Topic: Just Thinking

Victoria Granger

Date: 2012-07-10 08:10 EST
Jon dropped Randy and Aimee off at their apartment, turning quiet for most of the ride back to the penthouse. Quiet with respect to Jon was usually not a good thing. It meant he was thinking too much, and when Jon was thinking too much, he often became moody. Vicki knew the signs and knew what to do about it most of the time, better than anyone, but until she distracted him or got him to open up about what was bothering him, he'd simply clam up and sulk and mull whatever it was over that was at the heart of the matter.

Vicki gave him the ride back to the penthouse to mull and mope and overthink, knowing that he needed a least a little time before she would be able to draw him out of his shell once more. Thankfully there were no photographers outside the building, taking the pressure off their need to get inside as quickly as possible. Drawing in a slow breath as the car came to a halt, she looked over at Jon. "Penny for your thoughts, stud-muffin?"

Instead of pulling the car up to the building and letting a valet park for him, he chose to pull into the parking lot and do the parking himself. It was no secret that he enjoyed driving and found it relaxing, often enjoying the quiet time to think and sort things out in his mind. He eased the car into the parking spot and shut down the engine, avoiding Vicki's gaze as she'd probably have his mood pegged in a second, if she didn't already.

"Just thinking," was his lame reply. He was doing more than just thinking; he was brooding.

"Just thinking," she repeated, the drawl in her voice warmly amused as she looked over at him, undoing her seatbelt with one hand. "Just thinking ....what, exactly?" She twisted to face him, reaching over to gently tuck her fingers under his chin, lifting his face until he met her smiling eyes. "Just thinking how well it went tonight?"

He smiled as she practically read his mind with far too much ease, meeting her gaze as she turned his face toward hers. "Something like that," he admitted vaguely. There was more to it than that, but that was good for starters. "You don't think this movie was a mistake, do you?"

At least he smiled; that was a good sign that she hadn't let him stew for too long. Her thumb stroked along the line of his jaw as he met her eyes, knowing that he wasn't going to admit to brooding straight off. "No, I don't think this movie is a mistake," she told him for the umpteenth time. "I think the casting the excellent, the production team committed, and the promotion plan flawless. What do you think, love?"

"I think Aimee is young and inexperienced and in for a lot of surprises, some of which are not very pleasant." There, he admitted what was bothering him in part, but that wasn't, as the saying goes, "The Whole Enchilada". "I think you two should get acquainted," he continued, though he was unsure whether he wanted to do the same with Randy or not. "She could probably use a friend or two while she's here."

"I think you're right about Aimee, but I also think she's made of sterner stuff than first seems apparent," Vicki agreed with him, nodding slowly as she lowered her hand from his chin, curling her fingers into his. "And I think you're right about her needing a friend or two while she is here, though hopefully she will make a few for herself." She let that hang for a moment longer, studying his expression with a wry smile. "What's really bothering you, Jon?"

Those were just two in the long list of things that were weighing on his mind, and neither of those things had anything to do with himself really, concern evident for his co-star, though, in truth, he hardly knew her. He shrugged his shoulders as Vicki tried to get to the heart of the matter, unsure what it was exactly that was bugging him, turning his gaze away from her and staring thoughtfully at the steering wheel. "I don't know. I guess I should just butt out and let people live their own lives."

"You don't think Aimee is ready for this, and you don't think Randy is mature enough to be able to support her. Do you?" It was a shot in the dark; he was doing very well in hiding his thoughts from her tonight, and Vicki didn't like it. "Jon, please. Talk to me."

Jon furrowed his brows as he tried to put his feelings into words. He'd been mulling things over as he made the drive back to the penthouse, but he still wasn't quite sure what it was that was at the heart of the matter. She was close, it seemed, but just off the mark. "I don't know, Vicki," he confessed, turning back to her with a hint of confusion in his blue eyes. "I mean, who the hell am I to think anything about anyone" What the hell do I know about anything" I don't even remember what my life here was like before..." He broke off, leaving that thought to dangle between them, both of them knowing how that statement was going to end. Before the shooting.

"Jon." Her hand rose again to smooth her palm tenderly against his cheek, holding his gaze as she smiled gently. "Why are you letting this upset you? I thought you had come to terms with what you do and don't remember, what does and doesn't matter in other people's opinions. Is it still hurting you, the stupid opinions of people who ultimately have no impact on your life or how you live it?"

His frown deepened as he looked to her, once again coming close to the mark. "It's not that. It's just..." He broke off a moment as he tried to gather his thoughts into words that made sense. "I was just trying to help and..." He left the rest of that thought go, as well. "We were supposed to be having a good time, and I almost ruined it. Maybe I should just keep my big mouth shut."

"Jon." This time there was no gentle patience in her tone; Vicki had turned stern with him, something that didn't happen often. She took his face in her hands, forcing him to hold her serious gaze as she spoke. "Do you really think I want you brooding and distressed and hiding it" I want you to tell me what?s on your mind, no matter how unimportant you think it is."

Forced to face her and her rarely-seen stern approach to the angst-ridden, brooding side of his nature, he met her head-on, eyes locking on hers, unable to hide under that no-nonsense gaze of hers. "I don't want to do this anymore, Vicki. I don't know why I agreed to this. I don't like living in a fishbowl, everything I do under scrutiny from people who don't matter worth a damn. The only thing that matters..." He paused to correct himself. "The only person whose opinion matters is you."

"Oh, Jon." Her expression softened, the sterness fleeing as her brow furrowed in quietly understanding concern. "I understand that, of course I do. But you've made a commitment. All you need to do is this trilogy - you need never make another movie again. Are you really saying that you would abandon Aimee to Hollywood at the slightest provocation, knowing what being involved in these movies without a calm anchor will do to her?"

Victoria Granger

Date: 2012-07-10 08:14 EST
"This..." He waved a hand at their surroundings. "None of this matters. It's temporary. I feel like I'm whoring myself out to Hollywood to make a fast buck. It's just a god-damned movie. That's all it is." Once that was said, spilling out all at once as if he'd been keeping it locked up too long, he blew out a breath, shoving the anger back down. She was right. He'd made this choice for himself and for her, and for now, it was only a month-long committment. "No, of course not," he replied, "But I don't think she realizes what she's gotten herself into and neither does he, and it's my fault. This movie is going to be huge, Vicki. It's going to blow Twilight right out of the water."

He'd splurged his feelings like this to her only once before, on their second date. At least this time Vicki knew what to expect, not to take offence at his quiet explosion. "You're allowed to be angry," she told him firmly. "You're allowed to resent the fact that you need to do a movie at all. You're even allowed to regret making this decision. But the decision is made, Jon. And you do not have to embrace being a huge star, you do not have to play the game. You can hold to your commitment; you can do the bare minimum of the P.R., and you can come home between the whirlwinds of interest. But you can't take responsibility for anyone else's decisions, and breaking your word just isn't you." She sighed softly, shaking her head. "You need to find a way to reconcile this with yourself, or it's going to drive you insane."

He sighed again, knowing she was right, but not quite sure how to make that reconciliation with himself and his own inner demons. To him, it was just another acting gig, though it was one he was being paid vulgar amounts of money to take part in. Still, five million was probably chump change when one considered the profit the movie was more than likely to pull in. "Sorry," he apologized, his voice quiet with remorse. He wasn't upset with her; he was just worrying too much. "I'm not going to break my word. I made a commitment, and I'll stand by it. I just..." He sighed again and shoved his fingers through his hair. "This isn't me anymore, Vicki."

"I know." She leaned over, gently touching her lips against his cheek. "But even if you're not Jon Granger the mega movie star, you're always going to be Jon Granger the actor. You're always going to crave the rush that comes with performing to an audience, the thrill when someone recognises you and acknowledges your talent and skill. You're going to be remembered for all time as one of the greatest stage actors that ever lived. But you know what? I love you. Our baby will adore you. No matter what you choose to do with your life, you will be my husband, the father of my children, and I will never regret that." Her lips touched his once again. "That is who you are, Jon."

Her gentle words and quiet reassurance seemed to calm the troubled waters that were clashing inside him. The tension seemed to ease, his shoulders relaxing, the frown disappearing, the worry lines in his forehead smoothing out, touched by her words, by her confidence and belief in him, perhaps more than his own confidence in himself. He believed he had yet to reach his full potential as an actor, but what that full potential was, he wasn't quite sure. As a man, however, life got no better than this, and he was truly thankful for what he'd been given.

"I'm going to go down in the history books of Hollywood as that guy who played Christian Grey," he remarked casually and somewhat sarcastically. He knew there were worse roles, and he was proud of his work, but he wished people could see past the role and understand how much effort it took to make it all look so easy.

"Who cares what Hollywood thinks?" Vicki countered with a faint smile. "They tried to make a star out of Pamela Anderson, for goodness' sake. And besides, there are worse ways to be remembered. You could have taken a role that meant you'd go down in history as the man who humped Ricky Gervais." Her smile brightened to a teasing grin as she leaned close once more, nipping a soft kiss to the end of his nose. "Or Micky Mouse."

He was having a lot of trouble staying glum in the wake of Vicki's effervescent teasing, unable to hold back a smile as she dropped a kiss against the tip of his nose. "Only if it's the porn version." Of Mickey Mouse, that is. "Seriously....If I ever do another movie once this is over, it had better be Oscar material." Hell, he'd done Oscar material before, but had never been nominated for one. He'd tried to tell himself that it didn't matter, but it annoyed him at times. The Academy was a fickle bunch who forgot you all too soon. "I'll probably get one posthumously one day."

"Good for you. Rhy'Din being what it is, you could always terrify the Academy by showing up in ghost form to collect." She laughed at this mental image, nuzzling a soft kiss to his lips. "Now let's get inside before the paparazzi realise we're still in the car."

He laughed at her suggestion, imagining himself as a ghost. "I'd be like Jacob Marley. Ask me not who I am, but who I was," he quoted, feiging a gravely voice, and laying a hand against his chest, pretending to be Marley's Ghost. It had been a long time since he'd done A Christmas Carol, but he knew the lines as if by rote. Odd how lines from various plays stuck in his mind, though his memory was full of holes like Swiss cheese. He leaned over, extending his arms to her, ghost like and tried to look scary. "Bahhhhhhh."

Vicki let out a little squeal of laughter, lurching back against the passenger door as he leaned toward her, playing at cowering in the face of his awesome fearsomeness. "And what does the ghost of Granger present want to do to me, hmm?" she chuckled to him, batting his hands out of the way to tweak at his nose playfully.

He continued trying to look fierce, even as one groping hand copped a feel. "The ghost of Granger present demands your presence in the boudoir, so he can give you proper and thorough humping."

"Well, I'd better get moving, hadn't I?" Chuckling, Vicki slid closer to catch his cheek in her hand, pressing the sort of kiss gossip magazines paid vast amounts for pictures of to his lips with a quiet murmur of a teasing moan. "Think you can make it without developing a limp?" she grinned wickedly, nipping at his lips.

He smiled into her kiss, returning it with just as much gusto. "Think you can make it without stopping the elevator halfway there?" he countered with a challenging smirk, still leaning across the seat at her.

"I'll race you," was Vicki's laughing counter-tease, knowing full well that Jon would always win a race like that. He was fitter, had longer legs, and wasn't wearing heels, for a start. Touching one last kiss to his lips, she slid back again, twisting to open the door. "I might even let you get grabby if you let me win."

Victoria Granger

Date: 2012-07-10 08:17 EST
In a fair fight, Jon would most likely always win a race like that against Vicki, but Jon rarely fought fair, usually allowing her to have the advantage and to beat him. It didn't really matter who won; in the end, they were both winners. He laughed again at her remark, the dark mood dispersed, like so many rain clouds. "You'll let me get grabby whether you win or lose," he pointed out, both of them knowing it to be true. Despite this, he let her have a head start, pocketing the keys to the BMW as she made her exit from the car, in no real hurry to chase her.

Laughing, the redhead slithered from the car herself, locking the door before turning to flash Jon a cheeky wink. She was going to give the race a good go, at least, though her turn of speed in those shoes was pitiful. "Oh, this is pathetic," she laughed, reaching back for his hand as she slowed. "I should have told you to carry me like the lazy lump I am."

He laughed again, as she gave up the chase before it had even begun. Maybe she shouldn't have admitted that because the next thing she knew he was flashing a grin and scooping her up in his arms to carry her toward their destination, paparazzi be damned. "It's the heels," he pointed out, knowing she wasn't very fond of dressing up and was far more comfortable wearing casual clothing. "All you had to do was ask."

She gasped as he swept her up, the sudden change from upright to draped in his arms a little too fast if the way the color drained from her face was anything to go by. Ordinarily, that move would have resulted in her amusing herself with kisses trailed over his neck; tonight, she closed her eyes for a moment, swallowing against the urge to vomit. The low level nausea that was taking hold every day had decided to pop up and say hello. "Why do they call it morning sickness if it lasts all day?" she groaned in complaint, hugging her arms around his neck as she laughed at her own reaction to the playful manouevre.

His concern made itself known via the small frown on his face, noticing the way her face suddenly paled, the groan, and the complaint. He'd known she'd been battling a little morning sickness, but he had no idea sweeping her off her feet would result in her feeling nauseous. "I'm sorry," he found himself apologizing for some reason. After all, it was his fault she was pregnant and hence, feeling sickly. "Is there anything I can do to help?" he asked, obviously concerned, as he lowered her carefully to her feet in case she really was going to be sick.

"No, I'm fine, I am ..." Vicki laughed softly, holding onto him tightly as he gently lowered her back onto her feet. She swallowed again, waiting for the sense of imminent nausea to die back down again, and drew in a deep breath, the color returning to her face under his concerned gaze. Blue eyes lifted to meet his. "It was just a little fast, that's all," she tried to reassure Jon, though to be fair, neither of them could have predicted that. "And stop apologising, for goodness' sake. I'll start thinking you're sorry about the whole thing!" It was obviously a tease, softened by the curl of her hand to his cheek as she smiled.

He smiled under her watchful, blue-eyed gaze. Though concerned, he had no regrets, not when it came to her, except for the death of her mother, but he didn't want to think about that now. They'd been over that already, and if she didn't blame him, he had no real reason to blame himself. "I'm not sorry about starting a family. I'm just sorry you're not feeling well." The frown returned, but it was simply out of concern. "I just wish I could help somehow."

Her smile deepened as she leaned into him. "You do help," she promised him. "Whenever I'm feeling down, and you smile at me. When you force me to stay in the damned bed until I've had something to eat in the morning. Jon, you help me in a thousand tiny ways everyday. And I'd be a very grumpy woman if you weren't here." She rose up to kiss his cheek. "And don't think you're getting out of that promised grope just because there's been a slight hiccup on the way to the elevator."

"So long as that hiccup doesn't turn into something a little messier," he only half-teased, an arm going around her waist to lend her some support that was more than just moral. He smiled as she kissed his cheek and he started with her toward the building. "You do a lot more for me than I do for you, Vic." A thought came to mind as he considered his own words. "I'm not sure I'd be here, if it wasn't for you." He'd told her that at least once before, but they weren't just words. The truth of the statement struck him to the very core of his being.

Tucked close against his side, she fell easily into step with him, hugging warmly with her own arm about his waist. "Then I'm very glad I'm here," she told him quietly as they passed through the main doors and into the foyer beyond. "And I'm very glad that you're going to be my husband before I turn 25." She flashed him a sparkling, teasing smile, winking impishly. "Unless, of course, you want to wait until I hit a quarter century."

He tried to do the math in his head, figuring how far along she'd be by the time her birthday arrived. Would she be showing by then" They were supposed to be planning a fall wedding with a target date in October, but he had been thinking about that. "I'm not sure I want to wait that long," he admitted as they arrived in the foyer, pressing a thumb against the elevator button to take them to the penthouse.

Vicki smiled, knowing exactly what he meant. "It's just as well I put my dad's phone number into your contact list, then, isn't it?" she chuckled softly, leaning into his side to wait for the elevator to arrive, watching the doors swish open almost silently in front of them. "I think I want to marry you before we go back to Rhy'Din. As soon as filming is finished." She took hold of his lapel, drawing him into the elevator with her to press a slow kiss to his lips. "As soon as possible."

Victoria Granger

Date: 2012-07-10 08:21 EST
"I did kind of promise to call your dad, didn't I?" he asked, a hint of nervousness in his voice at the prospect of that. He smiled as she pulled him into the elevator with her, the doors swishing closed behind them. He settled his hands against her hips, sighing into her kiss. "As soon as possible," he repeated, seconding her thoughts, wondering if she was anxious to get married or anxious for something else. He took her face in his hands and kissed her again, a little more thoroughly, despite the risk of nausea.

So long as he didn't whisk her off her feet and spin her about, Vicki was fairly confident that the nausea was under control all over again. She'd only thrown up twice so far, and she had no intention of doing so again. Her arms curled about him beneath his jacket as she smiled against his lips, meeting that thorough kiss with her own enthusiasm, only drawing back when she realised that neither of them had actually put the key into the pad to signal the lift to move. "Key, stud-muffin," she laughed softly, nuzzling to his jaw fondly.

He laughed as he realized his own faux pas. "Oh, right. We're not going anywhere this way," he remarked, flushing slightly, not entirely from embarrassment. They might be going somewhere, but it wasn't up the elevator to the penthouse. He fished the keycard out of his wallet and swiped it to activate the elevator, then pressed a thumb against the button for the top floor. "Sorry, I got distracted," he apologized for what seemed to be the umpteenth time that day, keeping the card handy to swipe their way into the room.

Giggling at how easily he'd allowed himself to be swept out of reality with kisses and warm affection, Vicki stepped back to allow him space to swipe and set the elevator to moving, leaning back against the metal wall. The look in her eyes was infinitely loving as she crooked her finger to him. "Think you can handle a little more distraction?"

He arched a brow at her, gaze darting to the finger that was beckoning him forward for a brief moment, his mouth curving into a mischievous grin. "You realize if we stay here too long, they'll call the Fire Department," he warned, closing the distance between them. He leaned close, bracing himself against the metal wall behind her, one hand on each side of her head as he dipped his head to drop his lips against the side of her neck.

"Only if we don't get out when the lift stops," she grinned back at him, perfectly willing to tempt Fate so long as Jon was right there with her, doing a little tempting of his own. Shrunk back against the wall as he leaned into her, Vicki's laugh faded into a deeply satisfied sigh of pleasure as his lips found purchase on her skin. Her own lips brushed his ear as her fingers wound through his hair, her other hand resting soft and tender over his heart. "I'd rather you were the one to put out the fire."

His lips parted from her neck, if only temporarily, to reply to her remark, his face flushed with desire. They'd been covertly teasing each other all day, in the car, beneath the table, now in the elevator, and he wasn't sure he could wait much longer. "Tell you what," he told her, as his lips continued their travels along the side of her neck, his fingers wandering against the curve of her waist. "Let's call your father and give him the good news, and then you're all mine."

"Oh, that's mean," she laughed in response, his teasing compromise earning him a sharp nip to his earlobe even as she shifted, growing restless under his tender ministrations. "You really think you can behave yourself long enough to make that phone call, hmm?"

The nip to his earlobe produced a soft groan, and he suddenly wasn't sure if he'd be able to wait, after all. "It's either that or wait until later, but if we wait until later, it probably won't be 'til morning." Either way, he didn't really care. Chris was her father, not his. Jon smiled as his fingers crept higher and curled around the curve of her left breast. "What do you say I fill the tub while you pour us some champagne?" The elevator dinged as they reached the top floor, the doors sliding open behind him.

She gasped softly, arching into the cup of his hand against her breast, the reaction something more vehement than it had been only a couple of months before. Not only were they swelling, but they were definitely more sensitive now, and Jon seemed to be reaping all the benefits of that. Her skin flushed as she brushed a kiss to his cheekbone. "Make it lemonade, and you're on," she countered with a low chuckle, moving to ease out from between him and the wall. "We're here."

"Lemonade it is," he agreed with a chuckle, resigning himself to the fact that she wasn't going to be partaking of any alcoholic beverages anytime soon, and in order to be supportive, neither was he. He brushed a thumb against her breast, coaxing her further, a mischievous grin on his face, wondering if she'd even be able to wait long enough for him to get the tub filled. He would have continued his seduction right then and there, but the door to the elevator was wide open and if they tarried much longer, security might come looking to see what was wrong. Instead, he let her go, turning to follow her out of the elevator to the penthouse suite.

"Mmm ..." The sound was half a protest and half a moan as he continued with his mischief, slipping free of his grasp with a quietly gasping chuckle. "You are so going to follow through on being the biggest tease this side of the portals, Granger," she informed him, throwing a grin over her shoulder to him as she stepped out of the elevator.

He laughed, amused at the way he could so easily manipulate and seduce her. "What are you gonna call me when you're a Granger, Miss Marshall?" he asked, a teasing tone to his voice, as he put an emphasis on the word Miss. If he had his way, her days as Miss Marshall were numbered. He admired the view as she stepped out in front of him, following after her, hesitating just long enough that the elevator doors almost swished closed on him before he could make his escape.

She heard the scramble to get out of the elevator before the doors closed, letting her own mischievous laugh float back to him before she offered an answer to his question. "Well, I have a liking for 'husband'," she grinned, taking up a lean beside the last locked door before they would finally have true privacy for the rest of the evening. "What do you think?"

He caught up to her finally and unable to keep his hands to himself once he got going, he slid an arm around her waist from behind, leaning over her to nuzzle her neck with his lips once again. "I think we're not going to make it to the bathroom," he predicted, not quite answering her question. He swiped the keycard and the lock in the door clicked, signalling it was open.

"You think?" Vicki's chuckle faded into a softly sweet sigh as she leaned back into him, one hand stroking over the length of his arm at her waist to link her fingers with his as her head tipped to one side, offering him more of the smooth line of her neck to taste. Her free hand rose to push the door open, her body moving forward with a strange mixture of reluctance and eagerness, and together they tumbled through, the gentle click of the lock sealing them into intimate privacy for their eyes only.

((Huge thanks to Jon's player for this scene!))