Topic: Hypothermic Lullabye

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2009-11-13 23:41 EST
The sun was risen and threatening to drive the clouds away by the time Ali reached the north gate. His heart was pounding, but his breathing had settled back down. He was not even sweating. There were hints and intimations of strangeness trailing in his wake"chimneys spouting flames, perfectly sane shopkeepers speaking in tongues, a magewoman suddenly screaming as if she'd been stabbed"but it wasn't anything he'd had time to think about. Not now. There was only the girl in his arms, and the gate looming ahead. It was north by northwest to the Priestess's Abbey. If Fio was not there waiting, he'd run the whole way if he had to. While he was running to the gate, the drow, Treemma, was running to the apartment and Fio. Afterward, there was the small matter of gathering supplies, dressing, and getting from WestEnd to the gate. The day had that watery, thin quality to it that promised cold and damp; Fio, she barely noticed it as she tore through the streets, crossing the Westbridge. The spellbox on the bike was a quiet thing, but loud enough to scatter what pedestrians and carts there were out already. It was a confounding thing, the lack of anything to verify it, but knowing you are you; step and listen for the pattering pulse; were you going the right way' Was there a right way' There was nothing to see. It was like being caught between dream and waking; the dream still there but only the back of your eyelids to see and you can't open them; more pattering pulses over...there in the emptiness. He pounded up to the gate and paused, sucking in lungs full of air, panting it out in utter nonsense, gibberish, snatches of endearments in three different languages, all of it directed at the unmoving Lirssa. The headlights warned him of Fio's approach, before the noise. The beam of the motorcycle's lights cut up over the rise of the hill like the debut of a new play in the theater district, and there she was. "Come on, ma petite "toile, s"jour ici..." He looked up as the ambient light brightened, and then bolted toward the sidecar. He was in it, shoving aside the pile of blankets and first aid kits, almost before Fio had time to stop. "Look, bien-aim"e, I know this doesn't make any sense. But go through the gate, follow the track, and listen for the sound of the wind in cedar trees." How he expected her to hear them over the motorcycle's spellbox, he did not explain. He cradled the girl in close against him, stroking down her lank hair. "Wind in cedar trees...just tell me when we're close." Fio was off as soon as he was settled, swerving to get through the gate at the right angle. The trail was choppy"it was not a proper road"but navigable. It was a surprisingly short ride. Then there was the stone wall clutched by roses cut back for the winter. He touched Fio's arm and pointed toward a wrought-iron gate that was big enough to fit the bike and sidecar. She cut her chin up in a nod and slowed, pulling in through the gate, past the wall with its thorny dependents. Hardwood trees, naked and proud, stood with their bare branches towards the waking dawn in reverent silence. But the pines and the cedars traded gossip in the whisper, whisper of their needles, passing news along the wind like an airborne herald. The gate stood open, the lamp in the courtyard just flickering out for a day's sleep as the sun crept up the horizon, barely clearing the walls. Digging up a triangle vegetable patch was the Priestess, her hands dirt-black as she began to slowly stand. To a Grecian mind the sound of their approach might have represented the roar of the sea, the Kraken rising from the depths; or perhaps a Hydra, one monster, with at least three heads. To a Roman, perhaps it was the shouts and united oar strokes of the Viking marauders, set to pillage some Celtic settlement. "Kyrie!" Ali called on sight of her, and clambered out of the sidecar. Fio cut the spellbox, sliding a hand up to splay through her hair and push it out of her face. Swinging a leg over the motorcycle, she dismounted and set the kickstand. The last of the light from the lamp winked out. In the thin dawn, the Priestess stood statue still. Even silk was silent as the motored monster drew up and separated into human parts. Partly human, that was. "Ali." Chilled palms wiped the dirt free, leaving dark streaks down her skirt. The snake of a braid hissed as she broke the spell of her stillness and approached the horseless chariot. In the outer world, Lirssa's flesh was stiff and waxy, like cool creek clay. There was dirt upon that cheek and across overly large clothes. The stoic, slow pulse of a heart worked with blood thickened by cold; the proximity of a heat source started its effect by sliced degrees. He'd gotten his breath back, and was explaining to her, to his wife, to himself. "I found her lying in the city cemetery this morning...I have no idea how long she was there. I think hypothermia and something else?I don't know what, but I was going to put some life into her. As I did with the roses." He'd laid his hands on the roses out by the Abbey's wall, one evening, and thrust his life into them; and they'd burst into bloom, a hundred new buds exploding all at once into joyous fertility. "And just touching her that way stung my hands." He loosened his hold on the girl enough to reveal her face, so cold and still. Fio sent him a sharp look at that, but held her tongue. And then she got a good look. "Lirssa...not Lisa," she whispered. She knew the girl, by sight if nothing else. "So we brought her here." There was a naked appeal in his yellow-green eyes; he was not a prince of anything, right then, as Kyrie had teasingly named him. He was just a man, worried about a little girl. The pulses grew fainter. Maybe she had lost the pattern. Nothing stayed for long. Thoughts came and went, slipping through incorporeal fingers. Maybe she was dead. It was a rather sad thought that this was what dead was like. She didn't like it. ((adapted from live play with Ali al Amat, Fio Helston, Kyrie Elision))

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2009-11-13 23:50 EST
"Brin' 'er inside." Kyrie gathered the things she brought with her while Ali carried the child. That lilting alto, usually so soft, whip-cracked over the dips and valleys of vowels and consonants, punctuated by the tisk, whisk of silk as she lead the way to the library tower at a brisk pace. He limped toward the Abbey, cradling the girl"Lirssa, that was right, where had he got Lisa from?"a little closer as if the fever-heat of his body alone could return her to health. Fio ran a few steps to catch up, then kept pace just behind him. At her approach he muttered, "I'd rather have had you see it all under different circumstances, but this is where I go, Fio, to learn." "Lots of time for that later," she murmured in return, her eyes flicking over the child again. There was still a pulse; she could hear it, but faintly, like the wingbeat of a sparrow. Lirssa might be Raven's age, she thought. The heavy oak door opened before the push of Kyrie's palm, yawning wide on a room lined ceiling to floor with books. The library had an ancient comfort to it, the old pages and timeless herbs. Dawn spilled red through a filter of stained glass high on the eastern wall. Well-banked coals roared to life as a fresh log was thrown onto the fire. Metal groaned as she dragged a tub nearer to the hearth. Following the Priestess inside, he paused. "Do you want me to grab a bucket, or stay with her?" He felt again the brief, weird pulses of energy against his palm as he chafed a hand over the back of Lirssa's neck. The kettle whose home was never far from the fire was taken from the hook, its contents sacrificed into what would soon be a warm bath. Other buckets soon added their echoed cascade of water. "Stay with 'er. Feed 'er yer warmth." He nudged a chair out at the table, making sure Ian hadn't left any surprises in it for him, and slid down into it. Lirssa settled into his lap. He went on talking to her, head bent and cheek pressed against hers, arms slowly shifting position about her from one so-cold spot to another. As her body gleaned heat from his, the surface warmed, but the core sucked in the residual cold inside; her insides actually grew a little colder. "I can carry water." There was no rush about Fio's movements, but she set the things she brought on a clear spot at the table, and went to help with what was needful. Kyrie colored the air in scents of yellow and summer, opening jars she kept on the mantle and dumping them into the bath. Priceless seasons of labor richened the air. "Thank ye." She picked up an emptied bucket and passed it to Fio. "Th'well is diagonal across th'yard." It would be a one of eight, the straight line path, paved in stones and marked with the lamp at the center. Pretty geometry divided her garden plots'something to be admired under different circumstances. Pulses brightened again; strong eager pulses and she could not follow them. She urged what bit of herself was Herself towards it, though it was like swimming against a current. Fio was Jill, with pail after pail of water, silent and efficient and drawing into a worried knot each time she passed Ali and the girl, each time she strained to hear those wings of a heartbeat fluttering. "Ali, tell me wha' ye know o' 'er." Kyrie spoke through a pall of steam rising as another kettle-worth of warm water was added to the bath. Fio was worth her weight in gold. "She's a friend of Lucien's. She's underweight. I think, but don't know, that she lives on the streets. Every time I've seen her in the inn, she's been drinking juice or chewing on a piece of bread. Never has really clean clothes on." He thought for a moment, and added, "Proud. I've got the impression she's very proud." Fio was the sorcerer's apprentice, leading in bucketfuls of water. "She works in the inn, sometimes. Doing dishes or mopping, for coin," she added. "An' as y'hold 'er, wha' do ye feel?" The fight to get to Where instead of Nowhere drew up another memory: the fight to keep her place. She was out of Place. That was something that stayed"to find her place. His eyes drifted closed. "Better. Stronger. More alive. These little waves of good health...if that makes any sense whatever." Another kettle-full of hot water cascaded into the tub with a curdle of steam. "Thank ye. We've 'nough water now." Kyrie told Fio before she asked Ali, "Tell me wha' color it is." "Welcome..." Fio set the empty pail against the wall there, and joined it to watch the other occupants of the room: one light, many lamps, but some brighter than others. He frowned, eyes still closed, and eventually responded with "...red. Like blood, or your roses. Deep red." Since he was thinking about it, he added, "It reminds me of what it felt like to undo the spell on the golems and take their energy into me." The Priestess picked up a box from the mantle and upended it over the bath, Red rained down in a hundred pruned petals onto the surface of the water. "Please lower 'er in, bu' keep contact wit' 'er...? Dark eyes studied the ebb and flow of the tides between them, how the currents had led them here, to this tiny northern tidepool. He opened his eyes, blinking once as if rousing himself from reverie. Then he rose and limped over to the bath. It was awkward to bend and lower her in at the same time, but he managed it. The little girl was eased into the water, clothes and all. Blood vessels once contracted in the extremities to keep blood flowing to core organs suddenly opened up all at once from the warmth. Blood pressure of that slow moving liquid dropped, as the blood expanded out further than it could before. The heart didn't know what to do, and began to spasm.

((adapted from live play with Ali al Amat, Fio Helston, Kyrie Elision))

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2009-11-14 00:02 EST
Fio pressed her knuckles above her breastbone and rubbed like she was the one having palpitations. Her eyes didn't veer away from the child for a second, and her nostrils flared as she tried to pick out scents. Her lips were pressed tight. It hurt. But she didn't move. Softly, Kyrie spoke, "Ali. Did I ever tell ye th'story o' 'ow m'air turned white?" The Priestess reached into the water, settling one chilled palm against the girl's chest, the other on Ali's forearm. "No." To Ali the water wasn't that warm, only tepid at best. His voice was tight; he fought the urge to pull Lirssa back out of the water and start chest compressions. Kyrie knows what she's doing, he told himself. She knows what she's doing. "Tell me." His skin was afire under her cool hand. He glanced at her, up at Fio, back again. It was a tidal flow of pulses and she was a leaf upon that ocean, bobbing about, but she knew direction now. There had a direction. They created a closed circuit, hand to heart, hand to arm, hand to hand. Water, their universal solvent, was their conductor. The cold skin over the girl's heart seemed to bleed a chill and steal the excess warmth even as Ali gave it. "Fio, would ye sing?" Kyrie asked. Sing" That had Fio blinking. She scrambled to come up with something, anything. She was a classical cellist! But all she could come up with was the lullaby she'd sung to Sal, the one she used to sing to her babies. "Sleep, my child and peace attend thee, all through the night?" she started out hesitantly. "Guardian angels, God will send thee, all through the night...Soft, the drowsy hours are creeping. Hill and vale, in slumber sleeping. I, my loving vigil keeping, all through the night." The body responded: the heart stopped then steadied. A beat...a pause that without counting would seem vast as a tundra"another beat. It plodded along, determined as a tortoise. Kyrie whispered, "White is th'color o' pain. I tried ta take it from a dyin' man, withou' a place ta put it." As Ali's contact and the lukewarm water added heat to the girl, the Priestess continued to take, siphoning the highs and the lows; bleeding the deep cold from the bones and leaching the spiked heat from excited vessels. One of Ali's arms under Lirssa supported her. The other, that Kyrie's cold hand was touching, balanced her with a grip on her shoulder. He thought about that; thought about all the million hurts his regenerative body had endured over the course of his nearly forty-two years, about the way pain was like a snowstorm when one closed one's eyes into it. "White," he murmured aloud, quietly so as not to disturb the rhythm of Fio's voice, "is exactly the right color." You did the right thing, he thought, and shut his glimmering eyes against a wave of relief. Fio's voice was thready, soft, but grew surer. "While the moon, her watch is keeping, all through the night. While the weary world is sleeping, all through the night..." A lullaby, to calm the cadence of a frantic heart. An ancient medicine, to balance a modern science. There was something eerily peaceful about the moment, as if the two women conspired to take Ali's controlled panic away from him as well. His own breathing came slower, deeper. He was silent, watching the girl's so-pale face, praying for a bloom of color. ?"O'er thy spirit gently stealing, visions of delight revealing, breathes a pure and holy feeling all through the night..." The heady pulses subdued into a stream. Light trickle like path marking breadcrumbs. Lirssa followed them. Danced across them and there was the Step...it was near. She could not step into it. Something was in the way. She pushed but could not get by. Warmth in, cool out, the pace shepherded under confident guardians, the body responded in a climb of degrees. And maybe this last part was for Ali. Who knew" "Love to thee, my thoughts are turning, all through the night. All for thee, my heart is yearning, all through the night...." Fio's voice broke once, and she turned her head before she continued. "Though sad fate our lives may sever, parting will not last forever. There's a hope that leaves me never, all through the night." She started in again from the beginning, looping the sentimental folksong through an endless track of memories that broke her heart again and again. Whoever said that lullabies were for children" Never the Priestess, who always had one foot in sea, one on shore. The lull of the song kept her own heart steady, for how it longed to match the undertow of the heart under her palm. Ebb and flow. Take and give. Cold taken. Warmth given. Warmth taken. Cold taken. Back and forth. Back and forth. They made their own tide for the blood temperature to follow, to ease the organs from their hypothermic hibernation. A lullaby for a waking heart. He was murmuring again, an undercurrent of sound to match the tidal shifts of Kyrie's giving and taking, supporting the girl's face above water. His shirt was soaked through, the white stained red as shed heart's blood by whatever the Priestess added to the water. He hadn't noticed. The lips gave up their pale blue hue, the sallow cheeks remained but shed their pall of gray; fingertips pushed a blush of pink beneath short and unkempt nails, the flesh responded to pressure, supple again.

Lirssa pushed again. Pushed to gain that Step. Her heart found its rhythm, peaceful slumber, impulse turned the head on a weakened pivot. The neck muscles were contrary to the impulse of reawakened nerves of her skin. The skin's desires won out, and her cheek nestled upon the arm that supported her. A couple of the choruses she fudged through, not trusting herself or the ambient magic in the room not to make a surety of the parting in some. Lu-lu-lues worked just as well. She could be Raven's age, she thought again, as she watched the pain of rebirth give way to rest. Ali sighed out a breath he had not known he was holding, and looked up at Kyrie. Knelt beside him with her head bent, temple resting against the edge of the tub, she looked back at him, sideways, as the cardiac rhythm steadied in perfect time with his sigh. Perhaps it was a trick of the flickering firelight and the rose petals floating in the water, but those eyes always so dark seemed lighter, as if the sun set behind them. "See" This was more fun," he rasped at her, "than sitting about listening to me rant." And he looked a question at Fio, though he was sure he already knew the answer. Fio tipped her head toward the child in the water in response to his question: he had the answer in his arms. He'd been braced in an awkward half-crouch all this time; at her wordless response, he finally sank down onto his knees. Kyrie had not yet lifted her hand off the girl's chest, feeling the rhythm of sleep steady under her palm. How loudly it roared in her ears after the thin silence of the cold. Softly, she spoke, "Thank ye fer singin', Fio. Ye saved 'er life." Fio, not sure what to make of Kyrie's assertion, met it first with a startled silence, and then an abashed murmur. "It was just a song??

((adapted from live play with Ali al Amat, Fio Helston, Kyrie Elision))