Topic: After The Oath

Shaye OConnor

Date: 2012-05-15 00:07 EST
((Immediately follows Blood Oath.)) _________________________

Liam had laid awake long into the night, watching Shaye as she slept, in wonder of this girl who'd come into his life, this girl who was on the verge of becoming a woman. This girl who, whether she knew it or not, held his heart in her hands. He watched her while she slept, feeling a tumult of conflicting emotions. Anger at her father, sadness for her pain, joy and wonder, hope and confusion, all rolled up together and warring inside him.

He'd waited until she was asleep before sliding his arms around her to hold her close and keep her warm. She'd nuzzled against him while she slept, like she always did, keeping close to share his warmth. It was the only time he could hold her close without worrying she might push him away, question his motives, or laugh at him. After a while, his eyelids grew heavy and he, too, drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

He awoke, as he had become accustomed to, just before dawn, the sky just turning gray with the coming morning. His gaze slid to her, slowly recalling the events of the previous day, and more importantly the night. Only a few short hours ago, he'd pledged his life to her, his heart, his entire being. If it wasn't for the throbbing pain in his thumb, he might not have believed it, but there was proof positive just beneath the crude bandage she had cut from the blanket.

A smile touched his face at the memory of it, despite the painful events that had caused it to happen, and he reached over to very gently brush her hair back from her face. He lifted himself up onto an elbow and leaned closed, hovering over her peacefully-resting face, frowning a little at the bruises that darkened her cheek and her neck

It would be so easy to kiss her. She might not even know it. Countless times he had watched her sleeping and had been tempted to kiss her, only to back off at the last minute, afraid she'd wake up and scold him, or worse, laugh. He frowned a little, gathering his courage, leaning forward to brush a feather-light kiss against her forehead, chaste, protective, brotherly even. He glanced at the window, realizing with a frown that it would soon be dawn. Quietly and carefully, he crept out of bed, pulling the blanket up over her to keep her warm while he was away. As quiet as a mouse, he pulled on his boots and cloak, and slipped out the door, clicking it gently closed behind him. He wouldn't be gone long, and if he was lucky, she'd still be asleep by the time he got back.

Shaye would normally have woken at the same time as Liam, early enough to creep from his bed and into her own to save face in front of their friends. But the exertion of the day before - the beating she had taken from her father; the exhaustion of crying herself out not once, but twice; even the depth of emotion that had urged her into making a blood oath - it had taken its toll, and so she slept on, rolling into the indent left behind by her friend's body as she unconsciously groped for him, aware even in her sleep that he'd left but too much in need of good sleep to wake up just yet.

But even the deepest slumber couldn't keep her from becoming aware that Liam had left her alone. Eventually, Shaye was bound to wake up, stirring slowly with a loud groan as the aches and pains of her beaten, bruised body rushed to inform her that they were still there and still very much acute and present. Grimacing with pain, she pushed herself to sit up, brushing her hair back out of her face, and realised belatedly that she had cloth wrapped about one hand. Her dark gaze focused on the makeshift bandage as the evening before flooded back to her ....and hurt flared as she looked around. Even after all that, after she'd promised so faithfully and meant every word, he'd gone. "Liam?"

There was evidence that he meant to come back, if she looked for it. His pack was still there and everything he'd brought with him in it, save for the clothing he'd worn on his back and his cloak for warmth. His knife was still there, right where they'd left it the night before, sheathed in leather, their blood mingled and dried on the blade. It was cold in the barracks, the sun not yet having risen to chase the damp chill away. The lantern had gone out hours ago, leaving them in darkness, until dawn. He didn't plan on being gone long - an hour, at most, if all went according to plan.

As her dark gaze fell on the knife, Shaye felt a swift pang of shame at her unworthy suspicions. She knew Liam better than to ever think that he would leave her all alone after the evening they'd shared. Shivering a little in the chill of the pre-dawn, she wrapped herself up in the blanket, coccooned in the middle of the makeshift bed as she turned her hands to cleaning her friend's blade and tidying his pack, passing the time easily as she waited for his return. It was better than trying to move around in the chilly air - as bad as the bruises looked this morning, they were nothing to the ache in her ribs from the kicking Fargil had given her when she had finally gone down.

Not long after she awoke, Liam returned, pulling the door open, a second pack slung over his back, arms laden with firewood. He stomped his feet off as he stepped inside, a fresh coat of snow having fallen during the night. He pushed the door closed with his back, looking over to find her awake and wrapped up in the blanket trying to keep warm. "You're awake," he said, stating the obvious. "I'm sorry it took so long. I meant to be back before you woke up."

Her brow rose as she looked back at him, grimacing at the sight of the snow that covered him. "No, I'm not," she told him in a drawling display of shivering sarcasm from inside her coccoon of blanket. "I actually died of cold when my bed warmer left and this is my disembodied spirit preparing to haunt you forever, as per our agreement." She flashed him a wink and a grin, deliberately using her bandaged hand to tuck her hair behind her ear. "What've you been doing?"

He grinned, in good humor this morning. And why shouldn't he be? He was tired and hadn't gotten much sleep, but he was in good spirits. He was going home today and he was taking his closest friend with him. "I have been foraging while Your Laziness has been sleeping," he teased, brown-green eyes dancing with amusement. He stepped further inside, setting the pile of logs down on the floor near the hearth, and shrugging the pack from his back, which he threw over to her on the bed. "Change of clothes and warmer boots," he told her as he knelt down to start a fire in the hearth. Over the last year, they'd learned how to survive in the wild, and making a fire had become child's play.

"Foraging, huh?" She grinned wider, leaning over to investigate the clothing he'd brought her. "Am I rubbing off on you, or did you actually pay for this lot?" she asked cheekily, shucking hurriedly out of her blanket and her thin vest to pull the warmth of a definitely sturdier shirt over her head without even a hint toward modesty. And she had definitely blossomed over the last year. "Makos catch you?"

Shaye OConnor

Date: 2012-05-15 00:11 EST
He stared at her a moment as she started to change right in front of him, catching sight of budding breasts before noticing more bruises along her ribcage that he had somehow missed noticing the night before. He frowned and turned away to give her some semblance of privacy and out of respect, anger momentarily flaring once again at the visible reminder of what her father had done to her.

"No, I didn't see him."

Inside the pack was a warm shirt, pants, cloak, and boots. Wherever he'd gotten them from, he wasn't saying just yet. The clothing was a bit loose, but better too big than too small. There was also a fresh hunk of cheese, some biscuits, and a carefully wrapped bundle of eggs.

It didn't take her long to wriggle into the clothing he'd brought her, biting down the occasional lancing flare of pain as she stretched and twisted to get dressed. The last thing Shaye wanted to do was remind Liam just how hurt she'd let herself be the night before; he had a distressing tendency to do anger and guilt far more easily than rationally accepting things and moving on from them.

Tossing the blanket aside finally, she moved to kneel beside him, glancing from the fresh flickering flame to her friend's face. Something had changed between them, certainly, a direct consequence of the night before, or she would never have done what she now did. With a bounce on her toes, she pecked a clumsy kiss to Liam's cheek, leaning back with another grin. "Who's cooking breakfast, then?"

He blinked in surprise at the clumsy but affectionate kiss, slanting a glance at her, face flushing but quickly recovering. His cheeks were cold from his trampling out in the snow for her sake. It would have been easier if they'd gone back to the barracks the night before, but despite the cold, he was enjoying this time alone with her. Another smile crossed his face at her question, the blush fading. "I made the fire. You can do the cooking."

"Oh, you slave driver," she laughed, leaning back to grab the blanket from the worn down mattresses, flinging half of it around his shoulders before huddling closer. Like him, she was far more relaxed out from under the constantly watching eyes of their friends and barrackmates, more openly affectionate in her friendship with him than she would have been had they been in company. "I'm not doing anything until we're warm again. It's bloody freezing this morning!"

He'd found a warmer tunic while he'd been back there and he'd let his hair loose from the leather tie that had bound it away from his face. He laughed at her retort but huddled closer, pulling the blanket around them both, and in doing so, his arms going around her shoulders. It was cold enough in the old abandoned barracks to see their breath in the still air. "We can go back if you want. It's warm in the kitchen." He rubbed her shoulders beneath the blanket to warm her, a little worried about hurting her.

"Yeah, but we wouldn't be able to do this in the kitchen without O'Shaunnessy's ma telling the spawn of all evil, and wouldn't he just love to know something like that?" Shaye rubbed her hands together hard for a moment, cackling at the thought of Liam's nemesis gossiping with his mother, before grabbing the ends of the blanket, wrapping it more tightly around them. "I'm not gonna break, ladyboy, I've had worse," she added in a mild tone before continuing on as though she hadn't mentioned it. "How long's it gonna take to get to Loscar?"

He frowned a little at her reprimand and her mention of O'Shaunnessy, more than at her question. "Not long. About half a day on horseback. With luck, we should get there by tonight." He'd stolen breakfast right from under Shaunnessy's mother's nose, and he was hoping no one found out, not that it mattered. They were officers now and were entitled to breakfast, but he knew the big oaf would be looking for any excuse to get them in trouble. "He's going to be a problem, isn't he?" he asked abruptly, as it was weighing on his mind.

"Only if you let him be," Shaye shrugged, finally twisting to insinuate her arms around his waist under the blanket and cuddle in, taking full advantage of his body heat to get in the kind of sneaky cuddles she had to make do with. It was be sneaky, or risk people finding out that she had a softer side. "You were too nice that first week when he was trying to work out who was on top; should've beaten him bloody. That's what I would've done."

"We're supposed to be on the same side, Shaye. One of our lives might depend on each other someday." He wasn't thinking of the here and now, but of the future, of what might happen if they couldn't rely on each other if a battle were to be fought. "What if he's assigned to my company' What if he won't listen to orders?" Though he didn't have to worry about them yet, these things weighed on his mind, the burden of future leadership. He pulled her in close, resting his chin familiarly against her shoulder, the awkwardness of the previous night forgotten for now. He was with his best friend, his confidante, his comrade, his sister.

"You know how that goes, Liam," Shaye reminded him quietly. "You taught me about that. If you can't obey orders, you get transferred out of the legion. If you still can't obey orders, you get discharged without honor. S'just how it goes. He's not dumb enough to stab himself in the back." Her expression darkened for a moment. "And if he tries to stab you in the back, I'll flay him, ally or not."

"I'll flay him myself, but that's not the point. I don't trust him. He's just waiting to find an excuse to get us into trouble." It wasn't just himself he was worried about, but her, as well. He suspected it wasn't beneath the boy to use his feelings for Shaye against him.

"Liam, I get us into trouble often enough that you should know all about getting out of it by now," Shaye told her friend with a giggle. Yes, she giggled. It didn't happen often. Warmed up, she shifted a little, staying inside the warm coccoon of blankets and bodies even as she began to crack eggs into the little pan he'd brought with him.

Shaye OConnor

Date: 2012-05-15 00:15 EST
It would take a while for the barracks to warm up, and he was content for now to remain snuggled up inside the blankets. He'd use any excuse to be close to her, but it was practical, too. "Now that you're an officer in training, you're going to have to set a good example, you know." He felt it was his duty both as an officer in training himself and as her friend to inform her of this fact.

"Of course I will." She turned her bruised face toward him, and only someone very familiar with her expressions would be able to spot the glimmer of cheeky disobedience deep in her dark eyes beneath the veneer of innocence. "I won't get caught so much."

He rolled his eyes at her, tempted to use those words his mother always used when annoyed with her father at her. It wouldn't be the first or probably the last time he'd thought her incorrigible, but he'd only just learned what it meant this past year. "You'd better not get caught at all. I can only talk my way out of so much."

"Well, if you didn't insist on getting caught with me all the time, you wouldn't have to talk your way out of anything," she pointed out laughingly, refusing to take the threat of punishment or suspension seriously. They both knew that if she hadn't already proved herself above and beyond, she wouldn't have been named officer class in the first place. She had more leeway than he did now; but she was at a distinct disadvantage to the others in their rank. The reading and writing was going to be the bane of her life for at least the next year.

"If you didn't insist on dragging me along!" he countered, face flushing. He knew she was teasing him, but he just couldn't help but feel defensive. It was in his nature. He glowered at her threateningly. "Don't make me tickle you again."

"I never drag you anywhere," she protested with a snicker, beating the eggs in the pan as she set it over the fire. "It was your own fault for wanting to know what I was going to do with the spitting salamanders the first time, and since then, you seem to think I need keeping an eye on." Her grin was playful and child-like for a moment. "You're the one who gets us caught, anyway."

He snorted, something he tended to do a lot when he was in disagreement with something she said. "You do need keeping an eye on. If it weren't for me, you'd have been kicked out a long time ago!" He was dreading climbing out of the warm cocoon of blankets, but someone was going to have to fetch the bread and cheese he'd absconded from the kitchen. He climbed to his feet, leaving her with the blanket and turned to go fetch the rest of their breakfast from his pack. "How do I get us caught?"

Shaye grinned, shivering as he abandoned the warmth to go and fetch the rest of the food. "You have a crisis of conscience when we're sneaking back," she chuckled cheerfully. "And tend to forget really important things, like not telling me off until we're back at the barracks, and keeping to shadows rather than trying to bluff your way through the sentries out of uniform. Oh, and who can forget the time you were so busy making sure I got out of the officer's mess safely, you completely forgot that we'd already released the fire ants?" She turned a wildly teasing grin onto him, bouncing in place in a ridiculous impersonation of his attack of the ants.

He dug the bread and cheese out of his pack, along with two tin cups, a canteen of water, and a bag of tea leaves. He frowned, his back to her, as he laid tea leaves in the bottom of each cup. Hearing her moving about, he glanced over his shoulder at her ridiculous impression of him. He rolled his eyes again as he turned his attention back to breakfast preparations. He wasn't going to deny the fact that he tended to get distracted when he was worried about her safety. Even Makos had commented on it, warning him to be careful of it, that it could become a problem. "I did not look like that!"

Despite the sharp twinges of pain lancing through her ribs, Shaye couldn't stop herself dissolving into deep giggles, her shoulders shaking as she cackled in the quiet of the winter morning. She knew he wasn't really angry with her teasing, just as he knew she didn't really mind his protective instincts. She'd never let it get him into serious trouble - the one time she'd gone after someone for real revenge, he hadn't known about it until she'd gotten back to the barracks. "Oh, you so did," she grinned, dropping her eyes back to the pan. "Eggs are almost done."

"Shaye..." His brows drew down into a frown as he moved back to the hearth to warm the cups and brew the tea. Without a tea kettle or a pan, it was the best he could do. "There's something you should know..." He had turned serious again, as a thought came to mind, something he'd never told her, but that she should probably know before she met his parents.

Her smile faded in the face of his sudden shift in mood, her hands moving the pan from the fire before taking up her own belt knife to cut wedges from the bread and cheese. Wariness flared in her dark eyes as she looked at her friend. "What is it?"

Shaye OConnor

Date: 2012-05-15 00:20 EST
She was going to find out soon anyway, once they got there. He carefully poured water into the camp kettle and hung it over the fire to boil. "My mother..." He started, unsure how to explain, never having told anyone much about his family, not even her. It was pretty common knowledge that his father was an officer and that his parents had an extraordinarily happy marriage. Most seemed to think they lead a idyllic life, with no knowledge of what their lives were really like. "She....she might try to mother you a little."

Dark eyes studied his expression thoughtfully as she spread a cloth on the ground between them, setting the bread and cheese down on either side of the warm pan, fishing forks out of the pack. "Define 'mothering'," she said quietly, trying not to leap to conclusions. It was bad enough that she was about to present herself to his parents covered in bruises; she didn't really want his mother knowing just how rough the company her son kept was.

If it wasn't so damned cold, it would be like the two of them were having a picnic. He would never admit it, but he was selfishly enjoying the time alone with her away from the prying eyes of their fellow recruits and officers, commissioned and non, just as he always did. He tilted his gaze away from her, busying himself with checking on how the tea kettle was doing, though it was doing just fine without his constant attention. "She always wanted a daughter."

Shaye eyed him thoughtfully, missing the true import of the little comment as she leapt to a slightly different conclusion. "You're asking me to be nice to your ma while she puts me in dresses and plays with my hair, aren't you?" she asked with a wry grin. "I solemnly swear, I will not punch, threaten, or growl at your mother."

He lifted his gaze to her remark, both brows arching, realizing she'd misunderstood. He didn't really want to spell it out for her, but it appeared he was going to have to. "She won't put you in dresses." He paused as he thought about that a moment, correcting himself. "She might try to coddle you a little, but she won't try to force anything on you."

She smiled, tucking herself up in her cloak as she reached to begin eating. Shaye still hadn't quite gotten over the instincts of the street - presented with food, it tended to disappear very fast, regardless of whether or not she gave herself heartburn in the process. "I'll behave, I promise," she smiled across to Liam, dark eyes glittering cheerfully.

The waterskin hissed, announcing the water was hot enough to make tea, and he reached for a cloth with which to remove the skin from over the fire. "That's not what I'm worried about, Shaye." Liam always seemed to be worrying about one thing or another. One person or another. He pressed his lips together as he carefully poured hot water into each cup, momentarily wondering if this is what it would be like if they were to get married. Quiet moments like this, just the two of them. Would they be anything like his parents" But he pushed the thought aside for further reflection later. "There should have been three of us, but....she lost the other two."

For a girl who had grown up in a brothel, Shaye's reaction to this little piece of information was surprisingly considered. She knew that most women, married women, grieved when they lost a child, yet she'd never really seen that grief in the whore house. It was usually a relief when one of the girls lost a child. But Liam's mother ....that made it important, a tragedy to be grieved and considered. Her brow furrowed in gentle concern. "I'm so sorry, Liam," she said softly. "I'll do whatever you ask me to do, I don't want to upset her. Honestly, I'd rather die than hurt you or your family."

That tiny, simple explanation spoke volumes of Liam's relationship with his mother, why she was so dear to him and him to her, why he showered her with love and affection at every opportunity. He set the skin aside, brows furrowing again at her statement, a little surprised at the gravity of her pledge. "It's just that....I've written her about you, and she's looking forward to meeting you. She knows how much you mean to me and..." He trailed off, at a loss for words once again. How was he supposed to explain that his mother might want to make her a surrogate daughter"

The food paused on the way to Shaye's mouth as she considered what her friend wasn't saying. She might be a little slow on the uptake, but she always got there, eventually. "You really think I wouldn't let her enjoy that?" she asked in a surprisingly vulnerable voice. "I know I'm rough, Liam, but I'm not cruel. She can mother me as much as she wants." Slight alarm touched her eyes suddenly, and she looked down at her bandaged hand, her gaze flickering to the matching bandage on his. "She doesn't think we're ....sweethearts, does she?"

His face flushed at her question. Sweethearts" Them' No, never! He kept that hope a secret in his heart. If she didn't know how he felt about her by now, she was blind. He hadn't promised to marry her someday because he wanted her to be his sister, but he let her think what she wanted for now. He reached over to set a cup of tea on the makeshift picnic blanket in front of her, lifting his face to meet her gaze. "She saw the way your father treated you. She said it's not your fault, Shaye. You don't have to worry about my mother. She said you're special."

There was no way Shaye could have missed her friend's face flushing in reaction to her question, feeling her own cheeks heat up almost in the same moment. The unsettling flutter was back; not unwelcome, not unwanted, but unsettling, nonetheless. And hearing him say that his mother thought she was special ....that added a strange depth to the warmth she increasingly felt toward her best friend. Her smile was just as wild as it always was, but there was a softness there for the first time that she was utterly unaware of. "Well, we'd better finish breakfast and get started on our way, hadn't we?" she said firmly. "I want to see you with your family by sundown."

She got a smile out of him finally, albeit a slightly shy one. Even after a year, he still had his shy, awkward moments, especially when it came to his feelings about her. "Father arranged for transportation, but he was only expecting me. I hope you don't mind sharing a horse." It was either that or one of them had to walk. He reached for the knife and cut off a piece of cheese, popping it into his mouth, followed by a hunk of bread. "Mother is going to love you," he smiled at her around a mouthful of breakfast.

"I hope so." Shaye's dark eyes lowered to her food as she turned back to eating, lost in thoughts of her own mother, long since dead. She remembered stories and hugs, a warm pair of arms and a smile and nothing more, and she knew that this was what she had been missing for years. Liam was the first person since her mother that she had felt safe enough to be herself around. The thought of being a part of his family, however it came about, was a very special one indeed.

Her eyes strayed to the bloodied bandage on her hand, and her smile deepened. Slave or wife, she was going to be a part of something for life, no matter what that life threw at them.

((Thanks to Liam's player!))