetses Job", like it was some kind of action-adventure movie. "Everyone's seen that picture already, Nancy!" he called after Agent Drew. Everyone but Agent Miller anyway. It wasn't Agent Drew's real name, but a sort of nickname he'd pegged her with from the first day they'd met. "Hello," he replied, trying hard not to meet her gaze, though he was going to have to come to terms with her being here sooner or later. "Which desk is yours?" he asked, as he pushed to his feet.
Straight to business, it seemed, and for a moment, his brusque manner hurt. Meg hadn't felt that kind of hurt for a very long time, frowning as she glanced around at the bullpen, counting the desks to locate the one she had been allocated. It was directly next to his. "That one," she told him quietly, gesturing toward it.
Of course, it was right next to his. It was as if the universe was conspiring to throw them back together again, for whatever purpose. "How was your flight?" he asked, trying to pick a safe topic of conversation, one that wouldn't tear open wounds real or imagined, as he moved over to the desk beside his and pushed a button to boot up the computer.
"Interminable," she told him, her voice just as he remembered it, warm and friendly and beautifully English. "I was sat next to a woman who I'm sure is lovely on solid ground, but at 1500 feet for ten hours was overly chatty, even when I was trying to sleep." She chuckled quietly at the memory of that. "Nothing compared with the conversation of the taxi driver who picked me up at the airport, though. Does everyone strike up random conversations with strangers here?"
"Not everyone," he replied shortly. DC wasn't exactly known to be an overly friendly place, though he didn't think it was unfriendly either. It was the sort of city where everyone always seemed to be in a hurry to get somewhere, unless you were a tourist. Then, you were usually just in the way. But that was a cynical point of view, and he knew it. He also knew she didn't deserve it. If they were going to be working together, he was going to have to be at least civil. "They're probably intrigued by your accent," he reasoned further, hoping he wasn't being too rude by saying so. Her accent was intriguing, after all. It pegged her as being a foreigner, and a pretty one at that.
"Well, I have had a few people tell me how much they adore my accent, true," she smiled, perching on the corner of the desk comfortably. "My new landlady asked me if I knew a specific person who lives in Edinburgh, though, so it would seem that the general grasp of British geography is about the same as my grasp of American geography." She considered him for a moment, and spoke a little more sharply than she had intended to. "Are you going to look at me, Andrew, or is pretending that I'm invisible the new aim of your game?"
"Like the way you looked at me on the plane?" he countered - or rather, the way she'd avoided his gaze, avoided his company, until it was too late, and he had to catch a plane back to DC. "Never mind. Forget I said that. It's my fault, I know. I'm an asshole," he looked at her briefly before going back to the computer, tapping keys to get her set up with a user name and temporary password.
Her mouth fell open, about to apologize for her behavior before he cut her off. In the space of one sentence, he had managed to strike her dumb and prevent her from doing the one thing she had told herself she would do when she saw him again. As he looked back at the computer, she closed her mouth, steaming quietly at the sheer arrogance he displayed in taking the blame for her infractions. "I see," was what she eventually came out with, watching as he set her up on the computer network. It was the sting of being hurt by his curtness that motivated what she said next. "I apologize for being a nuisance. I had hoped to renew our acquaintance, but clearly since I am not allowed to apologize for my own behavior, I will evidently have to wait until you decide I am allowed to be a grown up."
"What do you have to apologize for" I'm the one that made assumptions. I'm the one who acted like a pompous ass while we were in Greece. I'm the one who ..." He broke off, taking a moment to look around the office to see if anyone was eavesdropping. What happened in Greece stayed in Greece, didn't it' What exactly had happened in Greece though' He'd had a month to sort out his feelings and now that she was standing there - Meg Miller, not Sarah, not Sophie - all he wanted to do was take her in his arms and kiss her. The hell was the matter with him anyway?
After the Spetses mission, the successful extraction and confirmation of connection aliases, Margaret Miller had been glad of a little time spent behind her desk. Time spent away from the confusion that was pretending to be someone else, in the company of a man who was also pretending to be someone else. The CIA agents had been whisked back to Washington within hours of their debrief in London, helpfully preventing any chance of AJ or Meg falling over themselves to avoid having that dinner they had initially expected to share.
A few weeks of trans-Atlantic distance, however, had done Meg's peace of mind a world of good. She had been allowed to settle into being Meg again; to separate out her own feelings from the simulated feelings of the aliases that had brought her into close proximity with AJ Doyle. And she had come to a conclusion that had startled her. She did have feelings for him - for the man, the agent, not the aliases he had worn for the majority of their time together. But acknowledging those feelings and acting on them were two very different things.
Unfortunately for her composure in the face of a vulnerability she had not had to worry about for years, the CIA and MI6 were so pleased with the way the Spetses mission had turned out that the two agencies had finally agreed upon a liaison officer - an agent swap, essentially, one from each agency, and Meg was the chosen sacrifice to go to Washington. With the support of her agency, she was transferred across the Pond within another week, settled into an apartment and provided with everything she needed. Just a few days later, she was walking into CIA headquarters without the first idea what she should expect.
Names on the other side of the Pond had been carefully considered, and it had come down to a choice between two agents - Doyle or Riggs. Neither agent had been asked for their opinion either way, and in the end, Agent Doyle had been almost relieved to learn Riggs had been chosen for the London position. But that was before he'd also learned that Riggs was being traded for Miller. He'd had one month to sort his feelings out and try to forget her, but as soon as she walked through that door, with all that blond hair and that doe-eyed expression, he knew he was in trouble. There was nothing to do about it, but suck it up or request a transfer. For the first time in his career, he thought he might need therapy. The only problem was he didn't think there was any cure for what ailed him. At least Agent Amanda Drew seemed happy to see her, along with some other agents who welcomed her and offered to show her around.
It was a relief for Meg, at least, to know more than one face at the D.C. office, and to be welcomed so warmly after her initial induction was definitely reassuring. She couldn't help looking for that one particular face, however, feeling an odd ache the longer he remained unseen. Amanda Drew, however, had her own ideas about how to make that reunion come about. It was after lunch when she lead Meg through the bullpen toward AJ's desk, tapping on the wood to get his attention.
"Doyle, you remember Meg Miller, right' She needs computer access - set her up, and no excuses, or I'll share that picture from the Christmas party last year." And just like that, there they were, trapped together after a month of trying to forget about each other.
Meg bit her lip, her smile shy. "Hello again, Andrew."
AJ scowled up at Agent Drew, who was in actuality a close personal friend, though Agent Miller was the one thing he had refused to discuss, even over a couple of beers since his return from what was now being referred to as "The Spetses Job", like it was some kind of action-adventure movie. "Everyone's seen that picture already, Nancy!" he called after Agent Drew. Everyone but Agent Miller anyway. It wasn't Agent Drew's real name, but a sort of nickname he'd pegged her with from the first day they'd met. "Hello," he replied, trying hard not to meet her gaze, though he was going to have to come to terms with her being here sooner or later. "Which desk is yours?" he asked, as he pushed to his feet.
Straight to business, it seemed, and for a moment, his brusque manner hurt. Meg hadn't felt that kind of hurt for a very long time, frowning as she glanced around at the bullpen, counting the desks to locate the one she had been allocated. It was directly next to his. "That one," she told him quietly, gesturing toward it.
Of course, it was right next to his. It was as if the universe was conspiring to throw them back together again, for whatever purpose. "How was your flight?" he asked, trying to pick a safe topic of conversation, one that wouldn't tear open wounds real or imagined, as he moved over to the desk beside his and pushed a button to boot up the computer.
"Interminable," she told him, her voice just as he remembered it, warm and friendly and beautifully English. "I was sat next to a woman who I'm sure is lovely on solid ground, but at 1500 feet for ten hours was overly chatty, even when I was trying to sleep." She chuckled quietly at the memory of that. "Nothing compared with the conversation of the taxi driver who picked me up at the airport, though. Does everyone strike up random conversations with strangers here?"
"Not everyone," he replied shortly. DC wasn't exactly known to be an overly friendly place, though he didn't think it was unfriendly either. It was the sort of city where everyone always seemed to be in a hurry to get somewhere, unless you were a tourist. Then, you were usually just in the way. But that was a cynical point of view, and he knew it. He also knew she didn't deserve it. If they were going to be working together, he was going to have to be at least civil. "They're probably intrigued by your accent," he reasoned further, hoping he wasn't being too rude by saying so. Her accent was intriguing, after all. It pegged her as being a foreigner, and a pretty one at that.
"Well, I have had a few people tell me how much they adore my accent, true," she smiled, perching on the corner of the desk comfortably. "My new landlady asked me if I knew a specific person who lives in Edinburgh, though, so it would seem that the general grasp of British geography is about the same as my grasp of American geography." She considered him for a moment, and spoke a little more sharply than she had intended to. "Are you going to look at me, Andrew, or is pretending that I'm invisible the new aim of your game?"
"Like the way you looked at me on the plane?" he countered - or rather, the way she'd avoided his gaze, avoided his company, until it was too late, and he had to catch a plane back to DC. "Never mind. Forget I said that. It's my fault, I know. I'm an asshole," he looked at her briefly before going back to the computer, tapping keys to get her set up with a user name and temporary password.
Her mouth fell open, about to apologize for her behavior before he cut her off. In the space of one sentence, he had managed to strike her dumb and prevent her from doing the one thing she had told herself she would do when she saw him again. As he looked back at the computer, she closed her mouth, steaming quietly at the sheer arrogance he displayed in taking the blame for her infractions. "I see," was what she eventually came out with, watching as he set her up on the computer network. It was the sting of being hurt by his curtness that motivated what she said next. "I apologize for being a nuisance. I had hoped to renew our acquaintance, but clearly since I am not allowed to apologize for my own behavior, I will evidently have to wait until you decide I am allowed to be a grown up."
"What do you have to apologize for" I'm the one that made assumptions. I'm the one who acted like a pompous ass while we were in Greece. I'm the one who ..." He broke off, taking a moment to look around the office to see if anyone was eavesdropping. What happened in Greece stayed in Greece, didn't it' What exactly had happened in Greece though' He'd had a month to sort out his feelings and now that she was standing there - Meg Miller, not Sarah, not Sophie - all he wanted to do was take her in his arms and kiss her. The hell was the matter with him anyway?