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Stopping to Smell the Roses
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" Stretching his hand up to reach the stars, too often man forgets the flowers at his feet." - Jeremy Bentham
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I had been lost for awhile.
I went on with my normal tasks of planning, paperwork, census reports, and other insignificant things on behalf of Bristle Crios. At one time, I loved it. I loved organizing everything to how many guests we had to how many bottles of olive oil was in each house's main kitchen. But lately, my heart had been restless. I tried to involve myself in different things to find a new interest. Today, I thought to try flower arranging. I had heard it was a peaceful way to organize one's thoughts while organizing the visual appeal of the blooms.
I meandered around the various gardens located by Eternal House. I had taken my residence there for awhile now. Kristoph and I moved from my room in Demon House to his in Eternal. I thought that change would be enough to sustain me, but I found myself out in nature searching for something more. I began with a few white lilies nearby then made my way to the gardenias, as they were a staple in the pieces I wanted to create. I wanted to enhance the beauty and the aroma in each of the rooms the flowers were to be displayed.
I wanted to compliment the golds, deep reds, and dark woods in the house, so I picked up some maroon red dahlias. Layer after layer of petals bloomed outwards in a seemingly infinite spiral. I wondered if there was some deeper meaning there, but I chose to ignore what seemed like a metaphor for my endless spiral into a meaningless existence. Instead, I focused on its natural beauty and the wonders of nature. As I walked along a path, deep red roses jumped out at me. I selected a few, hoping they would give an elegant velvet feel to the arrangements. Visual, olfactory, and now tactile stimulation, just with flowers. What other senses where left' Sound and taste. I'm sure I could find edible flowers, maybe berries for pops of color. Maybe I could add in a few leafy plants that could rustle against the blooms creating a soft sound"
No. I was doing it again. I made everything so analytical. I had to organize everything. Why couldn't I just pick flowers that seemed beautiful, that could make me happy' I had to go and make a whole project out of it, making each flower fit some function. I should be taking a cue from the flowers I was holding. Even if no one came along, the flowers would still bloom. The plants gave all they had to produce beautiful blossoms for no greater purpose than because it was content to do so.
I looked around to find the most amusing outlandish flower and soon found an orange tulip creation with numerous, large, wavy petals. I questioned using orange with the reds and whites, but I told myself to relax, and just create. I wanted one more variety and was relieved to find some deep orange orchids. Their white centers contained a little hint of dark red. I was so ecstatic to find one to tie all my colors together, unifying the flowers in the arrangement. Content in my choices, I made my way back to Eternal House. I stopped for a moment as I came out of the garden, looking at the full bundle of blooms in my arms. I did it again. They looked well thought out in their pairings, perfectly over organized. Flower arranging was not going to help me find my inner peace.
I looked up and saw a new guest, a girl with a white mare. I sighed and smiled. My mind began racing of all the things I would need to do. I would give her a tour, same way I had done countless times before, all going along in a methodical route, explaining important aspects of the community and the grounds along the way. I would see if she needed a place to stay for the night and get her set up in a clean room with fresh supplies. I sighed, knowing I could not escape my inner conflicts, at least not today. How in the world would I be able to promote this place as a safe haven for her to stay when I was the one who needed to get away from my own issues" I was just as lost.
As always, I maintained my smile. "Hello, traveler."
References "Drawn Through the Wind": http://rdi.dragonsmark.com/forums/viewtopic.php?t=27441
Art Credit: http://glamz.deviantart.com/art/Secret-Garden-175874247