Topic: Awakening

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-20 14:49 EST
Jon awoke to darkness in the middle of the night, the only light that of a soft, luminous glow from the machines that never slept. He blinked and looked around at his surroundings, trying to fathom where he was, how he'd gotten there. Everything seemed hazy, confused, his senses dull as if he'd just awoken from some drug-induced dream that he couldn't remember.

He realized with alarm that he must be in a hospital bed, though he couldn't remember what had happened or how he'd gotten there. He was aware of tubes and machines and a dull ache somewhere in his head, a groggy feeling like he'd just awoken from the dead, but that was all.

It took a moment before his eyes adjusted to the darkness, and he realized he wasn't alone. There was a boy at his side, half sitting, half lying, his head resting against a pillow close to Jon's, one hand clutching his, even in sleep.

It was a familiar yet unfamiliar face, and he thought he should know it, but no name came to mind, no recollection of who the boy might be. Friend, brother, lover, he simply didn't know.

Jon reached out with a shaky hand to touch the boy's hair, to run his fingers through the soft, dark locks, and the boy stirred slightly, lips parting, eyes moving beneath closed lids. He must be someone important, Jon thought. Someone I know. Someone close. But try as he might, he couldn't remember, and the effort only made his head ache.

He searched his memory for a name, but none came. He studied the boy's face. He was young, to be sure, more boy than man. On his way to becoming a man. So familiar and yet unfamiliar. Baby Boy, Jon thought, giving him a name. Who are you? Why are you here" What are you to me"

And then, the question turned on himself. Who am I" What happened" What's going on' Tears of frustration prickled hotly in eyes that were already weary, and he fought to keep them open for just a few minutes longer. His lips moved in the darkness, trying to form words. The words were there in his head, but his mouth wouldn't work.

What's in a name" That which we call a rose....All the world's a stage....To be or not to be....Beware the ides of March...

No, those weren't the words he was looking for. Where did they come from' He wanted to know, desperately searching his mind for an answer, but there was nothing. Bits and pieces. Fragments of memory. It was like a jigsaw puzzle with too many missing pieces to make any sense.

The machines beeped a soft, rhythmic lullabye, and he closed his eyes, too weary to stay awake any longer. Tears spilled over onto his cheeks. His fingers remained where they were, buried in the boy's hair, as if he found some small bit of comfort in that simple connection.

Questions would be asked and answers would be forthcoming. In the morning, he thought. Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow. Jon surrendered himself to the sweet, blissful darkness with the words of Shakespeare running through his head.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:20 EST
Jon had lost the battle and fallen back asleep, his fingers tangled in Correy's hair, their heads close together, though he didn't know who he was. He assumed it must be someone close to him, someone who cared. It wasn't until morning, when the sun's rays filled the room with warm golden light that his eyelids fluttered again, blue eyes opening to what felt like his first morning.

The sun struck Correy square in the face and it didn't take long for him to begin to stir. He stretched, with a soft moan and his face crinkled just before he yawned. Jon's heartbeat was strong in his ears and for that he was thankful. He moved his head away from the sunlight and that's when he noticed something odd. Slowly his eyes opened and he looked up, craning his neck back to see an arm. He held his breath as his eyes followed that arm down to a shoulder. It wasn't a far leap to see blue eyes looking into his. Correy's eyes began to water and his lips trembled between a smile and the frown that came with crying. "Oh God," the first tears began to roll down his cheeks. "You're awake! Jonny, you're awake!"

Jonny. He heard the name register in his ears and his head, but it meant nothing. Was that his name then" It must be. Jonny. He didn't remember it, but somehow it felt right. Jon looked at the familiar face before him, unable to give him a name. The look on that face was unmistakable, however. There was joy in those familiar deep blue eyes, relief, and possibly love. Jon licked dry lips, trying to form words that wouldn't quite come just yet. His lips formed a word silently, "Who?" Whether he was asking of himself or of Correy was unclear. Perhaps one or both. Confusion flooded him, along with a torrent of questions. Who, where, why' What happened to me" I don't remember.

Correy continued to gaze into Jon's eyes as he slid off of the bed and onto the chair beside it. He didn't think that he'd ever stop staring. He could see the confusion on Jon's face and in his eyes. But, before he called the nurse, Correy stood up and leaned over the bed to place a kiss to Jon's lips.

The monitor beeped in rhythm to Jon's elevated heart rate, now that he was awake and feeling a mixture of confusion and anxiety. The kiss took him by surprise, completely unexpected, though he found even that familiar somehow, comforting even. He neither returned the kiss nor pulled away, but accepted it as it was given, a little in awe of the obvious and raw affection it offered.

When Correy pulled back, he had a frown of confusion furrowed in his brow. He sat back then and reached for the nurse's call button. And when the voice responded to the beep from the wall, Correy didn't turn his head to answer. "Jonny's awake." The voice responded that she'd be right down in a bright and sunny kind of way. Jon watched Correy, mirroring the confusion on his face, wondering who this young man must be that he seemed so concerned. He realized suddenly that he didn't like the look of confusion on his face, that he didn't want him to be troubled or worried, not about him, and his lips worked again, trying to form words that wouldn't come. He felt anxious and he tried to sit up, head throbbing with a dull ache that seemed to come from somewhere deep inside his skull.

The nurse came in time to stop Correy from starting in on his barrage of questions that Jon probably couldn't answer. His arms folded across his chest as he watched the nurse perform her job in the most efficient way possible. A promise that the doctor had been informed before she left the room and then Correy was again alone with Jon. He wasn't sure what to say or if Jon would even understand. So he reached for and took Jon's hand and brought it to his mouth. Correy bowed his head and placed a firm kiss to the bruised back of Jon's hand. "I love you," his lip trembled and he looked up again. The tears started afresh to fall onto his cheeks.

Jon suffered the nurse's administrations silently, no words of complaint, no winces or groans. When she was finally gone, he looked again to the young man who seemed unable to pull his eyes away from him. He watched at he took his hand and brushed a kiss against it, his heart aching suddenly with a longing to remember, to understand, to know what they must mean to each other, and then he heard those three little words, and his own eyes brimmed with tears, his heart swelling with feelings he didn't quite understand.

With his free hand, Correy reached up and cupped Jon's cheek. "Don't cry baby. It's going to be alright. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere." Correy slid onto the edge of the bed and held Jon's hand to his heart. "It's going to be alright. You were shot, but now you're awake and you're going to get better."

Jon's left brow lifted when Correy explained what had happened. Shot' He'd been shot' He shook his head silently, not understanding or remembering any of it. His hand trembled in Correy's, despite his comforting words and tone of voice.

Correy misread the confusion and he put more emphasis on the words. "You are going to get better! I know you will. You're Jonathan David Granger and there's nothing you can't do. You've starred in movies and on stage. Everybody loves you. I love you and you're going to get better. You will get better!"

Jon's eyes went wide at Correy's enthusiastic encouragement. He hadn't even thought about whether or not he'd get better. He couldn't remember what had happened and he wasn't sure what, if anything, was wrong with him yet. His mind was stuck on the word "shot". Who shot him' Where" Why' Correy's explanation only seemed to prompt more questions. Jonathan David Granger" An actor" Him' Was that why he kept hearing Shakespeare in his head"

Jon's silent confusion was frustrating. Correy sat back and he sighed. "I promise. You'll get better, and I'll be here to help you." He kissed Jon's hand again and squeezed it gently. "Can you wiggle your toes?"

There was a question he could focus on, understand, and answer. Jon glanced toward his feet, which were hidden beneath the hospital blankets, furrowing his brows as he focused on wiggling his toes. The blankets moved a little as he did, and he sighed, a small smile lighting his face as he turned back to Correy, looking proud for that small but seemingly important achievement.

Correy's eyes swept down Jon's blanket covered body and when smiled and looked back up into Jon's eyes when the blanket moved. "Now, your fingers. Move your fingers." Correy was getting excited that Jon was at least able to do that much.

Jon shifted his focus from his toes to his fingers, pulling his hand away from Correy's and lifting them both to show him he had full range of motion in both hands and fingers. There was a tuft of beard on Jon's cheeks and his hair had grown a little, a curling lock dropping onto his forehead.

There didn't seem to be any weakness when Jon lifted his hands. Again, Correy gave a relieved smile. All thing considered, he considered Jon one lucky man. "Ok baby. I need to change out your bag and give you a clean shave, if you like." He stood again and leaned over Jon. A kiss was given to his soft lips before Correy turned and walked towards the small bathroom.

Bag" Jon thought with a sinking feeling and another confused expression. Oh, God....He lifted the covers to see where all the tubes and wires were going and realized he must have a catheter. How long had be been out' He reached up and ran a hand against his cheek, feeling the stubble of a beard growing there. Was he usually clean shaven" Simple questions he couldn't find the answers to. He leaned back against the pillows and licked his lips again. Somehow he had to conquer the disconnect between his brain and his mouth.

Correy did the job as efficiently as he possibly could and when he returned the second time from the bathroom, he had a disposable razor, a tub of water and some cloths. The tub and cloths were sat down on the rolling table as Correy sat down and made himself comfortable. "I'm so glad you're awake. Everybody's been so worried." The bit of shaving cream was placed to Jon's cheek and the razor was lifted and brought down to clear a path. "And I think Gigi caught the person who did it. But that's supposed to be a secret. I don't think she wants anybody to know because she's so secretive about everything."

Gigi, Jon took that name in. It sounded vaguely familiar, though he still didn't know Correy's. He watched while Correy worked the cream and the razor over his cheeks, listening to everything Correy said, every word seeming important. More pieces of the puzzle that were his life, it seemed. Jon reached for Correy's wrist just as he was placing the razor against his cheek. He licked his lips again and furrowed his brows in concentration, determined to make his mouth work. "H-how....long?" He searched Correy's eyes, needing an answer.

Correy looked down at Jon's hand, amazed by the strength in it. The razor was held at an odd angle and he reached up with his free hand to place the razor into the tub. "You've been out a couple of weeks. They weren't sure if you'd pull through."

His voice was weak and strained, a little gravelly, but familiar to his ears. Weeks, Jon repeated silently. He leaned back against the pillow again as he took it all in, almost overwhelmed by it all. He finally flicked a glance back at Correy, a questioning look in his eyes, and he strained to move his lips again. "Wh-who..." He dropped his hand from Correy's wrist, searching his eyes and face for answers.

"I don't know who did it," Correy shook his head sadly. "Gigi didn't tell me much and everything happened so fast. But Gigi is sure they got the person." His hand dropped into his lap once Jon released it. "I'm just so glad that you're awake. We were all so worried."

Jon frowned. He hadn't been asking about the shooter and wasn't sure he had the strength to properly convey his meaning, to force the words to his lips. He shook his head slowly and tried to make his meaning known with just a look, blue eyes meeting blue eyes. He knew his question was going to be a painful one, but he needed to know. He lifted one hand and tentatively touched Correy's cheek. "You."

Correy smiled when Jon touched his face, but the smile did not last for very long. He put the two spoken words together with the unspoken one and came up with the question he'd never thought he'd hear Jon ask him. "Who am I?" He pointed to his chest.

Jon nodded his head, his eyes looking a little fearful, not of the answer but of the hurt it might cause, yet he needed to know. His fingers lingered against Correy's cheek for a moment before dropping into his lap, lacking the strength to retain that touch for very long.

"I am," he cleared his throat and then reached for the ring that had been hanging around his neck. "My name is Correy." He tried so hard to keep the waver from his voice. "And I'm your fiancee." He pulled the ring from under his shirt to show it to Jon and then lifted his hand to show it's match upon his own hand.

Jon looked from one ring to the other while he listened to Correy's explanation, noting the waver in his voice that betrayed his emotions. He didn't remember him, but somehow he wasn't shocked or surprised by his answer. He reached out to touch his cheek again, struggling to make his voice work. "C-Correy," he repeated, smiling almost triumphantly.

They'd virtually been living at the hospital, taking turns with breaks to go home, shower, nap, return. This afternoon had been one of her trips back to the compound. Lala had packed them some food, so she brought that back with her - sandwiches and veggies, bottles of water and juice. Cookies or something. She by-passed the nurses station; they were used to the coming and going out of Jon's room. Correy reached up and held Jon's hand to his own cheek. "Correy, that's right." He smiled, his eyes bright with unshed tears. "And I love you so much." Correy didn't know what else to say. Lowering his head, he closed his eyes as he rested his ear to Jon's chest. He didn't want to think that Jon didn't know him, didn't love him anymore. It was beyond anything he could fathom.

Despite not remembering him, Jon was moved by Correy's obvious feelings for him and he lifted a hand to Correy's head, burying his fingers in Correy's hair.

The dam was shattered by the gentle touch of Jon's hand to his hair. It felt like he'd been waiting a lifetime for such a moment. And now that the moment was here, Correy was overwhelmed by the utter sadness that had been pushed aside for the past two weeks. He sobbed quietly, shoulders shaking as he buried his face into the blanket on Jon's chest.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:23 EST
Helena spoke a few words to the security guard and slipped in when he opened the door for her. Correy sobbing over Jon's body was not what she expected to walk into. "Corr?" Her own voice broke, expecting the very worst.

Jon couldn't return Correy's words of affection, not yet, but he felt moved and somewhat confused by his obvious feelings for him. He could only guess how hard this all must have been for him, how painful, and despite not remembering, his heart went out to him. He leaned over and dropped a kiss against Correy's head, hoping it might comfort him, his own eyes brimming with unshed tears. And then he heard another familiar but unfamiliar voice and he lifted his head and turned it toward Helena.

"Jonny!" Helena's gasp of his name was the harbinger for her own tears. She dropped everything she was carrying into one of the ubiquitous vinyl chairs and made for his bed.

Correy opened his eyes when he heard Lena enter the hospital room. He smiled, a watery, shoulder shaking, sobbing kind of smile. One hand was reached out to her as the other stayed firmly to Jon's side. If Jon wanted to kiss the top of his head, Correy was more than willing to stay in that position for the rest of his life.

Jon found himself being hugged now by two virtual strangers, and he found it oddly comforting. He found himself weakly clinging to them both, fighting exhaustion.

The sound of voices from outside filtered in to the room, one of which was clearly the nurse on duty, and the other that of Caroline. The eldest Granger cousin but one was moving to stand in the doorway, murmuring back and forth with the nurse as she caught up on all that had happened since Jon's waking. Nodding, Caroline stepped into the room quietly, moving to sit herself inconspicuously down on one of the chairs. She remembered all too well how overwhelming it could be with so many people visiting at once.

Correy didn't miss the fact that his older cousin and part time baby sitter had come into the room. He sniffled and lifted his head from Jon's chest and gestured with a jerk of his head for Caroline to come over. "Look, Jon, it's Helena, your sister. And over there is Caroline, she's our cousin." He tried to explain the web of family as best he could.

Jon didn't notice Caroline's entrance at first, too busy hugging and being hugged, a little overwhelmed by the obvious flow of love and affection that was felt by those around him. He felt a little in awe of it even, but it warmed his heart to know he wasn't alone. Jon's gaze turned to each in turn and even though he didn't remember the names, the faces looked familiar, and he smiled weakly. "Hel-hello," he managed.

Caroline smiled gently, lifting a hand to wave to Jon. "I'm glad you're awake, Jonny," she said quietly. Her gaze flickered to Correy, pleased to see him so animated but also ever so gently reprimanding. "Not too much too soon, Correy. It's going to take a while."

Jon was in the middle of a shave when Helena came in, his face only half clean-shaven and half lightly-bearded, but he didn't seem aware or concerned about it at the moment.

"He doesn't know us," And that right there hurt the worst out of all that had happened. Correy sniffled again and lay his head back down onto Jon's chest. "So I'm going to make sure he knows us and that we love him." His eyes implored Lena's and Caroline's. "Because we do."

"Hey now ..." Caroline scooted her chair closer, reaching over to stroke Correy's hair affectionately. "He's only just woken up. You're not so good first thing in the morning yourself, are you?" Her gaze moved from Correy to Jon with the familiarly non-judgmental smile she'd developed over the years. "And that was a long sleep."

Jon furrowed his brow, his forehead wrinkling at Correy's statement. He might not remember, but there was nothing wrong with his hearing or his understanding of the situation. He wished he could somehow take their pain away, especially Correy's who seemed to be taking it the hardest. He couldn't tell them he remembered and he didn't know if he ever would, but he did understand and sensed their love for him. He licked his lips again and reached over to touch Correy's hair, his fingers brushing against Caroline's, concentrating on forming the words on his lips. "I....know."

Even without memories, Caroline could still read Jon like a book. Her smile gentled as she looked at him. "No feeling guilty, you," she told him softly. "We're just happy to have you back with us. Everything else will come in time, I'm sure."

"I'm sorry," Correy closed his eyes and tried to hide from the rest of them. He remained still under Jon's hand and when his eyes closed, he could hear the familiar swooshing of Jon's heart beat.

Jon didn't know much about what had happened yet, only having just awoken. He only knew he'd been shot somehow, for some reason, and that someone named Gigi was seeing revenge. He knew he was surrounded by loved ones, though he wasn't quite sure exactly where they all fit into the framework of his life. He heard Correy's apology and wondered why he was apologizing, a puzzled expression on his face. His fingers wove their way through Correy's hair for a moment before his hand grew still, just resting there, finding comfort in that connection.

Helena was beyond words at the moment. The security guard had mentioned that the watch inspector was coming back, but she hadn't understood why, at the time. The fact that he was talking, at all and so soon, was beyond miraculous. The fact that he woke up was. She turned and walked back out into the hall to collect herself.

Her eyes lifted as Helena left the room, and Caroline frowned just a little. She patted Correy's back gently, squeezing Jon's hand, and rose herself, moving to follow the younger woman out of sight.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:28 EST
Jon's eyes followed the departing women, turning a puzzled expression back at Correy and lifting a hand toward the door as if to ask why they were leaving.

When left alone, Correy lifted his head to gaze into Jon's eyes. "She's right, you know. We're just so happy that you're awake. I'm sure everything will come back to you." He turned to look at the door, then back up at Jon. "It's enough that I'm being all emotional, they don't want to burden you with their tears either."

Jon reached out to touch Correy's cheek again, a little in wonder at the tears on his face. He brushed his fingers against those tears, wiping them from Correy's cheeks onto his own fingers, and trying to offer a reassuring smile. "I-I'm..." There was a short pause as he tried to get the words from his head to his lips. "I'm okay. We'll be....okay."

"Yes we will be." Correy nodded solemnly. It struck him how lucky Jon was not to remember the incidents that surrounded them being together. He felt guilty for thinking it, so he didn't voice it. "I'll have Caro or Lena bring some pictures in tomorrow and you'll see what a big, crazy family you have."

Jon smiled at that suggestion and nodded his head, the words taking too much effort. He wasn't sure why, but it felt good to know he wasn't alone, that he had a family who cared and loved him.

"Do you want me to finish shaving your face? We only got half of it done. Looks kind of funny." He offered a shy smile and reached for the shaving cream and razor.

Jon smiled and nodded again, lifting a hand to touch his chin, realizing with a small silent chuckle that he was only half-shaven. "Yes," he said quietly. "P-please."

"Just be grateful I'm not Sweeney Todd," Correy was doing his best to keep things light. Caroline was right, too much too soon could be more damaging than good. He lathered up Jon's bearded cheek and set to work with the razor.

He felt a little silly having someone else do the simple things that he must have always done for himself, but he didn't trust his own hand with a razor and he somehow sensed that it seemed to make Correy happy to do it for him. "S-Sweeny..." Jon screwed up his face a moment, that name rung a bell somehow. "The b-barber."

"That's right, The Demon Barber of Fleet Street." It didn't occur to Correy that Jon could remember a musical before remembering him. Correy was just happy that Jon was up. He finished off the shaving and wiped the extra foam from Jon's face. "There, smooth as a baby's bottom and twice as stinky." he chuckled and lowered to gently kiss Jon on the lips.

Jon was surprised once again by that kiss, more so by the familiarity of it, than of the kiss itself, and once again, he didn't pull away, feeling something stirring deep inside him at the tenderness of it. He returned it this time, a bit tentatively.

Correy was happily surprised when the kiss was returned. He stood then and picked up the shaving supplies. "I won't be but a moment. Just need to clean up a bit." He winked and then disappeared into the bathroom, leaving Jon all alone.

Jon nodded and watched Correy depart, leaning his head back into the pillows and closing his eyes. Now that he was alone, he let his mind drift, trying to sort through the barrage of information that he was being faced with. Names, faces, relationships, feelings.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:29 EST
By the time Caroline had joined her in the hallway, she had a wad of tissues from the box on one of the ICU desks held over her mouth and nose to stifle the sound.

Laying her keys on the desk, Caroline wrapped her arm about Helena. Quite how it happened, she'd never worked out, but she'd always been able to put her own feelings on hold to look after the younger Grangers. She hugged Helena gently, stroking her back.

"I'm sorry," she whispered after a few moments, swiping at her face again with the tissues as she leaned back. "It's just. I never thought..."

"It's fine," Caroline assured her younger cousin. "There's nothing wrong with what you're feeling, 'Lena. And there's nothing wrong with resenting the fact that he doesn't remember us yet. But it's a 'yet'. Nothing's set in stone." She smiled, gently teasing a strand of brown hair from 'Lena's eyes. "But it might help if we can prevent Correy from smothering him with all that love."

"They didn't think he'd wake up. Not really. I'm just so relieved." The tissues were getting a workout. As for Correy...."He wouldn't take a break today. I don't think he's slept except a nap this morning. We should get him to go home for awhile."

"Let's leave that to Kaylee," Caroline suggested with a soft chuckle. "She's got the magic touch when it comes to Correy. I think he's still living in terror that one day she'll follow through on that threat to pluck out all his bodily hair with a pair of tweezers."

"I suggested duct tape might be quicker." The image got a hiccup of a laugh out of her.

"But where's the fun in that?" People often forgot that Caroline had a brother of her own, and was well equipped with the memories of how to deal with sibling rivalry. "C'mon, I'll take Correy downstairs for some food, and you can spend a little time with your brother."

"Okay. I'm surprised the nurses and doctors haven't descended on him again yet, actually." Another miracle. "Caro ...thanks."

She smiled, hugging 'Lena gently once more. "Thank Richmond if and when you meet him," she suggested. "He'll be the one dealing with me tonight." Grinning, she gently steered 'Lena back toward the private room, just catching a glimpse of Correy as he slipped into the bathroom.

"I will do that." She wanted to meet Richmond, hoped she did so soon. Her answering smile was distracted when she saw Jon alone, and apparently asleep, or close to it. Rather than disturb him, she dropped into one of the empty seats near the window, and watched him quietly.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:29 EST
With a tiny smirk of a smile, Caroline gently lifted 'Lena from her chosen seat and put her into one right next to the bed, sliding the sibling's hands together. "I'll go and make sure Correy eats up," she promised them both. She knocked on the bathroom door, waiting patiently for Correy to reappear.

Jon's eyes opened when he felt another hand take his and he turned a weary gaze to his sister. Even though he had yet to see his own face in a mirror, he seemed to recognize the similarities in her, the eyes, the hair, the mouth, something.

The sound of water running abruptly stopped when there came a knock at the door. He opened up said door with one hand, a towel in the other as he was drying off the small basin that had held the rinse water from Jon's shaving kit. "Hey, Caro." Correy was so happy that he leaned to kiss Caroline's cheek. "Isn't so exciting. I can't wait to tell Kaylee."

"Very exciting," Caroline agreed with an indulgent smile to the youngest of them there. "C'mon, you can call her after you've had something to eat. No arguments."

"Hey," she whispered to him, squeezing his hand gently. "Don't talk. You need to rest up and get your energy back so we can get you home again, right?"

"But," Then the argument left his lips. He knew better than to argue with Caroline. Too many attempts in the past left him with nothing more than a sore ear to show for it the next day. "Ok, let me just grab my wallet and tell him I'll be back." He moved past his cousin and came to a stop when he saw that Helena now occupied the chair that he'd been in previously. "Uh, we're going to hop down to the canteen. I won't be long, I promise."

Jangling her keys in the most innocent manner possible, Caroline lingered by the door, patiently waiting for Correy to join her.

He furrowed his brows, watching her and then he looked to Correy, just taking it all in. He understood what was being said but lacked the strength to reply, a tiny hint of panic in his eyes as for just a split second, he worried they'd leave him alone.

"Your sister's going to stay with you," Caroline offered, seeing that flash of panic. "I'm going to make sure your fiance eats something before he faints."

Correy walked to the side of the bed opposite of Helena, and leaned to kiss Jon softly. "I promise, won't be gone long. And Lena will take good care of you until I get back." This time Correy gently kissed Jon's forehead before righting himself and heading for the door. For the first time in days, he actually had an appetite.

With a wink and a wave to the invalid and his sister, Caroline ushered Correy out through the door with one arm about his shoulders fondly. "C'mon, you. Full dinner, with dessert, on me, how's that sound?"

Jon nodded at that bit of information from that both, silently agreeing that they needed to take care of themselves and not just worry about him, though he felt a little lonely watching them leave. He turned back to Helena, studying her face silently again, eyes filling with tears of frustration.

Correy flashed a supportive smile back to Jon and Lena before being tugged into the hallway. "That sounds wonderful, Caro. I'm starving." he smiled as he hooked his arm into hers and they disappeared down the hallway.

Jonathan Granger

Date: 2011-03-26 12:32 EST
"L-Lena?" Jon asked, tentatively, testing her name on his lips. "That's right. Helena - Lena. You call me Lena." She squeezed his hand carefully. He still had so many lines in. She seemed familiar somehow, but try as he might, he couldn't remember. Despite that, he felt comforted by her presence and her touch. "I-I'm sorry." He frowned, feeling guilty for causing her any pain. "Don't be. You just worry about getting better, you know" The rest will come." And if it didn't, they'd all get to know each other again. "I don't r-remember....what hap-happened." Words came slowly and with great effort. He had to concentrate to find the right words and get them to his mouth, and it was exhausting. He'd been told what had happened, but he didn't remember it. The real question was what did he remember" ?"Shhh. You don't have to try right now. Things will come to you, little by little. Do you remember anything about that day at all?" Jon sighed and closed his eyes, trying to pull up some small fragment of a memory, anything at all. He looked pale and weary and a little thinner than normal, but other than that, there was no sign of injury. The healers had done their job as well as they could. His brows furrowed in concentration as he tried to remember. He thought maybe he got a flash of something, but the images were confusing and made little sense. She was patient and quiet, her overriding concern was not tiring him. He had to get well. Now that there was some hope of it, he had to. "Some-something....it was d-dark." He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to pull up that memory, holding fast to his sister's hand. His fingers were warm. We was worried that he might still be running the fever that had been part of his body's defenses. Her eyes ticked up to all of the monitors....blood pressure, oxygen levels, heart rate. That last, especially, was running fast. But not enough to set off the alarms yet. He sighed finally and opened his eyes, feeling frustrated with himself, with his inability to remember and to communicate what he was thinking and feeling. Remembering was too hard. There wasn't enough there to grasp onto. "I-I can't," he said defeatedly, his eyes betraying his disappointment. "T-tell me some-something...about us," he told her squeezing her hand. It was all a blank, everything but her face. Were they close" Did they get along" Had they always gotten along" She seemed younger than him, but how much younger" Were there any more siblings" Where were their parents" Were they still alive" There were so many questions running through his head and every answer seemed to prompt another question. "Oh, goodness," she murmured. "Well, as I am sure you can imagine, I was the perfect little sister." She crooked a smile at him, sharing a little jest at her own expense. "I never followed you around when you wanted me to leave you alone and I never, ever forced your G.I. Joes to have tea parties with my Barbie dolls. But there was one summer, I remember, when I was six, so you must have been about ten, when you let me cut your hair with some sewing scissors down by the pond so we could make fishing lures. And after all of the trouble we got into, all we had to show for the effort was one little blue gill that you chased Lala around the yard with." He leaned his head back against the pillows, watching her intently, studying her face, her expressions, seeing some of himself in her and wondering if they were more like their mother or father. He smiled a little as he listened to the story, trying to imagine the scene in his head but without any references to go by, it proved difficult. And then she mentioned a name he didn't know. "Lala?" he asked, uncertain who that was. "Our cousin, Lola. We call her Lala." Her smile, turned on him, was winsome and worn at the same time. "We're all around the same age, and were great playmates. You were oldest, then her, then me." The boy, Correy, had said he'd bring some photo albums and explain to him who everyone was. It felt like he'd just awoken from the dead, unsure who it was he was supposed to be. "Was...was I..." he licked his lips, trying to find the right words. He couldn't imagine himself ever being mean to her or to anyone, but he had no idea what kind of person he'd been. "Was I....a g-good....person?" "You were," she said, serious and intent again. "You were - you are. The best. The best brother, and the best friend anyone could have." Though he tried to fight it, her words brought tears to his eyes and he felt his composure slipping. So, he was a cousin and a lover and a brother. A big brother. People, it seemed, looked up to him, or at least, she did, and here he was in a hospital bed, helpless to do anything for anyone. He could tell she meant what she said, but he had no idea what he'd ever done to deserve such love and loyalty. "I want....I want to remember," he said, slowly enunciating each syllable. "You will. Promise. Just rest, Jonny. Rest and get better and things will make more sense. I promise." It wrenched her heart to see him like this, but it was so much better. So much better than anyone had expected. He nodded his head against the pillows and wiped a hand against his face to brush away any tears that had spilled over, sniffling lightly and taking a breath. At least, there were people who cared about him, and that was a comfort, but he didn't want to disappoint them. She chafed his hand gently between hers, the stroking slow and hopefully soothing. Her caress was having the desired effect, soothing and comforting. His eyes drifted closed, his hand still in hers, relaxing against the pillows, the medications still making him feel drowsy. "I'm g-glad....you're h-here," he told her groggily. "And I'm glad you're here," she whispered back. He surrendered himself to sleep then, unable to fight it any longer, feeling a strange calm come over him, contentment even, as if knowing everything would be okay somehow.

((Many thanks to the players of Correy, Caroline, and Helena for this scene. It is much appreciated.))