Correy ran through the streets, blinded by tears. Instinctively, he knew where he was going. There was only one place that he found solace, one place where there was peace, one place that he truly called his own. It was a small, abandoned cottage on the Maple Grove estate, nestled in between the craggy rocks of the northern border. Over the years, he'd done repairs and spent several days there at a time when life seemed too hectic. Only one other person knew of Correy's little hide out and deep inside, Correy knew Jon would come for him, eventually.
The pain in his back had dulled from the white hot shards to that of a dull, throbbing ache as he ran. And all the while, he could see Ollie's face just before him. The anger had flushed Ollie's cheeks and made his eyes wild. "Useless leech," screamed into Correy's head until it came mad, maniacal laughter. "Waste of air," mixed in to drive Correy on even when he thought he couldn't run any further.
He burst through the door of the cottage and immediately began to build a fire in the hearth. It was freezing and Correy had left his parka at the Inn. Barely able to lift the wood to the hearth, the fire consisted mostly of kindling that caught the log that Correy and Jon had begun to burn on the last day that they'd been there. And once it caught, Correy was able to sit upon the bed they'd made of pillows, sleeping bags and old quilts. Pulling a notebook from the shelf, he opened it up and stared at the blank pages within.
It was a journal, nothing fancy or exquisite about it. And it had never been used. Bound in a thick, olive green canvas, it had a loop that stored a pen. Correy couldn't remember who had given it to him or how long ago it was. The pages had curled on the edges from being in the elements that the cottage simply couldn't keep out when it's master was not there. Still, crouched before the fire, Correy opened the book and held the pen, ready to write.
I've never struck another person in my life. I don't understand the anger that it must take to make somebody do such a thing. It makes me sick to think about it. There's no doubt about it, Ollie hates me now. I told Lola that he'd end up just like Junior, their dad. And I truly think Ollie will be just like him.
Junior likes to hit people. He hit Lola and bruised her pretty face. And from what I saw tonight, he used to hit Ollie. He hit Ollie, a lot. Why' Why can't they see what hitting and violence does? It terrifies me. It makes me sick to my stomach. I'll never understand inflicting physical pain on another person.
But maybe I'm just as guilty of inflicting pain. I've a big mouth. I know I do. I say things and smart off. Rarely do I mean the things I say. Sometimes I do, but not often. I mean it when I tell Jon I love him. I mean it when I tell Kaylee that I love her. I mean it when I tell Lala and Caro and even Ollie. They are my family and my most important friends. I love them. I love Gigi. I'm so worried about Gigi.
After Ollie slammed me against the bar and hurt my back, Gigi went into a rage. She chased him out of the Inn. They got into a big fight. She was bleeding, Ollie was laughing. I think. It's so confusing. Jon had a gun. I don't understand.
Correy heard the crunch of tires on the gravel outside and closed the book. Perhaps, another time he'd finish. When the engine of the car died, Correy reached up with a groan to put the book back up on the shelf. His entire body ached. Then the sound of the car door opening, footsteps, the door closing. Correy pulled the sleeping bag back around his shoulders. For warmth, yes, to conceal, yes. And when Jon knocked at the door, Correy lifted his head. "Come in."
The pain in his back had dulled from the white hot shards to that of a dull, throbbing ache as he ran. And all the while, he could see Ollie's face just before him. The anger had flushed Ollie's cheeks and made his eyes wild. "Useless leech," screamed into Correy's head until it came mad, maniacal laughter. "Waste of air," mixed in to drive Correy on even when he thought he couldn't run any further.
He burst through the door of the cottage and immediately began to build a fire in the hearth. It was freezing and Correy had left his parka at the Inn. Barely able to lift the wood to the hearth, the fire consisted mostly of kindling that caught the log that Correy and Jon had begun to burn on the last day that they'd been there. And once it caught, Correy was able to sit upon the bed they'd made of pillows, sleeping bags and old quilts. Pulling a notebook from the shelf, he opened it up and stared at the blank pages within.
It was a journal, nothing fancy or exquisite about it. And it had never been used. Bound in a thick, olive green canvas, it had a loop that stored a pen. Correy couldn't remember who had given it to him or how long ago it was. The pages had curled on the edges from being in the elements that the cottage simply couldn't keep out when it's master was not there. Still, crouched before the fire, Correy opened the book and held the pen, ready to write.
I've never struck another person in my life. I don't understand the anger that it must take to make somebody do such a thing. It makes me sick to think about it. There's no doubt about it, Ollie hates me now. I told Lola that he'd end up just like Junior, their dad. And I truly think Ollie will be just like him.
Junior likes to hit people. He hit Lola and bruised her pretty face. And from what I saw tonight, he used to hit Ollie. He hit Ollie, a lot. Why' Why can't they see what hitting and violence does? It terrifies me. It makes me sick to my stomach. I'll never understand inflicting physical pain on another person.
But maybe I'm just as guilty of inflicting pain. I've a big mouth. I know I do. I say things and smart off. Rarely do I mean the things I say. Sometimes I do, but not often. I mean it when I tell Jon I love him. I mean it when I tell Kaylee that I love her. I mean it when I tell Lala and Caro and even Ollie. They are my family and my most important friends. I love them. I love Gigi. I'm so worried about Gigi.
After Ollie slammed me against the bar and hurt my back, Gigi went into a rage. She chased him out of the Inn. They got into a big fight. She was bleeding, Ollie was laughing. I think. It's so confusing. Jon had a gun. I don't understand.
Correy heard the crunch of tires on the gravel outside and closed the book. Perhaps, another time he'd finish. When the engine of the car died, Correy reached up with a groan to put the book back up on the shelf. His entire body ached. Then the sound of the car door opening, footsteps, the door closing. Correy pulled the sleeping bag back around his shoulders. For warmth, yes, to conceal, yes. And when Jon knocked at the door, Correy lifted his head. "Come in."