Topic: Driven

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2011-05-12 16:55 EST
Driven to the margin of error Driven to the edge of control Driven to the margin of terror Driven to the edge of a deep, dark hole —Driven, Test for Echo, Rush

"I can't believe you got on the hovercraft team." The tone in P'orth's voice was duplicated by the secondary vocal chords. It came out like the distant gong of a bell.

Lirssa couldn't help but chuckle a bit. She had felt her own measure of surprise at being selected alternate, but P'orth's reaction was the first that sounded like Lirssa had died. She put an arm around the girl's shoulders. "I'm just alternate, P'orth. It isn't like I'm the first ever."

They turned down a hallway with the other students funneling into the narrower corridor. The doors were open. Classes ready for the new semester. Ready for them, but Lirssa was not too sure she was ready for it. There was a lot more riding on this semester's grades than last.

A glance about the moving throng, Lirssa realized she was looking for Rillia. She missed the older student. Rillia had moved on to a university back on her homeworld. Lirssa felt alone at times, even when some of her friends were right there with her. Like P'orth who was giving her a double frown at the moment. "What?"

"Are you going to stand outside our classroom the entire period?"

With a roll of her eyes, Lirssa smiled and ushered P'orth in to the room. They had Draconion II together again. Lirssa did not much care to learn more of the language, but she needed more to meet the curriculum and P'orth had pleaded so much, that Lirssa gave in and signed up for the second half.

Walking into the room, she realized why her friend had begged so much. The looks tossed P'orth's way were just a touch about full out glares or brush-offs. It was still there, that same stupid prejudice. With all the different species in the school, it just made no sense why P'orth was picked on and snubbed more than others.

The looks traveled to her, when she sat at a desk right next to P'orth. She met them with a glare right back, daring them. Come on, she thought, just one of you dare say something. But none of them did. None of them spoke about P'orth anyway.

A girl named Penelope waved to Lirssa and even tossed a hesitant smile to P'orth, but she only spoke to Lirssa. "See you at practice this afternoon, right?"

That's right. Penelope was another of the hovercraft team. Lirssa smiled and nodded, "Yes, see you there."

"If you must chatter in my class, you are required to do so in Draconian." Professor Rubicon sighed as she sat on the edge of her desk. "If you cannot, I suggest silence so we may begin."

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2011-05-21 11:38 EST
The whole wide world, An endless universe Yet we keep looking through the eyeglass in reverse Don't feed the people, but we feed the machines Can't really feel what international means In different circles, we keep holding our ground In different circles, we keep spinning round and round -Territories, Power Windows, Rush

Lirssa sat curled over her tablet, watching Professor Nathans set down his satchel and sit on the edge of his desk. He liked to sit there, as if he were having a chat with friends. Lirssa had to admire his ability to bluff. He could sit there, smile at them, and then tell them, "This class is not easy. Most of you are going to hate it."

Those were the first words he had said to them. Now, he laced his fingers together and pulled on one knee. His smile said cotton, soft pillows. His words said hard brick and stone. "We are in the middle of an election season."

Lirssa felt the eyes of some of the nearest students glance to her. Even Professor Nathans cold black gaze looked her way. "An interesting election season as there has been the elements of assassination added to it."

It was entirely possible she might throw up in her messenger bag.

Professor Nathans, stood and started to pace. "But let us discuss one of the main points of each years campaign: slavery. Tell me, who has been keeping up with this year's elections?"

Lirssa looked around at a scattering of hands. Most of the students in that class were offworlders, with little concern for the goings on of Rhydin in their young lives. Lirssa raised her hand, and Professor Nathan's gaze fell on her again. "Yes, Lirssa, I would assume you have." There was a smattering of giggles. "So, tell me, what do you think of slavery?"

"Sir, well, we've talked about the different political systems we're going to discuss this year, we've started on our midterm projects—"

"Yes, which reminds me students, I want to see the plans for each of your projects beginning of next week. Apologies, Lirssa, please continue."

Lirssa twisted the stylus to her tablet about in her fingers. She did not want to contradict her mother or so many of her friends, but she also had questions. Questions she could not find answers for in her own head. "I don't have an answer for you, Professor. I mean, what do we call slavery' You talked about feudal systems and monarchies, and I mean, those folks do they have a choice to do what they do' Like the people that work the land they don't even own — are they slaves?"

"Yes, I should have anticipated a Rhydinian born and bred to wonder these things." Professor Nathans frowned, but Lirssa did not see anger in it. His frown had the mild curve of a man without an answer, very much as she felt. "So, you have no answer."

"No, sir. Just lots of questions."

"Good start. We will not always have the answers. In this class we are going to talk about many different political systems, and there are going to be questions each of you will have that we cannot answer. But that is the challenge, to at least know there are differences and to see if we cannot look past them to find common ground.

"Now, then in addition to your project outlines, I want an essay on one of the current candidates, your choice — though Lirssa it would be beneficial to your grade if you chose someone you did not know — and at least one thousand words. Remember, your grade in here is the primary weight for your attendance on the field trip to Isthras 5, but do not slack in your other classes. High marks in every class. No exceptions."

Lirssa did not need the reminder. The groans and sighs from her classmates proved they did not need the reminder either. It was her entire hope this semester, even beyond racing in a hovercraft match. She was going to be on that field trip even if she had to drive herself to the edge of reason.

"Right then, back to our friends, the tribal governments. Who can describe counting coup?"

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2011-05-29 19:06 EST
The snakes and arrows a child is heir to Are enough to leave a thousand cuts We build our defenses, a place of safety And leave the darker places unexplored

Sometimes the fortress is too strong Or the love is too weak What should have been our armor Becomes a sharp and angry sword

Our better natures seek elevation A refuge for the coming night No one gets to their heaven without a fight -Armor and Sword, Snakes and Arrows, Rush

"Hey, congrats to your mom," one of the upperclassmen, a boy named Rudy, smirked. It was a definite smirk, which meant it was a tease and not in earnest. Lirssa bit her thumb at him. He had no idea what it meant and continued on as if he had won, but she did it all the same. It was better than knocking him cross-eyed like she wanted.

Unfortunately, her Geometry professor knew exactly what the gesture meant. "Lirssa," she reproached softly, turning to step past and through the doorway.

With a puff of breath, Lirssa rolled her eyes and went inside the classroom. She took her usual seat at the back next to Robbie. "I heard Rudy say that. He's so stuck up. I wish you'd give him a good smashing. I think he needs it."

"You and me, both. But I can't just go fighting everyone. Well, I can, but that won't get me where I want to be. Maybe I'll get him later. When there aren't teachers around." Rudy did need to be handled. After the week before with P'orth, where Lirssa had gotten a warning for using such language at school, and now this. There was going to be more than words if he started anything with her again.

"Hey, Lirssa." Josh called from behind her. He was a full year younger than her, but most of the students in Geometry were. Some even younger than that.

Bracing herself for whatever might come, she turned around to face him. He was a freckle faced boy with hair that shot up at the back of his head like he had a constant current running through him. "Good race. I watched it. I can't believe you used the sensors that way!"

Lirssa did not know what to say. Just when it came to her to say, "Thanks!" Dr. Meyer started class.

Math of any sort was still her worst subject, and she got tutored in it weekly as well as help from her parents. It was another sort of fight with herself, and she battled in each class. But, as Dr. Amelia Meyer opened the supply closet and, much like Mary Poppins in that storybook, started to remove object after object, Lirssa knew it was going to be another exciting and interesting lesson.

"Right. Enough of the chatter. You can explore the physics and mechanics of last week's hovercraft tournament in the appropriate class. And as much as I appreciate the game myself, we are going to find out the accurate height and length of the docked spaceship you see out our window by knowing the length of this and the distance to the ship." She picked up a thin wire out of the pile of things she had collected on her desk. It was no more than ten centimeters. All of the class mirrored Lirssa's lean to look out the window and up at the docked ship.

Dr. Meyer smiled. She had something magical about her, Lirssa was certain. "Let's begin."

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2011-06-11 14:58 EST
Suddenly, you were gone From all the lives you left your mark upon ... We ran by the water on the wet summer lawn I see the footprints I remember ... Tried to believe but you know it's no good This is something that just can't be understood —Afterimage, Grace Under Pressure, Rush

The canopy of leaves whispered their conversations over the heads of the students at lunch. A bright noon sun drew a hot, blinding circle in the middle of the arboreal lunch room. Most of the students had chosen seats and tables in the shade of the plants twining their way along the beams above. Lirssa found her group of friends at the edge of the sunlight, just a step away from its brightness.

They were quiet in their exchanges. Smiles seemed small. Lirssa took her seat next to Robbie, opening her lunch bag to pull out the items Fio had packed for her. "What's the shake?"

At Robbie's shrug and glance around, Lirssa saw the others share an uncomfortable glance. Troy was the first to speak up. "Dance is coming up. We were just talking about Tabbie."

"Oh." Lirssa knew how they felt. Tabitha had been so excited for the dance. It had been the topic of lunch conversation for weeks. Lirssa had not listened to most of it. Since that day Tabitha was killed, Lirssa still had not thought much on it.

There were other things to distract her, and she used them. Hovercraft team helped as did the mind-boggling geometry. She worked herself hard at school, she worked herself at home, she worked herself on weekends. She did not want to think about how Tabitha was never going to go to that dance. Her dreams of being ambassador for her people demolished, obliterated like so much else on that street.

Lirssa shook her head. It was not enough. It was never going to be enough. Death happened at anytime, and she was not going to go without living her life as much as she could. "You all are still going to the dance, yeah?"

A few nodded, and a few more shrugs. "No, you have to go. Tabitha isn't going to get to. She sure wouldn't want us not going because of it. Besides, the more of us that go, the more it's like she's with us there."

And more of them meant P'orth, too. Lirssa looked around the lunch area. P'orth still did not sit with anyone else, not even walked by now that Tabitha was gone. She was, as customary, sitting off away from everyone. The students coming and going past her. She looked pale, both sets of lips a little pinker than before.

Lirssa would meet up with her later and make sure she was going to the dance. Turning back to her lunch, she started on the croissant and tried to turn the conversation. "Hey, Penelope showed me some of the latest mock-ups of the next space hoppers her mother's company is building. They're looking —"

What had started as just a rising pitch of noise behind her turned into a full out. "Leave me alone!" Double bass and shrieking soprano. Lirssa turned around in unison with her other table mates to see P'orth facing off against Rudy and his trio once more.

"Come on." She growled. There was no reason to expect them to do so. She wasn't their leader. They had banded together out of mutual interests, but even among them there was disagreement about P'orth. Maybe it was her voice or the way she did not even look back for them, but she felt and heard them walking at her side and behind her as she approached the taller Rudy.

Teachers would be coming soon, she knew. If she was going to stop this, she had to act fast. There was no great big plan in her head, just a hand into a fist and anger driving her on. "That's enough, Rudy. P'orth doesn't bother you, so you can stop bothering her — ever."

Rudy did look a little nervous. His eyes moving from one to the other. "Look, squint, the lady you live with may be governor, but that doesn't make you anything here. Stay out of what isn't your business."

"My mother being governor has nothing to do with this. P'orth is my friend, and you are an obnoxious, overbearing, and rude scaredy-cat. Betcha only pick on her to make yourself feel oh so grand, don't ya" Well, it doesn't. It makes you a loser."

She had gone just far enough to get him angry, and he threw the punch. A dodge and she was on him. The scuffle broke out, with the younger classmen climbing all over the other three. They left Rudy to Lirssa.

His hands were like vices, griping at her arms, trying to pull her off him, but she just wrapped her arm around his neck even tighter. Then he began to punch. Throwing his head back, she caught it on her eye ridge just as she was trying to duck her head. That sent her senses whirling but she clung on.

"Lulu, let go!"

It was coach. She let go, and Rudy dropped to his knees, pitching forward to rest his forehead on the ground. Something wet was dripping into the corner of her eye and she looked around at the others all lined up between two other teachers and coach looming over her. The face that got her attention the most was P'orth's. Tears were in her eyes, but she was smiling a double smile.

"Lirssa," Coach said with a sigh, his hand to her shoulder. "Come with me."

It was the look on his face, the fact that only she was pulled away, that told her all she needed to know. She was in trouble.

A hand settled on her other shoulder, and Lirssa blinked over to see P'orth there. "P'orth, Lirssa has to come see the Head Master."

"Not without me, please."

Coach looked to Lirssa. His frown though was aimed at her brow. "Maybe a stop by the health aide station first." A tentative swipe at her brow brought a new sting to her head. Drawing her hand away, she saw the blood.

"Is Rudy going to be okay?" She asked coach, trying to look back. There was nothing to see as they turned down a corridor.

"He will be fine. Somebody taught you a very effective choke hold."

Lirssa had to smile. She was pretty sure her parents would not be pleased with where she had applied the lessons of self defense they had taught her.

She looked back up to P'orth, and she was still smiling, too. "What?"

"I was just thinking how Tabitha would be really proud of you. Thank you, Lirssa."

Tabitha. Tabitha would have found a way to talk the situation down. Lirssa looked down at her hands. Her temper had gotten the better of her. And yet, she had to grin, too, thinking Tabitha in this one matter might have agreed.

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2011-06-20 16:52 EST
Like the rat in a maze who says 'Watch me choose my own direction' Are you under the illusion The path is winding your way" Are you surprised by confusion When it leads you astray" Have you lived a lifetime today... Or do you feel like you just got carried away" -Stars Look Down, Vapor Trails, Rush

"Wow," Robbie breathed out in awe. "My parents would have grounded me for sure!"

Lirssa shrugged. It wasn't that her parents disagreed with the school. Lirssa had, in fact, broken a school rule. They did, however, understand her reason. They understood her in that moment, and knew the punishment the school had meted out was paining her. That they had a good chuckle at pretending they were angry with her and watching her squirm had been a convincing deterrent as well. Lirssa did not want to be in that position for real.

Though, if she was honest with herself, she probably would be. More than once.

It was not that she intended to be naughty, but her temper still got the better of her at times. "They did tell me they thought I could have handled it better." Which, on hindsight, was true. Of course, a lot of what was obvious came to her looking back on it.

Rather like the Multidimensional Architectural Manipulation II problems she was tackling in class. Robbie shared class with her again, for which Lirssa said a few prayers to Bast and a couple of other deities — covering her bases.

She did hope they were not listening now, while she muttered curses at the holographic diagram slowly spinning above the desk shared with Robbie. The younger girl giggled, heat creeping up in her cheeks. "Shh, Lirssa."

"I didn't know I was that loud."

"The diagram is multiplying your sound. See here." She took her stylus and pointed at a series of pathways altering swiftly before their eyes.

"Well then," Lirssa scowled at the diagram and she pushed the button to set it spinning faster.

"What are you doing?" Robbie's eyes grew wider.

"I'm tired of following directions and getting nowhere. Let's see what this does." Then she hit the stop button, jolting the diagram to a halt.

The pathways, lines of conduits between process cases, filtered through rainbow colors before dispersing into their uniform blues, purples, silvers, and yellows. A slow tilt of her head. She saw Robbie's head mirror hers. "That," she grinned, "did not work. But it was cool."

"Never know until you try, right?" Lirssa laughed and then sighed, poking at the diagram and going back to following the rules.