Topic: Ten'oio

Carina Cox

Date: 2015-10-08 12:55 EST
((Follows on from Empty Chairs.))

Saturday, 25th September, 2015

There was a peculiar quality to the light when dusk fell on Rhy'Din, especially in the turning seasons. It gained a silvery quality, offering brightness amidst the gathering dark, the last rays of the sun giving way to the moons already high above. Dusk and dawn were sacred times to the race Carina's father hailed from, and it was because of that belief that he had gathered his wife, his daughter, her beloved, and their friends beneath the crisp boughs of his own garden. Amara Cox had been preparing for this moment for months, even going so far as to have robes prepared for the young couple to wear. Golden rings engraved with words of love in Arandir's own dialect were set safely aside. The garden itself was lit with glittering lamps, casting their own golden hue over the tiny gathering as Raniel smiled at them all.

"We gather in this blessed place to celebrate the joining of two beloved souls. We welcome you, Arandir and Carina, with joy and love. May the blessings of the god shine down upon you, this day and all days."

The faces of those gathered there were as lit with warmth and happiness as the golden glow of the lamplight. Carina was radiant beside Aran, hands clasped together, their eyes shining with love and adoration as they stood together beneath the boughs in the garden. Even Josh and Dru's faces were shining with gladness for the young couple, honored as they were to witness the joining of those two beloved souls.

Raniel smiled at the two lovers, opening his hands to invite them close to him. Taking their hands, he closed their palms about the soulstone that hung about Arandir's neck, including the young male's own kin in the ceremony that was taking place. "Repeat after me ...."

Amara stood nearby, beaming with happiness at the joining of her daughter and the young man she had chosen to share her life. The soulstone thrummed with life as the young couple closed their hands around it, as if it was a living thing, warm and thrumming with life. There was magic in that stone connecting Aran and now Carina to his people, as though they were there to witness if only in spirit.

Aran met Carina's gaze, his voice soft as he repeated the words that would bind them together. "In the name of the Gods, I take thee to my hand, heart, and my spirit, at the setting of the sun, and the rising of the stars. Nor shall death part us, for in the fullness of time, we shall be born again, at the same time, and in the same place as each other, and we shall love again." They were sweet words, spoken with a heart full of love and devotion.

Dru bit her lip. The simplicity of the ritual was truly beautiful, a far cry from the complex traditions that had ruled her own wedding day. She stood close beside Josh, her arm wrapped around his back, utterly enthralled by another race's ceremony.

Looking up at Aran, Carina's hands gently tightened about his, nothing but soft adoration in her gaze as she, too, repeated the words that bound them together before their chosen witnesses. "In the name of the Gods, I take thee to my hand, heart, and my spirit, at the setting of the sun, and the rising of the stars. Nor shall death part us, for in the fullness of time, we shall be born again, at the same time, and in the same place as each other, and we shall love again." It was more than simple words, parroted back. She meant every nuance, promising Aran with every fiber of her being that even when this life ended, she would be there when the next began.

Despite the facial tattoos that made him seem so very fierce, there was a gentleness in Raniel as he reached for their hands, placing in each palm the engraved rings he had commissioned months before in preparation for the day when he would gain a son. "As the grass of the fields and the trees of the woods bend together under the pressures of the storm, so too must you both bend when the wind blows strong. But know that as quickly as the storm comes, so equally quickly may it leave. As you both stand strong in each other's strength, so shall you receive strength. Together you are one; apart you are nothing."

Josh, too, found the ceremony beautiful in its simplicity. The words were heartfelt and poetic, the love shared between the couple was plain for anyone to see. How had he not seen it before" He smiled at Dru, echoing those words in his heart and his head, even as Aran and Carina exchanged vows.

Aran reached for Carina's hand and drew the smaller of the two rings upon her finger, face flushed with color, his voice trembling with emotion as he spoke the words that were in his heart. "Carina, melamin, my heart is your heart, my love your love, my soul your soul. I bind my life to yours openly and willingly with an open heart and mind so that our souls be linked forevermore. I shall love and cherish you all the days of my life, and when my life is no more, I shall love you even more after death, so long as the stars shine in the heavens above. I am yours and you are mine, from this day forward until the end of time."

What could she possibly say that would add to the promises they had already made to one another? It was not often that Carina was lost for words, but the beauty of Aran's oath was more than enough to chase all the prose from her mind. As she settled the larger of the two rings at his knuckle, she squeezed his hand, her green eyes sparkling with happy, unshed tears. "Amin mela lle, a'maelamin," she promised him in a fervent tone, knowing that the words spoken in the elven tongue they shared meant more, somehow. I love you, my beloved. It was all that truly needed to be said.

Raniel nodded, laying his hands on their shoulders as he spoke once more. "Let the sun, and the moon, and the stars, and these, our brothers and sisters, bear witness that Arandir and Carina have been joined together in the sight of the Gods. May the Gods bless them, as we do ourselves, and so shall the two be joined as one mind, and one heart together in peace and love through the joining of their souls now and forever."

Forever was a long time - even longer for elves, even those who were of mixed blood - and yet, Aran loved her so much, forever seemed hardly long enough. "Amin mela lle, a'maelamin," he echoed in a soft, but equally fervent tone. He wasn't quite sure what was expected of him once Raniel had finished asking for the Gods' blessing, and so he only stood opposite Carina, tears of happiness sparkling in his eyes of blue, like stars in the night sky.

Time stretched out before them, an eternity together even after death, and all Carina could see was Aran, filling her vision, her future, her heart. Until a delicate little cough drew her out of her rapt contemplation of her husband's face.

"I think this is the point where you kiss the bride, Aran," Dru offered with a warm grin, hugging Josh tight about the waist. "Just to make it completely official."

Amara was grinning widely, practically beside herself with happiness and dabbing at tears of her own to know that her daughter had at last joined hearts with the man she loved and who had become like a son to both her and her husband.

"Oh!" Aran exclaimed, blushing further and looking to Raniel and Amara as if for permission, even though Carina was now his wife and he was her husband.

With a chuckle that belied his fierce appearance, Raniel reached out to tug his own mate into his arms. "I think, lonneg, if you do not kiss her, she will take matters into her own hands," he warned Aran warmly. "Like mother, like daughter."

"Adar," Carina protested laughingly herself, blushing as she leaned into her newly bound mate.

Aran was about to ask Carina for permission, when he found her leaning into him, and he took her in his arms and pressed his lips to hers - the first kiss shared as husband and wife. It was a soft kiss, a tender kiss, a kiss full of all the love he was feeling.

Carina Cox

Date: 2015-10-08 12:56 EST
Josh found himself wanting to cheer the newly-wedded couple, but instead, he turned to his own bride and touched a kiss to her lips to remind her of their own wedding day in the not so distant past.

Dru's own cheer was lost in the kiss her husband bestowed on her, transported back to their wedding day amid the hustle and bustle of Itana and the crowds of people who had been cheering them on as they made their own vows. Despite how very different this ceremony was, it was no less binding, no less beautiful, and she felt privileged to have been included.

Carina curled her arms about Aran's waist as he kissed her, pouring her heart into that tender touch. To think, they had only met a little over a year before, and now they were bound not just for life, but for eternity. It was a heady feeling, one that had her giggling as she drew back from her husband. "We did it, melamin."

Aran circled Carina in his embrace and touched his forehead to hers, a warm smile on his face, blue eyes shining with happy tears. "My heart belongs to you for always, melamin," he told her softly, before echoing her laughter, his heart lighter than it had ever been. It was no exaggeration to say this was the happiest day of his life, and his face shone brightly with happiness.

"Just remember," her father cut in with a startlingly mischievous look in his eyes. "No consummation on the grass under the stars unless you are absolutely certain you want a child." His smile might almost have been innocent, but for that glint, too.

Dru blinked, looking surprised as she glanced between Josh and the older couple. "What does that mean?" she asked, torn between amusement and confusion.

Carina rolled her eyes, just about stifling a groan as she blushed crimson. "Elves are close to nature," she muttered, just loud enough to hear. "And we're both half-elf."

That brought a fresh blush to Aran's face, though he was still smiling. He made no comment regarding a child. Though he wanted a family someday, they were still young and had plenty of time.

Amara linked her arm with her husband's, now that he was finished with officiating the ceremony and touched a kiss to his lips, distracting him if only momentarily from the newlyweds.

Josh arched a brow at Carina. He'd known there was something different about them, but he hadn't really thought much about it until he'd seen her father. He'd seen enough elves in Rhy'Din to know that elven blood ran strong in Raniel's blood. It explained a lot, but it didn't explain why her parents had only had one child, or so he assumed.

"I am not of this world," Aran explained. "But my mother was an elf, and my father was a man."

Josh caught the word was and frowned, catching the past tense of it.

"You are a part of our family now, lonneg," Raniel reminded Arandir, subdued by his wife's affection away from the urge to tease the newly-wedded pair. "A family that includes friends as well, I see," he added, nodding to Dru and Josh. "I believe there was some talk of dinner, Amara?" He raised his brows to his wife above a teasing smile.

Dru giggled softly, letting the comments on elf-dom pass her by. "Is there anything we can help with, Mrs. Cox?" she offered. "Or perhaps you would let us pay for a meal to be delivered?"

Aran smiled back at the elf who was his wife's father. "And I am honored to be so, adar," he replied with a respectful nod of his head. It was the first time he had ever called the man "father", but it would surely not be the last. Despite the loss of his own loved ones, he was glad to be part of Carina's family.

"Heavens, no!" Amara told Dru with a laugh. "I cheated," she told her with a wink and a conspiratorial whisper. While she might not be an elf or possess any magic, she had learned a trick or two over the years. The trick tonight was called "catering".

As Dru dissolved into giggles at the conspiratorial whisper, Carina turned to her father. "Thank you, adar," she told him softly, embracing him the way she had since she was a small child. It wasn't simply a thank you for performing the ceremony, but thanks for allowing them to make the decision to join themselves together in this way, thanks for supporting them over the year, and deep thanks for accepting Arandir as one of them.

Raniel enveloped her in his arms, kissing the top of her head. "Be happy, little bird," he murmured to her, casting a smile to Arandir. "Keep him happy, too."

"Welcome to the family, Aran," Amara said, touching a kiss to her new son-in-law's cheek and offering a motherly hug. "I am glad my Carina choose you," she told him quietly, with a soft smile just for him. Aran returned the embrace, unable to speak for a moment, so touched was he by Carina's parents' warm welcome.

Josh exchanged glances with Dru, feeling just a little awkward while the small family embraced.

A little awkward, perhaps, but they were included as well. As Carina tucked herself into the embrace shared by her husband and her mother, Raniel moved to them, one hand over his heart as he bowed to them. "You are very welcome in our home," he told them, his formality returning a little with people he didn't know quite so well. Those piercing eyes looked from one to the other for a moment before he quite suddenly chuckled. "I should have known Arandir would have found friends among royalty. Like knows like."

Dru's mouth dropped open - a very unprincess-like expression for someone who was supposed to know how to keep herself composed at all times. She looked up at Josh. "Where does it show?"

Josh arched a brow, looking nearly as surprised as Dru, though he somehow managed to keep his mouth closed. He reached over to close Dru's mouth with a chuckle. "Is it that obvious?" he asked. It was then Josh realized what Raniel was getting at and looked curiously over at Aran. "Royalty?" he echoed, wondering just how royal the half-elf was.

Raniel nodded, chuckling once again at the familiar affection between the human couple. "Indeed," he told them. "He is a prince among his people, though his people are out of reach for now. It does not surprise me that the friends he has made share his rank."

Dru sighed, rolling her eyes. "How did you know?" she asked, needing to understand what it was she was giving away.

The elven man shook his head. "It is centuries of experience," he assured the human couple. "Royalty, nobility, you carry yourselves in a certain way, you express yourselves in a certain way. We will keep your secret, should you choose to share it with us."

Surfacing from the embrace just a couple of feet away, Carina eyed the other trio. "What are you talking about?"

"Enough talk!" Amara chided playfully, linking her arm with Carina and Aran. "There will be plenty of talk over dinner. Your father forgets that we are not all as long-lived as he is," she remarked with a fond and amused smile at her husband. "Come, children. It's time to celebrate."

"Yes, naneth," Carina chuckled softly, letting her mother link arms with her and steer the newly weds to the house.

Carina Cox

Date: 2015-10-08 12:57 EST
Raniel bowed to his wife, acceding to her wishes with nothing more than a fond smile, and gestured for their guests to follow on. "The mistress has spoken. Woe betide the man who speaks against her," he intoned, sending Dru into another round of spluttering giggles. Whatever she had been expecting of an elf, he was certainly not it.

"He's a prince?" Josh asked, his brain still following that train of thought. The question was asked quietly, for just Dru and Raniel's ears as he reached for Dru's hand to follow the elf's lead.

"He is," Raniel said softly, walking with them at a slower pace. "It is his story to tell, but he is the only one of his kind born to his world; the only child of mixed blood. His elven mother was a ruler of his world, as I understand it. Much like your Drusilla - a princess, if I am not mistaken, by the maternal line."

Dru shook her head again. "Do I have it tattooed on my forehead, or something?"

All of this surprised Josh and yet, it didn't. It explained a lot about Aran's behavior and personality and about why he had been so aloof all this time. Not only was he from a different world, but a world where he was the only one of his kind, as well as royalty. "But what happened?" Josh asked further. Though Raniel had said it was Aran's story to tell, Josh had a feeling that story wasn't a happy one.

Raniel shook his head. "It is not my place to tell you," he reminded the young man. "Aran will tell you, if he chooses to."

Dru squeezed Josh's hand gently. "He's right, love," she said softly. "We shouldn't pry."

"I'm just trying to understand," Josh said with a frown. He wasn't trying to pry, exactly. He only wanted to know so that he could understand the half-elf better, but maybe it didn't matter. Maybe all that mattered was that they did their best to make him feel welcome. "We're not from Rhy'Din either," Josh said, though he assumed Raniel had already figured that much out.

"We're from Tirisano," Dru offered. Well, Raniel had already guessed the big secret; what harm was there in sharing just how big it was"

Raniel glanced at them thoughtfully. "The principality to the south, yes" I believe Amara has visited there on occasion," he shared with them. "I, of course, did not. Your borders are closed to anyone not of human extraction."

Dru winced. "Yes, well ....hopefully we'll be able to change that," she said apologetically.

Josh made no comment on that, but gave Dru's hand a squeeze. "There are a lot of things we want to change," he added with youthful idealism. He knew it would take time to make those changes, but even small changes were a start. "One of the things we want to do is bring theater to Tirisano," he said, changing the subject to something a little less controversial.

"That is a noble endeavor," Raniel nodded approvingly. "And not impossible, I would judge. You, of course, have contacts here in Rhy'Din you can make ample use of to further your aim."

"What aim, adar"" Carina asked as they reached the patio where Amara had had her caterers lay out the meal for their little party. "Is it something we can help with?"

Despite the short notice, Amara was not one to scrimp when it came to a celebration, and she expected her daughter to only wed once. It was why they had held off for as long as they had, since a bond between elves was an unbreakable bond and they had to be sure. The table was set with all sorts of food, some of which were traditional elven dishes. There was wine aplenty, as well as various meats, cheeses, bread, and fruit.

Josh glanced to Dru at Carina's question, unsure if the elf was hinting at asking Carina and Aran to help or not. Though she might be of mixed blood, it was not obvious at first glance. He had not known himself until a few minutes ago.

Raniel smiled, gently stroking his daughter's hair. "It is not something to discuss on your wedding day, lellig," he assured her. "We should eat, or your mother may never forgive us." He dropped a kiss onto his wife's dark hair as he found himself a comfortable seat.

Saved from having to attempt some kind of alliance at a wedding feast, Dru shared her smile with Josh, looking over the food. "Goodness, this looks amazing, Mrs. Cox," she complimented the woman who had made it possible.

"Please, call me Amara, dear," she replied with a smile. After all, her husband - like Arandir - had no surname, and therefore, the title didn't really apply. They were simply Amara and Raniel, not Mr. and Mrs. Cox. "Make yourselves at home. You are Carina and Aran's friends and our honored guests." She turned to her husband at her side. "Ran, will you make a toast' It's tradition." For humans, anyway, and the newlyweds were not only half elven, but half human, too.

"Amara," Dru repeated dutifully, passing a glass to Josh as she caught Carina's eye. One thing both girls shared was an understanding of how awkward it was to be on first name terms with your friend's parents.

Taking his own glass from his wife, Raniel considered it for a moment. "Something suitably mawkish, but not too flowery, yes?" he asked Amara innocently. As stern as he appeared on first impressions, there was a good deal of playful delight in the elven man, as evidenced by how mercilessly he teased his wife and daughter.

"Mawkish?" his wife echoed with a roll of eyes. "Even when you speak Common, you do not speak Common," she chided him playfully. She was clearly taken with him, patting his arm affectionately, even as she teased him.

Aran, who had been silent this whole time, cleared his throat as if to gain their attention. "If you don't mind, I would like to say something."

Raniel subsided under his wife's counter tease, sharing a grin with her as his eyes turned to Arandir. "Of course you may speak, Aran," he assured the half-elven man. "It is your day."

Beside Aran, Carina smiled, her eyes filled with pride for her new husband and the place he had already found in her parents' hearts.

Aran cleared his throat for good measure before he spoke. Somehow he wanted to make clear how much he appreciated those who were seated at the table with him and Carina. He moved to his feet, lifting his wine glass to honor them. "I am not very good at making speeches, but I would like to make a toast in appreciation of family ..." At that, he looked to Amara and Raniel, before turning to Josh and Dru, "....and friends. I do not know the words in your language to properly express my gratitude for all you have done for me. I thank you for your friendship, your welcome, and your acceptance. I thank you for inviting me into your home and making me feel like family," he said, once again looking to Amara and Raniel. He turned once again to Josh and Dru, "I thank you for your friendship, and I hope that friendship will grow stronger with time." And lastly, he turned to Carina. "I did not know what it was to love until I met you. Oio naa elealla alasse', mela en' coiamin. Diola lle, mellonaea."

Carina Cox

Date: 2015-10-08 12:58 EST
Her smile deepening with each word he spoke, Carina raised her glass to touch it gently against his own. "Forever, melamin," she promised him, stealing a kiss before taking a sip from her own glass. The sound of glasses clinking around them drew her from her tender contemplation of his eyes to join with their family and friends, however small that number might be, in celebrating their union as the sky grew dark and sparkling with stars.

Aran reclaimed his seat to touch his glass to hers, eyes meeting her in tender contemplation, a smile touching his lips. Forever was a long time, but to Aran, forever hardly seemed long enough to spend with her.

Josh touched his glass to Dru's, leaning close to whisper quietly, but perhaps not quietly enough, "What did he say?"

Touched by the obvious affection shared between the couple - affection that they were so good at keeping from open view at work - Dru bit her lip, trying not to giggle as she whispered back to Josh. "I haven't the foggiest idea," she confessed, shrugging as she looked up at him.

"Ever is thy sight a joy, love of my life," Raniel translated for them over Amara's head. His hearing was sharper than any of theirs, but he was usually good enough not to eavesdrop too openly. "And he thanked you, his friends."

Aran had thanked Amara and Raniel in the common tongue, but chosen to thank Dru and Josh in his native elvish, for some reason. It was a language that rolled easily off Aran's tongue - a musical language that sounded more like song than speech. Though it did not always translate well, it was the feeling behind the words that was important.

"You are most welcome, lonneg," Amara replied with a smile to Aran, eyes sparkling. "Our home is your home; our family is your family." She had not been married to Raniel all these years without learning his language, which was not so very different from Aran's.

It was a little odd - and a little sad - for Dru and Josh to see a family that included a mother alive and well and so lovingly approving of her daughter's choices, but Dru could not help smiling as they settled in to eat. It was good to know that Aran was not quite so alone as he first seemed; better to have been invited to be a part of the select few he chose to acknowledge as friends. "We'll have to invite you to Itana sometime," she said, making the decision then and there. Combating xenophobia in Tirisano would have to start at the top. "All of you."

Aran frowned a little at Dru's invitation, not because he didn't want to go, but because he knew only too well what it was like to be hated, simply because of the lineage, and it reminded him a little too much of home, where his mother's and father's people had gone to war over old hatreds that made little sense. "What is it your people fear about our kind?" he asked, curiously, without condemnation. He clearly identified more with his mother's line than his father's.

"Tirisano has always been very inward-looking," Dru tried to explain. "It's only in the last hundred years that we've begun to trade outside our own borders openly. It isn't so much tradition. It's more than our people haven't been exposed to any other race but humanity, and everyone is afraid of what they don't know. Xenophobia can be fought, though, and between us, Josh and I, and his brother and his wife ....we are popular enough that the people are likely to follow our example, rather than condemn us."

Carina listened with interest. She was aware of Tirisano, on the fringes, having never been able to visit there with her mother on trading runs due to the elven features that marked her as not entirely human. "What do you mean, popular enough?" she asked curiously. "You make it sound as though you are leaders in fashion, or something."

Josh's fingers found Dru's, and he gave her hand a light squeeze. Raniel had already guessed their secret, but Aran and Carina had not. "We're sort of royalty in Tirisano," he explained, though there was no sort of. Dru was the second in line for the throne after her uncle, and Josh was the son of a duke. "Not many people in Rhy'Din know that, and we'd like to keep it that way," he added, for good measure, though he doubted anyone at the table would be inclined to blab.

"Sort of royalty?" Carina repeated, not entirely sure how you could be "sort of? royalty. "Of course we wouldn't tell anyone."

Dru smiled faintly, holding to Josh's hand. "I'm second in line to the throne," she told Aran, Carina, and Amara quietly. "I am a Granger, but I was born out of wedlock when there were more options for an heir. Two years ago, my uncle, his wife, and my mother were all killed in a terrible accident, and my uncle, who is Prince of Tirisano, had no choice but to name me his heir."

Josh gave Dru's hand another light squeeze as she explained the tragedy that had left her as heir, knowing how much that tragedy still affected her. Thankfully, she didn't add many details to that story, or he might have a crying mess on his hands. "My father is a duke," Josh went on to explain, hoping to steer the conversation away from any further questions Dru might find painful. He said nothing of his mother, but it could probably be assumed she was no longer living.

Aran arched his brows at the irony, but it was Amara who spoke. "Oh, my dear," she said, reaching across the table to touch Dru's hand. "I'm so sorry for your loss," she told her with maternal compassion.

With her eyes glistening, Dru found herself laughing a little helplessly as Amara touched her hand. "I didn't tell you to ask for sympathy," she tried to clarify, turning her eyes to Aran. "We're sharing this because you're our friends, and you deserve to know." She glanced up at Josh, swallowing hard. "We've never told anyone in Rhy'Din just who we are before now."

Carina nodded slowly, understanding the other couple a little better now. She was glad they had shared their secret, knowing that Aran might find it a little easier to open up to them now he knew of the similarities in their stories. "We'll take your secret to the grave," she promised Dru and Josh faithfully, blushing as her father nodded approvingly to her.

No one but family anyway. Aran studied Dru quietly, realizing that, of all of them there, she could probably relate to him the most. Not only was she royalty, but she had lost her family to tragedy, just as he had. It saddened him to know that she had suffered such a tragedy, even if it didn't compare to his own situation perfectly. At least, he had the crystal that hung around his neck to remind him of those lives that had been lost. He hoped Dru had something similar, especially where her mother was concerned. He wanted to share his own story, to tell her she wasn't alone in her grief, but he didn't think this was the time. He chose to tell her something else instead, hoping it would bring her a little peace. "My people believe that when a life ends, the soul lives on. There are as many souls as stars in the sky, all of them looking down on us and watching over us, until we join them in the heavens."

Dru's smile softened from the brittle cast it had taken on as she struggled with her own emotions. "That's beautiful, Aran," she told him. "Thank you." She drew in a sharp breath, forcing herself to relax as she breathed out. "But this is supposed to be a celebration, isn't it' Enough of my sad story. I've got my happy ending, after all." She looked up at Josh with a wide grin.

"We have all found the one we will walk with," Raniel said quietly, raising his glass in a toast as he looked at his own Amara. "To love, my children, and eternity."

There were tears in Amara's eyes in sympathy for Dru's loss, as well as Aran's and Josh's, but a smile touched her face when her husband drew her back to the present and raised a glass in toast to her and to their love and the love of family. "And to friends, old and new," she added, raising her glass to mirror his in toast of her own love, her daughter's marriage, a new son, and new friends to share their celebration.

Perhaps it was unconventional, in both cultures, to have a ceremony that was so very short, among such a small gathering, but it was what they had wanted. Gathered together with the family they loved, in spirit and in flesh, and with the new friends they needed, Aran and Carina had everything they could possibly want there in that moment. Family and friends, and the dedication of their love to one another, shared in the magical dusk of Rhy'Din. It was perfect.

((So there we have it - Arandir and Carina are married, in retrospect! They won't have made a big deal out of it, but you can bet Dru and Josh did! Many thanks to my partner in crime!))