"We are such stuff
As dreams are made on; and our little life
Is rounded with a sleep."
The Tempest Act 4, scene 1, 156"158
Rhys had discovered the small gym in Riley's dance studio. It was complete with a punching bag, which was just the thing he needed right now to take out his frustrations. He'd done a little boxing back in NYC and he and John had even done a little street fighting. He hadn't put gloves on in years, but it was like riding a bike; a skill once learned that you didn't easily forget.
After going home and grumbling blackly under her breath for an hour while she folded 28 of the 1000 paper cranes needed for the wedding, Riley calmed down enough to think rationally." Yes, she was angry and hurt and confused, but she'd had more than a year to process all of those feelings." Rhys had had, what?" A few weeks?" He deserved an apology and an attempt at real, rational communication." After all, their lives most likely depended upon it. So, after changing out of the dress and heels she'd been wearing and into jogging pants and a hooded sweatshirt, she kissed David and headed out to track Rhys down and apologise profusely." Well, okay, not profusely, but as much as she felt was appropriate.
He had taped his hands beneath the gloves to protect them and he'd changed into sweatpants and a t-shirt, both of which were damp with sweat. He had tuned everything out around him and was completely focused on that bag, all of his anger and frustration and pain going into the punches. Logically, Rhys knew none of this was Riley's fault anymore than it was his. He blamed the demons for everything, like he always did. They'd given him the shaft most of his life, and he was ready for some serious revenge, starting with either Na'amah or Lilith. He wasn't sure which."
She headed first to the Gardens, hoping that he'd just gone home after leaving the Inn earlier." He could have gone somewhere else to drink, and that meant that she'd just have to follow his scent all over town." It was a little too cold to do that, so she told herself that if he wasn't there, she'd hang out in the Studio's office and look over the books while she waited for him to come home.
He'd actually stayed at the inn and had finally gotten a beer, chatting up a cute blond named Quinn before finally heading back to his apartment, but he kept going back to the argument with Riley and too wired to sleep, he'd finally gone to the Studios, where David had told him he was welcome to use the equipment.
Stepping into the ground floor hallway, she first heard the steady, rhythmic pounding of someone using the heavy bag and then caught Rhys's scent." She smirked; at least he was doing something healthy to burn off all that anger." She half expected to find him three sheets to the wind or in bed with a random girl." The corners of her mouth pulled down at that thought, but she shoved it away; she didn't have claim on him anymore." What - and who " he did was his own concern.
He'd been throwing punches at that stupid bag for over half an hour and though he'd worked up a sweat, he didn't feel even close to being ready to stop. He was totally focused on what he was doing. If he could direct that same focus and determination toward his problems, he might be a lot better off. He hadn't talked to anyone about what was going on in his head. He'd only lightly touched on his past and problems with' Aurelia, not wanting to go down that road. While he was clearly hurting over losing Riley, the loss of Patrick had only broken his heart.
He'd tried to rationalize things. He knew David was good for Riley. Safe. Supportive. But he hadn't had much time to come to grips with it all, and he couldn't deny that he was still deeply in love with her, despite all their problems. Time, they say, heals all wounds, but he wasn't sure he was going to survive this time and he wasn't sure he wanted to. If his destiny and his purpose was to protect her, he'd do that, even if it killed him, and then there would be peace.
She slipped into the Studios, lingering in the doorway to the dance/bagua room, and watched him carefully before announcing her presence." Her heart felt like it was suddenly constricted in a vise and it was difficult to draw a breath." For months, she'd shut her heart away, keeping everyone she knew at arm's length while she waited to hear what had been his fate." Then, when she found she couldn't take it anymore and had to let go and move on, Gina told her that he was alive...but didn't remember anything." She thought that knowing for certain that he had been killed would have been the worst thing she could have heard, but she was wrong." Learning that he didn't remember her, or Patrick, or John was beyond heart-breaking." And now..." Now he was here, in Rhy'Din, with all of his memories back and she found that with them came back all the feelings she thought she'd buried deeply. Finally unable to stand it any longer, she rapped firmly on the door frame and cleared her throat." "Uh..." Am I bothering you?" she asked.
Unlike her, he didn't sense her presence. He was too focused, too lost in his own thoughts, slamming away at that punching bag as if it would somehow make things all better. The pain was still there, fresh, raw, and close to the surface. As hard as he tried to bury it, ignore it, focus on what needed to be done, as soon as he was in the same room as Riley and especially when she was with David, the wound in his heart was reopened."
Somehow her voice broke through the disarray of thoughts and feelings, her sudden presence unexpected, to say the least. He caught the bag with one gloved hand and turned his head toward her, the anger and grief apparent on his face for a moment before he threw up a wall to hide his feelings. "What are you doing here?" He didn't mean the question to come out sounding rude, but he had trouble keeping the pain from his voice.
That pain and grief that showed on his face for a split-second stabbed straight at her heart and made her want to lash out in anger at him, to hurt him as much as he'd hurt her by daring to look at her like that." Instead, though, she closed her eyes, counted slowly to five, and then said in a relatively level, calm voice, "I wanted to see if you....if your hand was okay." And..." I wanted to apologise, too."
If he was okay. No, he wasn't okay. He wasn't ever going to be okay. He didn't mean to hurt her, didn't want to hurt her or make things worse, but he rarely thought before he spoke and words spilled out that he didn't mean to say. "I'm fine, Ri. And you don't have anything to apologize for." His hand was still on the punching bag, and now that she was there, all the anger and the fight went out of him. He wanted to take her in his arms and remind her what they'd once meant to each other. He couldn't, though. She no longer belonged to him; she belonged to someone else and with that thought he turned away, so she couldn't see the feelings that were written all over his face.
She shook her head and crossed her arms loosely over her stomach, still leaning against the door frame." "I do, though." I was...selfish and just plain mean earlier tonight.?" She tried on a smile, but found it didn't fit, so she let it go." "There was no reason for me to behave like that.? As difficult as this is on me, it's gotta be a thousand times worse for you."
The Tempest Act 4, scene 1, 156"158
Rhys had discovered the small gym in Riley's dance studio. It was complete with a punching bag, which was just the thing he needed right now to take out his frustrations. He'd done a little boxing back in NYC and he and John had even done a little street fighting. He hadn't put gloves on in years, but it was like riding a bike; a skill once learned that you didn't easily forget.
After going home and grumbling blackly under her breath for an hour while she folded 28 of the 1000 paper cranes needed for the wedding, Riley calmed down enough to think rationally." Yes, she was angry and hurt and confused, but she'd had more than a year to process all of those feelings." Rhys had had, what?" A few weeks?" He deserved an apology and an attempt at real, rational communication." After all, their lives most likely depended upon it. So, after changing out of the dress and heels she'd been wearing and into jogging pants and a hooded sweatshirt, she kissed David and headed out to track Rhys down and apologise profusely." Well, okay, not profusely, but as much as she felt was appropriate.
He had taped his hands beneath the gloves to protect them and he'd changed into sweatpants and a t-shirt, both of which were damp with sweat. He had tuned everything out around him and was completely focused on that bag, all of his anger and frustration and pain going into the punches. Logically, Rhys knew none of this was Riley's fault anymore than it was his. He blamed the demons for everything, like he always did. They'd given him the shaft most of his life, and he was ready for some serious revenge, starting with either Na'amah or Lilith. He wasn't sure which."
She headed first to the Gardens, hoping that he'd just gone home after leaving the Inn earlier." He could have gone somewhere else to drink, and that meant that she'd just have to follow his scent all over town." It was a little too cold to do that, so she told herself that if he wasn't there, she'd hang out in the Studio's office and look over the books while she waited for him to come home.
He'd actually stayed at the inn and had finally gotten a beer, chatting up a cute blond named Quinn before finally heading back to his apartment, but he kept going back to the argument with Riley and too wired to sleep, he'd finally gone to the Studios, where David had told him he was welcome to use the equipment.
Stepping into the ground floor hallway, she first heard the steady, rhythmic pounding of someone using the heavy bag and then caught Rhys's scent." She smirked; at least he was doing something healthy to burn off all that anger." She half expected to find him three sheets to the wind or in bed with a random girl." The corners of her mouth pulled down at that thought, but she shoved it away; she didn't have claim on him anymore." What - and who " he did was his own concern.
He'd been throwing punches at that stupid bag for over half an hour and though he'd worked up a sweat, he didn't feel even close to being ready to stop. He was totally focused on what he was doing. If he could direct that same focus and determination toward his problems, he might be a lot better off. He hadn't talked to anyone about what was going on in his head. He'd only lightly touched on his past and problems with' Aurelia, not wanting to go down that road. While he was clearly hurting over losing Riley, the loss of Patrick had only broken his heart.
He'd tried to rationalize things. He knew David was good for Riley. Safe. Supportive. But he hadn't had much time to come to grips with it all, and he couldn't deny that he was still deeply in love with her, despite all their problems. Time, they say, heals all wounds, but he wasn't sure he was going to survive this time and he wasn't sure he wanted to. If his destiny and his purpose was to protect her, he'd do that, even if it killed him, and then there would be peace.
She slipped into the Studios, lingering in the doorway to the dance/bagua room, and watched him carefully before announcing her presence." Her heart felt like it was suddenly constricted in a vise and it was difficult to draw a breath." For months, she'd shut her heart away, keeping everyone she knew at arm's length while she waited to hear what had been his fate." Then, when she found she couldn't take it anymore and had to let go and move on, Gina told her that he was alive...but didn't remember anything." She thought that knowing for certain that he had been killed would have been the worst thing she could have heard, but she was wrong." Learning that he didn't remember her, or Patrick, or John was beyond heart-breaking." And now..." Now he was here, in Rhy'Din, with all of his memories back and she found that with them came back all the feelings she thought she'd buried deeply. Finally unable to stand it any longer, she rapped firmly on the door frame and cleared her throat." "Uh..." Am I bothering you?" she asked.
Unlike her, he didn't sense her presence. He was too focused, too lost in his own thoughts, slamming away at that punching bag as if it would somehow make things all better. The pain was still there, fresh, raw, and close to the surface. As hard as he tried to bury it, ignore it, focus on what needed to be done, as soon as he was in the same room as Riley and especially when she was with David, the wound in his heart was reopened."
Somehow her voice broke through the disarray of thoughts and feelings, her sudden presence unexpected, to say the least. He caught the bag with one gloved hand and turned his head toward her, the anger and grief apparent on his face for a moment before he threw up a wall to hide his feelings. "What are you doing here?" He didn't mean the question to come out sounding rude, but he had trouble keeping the pain from his voice.
That pain and grief that showed on his face for a split-second stabbed straight at her heart and made her want to lash out in anger at him, to hurt him as much as he'd hurt her by daring to look at her like that." Instead, though, she closed her eyes, counted slowly to five, and then said in a relatively level, calm voice, "I wanted to see if you....if your hand was okay." And..." I wanted to apologise, too."
If he was okay. No, he wasn't okay. He wasn't ever going to be okay. He didn't mean to hurt her, didn't want to hurt her or make things worse, but he rarely thought before he spoke and words spilled out that he didn't mean to say. "I'm fine, Ri. And you don't have anything to apologize for." His hand was still on the punching bag, and now that she was there, all the anger and the fight went out of him. He wanted to take her in his arms and remind her what they'd once meant to each other. He couldn't, though. She no longer belonged to him; she belonged to someone else and with that thought he turned away, so she couldn't see the feelings that were written all over his face.
She shook her head and crossed her arms loosely over her stomach, still leaning against the door frame." "I do, though." I was...selfish and just plain mean earlier tonight.?" She tried on a smile, but found it didn't fit, so she let it go." "There was no reason for me to behave like that.? As difficult as this is on me, it's gotta be a thousand times worse for you."