Since receiving the text from Caroline, Ennis had been in a foul mood. Inner struggle over what was right and what wasn't tended to have that effect upon him. Add to it what Gabrielle thought was right and wrong and you've got one messed up Jamaican. He threw himself into work, into anything that would divert his thoughts from Gabrielle and their sons. But he knew that wouldn't last for long. And even if Gabrielle didn't want him around, Ennis knew that by not at least visiting, by staying away, he was becoming a man he didn't even like to be around.
So, he decided that he'd spent enough time running away from the situation. Time for adolescent behavior was over. It was time to be a man and to take his responsibilities as a man should. And that's what led him to the door of Beecham House. As he stood there, he hoped that Gabrielle was home, alone. He didn't want nor need the interference of her family, especially her father and brother. After what seemed a very long time, Ennis reached up to ring the bell. As he stood and waited, he removed his raz. The sun was hot and the knitted cap only made matters worse. His loose fitting shirt had sweat stains in the pits and at the base of his neck, from where he'd been walking. The only thing not slightly stained were his khaki cargo shorts. His sandals were a dusty non-color. And even looking a mess, he knew what had to be done. This was right, and no matter what happened from here on out, at least he tried.
And it wasn't so much that Gabrielle didn't want him around. She had never said as much. What concerned her was that he wanted something from her that she could not give him, and that he had abandoned their friendship and their unborn children, just because she wouldn't lie to him and play a role that would ultimately hurt both of them. She'd missed her friend dearly in the last month or more, grateful to Caroline for including him in the round of texts and phonecalls when the boys had finally decided to be born, and hurt when he had not even so much as sent a message in reply. But life went on, and life with newborn twins was more hectic than she had thought it would be.
Cian had taken Leilani to explore a little of the Grove today, to find a cottage or house that might suit them both to stay in when they came back to Rhy"Din from time to time; her father, Gordon, had slipped a portal to have lunch with her aunt, Miranda, in New York on Earth. Thus Gabi was alone with her boys when Ennis came calling, moving to answer the door with a tired smile. She looked exhausted but content, her hair a mess and knotted untidily in a bun, a large shirt loose on her tiny frame and bare feet in slippers against the floor. Her smile only faltered a little when she saw Ennis on the stoop, before growing with surprised delight. "You came! Oh, I'm so glad to see you - come in!"
Ennis blinked his surprise when the door was opened and Gabrielle actually seemed happy to see him. For a man who could barely look at himself in the mirror, ashamed of the guilt in his dark brown eyes, it was surprising to him that she was glad that he'd shown up. More surprising to him was that the door wasn't slammed in his face.
She looked beautiful, but Ennis couldn't bring himself to look into her eyes. Hesitant, with his hat clutched tightly in his hands, he questioned her with just a look. Should he really go inside" It took him a full minute to coalesce to her request, and took a step across the threshold. "I'm sorry," he muttered quietly. He was closer to her now than he'd ever imagined and the urge to reach out and hold her was nearly unbearable. He had to remind himself that it wasn't his place to do so. And besides, he knew that the comforting of such an embrace would only be for his own benefit. So he stood there, just inside of the door, and apologized again. "I'm sorry it took me so long."
"You're here now," she told him gently, closing the door in his wake with a fond smile. She was very fond of Ennis, but not as much as he wanted her to be. She only wanted to be his friend, and to have him involved in their sons" lives. If, for him, that meant chaining her into a relationship she didn't want, that would be a very hard sticking point. "I'm sorry I didn't call, but ....well, it's a little hectic around here when the boys are awake. Would - would you like to see them?"
Of course he wanted to see them, that was why he was there. But Gabi wasn't entirely sure if he had planned something to say to her first, or not.
There was plenty Ennis had wanted to say, intended to say, but in that moment he knew it was all for naught. He wouldn't try to force anything upon her, much less himself. But to see her eventually fall in love with another man would be devastating. He hung his head, then picked it up and lifted his chin. If this is what she wanted, then he'd give it to her, regardless of how painful it was. He put a smile on his face and nodded slowly. "I would love to be seein" da boys. What did y"name dem?" Ennis was proud of himself, keeping the conversation light and mostly impersonal.
Gabi's smile was the same as it had always been - a little shy, but mostly golden. Motherhood suited her, obviously. Offering to show him the way, she moved toward the stairs that led upward into the heart of Beecham House, almost silent in her slippers. "I hope you don't mind what I've been calling them," she said, feeling guilty that he hadn't been able to be a part of that decision. "They're family names, like we discussed - Theodore Cian, for one of my cousins who died a long time ago, and my brother; and Jacob Frank, for my other brother. They're already being called Theo and Jake around the house." She cast a warm smile over her shoulder, pushing open the door to her own bedroom, where a large Moses basket was set up beside the bed. The twin boys were asleep inside, close next to one another, still tiny but promising to grow in leaps and bounds over the coming months and years.
Of course, Ennis didn't mind what she called them. He had no right to mind as he had chosen to be absent in the first few weeks of the boys" lives. He followed, smiling when he was being smiled at. He remained silent as her slippers on the floor, rolling the twins" names around in his head. They were good, strong names and was glad that she'd chosen them. Once the door was opened, he peeked inside of the bedroom. He really couldn't see the contents of the basket very well, the coverlets were in the way. Feeling like an intruder, he tip-toed past Gabrielle. And until he reached the basket and gently tugged the coverlet down, he didn't realize that he'd been holding his breath.
His eyes widened in surprise at what he saw. The boys were laying prone, knees and hands touching, heads turned towards each other. One of them puckered his lips and sucked on his own tongue before returning to the peaceful state of slumber only a newborn would know. Reaching down, he barely touched one tiny cheek, then another. "Gabrielle," he whispered, not wanting to wake the sleeping infants, 'dey be white." He turned then and looked at Gabrielle in confusion.
She watched him move toward the basket, knowing exactly what his first comment would be, and hoping he wouldn't come to the automatic assumption that she'd been cheating on him. It was utterly preposterous that she would, given how nervous she still was of men in general, but she didn't seem to know Ennis" mind anymore. He didn't seem to trust her the way he had done once. "I know," she said softly, a little confusion on her own face. "I asked the doctor if I'd done something wrong, but he said that not all children with a black parent and a white parent are born black. It was a surprise to me, too."
The thought of Gabrielle cheating whilst they were in the midst of their whirlwind romance didn't even come to Ennis" mind. "I tink it be dis place. It be a magical place and we be lucky dey came out white and not purple wit yellow dots about dem." Turning back to the boys, he smiled warmly and reached to put his index finger into the palm of a tiny hand. The fingers curled and Ennis" smile grew. "Dis one has m"mudder's nose. Da poor ting. And dat one has m"forehead." He turned and looked at Gabrielle again, excitement lighting his eyes. "And dey has a whole lotta you in dem. Dey be lucky, lucky boys."
Her smile relaxed as he spoke, a very quiet giggle intruding on the natural stillness in the room at his comment on the wacky genetics of Rhy"Din. Moving to stand beside him, looking down at their sons, Gabi agreed with him as he pointed out what was alike and unalike about them both. "I want to show you something," she told him, leaning down to gently lift the elder - Theo - into her arms, stroking her finger down his cheek until the tiny boy stirred, smacking his lips and opening his eyes, newly turning brown from blue. "Look," Gabi murmured. "They have your eyes, Ennis. Both of them."
Ennis was curious as to what she had to show him. But the moment those eyes opened, gazing upon them both without focus, Ennis" breath hitched in his throat and he took an involuntary step back. His jaw was slack and he stared at the boy in utter amazement. He didn't see what Gabi saw. Of course, he could see his family's resemblance echoed in the baby's features, but the eyes were hers. Instinctively, he reached for the boy, wanting to hold him and make that connection. "You be wrong, Gabi. Dose be yer eyes." The heat of tears pricked at the back of his eyes and tightened his throat painfully. "I was so stupid, Gabi. Please be forgivin" me."
So, he decided that he'd spent enough time running away from the situation. Time for adolescent behavior was over. It was time to be a man and to take his responsibilities as a man should. And that's what led him to the door of Beecham House. As he stood there, he hoped that Gabrielle was home, alone. He didn't want nor need the interference of her family, especially her father and brother. After what seemed a very long time, Ennis reached up to ring the bell. As he stood and waited, he removed his raz. The sun was hot and the knitted cap only made matters worse. His loose fitting shirt had sweat stains in the pits and at the base of his neck, from where he'd been walking. The only thing not slightly stained were his khaki cargo shorts. His sandals were a dusty non-color. And even looking a mess, he knew what had to be done. This was right, and no matter what happened from here on out, at least he tried.
And it wasn't so much that Gabrielle didn't want him around. She had never said as much. What concerned her was that he wanted something from her that she could not give him, and that he had abandoned their friendship and their unborn children, just because she wouldn't lie to him and play a role that would ultimately hurt both of them. She'd missed her friend dearly in the last month or more, grateful to Caroline for including him in the round of texts and phonecalls when the boys had finally decided to be born, and hurt when he had not even so much as sent a message in reply. But life went on, and life with newborn twins was more hectic than she had thought it would be.
Cian had taken Leilani to explore a little of the Grove today, to find a cottage or house that might suit them both to stay in when they came back to Rhy"Din from time to time; her father, Gordon, had slipped a portal to have lunch with her aunt, Miranda, in New York on Earth. Thus Gabi was alone with her boys when Ennis came calling, moving to answer the door with a tired smile. She looked exhausted but content, her hair a mess and knotted untidily in a bun, a large shirt loose on her tiny frame and bare feet in slippers against the floor. Her smile only faltered a little when she saw Ennis on the stoop, before growing with surprised delight. "You came! Oh, I'm so glad to see you - come in!"
Ennis blinked his surprise when the door was opened and Gabrielle actually seemed happy to see him. For a man who could barely look at himself in the mirror, ashamed of the guilt in his dark brown eyes, it was surprising to him that she was glad that he'd shown up. More surprising to him was that the door wasn't slammed in his face.
She looked beautiful, but Ennis couldn't bring himself to look into her eyes. Hesitant, with his hat clutched tightly in his hands, he questioned her with just a look. Should he really go inside" It took him a full minute to coalesce to her request, and took a step across the threshold. "I'm sorry," he muttered quietly. He was closer to her now than he'd ever imagined and the urge to reach out and hold her was nearly unbearable. He had to remind himself that it wasn't his place to do so. And besides, he knew that the comforting of such an embrace would only be for his own benefit. So he stood there, just inside of the door, and apologized again. "I'm sorry it took me so long."
"You're here now," she told him gently, closing the door in his wake with a fond smile. She was very fond of Ennis, but not as much as he wanted her to be. She only wanted to be his friend, and to have him involved in their sons" lives. If, for him, that meant chaining her into a relationship she didn't want, that would be a very hard sticking point. "I'm sorry I didn't call, but ....well, it's a little hectic around here when the boys are awake. Would - would you like to see them?"
Of course he wanted to see them, that was why he was there. But Gabi wasn't entirely sure if he had planned something to say to her first, or not.
There was plenty Ennis had wanted to say, intended to say, but in that moment he knew it was all for naught. He wouldn't try to force anything upon her, much less himself. But to see her eventually fall in love with another man would be devastating. He hung his head, then picked it up and lifted his chin. If this is what she wanted, then he'd give it to her, regardless of how painful it was. He put a smile on his face and nodded slowly. "I would love to be seein" da boys. What did y"name dem?" Ennis was proud of himself, keeping the conversation light and mostly impersonal.
Gabi's smile was the same as it had always been - a little shy, but mostly golden. Motherhood suited her, obviously. Offering to show him the way, she moved toward the stairs that led upward into the heart of Beecham House, almost silent in her slippers. "I hope you don't mind what I've been calling them," she said, feeling guilty that he hadn't been able to be a part of that decision. "They're family names, like we discussed - Theodore Cian, for one of my cousins who died a long time ago, and my brother; and Jacob Frank, for my other brother. They're already being called Theo and Jake around the house." She cast a warm smile over her shoulder, pushing open the door to her own bedroom, where a large Moses basket was set up beside the bed. The twin boys were asleep inside, close next to one another, still tiny but promising to grow in leaps and bounds over the coming months and years.
Of course, Ennis didn't mind what she called them. He had no right to mind as he had chosen to be absent in the first few weeks of the boys" lives. He followed, smiling when he was being smiled at. He remained silent as her slippers on the floor, rolling the twins" names around in his head. They were good, strong names and was glad that she'd chosen them. Once the door was opened, he peeked inside of the bedroom. He really couldn't see the contents of the basket very well, the coverlets were in the way. Feeling like an intruder, he tip-toed past Gabrielle. And until he reached the basket and gently tugged the coverlet down, he didn't realize that he'd been holding his breath.
His eyes widened in surprise at what he saw. The boys were laying prone, knees and hands touching, heads turned towards each other. One of them puckered his lips and sucked on his own tongue before returning to the peaceful state of slumber only a newborn would know. Reaching down, he barely touched one tiny cheek, then another. "Gabrielle," he whispered, not wanting to wake the sleeping infants, 'dey be white." He turned then and looked at Gabrielle in confusion.
She watched him move toward the basket, knowing exactly what his first comment would be, and hoping he wouldn't come to the automatic assumption that she'd been cheating on him. It was utterly preposterous that she would, given how nervous she still was of men in general, but she didn't seem to know Ennis" mind anymore. He didn't seem to trust her the way he had done once. "I know," she said softly, a little confusion on her own face. "I asked the doctor if I'd done something wrong, but he said that not all children with a black parent and a white parent are born black. It was a surprise to me, too."
The thought of Gabrielle cheating whilst they were in the midst of their whirlwind romance didn't even come to Ennis" mind. "I tink it be dis place. It be a magical place and we be lucky dey came out white and not purple wit yellow dots about dem." Turning back to the boys, he smiled warmly and reached to put his index finger into the palm of a tiny hand. The fingers curled and Ennis" smile grew. "Dis one has m"mudder's nose. Da poor ting. And dat one has m"forehead." He turned and looked at Gabrielle again, excitement lighting his eyes. "And dey has a whole lotta you in dem. Dey be lucky, lucky boys."
Her smile relaxed as he spoke, a very quiet giggle intruding on the natural stillness in the room at his comment on the wacky genetics of Rhy"Din. Moving to stand beside him, looking down at their sons, Gabi agreed with him as he pointed out what was alike and unalike about them both. "I want to show you something," she told him, leaning down to gently lift the elder - Theo - into her arms, stroking her finger down his cheek until the tiny boy stirred, smacking his lips and opening his eyes, newly turning brown from blue. "Look," Gabi murmured. "They have your eyes, Ennis. Both of them."
Ennis was curious as to what she had to show him. But the moment those eyes opened, gazing upon them both without focus, Ennis" breath hitched in his throat and he took an involuntary step back. His jaw was slack and he stared at the boy in utter amazement. He didn't see what Gabi saw. Of course, he could see his family's resemblance echoed in the baby's features, but the eyes were hers. Instinctively, he reached for the boy, wanting to hold him and make that connection. "You be wrong, Gabi. Dose be yer eyes." The heat of tears pricked at the back of his eyes and tightened his throat painfully. "I was so stupid, Gabi. Please be forgivin" me."