Day turned slowly to night, and still Lauren and Valerian slept. While they slept, their bodies healed of the wounds they had suffered at Josef and Serena's hands, but it would take more than a single day to heal those wounds that could not be seen. And yet, tonight, there was more hope than had been there the night before. And so, Lauren and Valerian slept, wrapped up on the other's embrace, until the cool kiss of evening chased away the heat of the day.
Indeed, Lauren rarely slept so long, or so deeply. As a creature of both night and day, she seemed to survive on two naps of three to four hours in twenty-four, yet she had slept from first light to the gentle kiss of dusk, wrapped in the arms of a man who had saved her. Not from any physical threat, but from the danger of blaming herself too much for what she had done to end such a threat. That, in a way, was far more profound than any knight in shining armor scenario she could care to name. As she stirred, her pale eyes blinked open, aware of Val's cool form wrapped about her own. She gently disentangled herself, not wanting to wake him, and rolled onto her back, stilling when she realized there was someone else in the room. Her eyes focused on Adelia, wary uncertainty lighting up her face.
"Good evening?" she ventured, not entirely sure why the other woman was still there.
The woman could have been bronze statue for as little as she moved, unblinking in the night, merely watching as silent as a guardian angel, ever present but unseen. Valerian stirred lightly beside Lauren, not yet ready to waken and unaware of their visitor.
"We need to talk," Adelia told her in a soft voice. They hadn't shared so many words since that first night when Lauren had walked into the club asking about Valerian.
Lauren held her gaze for a long moment, and slowly, she nodded. "Let me get dressed and meet you in the other room," she suggested softly, not wanting to disturb Val when he was still sleeping. The night before had taken a great deal out of him, after all.
Adelia seemed to accept this and moved to her feet, as graceful as she was dangerous, and disappeared from the room, almost as if she'd never been there at all. If they hadn't been what they were, they might have talked over a pot of coffee or some tea and biscuits, but Adelia had clearly already fed, and feeding Lauren wasn't her responsibility.
Left to her own devices for a brief moment, Lauren rolled over to kiss Val's cheek softly, tucking him warm beneath the covers as she slipped from his side. A minute or so later, she slipped from the bedroom altogether, wearing her jeans from the night before and one of his shirts, knotted at the waist. Rubbing a hand through her hair, she eyed Adelia warily. "I meant what I said last night," she said quietly. "Thank you."
Adelia was seated on the couch, looking as beautiful and dangerous as a panther. Why had she and Valerian never become lovers" Why was she so steadfastly devoted to him' What was it that kept them together, besides the obvious connection of sire and childe" These were all questions which had yet to be answered, and in part, why the woman was there. She shrugged one shoulder at Lauren's words of gratitude. "You do not have to thank me for that which I do of my own free will."
"I don't have to, but I do," Lauren answered easily, moving to curl up in one of the chairs, unconsciously making herself smaller. Making herself less of a threat, though she knew her mere presence was enough to put most vampires on edge. A old acquaintance had once told her that he'd known when she walked into a room by the way his teeth started to itch. "I know you didn't do it for me, or even for him. But that doesn't mean you don't have my gratitude for saving his life."
"Of that you are mistaken. Everything I do, I do for him. He is who made me what I am. He is my master and my father and my friend. I owe him a debt I can never repay. I owe him my life," she explained without really explaining, since all of that Lauren likely knew already.
"He would never call himself your master," Lauren said quietly, but she didn't argue with the rest. "I do not understand the bond you share, and why should I" It's yours, your link to him and his to you. I am not ....I wasn't created, in the sense that vampires are created. I knew my father, but there was no bond with him."
"And yet, you have a bond with Valerian that I can never hope to have," Adelia countered, just a hint of sadness in her eyes. She was content with her place in Valerian's life, but she often wondered if he understood her devotion and the depth of feeling she had for him. It wasn't romantic love, no, but it was love nonetheless. There was simply no other word for it. "You should know that he loves you. He just hasn't realized it yet. When he does, it will scare him, and you will have to be strong."
Lauren did not know what to say. It was not often that she was rendered speechless, but she truly didn't know what she could say that would not strike Adelia as pointless or condescending. "I love him," she said finally, simply. "I haven't told him as much, only that I will love him. He seems afraid to let me. Yet he doesn't fear your love. I must admit, I am a little envious of the comfort in your relationship."
Thankfully, Adelia did not laugh or even snort in derision at Lauren's remark. "You have known him a handful of days. I have known him for years, and yet, you are the one he holds in his arms and kisses goodnight. Do not get me wrong. I do not want to change places with you, and I am not jealous. I know my place in his life, and I accept it, but it is I who should be envying you, not the other way around."
"But if it was you he held in his arms, Adelia, you would know for certain that it was you he wanted and loved, and not what you represent," Lauren pointed out gently. She didn't want to sound self-pitying, but Adelia deserved to know that, even with a bond in place, there were still doubts and fears. "There is nothing to say that you will not find that bond with another. Our lives are long. There is always time."
"Perhaps, but this is not about me. It is about you and still you do not understand. Do you know why he was so quick to volunteer himself as bait' Do you know how he felt when he realized Josef had gone after you? How terrified he was for your safety' He abandoned the others in pursuit of Josef because of you. And I abandoned them because of him. His love for you makes him reckless. I do not tell you this to discourage you or to frighten you, but only so that you understand the depth of his love. He would die for you, Lauren, and that frightens me."
Again, Lauren was silent, allowing the words to sink in, giving Adelia the opportunity to remember that she was talking to someone who had almost a hundred years on her before she grew too fervent in her speech. "You saw what was left of Josef," she said finally, her voice dull with reluctance at having to mention it at all. "His death was my doing. Nick was a part of it, but I drove it. I will never allow Valerian to die for me, Adelia. If he truly loves me, then he will learn that the better course is to survive for me. I think, between us, you and I can teach him which course is the wisest. Don't you?"
For once in her life, it was Adelia who fell silent. She turned her head so as not to meet the other's eyes, afraid she'd betray her own feelings. She knew she was no match for Lauren, but it wasn't Valerian's heart she longed to possess, so much as his friendship. "I fear I have done all I can do. He belongs to you now," she said quietly, almost defeatedly.
"He doesn't belong to anyone but himself," Lauren told her firmly. "Adelia ....you're still young in our world. Hell, I'm young in our world. We move through the world at whim, we find our own purpose, but nothing breaks the bonds we make with one another. No one can ever be for him what you are; there will always be a link between you, and the day you walk away from him without true cause will be the day I drag you back by your hair." Her expression was not forgiving as she looked at the other woman. "I am no threat to you. I am just another face entering your world. Nothing will change between you and your sire. But I won't walk away just because you're feeling sidelined and upset about it. If you sulk about some slight that doesn't exist, then of course you will find yourself ostracized. You may be young, but you are not a child. Kindly do not behave like one."
Indeed, Lauren rarely slept so long, or so deeply. As a creature of both night and day, she seemed to survive on two naps of three to four hours in twenty-four, yet she had slept from first light to the gentle kiss of dusk, wrapped in the arms of a man who had saved her. Not from any physical threat, but from the danger of blaming herself too much for what she had done to end such a threat. That, in a way, was far more profound than any knight in shining armor scenario she could care to name. As she stirred, her pale eyes blinked open, aware of Val's cool form wrapped about her own. She gently disentangled herself, not wanting to wake him, and rolled onto her back, stilling when she realized there was someone else in the room. Her eyes focused on Adelia, wary uncertainty lighting up her face.
"Good evening?" she ventured, not entirely sure why the other woman was still there.
The woman could have been bronze statue for as little as she moved, unblinking in the night, merely watching as silent as a guardian angel, ever present but unseen. Valerian stirred lightly beside Lauren, not yet ready to waken and unaware of their visitor.
"We need to talk," Adelia told her in a soft voice. They hadn't shared so many words since that first night when Lauren had walked into the club asking about Valerian.
Lauren held her gaze for a long moment, and slowly, she nodded. "Let me get dressed and meet you in the other room," she suggested softly, not wanting to disturb Val when he was still sleeping. The night before had taken a great deal out of him, after all.
Adelia seemed to accept this and moved to her feet, as graceful as she was dangerous, and disappeared from the room, almost as if she'd never been there at all. If they hadn't been what they were, they might have talked over a pot of coffee or some tea and biscuits, but Adelia had clearly already fed, and feeding Lauren wasn't her responsibility.
Left to her own devices for a brief moment, Lauren rolled over to kiss Val's cheek softly, tucking him warm beneath the covers as she slipped from his side. A minute or so later, she slipped from the bedroom altogether, wearing her jeans from the night before and one of his shirts, knotted at the waist. Rubbing a hand through her hair, she eyed Adelia warily. "I meant what I said last night," she said quietly. "Thank you."
Adelia was seated on the couch, looking as beautiful and dangerous as a panther. Why had she and Valerian never become lovers" Why was she so steadfastly devoted to him' What was it that kept them together, besides the obvious connection of sire and childe" These were all questions which had yet to be answered, and in part, why the woman was there. She shrugged one shoulder at Lauren's words of gratitude. "You do not have to thank me for that which I do of my own free will."
"I don't have to, but I do," Lauren answered easily, moving to curl up in one of the chairs, unconsciously making herself smaller. Making herself less of a threat, though she knew her mere presence was enough to put most vampires on edge. A old acquaintance had once told her that he'd known when she walked into a room by the way his teeth started to itch. "I know you didn't do it for me, or even for him. But that doesn't mean you don't have my gratitude for saving his life."
"Of that you are mistaken. Everything I do, I do for him. He is who made me what I am. He is my master and my father and my friend. I owe him a debt I can never repay. I owe him my life," she explained without really explaining, since all of that Lauren likely knew already.
"He would never call himself your master," Lauren said quietly, but she didn't argue with the rest. "I do not understand the bond you share, and why should I" It's yours, your link to him and his to you. I am not ....I wasn't created, in the sense that vampires are created. I knew my father, but there was no bond with him."
"And yet, you have a bond with Valerian that I can never hope to have," Adelia countered, just a hint of sadness in her eyes. She was content with her place in Valerian's life, but she often wondered if he understood her devotion and the depth of feeling she had for him. It wasn't romantic love, no, but it was love nonetheless. There was simply no other word for it. "You should know that he loves you. He just hasn't realized it yet. When he does, it will scare him, and you will have to be strong."
Lauren did not know what to say. It was not often that she was rendered speechless, but she truly didn't know what she could say that would not strike Adelia as pointless or condescending. "I love him," she said finally, simply. "I haven't told him as much, only that I will love him. He seems afraid to let me. Yet he doesn't fear your love. I must admit, I am a little envious of the comfort in your relationship."
Thankfully, Adelia did not laugh or even snort in derision at Lauren's remark. "You have known him a handful of days. I have known him for years, and yet, you are the one he holds in his arms and kisses goodnight. Do not get me wrong. I do not want to change places with you, and I am not jealous. I know my place in his life, and I accept it, but it is I who should be envying you, not the other way around."
"But if it was you he held in his arms, Adelia, you would know for certain that it was you he wanted and loved, and not what you represent," Lauren pointed out gently. She didn't want to sound self-pitying, but Adelia deserved to know that, even with a bond in place, there were still doubts and fears. "There is nothing to say that you will not find that bond with another. Our lives are long. There is always time."
"Perhaps, but this is not about me. It is about you and still you do not understand. Do you know why he was so quick to volunteer himself as bait' Do you know how he felt when he realized Josef had gone after you? How terrified he was for your safety' He abandoned the others in pursuit of Josef because of you. And I abandoned them because of him. His love for you makes him reckless. I do not tell you this to discourage you or to frighten you, but only so that you understand the depth of his love. He would die for you, Lauren, and that frightens me."
Again, Lauren was silent, allowing the words to sink in, giving Adelia the opportunity to remember that she was talking to someone who had almost a hundred years on her before she grew too fervent in her speech. "You saw what was left of Josef," she said finally, her voice dull with reluctance at having to mention it at all. "His death was my doing. Nick was a part of it, but I drove it. I will never allow Valerian to die for me, Adelia. If he truly loves me, then he will learn that the better course is to survive for me. I think, between us, you and I can teach him which course is the wisest. Don't you?"
For once in her life, it was Adelia who fell silent. She turned her head so as not to meet the other's eyes, afraid she'd betray her own feelings. She knew she was no match for Lauren, but it wasn't Valerian's heart she longed to possess, so much as his friendship. "I fear I have done all I can do. He belongs to you now," she said quietly, almost defeatedly.
"He doesn't belong to anyone but himself," Lauren told her firmly. "Adelia ....you're still young in our world. Hell, I'm young in our world. We move through the world at whim, we find our own purpose, but nothing breaks the bonds we make with one another. No one can ever be for him what you are; there will always be a link between you, and the day you walk away from him without true cause will be the day I drag you back by your hair." Her expression was not forgiving as she looked at the other woman. "I am no threat to you. I am just another face entering your world. Nothing will change between you and your sire. But I won't walk away just because you're feeling sidelined and upset about it. If you sulk about some slight that doesn't exist, then of course you will find yourself ostracized. You may be young, but you are not a child. Kindly do not behave like one."