Topic: Dreams

Gabrielle Bradford

Date: 2015-05-23 08:18 EST
By George's reckoning, it had only been a year, give or take, since the Great War - the War to End All Wars, or so they'd said. One year since he'd been buried in wounded men a few miles from the front. There had been no shortage of wounded, that much was certain. One year, since some unknown force had seen fit to inexplicably sweep him away from the bloodshed and deposit him here in Rhy'Din. One year to forget the horrors of war and put them behind him. One year by his reckoning, but nearly one hundred, as far as the history books were concerned.

Though he'd tried to forget, to push those memories aside, every now and then, they reared their ugly head in the way of nightmares so vivid and so real, it was almost like he'd never left. The dreams always left him shaken, terrified, unable to fall back asleep until morning. He remembered all their faces, each and every one of the men he'd saved or failed to save. Each one of them haunted his dreams at night as he relived the horrors of war. One year was hardly enough to forget it, no matter how hard he tried.

The worst part about the dreams, though, wasn't so much the names and the faces; it was the fact that it never seemed to end. Though the war had ended nearly one hundred years ago, it still seemed to go on in his head. He wasn't sure what triggered the nightmares, other than the horrors he'd lived through and witnessed first hand, nor was he sure why he'd decided to pick up his telephone and call Gabrielle upon his awakening. He only knew that at times like this he was terrified to be alone.

Just a few miles to the south of the city, Maple Grove slept. The houses that were scattered through the estate were dark and quiet, with nothing but the sound of the wind whispering through leaves to disturb that stillness. In Beecham House, all was blessedly still. Gordon snored quietly in his own bed; the twins, Theo and Jake, were sprawled in their own beds, dreaming the happy dreams of childhood. Even Gabi, who found it so hard to fall asleep in her big bed these days, was dozing, her face pressed into her pillow. Until an insistent sound penetrated the darkness of her bedroom. Groaning, she raised her head, peering toward the nightstand, where her phone was lit up and vibrating, dangerously close to toppling off the edge of the stand altogether. She reached out, fumbling to collect the call, and drew the phone to her ear, sitting up in bed. "Hello?"

There was a brief silent pause as she picked up the phone and then a quiet, strained voice she'd likely recognize as the good doctor's. "G-Gabi?" he inquired, shortening her name for the very first time. "I-I'm sorry. I know it's late ..." His voice trailed, sounding strained and weary, as though he'd either just awoken or hadn't really slept.

"George?" Rubbing her eyes, Gabi pushed herself to the edge of the bed, a spike of anxiety for him in her chest as she noted the time. "No, don't apologize. I told you to call if you needed me." Dragging her fingers through her hair, she made an effort to wake up a little more. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing," he heard himself saying, but that was quite possibly the biggest lie of his life. "I just ..." There was that pause of awkward silence again, where she couldn't even hear him breathing. When he finally spoke, his voice sounded quiet and strained and on the verge of breaking. "Just tell me this is real ....That you're real," he said, as if he was pleading with her.

That long silence frightened her - frightened her enough to spur her into an action she might never have considered without the aching worry gathering in her chest for him. As George gathered himself to speak again, Gabi was already moving, pulling a cardigan on over her pajamas, scribbling a note for her father. "Of course I'm real," she promised the doctor when he spoke again, relieved that he hadn't simply put the phone down and gone back to that obvious lie he had told her to start with. "You're real. Rhy'Din is very real. Sweetheart, what happened?" Even as she spoke, she was moving through the house, leaving the baby monitor and note next to her snoring father's bed before heading downstairs.

If he'd been aware of what she was doing, he would have told her not to bother; that all he really needed was to hear her voice and for her to talk him through it, but he didn't know. Pacing the bedroom in his pajamas, bare feet silent on the cold wooden floor, her voice seemed to be the only thing keeping him sane, keeping him grounded to this reality, if reality it was. "I was-I was dreaming, I think ..." he tried to explain, not really wanting to think about it, much less talk about it, but needing to share it with someone. "I feel like I'm losing my mind."

"You're not losing your mind," she told him firmly, pausing for just a moment to look in on her boys before she padded downstairs in the dark, slipping her feet into shoes and snatching her keys. She could easily guess what it was that had sent him groping wildly out of sleep to call her. "Tell me what you did today," she told him. "In detail, I want to hear all about it. Every last gory bit of gloop." Which was saying something for the squeamish Gabrielle. But she didn't want him dwelling on his dream; at least, not until she was there with him.

"I, uh ..." He trailed off again, pausing a moment to shove a hand through his short blond hair as he took a seat on the bed. He felt cold suddenly, chilled to the bone, though the room didn't seem all that cold. "I had surgery. Routine stuff. An appendix in the morning and then I did my rounds," he told her, trying to focus his thoughts on the events of the day. He knew she was trying to distract him from his troubles by having him recount the mundane events of his day. He'd seen a doctor once upon a time when he'd first arrived here, but when the man had suggested drugs and sleeping pills to help George cope, he'd stopped going, choosing to deal with his memories in his own way. The truth was he didn't want to forget; it didn't seem right to forget. It seemed almost sacrilegious. No, he didn't want to forget them; he only wanted to learn how to put them to rest. He went on to tell her about his day, as uneventful as it was, unaware that she was already on her way to him.

She pressed him for every detail, however small it might have seemed to him - what time he woke up, what he ate for lunch; she even asked him to describe the typeface on the official paperwork he'd signed over the course of the day. Until finally, half an hour and a little reckless driving after he called her, she was making her way swiftly up the steps of his apartment building. "All right, sweetheart, I want you to do something for me," she said quietly into the phone at her ear as she came to a halt in front of his door. "I want you to open your front door and let me in."

He'd been so distracted describing his day that he'd never noticed the signs that she was on her way to see him, to rescue him from the horrors that plagued his nights. He had only just realized that she'd called him sweetheart - twice! And now she was telling him to open his front door, but why' And then it hit him that while he'd been going on about his day, she'd been driving the short distance from Maple Grove to his flat. "Open my door?" he echoed, pushing himself up off the bed only to realize he was in his pajamas. "I, uh ....Give me a moment," he told her, wondering if he should push the button that would disconnect them.

Gabrielle Bradford

Date: 2015-05-23 08:20 EST
"Don't be too long," she told him softly, solving that problem for him by disconnecting the call herself. In her pajamas herself, she hadn't stopped to wonder what he might think of finding her barely dressed outside his front door. She just wanted to be there for him. He needed her.

Hearing the phone disconnect, he set it on the night table and snagged a dressing robe, fumbling to get it on as he made his way through the darkened apartment toward the front door. Thankfully, the place was as neat as a pin, so there was nothing to trip over, and he knew his way around as well as a blind man. Still, he thought it might be wise to switch a light on, if only for her sake, the only light that of moonlight streaming in through the windows. It wasn't the dark he was afraid of; it was the ghosts that haunted his nights. In no time at all, he was pulling open the door and peering out into the hallway to let her in. He couldn't help but notice that she was in her pajamas, too, not even sparing a few minutes to get dressed before rushing to his aid. "Gabrielle," he started, flushing with embarrassment at his self-perceived weakness. "Please, come in," he told her, waving her inside. What else was he to do"

Invited in, Gabi had no idea what to say now. Did she demand the details of his dream, or did she wait for him to offer them' She didn't know. Now she was here, she thought she probably looked quite foolish. Closing the door quietly behind her, she did the only thing she could think of that might possibly help - she turned to him, wrapping her arms about his waist in a warm embrace. "I'm here."

They both looked at each other for a moment before she stepped inside and closed the door behind her. He was about to ask if she'd like some tea - because that's what the English did when there was a crisis - when she closed the distance between them and wrapped her arms around him. Startled, he could only return her embrace. "I'm sorry," he found himself apologizing yet again. Would he never stop apologizing" "I shouldn't have called. You have the boys ..."

"My dad can look after them for one night," she told him firmly, tilting her head back to meet his eyes. "They've had me there every night of their lives. You were alone, and I won't let you be alone, especially not when you need me." Her arms tightened about him for a moment, only just unaware of how very intimate this embrace was with only sleepwear between them. "Stop apologizing. No one can be strong all the time, sweetheart."

It was tempting having her there with him, alone, with only their pajamas separating them, but he tried not to think on that, or it would become all too very obvious how much he wanted her. With that in mind, he pulled himself away from her embrace, mostly to save himself from that embarrassment. "Can I get you something?" he asked, as if he was entertaining. "I could make us some tea," he suggested, feeling suddenly awkward. It was a strange feeling to know he didn't have to always be the strong one, and he wasn't sure what to make of it or how to behave.

"George ..." Catching his hand in hers before he could pull too far away, Gabi looked up into his eyes, seeing past the propriety and exquisite manners to the haunted pain that had sent him reaching for her number in the first place. He'd told her he had nightmares; nightmares that meant he didn't sleep for the rest of the night following them. Defying the rules he'd been raised by, she reached up to touch his cheek. "Come to bed, sweetheart. Lie down with me."

Tugged back around, he turned to face her, the mask he was wearing falling away to reveal the turmoil and weariness that had caused him to call her for help. He searched her eyes, wanting to share his innermost demons, but afraid he might scare her away. Or maybe he was only afraid of his own weakness, or allowing her to see that weakness in him, that fear, that terror, that darker side of his being that he tried to keep hidden from the world of the living. His heart ached to know she cared about him, to know she wanted to try and soothe him as best she could. "I'm not sure that's a good idea," he told her quietly, only because of those rules he'd been raised by.

Startled by her own boldness in saying it in the first place - something she could only put down to tiredness and concern for him - Gabi plunged on, braving rejection or worse in her bid to try and help. "So don't think about it," she told him firmly. "Lie down with me. Please?" Her free hand deposited her phone and keys on the nearest surface, toes easing her feet from her shoes. She had every intention of lying down with him, holding him. Anything to ease that learned terror of returning to sleep after the nightmares had woken him.

How could he say no to that' And so long as nothing happened and they stayed clothed, nothing would happen. He wouldn't let it, despite how much he might want it, and want it he did, but good girls didn't do things like that until they were married, and yet, Gabi already had two children. Besides, this wasn't 1918 anymore. The world had changed, but George had not. He was still the pedigreed gentleman he'd been raised to be, and yet, he was no virgin. But she wasn't even asking for that. All she wanted, all she was asking, was for him to lie down with her, to soothe his mind and body so that he could sleep without being haunted by nightmares. But what about next time, and the time after that' He frowned, his mind reeling as he went over it all in his head, debating with himself back and forth, and yet, who would know" Who had to know besides them"

She watched him debate with himself for a long moment, deep concern in her eyes as he struggled with the rules he had been raised by, and his own wishes. Struggled for too long, really. Her hand squeezed his. "Come on," she told him, deciding she wasn't going to take no for an answer. Glancing around, she made an educated guess as to which door led to the bedroom, and headed in that direction, drawing him with her. "It won't hurt to try."

His flat was small enough that it wasn't much of a problem locating the bedroom. Moonlight streamed in through the windows - the only source of light. Despite his reservations, he made no argument, but followed her lead, hand in hand. "I'm not so sure I trust myself," he admitted as he followed along behind her, though nothing was going to happen if he didn't let it happen.

Switching off the main light as they passed into the bedroom, Gabi smiled in the moonlit darkness. "I trust you," she told him softly, releasing his hand to shrug out of her cardigan. Her fingers found his once again, swift to tangle there with fond affection as she drew him toward the bed. "Lie down with me, George."

He was a little amazed at the trust she had in him, when she hardly knew him, or maybe she knew him better than he thought. The truth was he trusted her more than he trusted himself, but he couldn't help wanting to do as she asked, to feel her arms around him and forget about his nightmares if only for a little while. "I didn't plan for this to happen, Gabrielle. I don't know why I called. I just ....I needed to hear your voice."

Gabrielle Bradford

Date: 2015-05-23 08:22 EST
Her smile was warm in the moonlight as she drew him to the bed with her. "I seriously doubt that a planned seduction would involve a two a.m. wake up call, sweetheart," she assured him, inching over to make room for his tall frame beside her. "You needed me. That's why I'm here. I care about you, George, a lot more than I'm ready to admit to. Why else would I drive thirty miles in my pajamas?"

He bit off the apology he'd been about to make, one of many it seemed. He'd already apologized more than once, and she'd told him how unnecessary it was. But there was something she'd said that got his attention, though he wasn't sure why he was surprised by it. "You care about me?" he asked, unable to hide the surprise from his voice, even as she drew him toward the bed. He still had his robe on, though it was not fastened in the front.

"Of course I do." Kneeling up onto the bed, she reached up to ease the robe from his shoulders. "You can't go to sleep in your robe, you'll be awfully uncomfortable." She laid the robe over the end of the bed, taking his hands once again to pull him down beside her. "Please, sweetheart, let me help you."

It didn't miss his attention that she kept calling him sweetheart, though he wasn't sure why. Did she really think of him that way, or was it just something she called those she cared for out of habit' He let her help him out of his robe, against his better judgement, still shaking a little, but not from the cold. "I feel like a fool," he admitted, with an embarrassed frown on his face as he shrugged out of his robe.

"Well, you don't look like one," she told him with a firm nod. "You look like a strong man who has had an awful night, and who needs someone who loves him to be there before he can get back to sleep." Whether she'd noticed what she'd said was debatable - it was too dark to tell whether or not she was blushing. She was, however, getting insistent, not allowing him to stall any further. Drawing back the sheets, she pulled him down onto the bed, covering him over before easing her arms around him.

Whether she noticed her choice of words or not, he certainly did. First it had been sweetheart, then the fact that she cared about him, and now she had mentioned the word love. Just a few days ago, they'd decided to take things slow and see where they went, but it was becoming obvious, at least to George, that what both of them were feeling was far more than mere friendship, or at least, so it seemed.

Touched by her caring, he let her draw him down to bed, wrapped in both blankets and her arms, feeling as safe as a child in his mother's arms, though his mother had never seen fit to hold him like this or show him any sort of loving affection a mother should. No, she was always far too busy with her social gatherings to spend much time with her own children. It wasn't long before he was sent off to boarding school, where he found solace in the company of friends. But all that was a long time ago, just like the war, and she was long buried and gone. "I could get used to having you here with me," he admitted quietly, once again against his better judgement.

Curling close to him, Gabi let George find his own comfort before laying her head on the pillow beside his, her fingertips gently stroking against his cheek. "I could get used to being here with you," she murmured in answer, brushing the tip of her nose against his affectionately. "I think I could get used to being anywhere, so long as you and the boys were there too."

He couldn't very well ask her to move in with him. Not only was it not proper, but she had a home of her own at Maple Grove, and his flat wasn't big enough to accommodate children. What, then, should they do' Keep going the way they were going until he asked her to marry him' And what then" Buy a house" Was he thinking too far ahead" "Gabi?" he asked, using the more familiar, less formal form of her name again without hardly realizing it. "I was thinking ....Do you think it's too soon to talk about the future?"

"How soon is too soon?" she asked him softly, her fingertips never ceasing in their tender stroke over his cheek, into his hair. "Some people marry within days of meeting one another, and never look back. Others spend years engaged. Impatience is a theme in my family - my brother bound himself to Leilani within just two days of their meeting; I have cousins who have married their husbands and wives within just a couple of months. It is difficult not to think of the future when I want you to be a part of it, but ....I've been trying not to talk about. I didn't think you were ready."

"Two days!" George exclaimed, obviously shocked. He'd heard of such things happening before, but rarely. Back home, there were rules for everything that needed to be followed to the letter, though he had admittedly and almost inevitably broken some of those rules. But none of that seemed to matter now. His parents were long since dead and no one remembered or cared about his pedigreed bloodline, especially not in Rhy'Din. "Well, I ..." he started a little uncertainly. "I didn't think you were ready."

Gabi sighed softly, looking into his eyes in the gloom. "I'm not ready to jump in with both feet," she admitted in her quiet way. "But I am ready to move forward a little. I was wondering ....wondering if perhaps you would like to stay at the house a couple of nights a week" Or I could stay here. I-I don't want to push you into a situation where you will be uncomfortable, sweetheart."

"Stay at the house?" he echoed, that uncertainty creeping into his voice again. It wasn't that he felt uncomfortable being with her, but staying at the house meant living not only with her, but her father and her sons, as well. "It might be a little crowded at the house, don't you think?" he asked, though the house certainly seemed big enough. Was she assuming they'd share a room or have separate rooms, and what would her father think of all this" There he was worrying about propriety again.

She hesitated, aware that he was not familiar with how quickly or how slowly a "modern" courtship could move. "I ....George, if it were just me, I'd be asking if perhaps you and I should move in together," she told him worriedly. "But it isn't just you and me. I have to think of the boys. They're only two, and although finding somewhere else to live with you would be wonderful, they need to be used to having you around, to having you in their daily lives, before I can consider taking that step. Too many changes at once could do so much damage."

"You're right, of course," he replied, doing his best to understand her concerns. Of course, she had to think of the boys, first and foremost. He found himself wondering once again what his place would be in their lives if he and Gabi did decide to take the next step. "Well, then, I suppose they should get to know me a little," he suggested, though he wasn't quite sure how. They seemed to like him well enough when he was around, but they didn't really know him yet. "I, uh ..." He sighed, that worry niggling at his brain again that he was barging in.

Gabrielle Bradford

Date: 2015-05-23 08:24 EST
"You wouldn't be alone," she said gently. "I'm not asking you to come and sleep in a lonely bed in a house you don't know. I'm asking you to come and sleep beside me, in our bed, and be there with me for the boys when they have nightmares or wake up stupidly early in the morning. The only way you and they will be comfortable with each other is by getting to know one another."

"And if I have a nightmare?" he asked, because it was likely to happen, though they were slowly becoming less frequent. Here in Rhy'Din, they called it post-traumatic stress disorder, but back home, they'd would have just told him he was shell-shocked. "If we share a bed, it will be hard not to give in to temptation, Gabrielle," he pointed out, wondering what she'd say to that.

"If you have a nightmare, then I'll be there to help you the moment you wake up," she pointed out in the same gentle tone, her fingers still stroking through his hair. "And if the boys are in bed with us, they'll learn that even strong men have nightmares now and again, and it's nothing to be ashamed of." As his comments turned once again to them, Gabi felt herself blush, smiling a little hopefully as she looked into his eyes. "It is no one's business but ours what happens between us," she told him softly. "But I have no objection to giving in to that temptation."

"I would never do anything to hurt you or take advantage of you, Gabrielle," he told her, perhaps a little too seriously. "And you're right ....We have to think of the boys. I'm not a very patient man, but I will try to be patient, for your sake and theirs. Because ..." He paused a moment to gather his courage before continuing. "I think I'm falling in love with you, Gabrielle."

Her reaction might not have been what he was expecting. There was a pause, and a slow intake of breath that might have been a soft sob. Then Gabrielle - sweet, shy Gabrielle who needed to be brave just to walk out through the front door - slithered closer to him, the length of her body pressing to his as her hands grew confident enough to touch him without fear. "Thank goodness for that," she told him, her voice just a little shaken. "I thought I was the only one falling."

All the tension he'd been feeling seemed to slip away at the realization that she was feeling the same way. His arms went around her as she slid toward him to hold her close, thankful the room was dark enough to hide the flushed heat creeping across his face. His heart beat a little bit faster, his body reacting in ways he hoped she didn't notice, as his lips found hers, answering her words with a kiss that proved he was telling the truth.

This was no chaste kiss suitable for the public's eyes. This was a kiss that told her everything he couldn't quite put into words, a kiss that promised everything she could have wished for. And she answered it in kind, her lips parting to demand that he follow through with at least one of those promises, curling her arms about him as a soft sound of delight rose from her throat. Breathless within moments, her own heart hammering in her chest, she clung to him, pouring everything she felt into a kiss that felt as though it had been an eternity in arriving.

That one kiss seemed to banish the last lingering effects of the nightmare from his mind as he lost himself to the sweetness of her lips, all thought, all worry vanishing in that moment. He knew if he wasn't careful, if he let himself go too far, there'd be no turning back. He didn't want to push her too far or take advantage of her, but he was only a man and one who hadn't felt this way about a woman in a very long time.

If she had known that was his concern, she could have easily laid it to rest. Soft she might seem, but Gabi knew when and how to say no. She wasn't saying it right now. No part of her was screaming with doubt or indecision. But the kiss couldn't last forever, as much as she might have wanted it to. As her lips drew back from his, she smiled, raising her hand to touch his cheek once again. "I'm not afraid of falling," she whispered to him softly. "I know you'll catch me."

He found himself smiling, perhaps for the first time that night, at her whispered words. "I'll be here so long as you want me to be," he promised softly in return, exhaling a soft sigh as he drew her close. Nothing had to happen tonight; there was plenty of time for it later. All he wanted for now as to hold her in his arms and now that she was right there beside him - there to chase away his worries and fears and nightmares with nothing more than a smile and a kiss. For the first time since arriving in Rhy'Din, he felt strangely content, and with that contentment came sleepiness. He buried his face against her hair, trying and failing to stifle a yawn, the long hours of his day catching up with him.

Feeling his yawn, Gabi's smile deepened, glad that somehow her presence had swept away the fear that would have kept him awake until dawn. He didn't need to tell her the details of that dream, not now, not yet. It was enough to know that he might, someday, share it with her. There was time enough to build that level of trust between them. Her hand stroked his back as he drew her close. "Sleep, sweetheart," she told him, affection in every nuance of her tone. "I'll be here when you wake up."

She seemed to echo his promise with one of her own, and he found himself smiling as his eyes drifted closed, unable to fight the need to sleep any longer. "Thank you, Gabi," he told her sleepily, her caress and her voice working together to lull him to sleep. Maybe they hadn't solved all their problems in one night, but they had reached some important decisions, and at long last, they had both admitted they were falling in love.

It might not seem like much to the see it want it got it mentality that ruled on Rhy'Din and many other worlds, but for them, it was enough. Time was what they needed, and time was what they had, facing forward to the future, together.