Topic: Hands and Feet

Helena King

Date: 2011-06-24 21:39 EST
((Thank you to Jon's player for a great scene, edited below with permission))

Brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feet. Vietnamese Proverb

It was just as well that the wake was in the family compound. The liquor had been flowing freely and neither one of them probably had any business driving. Instead, they staggered around the pond and across green stretches of lawn, arm in arm. She got the key in the lock after the third try, and swung the door open with a flourish.

"Ishy! We're ho-oo-ome!" The big Maine Coon sitting on the arm of the sofa looked supremely unimpressed.

"Shhhh, don't tell him! He hates me." Jon was convinced the cat hated him, though Ishmael was really mostly indifferent about his mistress' other pet. He took a lean in the doorway, holding himself up with a hand, as though if he didn't he might fall flat on his face.

"He doesn't hate you. He's just reserved." Lena had to come to the defense of Ishmael, since he did nothing to help his own cause most days. "Aren't you Ish?" She kicked off her heels just inside the door and stumbled in her stocking feet toward the big tom, who promptly hopped down and fled for parts of the house unknown.

"See?" Jon pushed off his lean to gesture at the retreating cat and swayed a little in place. "He hates me."

He followed his sister inside, shoving the door closed behind him, and dropped into the nearest chair before he fell over with a sigh.

She cocked an ear to listen, but it didn't sound like Eli was home. So she sent her sigh gusting after the cat and stole his spot on the couch, flopping into the cushions. "It's not even six o'clock yet. It feels like midnight."

He smiled over at his sister, amused. It was a rarity to see her intoxicated, and even rarer for them both to be lit up together. It was usually one or the other, not both, but without the need for a designated driver, it didn't matter.

"That's what happens when you drink in the middle of the day." He pried his shoes off and left them where they were, stretching his long legs out in front of him.

"What a sh**ty day," she said, and because it felt right in her mouth, she said it again. "Sh**ty. Sh**ty sh**ty sh**ty." Poor Dom.

Jonathan would have normally been amused, but his face scrunched in a conflicted frown as he agreed quietly. "Yeah."

"Has he talked to you about what he's going to do?" She squinted at Jon, who looked so severe in his dark suit that it made her frown deepen. "I'm worried about him."

His reply was slower, careful. "Dom doesn't talk to me anymore, Lena."

Her hand flailed at the back of the couch so she could pull herself up to look at him. "What' Why"'"

He paused a moment to consider her question. No one talked to him much anymore, it seemed. Not since the shooting. It was as if they were trying to protect him or maybe they just didn't think they knew him very well anymore. He could understand that. He hardly knew himself. "Everything's changed." He felt heartsick about what had happened to Gwen, one more tragedy in a long line of tragic events. "Maybe our family's cursed."

She made a dismissive sound at the idea of a curse. "Not everything. I'm glad you're here, Jonny. That hasn't changed." She stretched her hand out across the arm of the couch toward him in the chair. "And Dom's hurt right now. Don't take it personally."

"I know." He stretched out an arm toward her, linking his fingers with her. No matter what the rest of the family thought, he knew he would always have Lena, no matter what. "I'm worried he's going to do something stupid."

Hurt himself, was her first thought. She tightened the lace of her fingers through his. "What should we do' If you're right, he shouldn't be alone."

"He's going to want revenge, Lena."

"Revenge for what? Are you two fighting?" She didn't seem to be quite following him.

"For Gwen's death," Jon's mind was going in ten different directions at once, as he answered. "If it were me, it's what I'd want."

"We don't even know who was responsible for the bomb," she pointed out. "Who knows what the Watch has learned so far" And security is so tight around here that I doubt he can hiccup without someone hearing about it. What do you think he's going to do?"

"Try to find out who's responsible and go after them." He frowned over at his sister, clearly worried. "Think about it. First Caroline, then me, then Lola went missing and now this. Did you ever stop to think it could all be related?"

From the startled look on her face, she hadn't.

"I told him I'd help."

Her buzz was quickly going south. "Help him do what, exactly?"

When Jon had made the promise to Dom, he had spoken in anger and grief. Now that he'd had a few days to think, he wasn't so sure anymore that they should take matters in their own hands. "Revenge, Lena."

She let go of his hand jerkily, standing. "Against who, Jon' How?"

He reached for her hand to pull her down beside him, too tired or too inebriated to get up. "Lena, don't worry. I'm not going to do anything stupid."

Stubbornly, she remained on her feet, though their knees bumped and it was a near thing. "Going off by yourself to help Dom kill the people who bombed that building - that's not stupid?"

"I'm not..." He sighed. "I'm not gonna help Dom kill anyone, Lena." The part of him that was a pacifist almost always won out in the end. It was a matter for the Watch, or failing that, for people like Gigi. He wasn't a killer. He didn't think he had it in him to kill anyone. "You wanted to know what I think Dom will do. That's what I think."

"I know. I know I did....but what do you think he thinks you promised him, Jonny?"

Relenting a smidge, she dropped onto the corner of the cushion and nudged him with a hand to his thigh. "Make some room at least."

He smiled at her when she relented, sliding over a little to give her room, but the smile faded as he considered her question. "I'll talk to him." He sighed again. He'd been slowly but surely sorting things out in his head, but putting the pieces of his past together was slow work.

"How are you doing?" She moved on from Dom for now, dropping her head on Jon's shoulder and picking fretfully at the sleeve of his suit jacket. It had been a few days since he'd come home, but they'd been a whirlwind. "I'm worried about you.?

"I'm fine, Lena. Don't worry about me."

"I can't help it. You're my brother. I'm supposed to worry about you. It's part of the package." She tugged at his sleeve one more time. "Let's change and go sit on the patio and drink some more. I can make up stories about my non-existent love life and you can laugh at me."

He smiled warmly up at her, glad she hadn't pressed him too much for details, though she might later. "I won't laugh." He crossed his heart. "Promise."

"Oh, God. Now I know you're drunk. I would. My stories are pathetic." Smiling, she maneuvered herself up onto her feet. "Meet you outside. I need to pee. And change! I need to change." Off she went down the hall.

Helena King

Date: 2011-06-24 21:45 EST
He laughed as she gave him a little too much information, and pushed himself to his feet. He was going to have a hangover tomorrow, but at the moment, he didn't much care. He made his way upstairs to his old room, changing from the black suit into a pair of gray sweatpants and a navy blue t-shirt, the tailored clothes swapped for comfy and casual.

She put on a pair of sleep shorts and a tank, found some flip-flops, and clop-clop-clopped back down the hall way about ten minutes later. The liquor in the house was pretty well stocked, still - she didn't drink all that often. When he came back downstairs, he found her staring into the cabinet trying to decide what to bring outside.

"Bourbon," he suggested, helpfully. It was a bourbon kind of day.

"Grab the glasses?" she asked reaching up on her toes to pull the recommended bottle down.

He was already on it, pulling open another shelf in the cabinet to fetch two glasses. Once that was done, he came up behind her to reach up and help her snag the bottle.

"Thanks. I guess sometimes it really does pay to have a tall big brother," she teased.

"Just so you know, I'm not holding your hair back later." He smirked at her as he handed her the bottle.

"Yeah' Well, maybe I'm not holding yours. Ever think about that?" She bumped his hip as she sassed on past him.

"I don't have long hair."

"Technicalities." She slid open the patio door, and clopped out onto the deck. "I wonder where Eli is."

He frowned a little at the mention of Eli, wondering just how close he and his sister were getting without him around to keep an eye on things. "How is our long lost cousin?"

"Hm?" She looked back over her shoulder at him and almost tripped on the Adirondack chair she'd been going for. She sat down hard. "Eli" He's fine. Hardly ever around."

"How fine?" he asked, pressing the matter just a little. He set the glasses on the table and reached for the bottle to pour them each a drink.

"I don't know. He seems okay. He's busy with his research, you know. We meet for lunch once in a while; if we didn't, I'd never see him, probably." She gave him her 'you're being weird' look.

"He hasn't hit on you or anything?" He handed her a glass and flopped down on a chair, leaning back and lifting his feet up to rest them against another chair, crossed at the ankles.

"Ew." Her nose crinkled. "He's ....Eli. It'd be like kissing on you. Gross."

He chuckled at her reaction, but the laugh died quickly. His brows came together in an expression she would recognize as pensive.

She took off a flip-flop and thwapped him on the calf with it. He blinked and jerked a little, surprised by the thwap, and distracted from his thoughts. "What?"

"What, yourself?" She dropped the sandal on the deck and kicked the other off on the opposite side of the chair. "Stop frowning like that or I'll do it again."

"You're going to give me a bruise!" he whined at her, good-naturedly. "Lelah will kill me. Those thighs aren't insured against damage."

"Oh....LeeeeeLahhhh." Mugging at him and settling back in the chair.

He glared at her. "There's nothing going on between me and Lelah. We're just friends." Those rumors had been squelched by them both numerous times, but always seemed to pop back up whenever their names were linked.

"That's not what that Emmett guy at the Post says." She stuck a finger in the bourbon and then sucked the liquor off of her finger, her eyes laughing at him.

"You should know better by now to believe everything you read in the Post." He knew she was teasing, but he still glared back at her.

She made a noncommittal sound as she swallowed a sip of the bourbon. Clearly, she loved getting a rise out of him.

Her reaction did nothing to assuage his annoyance. "There's nothing going on between me and Lelah!"

"Uh huh. And there's nothing going on between me and Eli."

He sighed, his defensiveness fading, realizing she was trying to make a point. Hard-headed, it took a while for him to get it. "Touche. Point taken."

She set her drink down - just barely remembering it - and threw both fists in the air in victory.

"You're such a girl!" He laughed, stating the obvious. He lifted the glass of bourbon finally, holding it toward her to clink glasses. "What should we drink to?"

She retrieved her glass and clinked it against his, chuckling. "To Lena having a lovelife!" She was only half-joking.

He pouted at her. "I'm not sure I want to drink to that. I mean, I want you to be happy, but..." He knew only too well how men could be. "Men are pigs." Wasn't that what women thought of them"

"You know, I'm twenty-two years old, not fifteen." She'd had her birthday while he'd been off recovering someplace with Correy. "I've never had a boyfriend and I don't think there's anything wrong with me other than I had to stay here with daddy and deal with his ....messes. So honestly' A pig wouldn't be entirely unwelcome right now. I'm not feeling so picky these days."

He frowned at her, not expecting that. "I'm sorry," he apologized, lowering the glass, unsure exactly what he was apologizing for. Probably for leaving home and her behind to deal with the mess that was their father.

"You don't need to be sorry....just..." She sighed, her head swimming. "Just don't be so quick to wish me alone. I don't wish that for you, you know."

"I don't wish you alone, Lena." He rested the glass on the arm of the chair. "I just don't want you to get hurt."

"I'm going to get hurt sometimes. That's just what life is. That doesn't mean I don't want to live. You should understand that, if anyone should."

"I know, but..." He looked away, on the verge of saying something he wasn't sure he should say.

There was a long silence broken only by the sound of the breeze in the leaves and the protesting honk of a goose down on the pond somewhere. "But what?"

He hesitated a moment before finally confessing quietly, with a heavy heart. "I've hurt a lot of people, Lena."

"Not intentionally," she countered. "Not maliciously."

"Since when does that matter?" He took a long swallow of the bourbon.

"It always matters."

"Tell that to all the people I've hurt." He sounded bitter. "I don't even know who I am anymore."

"You know what? They're grown-ups and they're responsible for their own actions and choices, just like you. You always think you're the only one involved in the things you do, and that's not true." She took a breath, on a roll. "It's not true. Get over yourself!"

He blinked at her, once again surprised by her outburst. What had gotten into her" Was it the liquor or had she had enough of him and his self-flagellation'

"The Nexus doesn't revolve around your guilt complex," she concluded, swallowing what was left in her glass with a visible shudder. "And you aren't the only one with problems."

"I'm sorry," he apologized again.

"You said that already. Stop," She wasn't angry. If anything, she was oddly matter-of-fact. "God, I am such a beyotch anymore." She breathed bourbon into the early evening air and lay back in the chaise.

He was watching her, studying her, as if trying to read her thoughts, a brow arching at her remark.

"I've been seeing Nikki." He just blurted it out. He wanted her to know before the news started to make its way around the Granger gossip tree or the papers.

"Good," she didn't lift her forearm from her eyes as she answered him, but again, she sounded nothing but matter-of-fact. "I always liked Nikki, even when you two broke up."

He was dumbfounded again, his jaw not quite touching the floor.

"Have you told anyone else yet?" turning her head to peek at him from under her elbow.

"No, well..." He frowned, "maybe one or two people know."

"Well you should let the rest of the family know. Before they run into the two of you someplace and get surprised. Don't be an arse like someone else I could mention. It's not fair to Nikki."

"They don't like her, Lena. They never have. I don't understand why." He sighed again, running a finger around the rim of his glass. "I've been going through my journal, some letters. I came home because of Nikki. I wanted to marry her, settle down, have kids."

"So why didn't you?" She thrust her empty glass out toward him, gesturing with it.

"I don't know. She got mad at me for not keeping in touch while I was..." He paused a moment. "while I was in rehab. I wrote her some letters while I was there." He glanced at the empty glass and leaned forward to reach for the bottle on the table, snagging it and refilling both glasses with a small shrug. "The funny thing is, when I got out of rehab, I knew exactly what I wanted. And then I came back here, and everything got screwed up somehow."

She had to sit up to take that next sip, so she did.

"I'm an idiot. I've made a mess of things and now I'm trying to set them right, but it's hard. Gigi told me I let my d*ck do my thinking. I didn't believe it then, but maybe she was right. I just " I need a life of my own." There he'd said it.

"Hallelujah!" Lena raised her glass in toast to that and took a sip.

Obviously surprised once again by her reaction, he turned to her. "What' I thought..." He trailed off, unsure what he'd thought.

The eyes that looked back at him were so similar to his, like a reflection in a mirror but rendered with subtle differences. "What?"

"Hallelujah?" he repeated, hoping for an explanation.

"You couldn't make daddy happy so you've spent every second since then trying to make everyone else happy, no matter whether you were happy or not, Jonny." Her words slurred just a little, but she wasn't mincing any of them. "Let me tell you a little secret, Jon. No one could make daddy happy. Trust me." Volumes left unsaid there, and more than a little bitterness. "And you can't make other people happy either. No one can make someone else be happy. It's their choice, not yours."

"So, yes. Halle-f***ing-lujah if you've finally figured that out. Just don't fall into the same pattern with Nikki."

His eyes widened at both his sister's bluntness and her wisdom. She seemed a lot older and wiser than her twenty-two short years. She was right, of course. He'd spent far too much energy trying to make other people happy, starting with his father. "What about you? Are you happy, Lena?"

"I'm not unhappy," she answered him, coming at it from the side. "I have a job I like, and I can live here how I like, without people telling me what I can do. For the most part," she added with a grin. "And I have Ish, and Eli and you here to keep me company. So, things are pretty good."

He smiled, catching the not so subtle hint. "I don't tell you what to do. I just worry about you."

There was another pause, before he broke the silence with a question. "Would you be mad at me if I moved out?" With the way things were going with Nikki, he figured it was only a matter of time before he ended up spending more time there than here.

"No, I wouldn't be mad. But you can stay here as long as you want, you know?"

He smiled and reached for her hand. "I know. I'm in no hurry to move out just yet. So long as Ish tolerates me." Because they all knew who the king of castle really was. "I love you, you know." Memory loss or not, he felt a kinship and connection to his sister that not even a bullet could shatter.

"I love you, too." Curling her hand in his, she let her arm swing lazily in the space between. "Even if you won't hold my hair later."

He laughed. "Sorry, sis, but there are just some things that even big brothers won't do."