August 29, **12

Last week I had the pleasure of bumping into this blonde woman who seems to share my like for shoes. I will admit I wouldn't fly across the room for a pair but she shares the same taste.

Duci is her name and she quite a beautiful person. Not just physically but her heart is full of delightful.

Well I bumped into her again when trying baby steps of being out in the world. I went to the inn, which I feel might of been a mistake. It wasn't all bad because I got to speak to Ms. Duci again and meet her very handsome friend. The man, Jochin, seems to remember my face.

I wasn't expecting to meet someone so soon that knew who I was and I panicked. I ran away from him and her.

The rest of the night was close to being empty. I met a few people; A sightless woman named Lily, a lively man named Cove, and an anti-social man named Jae. Jay' I am not sure how to write his real name but it was a very beautiful name. There was also this...dragon' named Icer that Cove introduced me to.

A dragon! A REAL DRAGON! Can you believe that"! And everyone seems completely fine with her being there. It was unnerving and I felt so out of place.

I felt like I didn't belong there and I probably didn't. It sucks to be so alone. I want to meet people but when I get there I freeze up. Maybe it is just too early for me to be out"

Sept 4, **12

Yesterday was a bad day.

First I was helping one of the violinists with her violin. She said it didn't sound proper to her so I had her play a few bars for me. I didn't sense anything wrong but she handed it over to me and asked me to try. So I did. Not even on the third note and one of the strings snapped and came up, wrapping around my hand and palm. Snapped hard enough to cut skin and make me bleed but it could of been worse.

She apologized profusely while Michael was wrapping my arm in a towel. It was no big deal. I mean I can still play, it just hurt a lot. Michael swears that the violinist had sabotaged the violin so I would get hurt so I couldn't play for the concert next weekend.

I went to the hospital like I do every day after practice so the doctor can give me my checkup and whatnot. She was fretting over my arm and talking about when my father had broke my hand so I couldn't play. I have no memories of that happening.

I guess I should start getting use to people talking about things I don't remember. That is the world at large and I am helpless to it.

Speaking of things I don't remember. I ran into a young woman at the marketplace. Her eyes were eerie and looked as if they belonged to some unnatural beast instead of a pretty face. She started asking me all these questions like she knew me. Asking me about a man I don't know and when I told her I had no clue who she was talking about she freaked out.

She was furious, telling me not to lie and screamed at me to tell her where the man was. I felt bad that I couldn't tell her where he was. He seemed important to her.

I had pardoned myself from her and went on my way to the inn. She was crying when we parted ways.

The inn was quiet again just minus Jay. I was both thankful and disappointed by this.

I found out why the tap water has that dirty rumor stuck to it. A very rainbowtastic woman told me that there was fertility drugs in the water supply. Who would do such a thing and why' She said she tested it out and oh I did not want to ask details. Scientifically she said and that was enough for me.

I ended up leaving in a rush, a little shellshocked I suppose by the fact the man talking had teeth better fitting a vampire. It was highly unsettling. It was just as well since I needed to go. Dinner and all that.

Home with its roomy interior is a constant reminder of how alone I am but where else do I have to go"

I do plan on finding Duci today and giving her these great pair of shoes I found. They are pink and so totally her. Also got a pair of tickets for her and her boyfriend (") for the concert next weekend. Secretly I hope she will be there. Would be nice to have someone I know in the front row.

Sept 7, **12

Well my attempt to be friendly to Jay fell through like a rock in water. I suppose I was foolish thinking he would accept the tickets. With the concert already sold out I had to buy the tickets myself, which was fine, they were meant to be a gift / peace offering. I shouldn't of expected him to take them.

Duci liked her shoes and I gave her the tickets I had for her plus the ones I had bought for Jay and guest. I am sure she could put them to good use.

I decided that today I would stay inside. I just do not feel like going out and even plan on skipping practice. A nice soak in a bubble bath and the afternoon spent curled up with a good book and some Chinese food. I know this means I will be breaking my run in with Duci but I am sure she will forgive me for wanting to get some downtime in.

Nov 7, **12

I have a tenant. A squatter" Either-or I have company. It wasn't exactly planned but it is a welcome change. His name is Jericho and I met him a few days ago when I foolishly lost my key. I still haven't found it but I have had the locks changed so it is now a mute problem.

I'm getting off subject. That night I had met Nigel and his lady friend, Charna. They made me laugh the hardest I can ever remember. Nigel spoke of hiring me to follow him and play his soundtrack. We just need to teach Charna to play the Oboe. It makes me laugh now. Whenever I picture Nigel, in all his seriousness, I start to laugh because there is this image of him doing a Mission Impossible sneaking around and singing or humming his own theme song.

Back off track but it is still a funny subject to write down. Maybe one day it will give me more laughs if I forget.

I left their company to go home and found my key missing. I was in a dress that was sleeveless and I loathed having to retrace my steps. The night was beyond cold. By the time I got back to the inn I just wanted to soak in a warm milk bath for several hours. Much to my dismay I didn't find my key. I met a woman named Fae who offered me the key to her room for the night. Her boyfriend (") made jokes of putting video cameras in the room which made me think twice of accepting it but accept it I did. Didn't get a lick of sleep but it did give me a chance to warm up.

I met Jericho that night. A gentleman who offered his view on the subject of my losing a key. The following day, after hours of no sleep, I found him downstairs again but there was a ton of people there. He must of known I was feeling out of sorts because he was kind enough to offer me a seat at his table.

He is easy to speak with and for me, who has trouble meeting people, it was a comfort. I think after what happened with Jay I have been nervous speaking with men one on one. But with Jericho it was so easy and we spent most of the day in each others company. In fact it was during that time that I offered the unused loft. In return he offered to unlock the door. Since he is new to Rhy'Din I figured having the loft will give him a chance to save his money that he would otherwise be using for rooms at the inn and food. It wasn't like it is being used. Hell it had a coating of dust that took me three hours to clean out.

That day was the start of a friendship I wasn't expecting to make and I don't regret it. I do question some of the things he can do, like pick a lock. Was he a thief where he was from' While I trust him enough to let him live in the loft outside that doesn't mean I don't lock the door to my room when I go to sleep.

He hasn't given me a reason not to trust him yet and I doubt he will. He has been a near perfect gentleman. Even when we went shopping he refused to let me pay for his things or even carry the lot of it.

I had chest pains when we were shopping. I should probably tell Dr. Monceaux during my next checkup. At least I didn't pass out and alarm my new tenant.