Topic: Not A Moment Too Soon

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 06:59 EST
((Contains reference to adult situations.))

As winter finally gave way to spring, Avalon came into bloom. Not merely in its rich greenery and fragrant flowers, but alive with life. With the bitter weather no longer restricting activity, the town bustled with people going about their work and their play, centered upon the Temple and the Abbey with the fondness of everyday affection. Carts and horses traveled the streets, vendors sold their wares, and in the Institute where the Templars made their home, the scholar began to appear from the warm rooms where they had spent their winter, bent over books, walking blinking into the sunlight. There were sparring matches in the courtyard once again, watched by the Master at Arms, and around the cloister could be found the learned and the learning, singly or in groups. Each of them lifted their heads to smile and nod in greeting as the Lady's Champion and her Priestess walked by, their steps taking them toward the great library, where they had been assured of finding someone they had not seen in several months.

The Lady's Champion and her Priestess were dressed like those around them, in the simple garb that always reminded Rhys of a Renaissance Faire. He was always struck by how friendly and welcoming the people here were, acknowledging his and Nat's presence with a friendly smile and a respectful nod, unlike New York where they tried to blend with the crowd and avoid notice. He wondered what the Lady's Handmaidens would say to see their Priestess in a family way, and the thought made him smile with pride and joy and just a little bit of mischief. "It's funny how at home I feel here now," Rhys told his wife as they strolled arm and arm through the streets of Avalon on their way to the library.

"You get to wear a sword openly, of course you feel at home," she teased him softly, hugging his arm with a smile as they stepped through the grey stone gates of the Institute to the clang of metal against metal. They arrived just in time to see a particularly ungainly man with flaxen yellow hair take a rather humiliating fall, made worse by the laugh as the Master at Arms slapped his rear end with the flat of his own sword. Nat smothered a snicker of her own. "Who in God's name gave Yves a sword?"

Rhys narrowed his eyes at the scene taking place before them, unsure whether to feel sorry for poor Yves or laugh at loud at his situation. In the end, sympathy won out over amusement. "Good question, but more importantly, why?" he asked curiously as they watched from a small distance, Rhys' hand resting lightly on the pommel of his own sword that hung from his waist.

"He probably asked," Nat told him, watching as Yves got up, adjusted his spectacles, and charged again, only to go head over heels into the dust once more. "He seems to think that it is not enough, what he does here. He thinks he will never be a true Templar until he can fight like one. Every few months, he asks the Master at Arms to teach him, and every few months, he has to give up because he's aching too much to go on." She smiled gently at the scene. "And yet there is no one else on Avalon who knows what he knows about magic and its mastery."

"He's not learning anything," Rhys pointed out as they watched. "He's just getting his *ss handed to him." He thought if he'd been given the chance, he might be able to teach the mage a thing or two or maybe....A thought popped into his head, but he kept it to himself for the moment. "It just takes practice and perseverance," he remarked. "I could teach him, if I had the time."

"Well, perhaps you can make the time," she said softly. "After we see our brother and make him take us to wherever our sister is hiding today." With a gentle laugh, she gave his arm a tug, drawing him away from the sparring matches and into the Great library itself, with its tall ceiling open to the sky to allow the trees that grew within access to the light from the sun above.

"This really is a magical place," he said as she drew him into the Great Library where he stood once more in awe of the place, just as he was the first time he'd been here and every time since. He felt the first hint of nerves at the thought of seeing his sister and her spouse again. Had it only been a few months since they'd last been here, since they'd witnessed the wedding vows that now bound the pair together" It had been cold and snow-covered then, quiet and peaceful with winter, and now, it was like the place had come to life again, the snow melting away with the arrival of spring, renewing the world and bringing it once again alive with life. "Actually, I was thinking maybe Zach could give him a few lessons." He'd been an angel once; it stood to reason that he knew how to wield a sword.

Nat paused, a little surprised by the suggestion. "Do you think he would?" she asked curiously, her voice lowered out of habit, despite the fact that one man's booming laughter was helping them to pinpoint who they were looking for. Sir Lionel, Grand Master of the Order of the Temple of Avalon, could be found leaning against one of the great trunks that rose toward the ceiling surrounding the entry to the Treasury, slapping his thigh as he laughed at something Zachariel had either said or done. Evidently the former angel had managed to win the Grand Master's favor in the past months.

Zachariel more than likely didn't know what he'd said or done to amuse the Grand Master, but it was better the man was laughing at him than shouting at him.

"I think Zach would have a hard time saying no to anyone who asked for a favor," Rhys replied, smiling as he heard the Grand Master before he saw him. "Sir Lionel!" he called. "I trust you are treating my brother-in-law with kindness," he said, with a teasing smirk.

"Ah, my Lord Champion!" Sir Lionel straightened up, his grin wide beneath his whiskers, and bowed to Rhys and Nat formally before seizing Rhys' hand in a firm grip. "Welcome back to Avalon," he told them both warmly, releasing Rhys to sweep Nat up into an embrace that ended abruptly with a squawk as he looked down at her. "You're pregnant!"

Nat laughed cheerfully, patting the swell at her waist with a grin. "Ah, so you are not getting short-sighted in your old age, then."

There was a time when Rhys might have replied with a snarky remark or gotten jealous of the older man's open affection for his wife, but that time had long since passed. Lionel was arguably the closest thing to a father-figure that Natalya had, and Rhys had become genuinely fond of the man. He returned the handshake with equal fervor, a wide grin on his face, knowing they were among friends. The visits to Avalon always felt like they were returning home.

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:01 EST
"We've been busy fulfilling the Lady's premonition," Rhys said, sliding an affectionate arm around Nat's waist once the Grand Master let go of her. He turned to find a tall blond man hovering on the edge of the little group, as if he was unsure what to do. "Zach!" Rhys greeted the fallen angel who had become his sister's spouse. "Sir Lionel here isn't being too hard on you, I hope."

"Busy is one way of putting it," Sir Lionel chuckled. Whatever had passed between himself and Zachariel before their arrival had apparently put him in an uncommonly good mood.

As Rhys' attention turned to his brother-in-law, Nat did the same, though she wasn't as exuberant as her husband. She knew what it was like to feel like an outsider, offering Zach a warm smile instead. "You look well, Zachariel."

The angel smiled a bit shyly back at the couple as they greeted him and brought him into the conversation. He was slowly getting used his new life in Avalon, though he sometimes forgot that he was no longer invisible and unseen to mortals. "As do you, Natalya," he returned politely, unable to keep his eyes from straying to the obvious bump that indicated she was with child. He had seen witnessed it often enough throughout his countless years spent as an angel, though he had only been an observer and guardian. "You are with child," he stated the obvious in his bluntly-honest way.

She chuckled softly, patting the swell of her bump. "You knew that before I left the last time," she pointed out gently. "But I suppose it is easier to believe now that there is evidence."

Sir Lionel snorted. "Evidence, indeed," he chuffed cheerfully. "I could roll you up and use you to bowl, girl."

Rhys laughed and clapped the angel on the back. "Yes, she is. Did you think we were faking it?" he asked, a teasing twinkle in his eyes.

"Well, no," Zach replied, uncertainly. "But there is no denying it now." A few months ago, Zach might have commented on Lionel's remark and pointed out that using Nat for a bowling ball might not be advisable, but since then he had gotten used to the man and knew he was making a joke.

"It's a girl!" Rhys announced, though that might be common knowledge by now. "Is it okay if I tell them it's a girl?" he asked Natalya suddenly, as an afterthought.

"Blessed by the Lady, of course it's a bloody girl," Sir Lionel chuckled, shaking his head at the wild enthusiasm, cutting off any objection Nat might have made as she, too, giggled softly at her husband.

"Sir Lionel, may we shorten Zachariel's day and take him home?" she asked the Grand Master politely, ignoring the conversation about her midsection. "We've been away for a while, after all."

Sir Lionel eyed her suspiciously for the courtesy, but nodded, gently chucking her cheek. "If Zachariel can tear himself away, you're welcome to him. Family should always be a priority, even for the Champion and his lady."

Rhys chuckled at Lionel's assessment of the situation, as well as at the look of obvious befuddlement on the former angel's face. "But we were just about to..." Zach started, before being interrupted by his brother-in-law.

"Not anymore! Whatever you were doing can wait," Rhys said, clasping Zach's shoulder fondly. "We came here to see you and Rachel," he added.

Zach glanced to Lionel, as if for his leave, though it seemed the man had already given his permission. "I shall take you to her then," he replied, hesitating a moment before adding, "She is not with child yet."

"The Library is always here, Zachariel," Sir Lionel assured his companion, knowing better than to clap him on the shoulder as he obviously wanted to. "And so am I. Go and show off your empty-bellied wife to her brother." He chuckled once again, moving to step away and leave the little family together.

Natalya laughed softly, shaking her head. "You boys are all as bad as each other," she informed them, turning back toward the door. "Is Rachel at your home, then, Zachariel?"

"What does he mean by that?" Zach asked. "Empty-bellied" The Lady said we are not ready yet."

Rhys winked over at Nat at the angel's question and reached for her hand. "Don't worry about it, Zach. He's just trying to get under your skin."

Unfortunately, Rhys' reply only confused Zachariel further and he turned his gaze to Natalya and the question he knew how to answer. "Yes, she's at home. Our home here in Avalon."

"Sir Lionel is a gruff old tyrant who likes getting people upset over nothing, bratishka," Nat informed Zach, to the accompaniment of the Grand Master's laughter as he walked away from them. She gave Rhys' hand a gentle tug, reaching to curl her other arm through Zach's affectionately. "Take us home with you, Zachariel."

Zach leaned his head toward Nat's as she took hold of his arm, his question meant for her ears alone, though Rhys could not help overhearing. "Is it wrong of us to wait to have a child?" he asked, wondering what exactly was expected of them.

Rhys had to hold back an amused snort, letting Natalya field that question. He'd already given his best birds and the bees speech and wasn't about to repeat it, if he could help it.

She ignored the snort from the other side of her, though she couldn't help the small smile that rose because of her husband's response to Zach's quiet question. "No, bratishka, it is not wrong," she assured him quietly, wondering what was going on that the usually private angel would ask her something like that where there were other ears to hear. "The Lady sees all in Avalon, and she has power here that many do not notice in their everyday. You and Rachel, you are not ready to have children yet. When you are ready, it will happen. The Lady will see to it."

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:02 EST
"But..." The angel frowned, looking confusing and glanced to Rhys with a questioning look on his face.

Rhys chuckled and lifted a hand to wave that question off. "Don't look at me! If you want to know about babies, you gonna have to talk to Nat." He flashed a wicked grin at his wife as he let go of her hand. "I'll meet you both there. Have fun!" And off he trotted, leaving Natalya alone with Zach to answer his questions.

Nat's jaw dropped as Rhys moved ahead of them, realizing he'd left her to smooth this one over on her own. "Trus," she muttered at his back, turning her eyes back to Zach curiously. "What has happened?"

Rhys cackled with laughter as he sauntered off, more amused at Nat's insult than anything else. She'd called him a coward, and he was not about to deny it, though he might find himself having to answer some equally difficult questions when he caught up with his sister.

Zach watched as Rhys departed, genuinely confused why the other man seemed to find the situation so amusing. He blinked back to Nat at her question. "Happened" Nothing. I was just wondering if we were expected to have conceived a child by now. Are you disappointed that we have not?"

"No." This time, she laughed just a little, hugging his arm as they walked along in Rhys' wake. "Zachariel, it is nobody's business but yours when or even if you have children. We are happy just that you and Rachel are healthy and at peace. We want nothing more than for you to be happy." Her head tilted curiously as she looked up at him. "Did you truly think that the Lady would let you become overwhelmed with life before you have settled as you are?"

"I do not think I always make her happy," he admitted worriedly. "I am not always sure what she wants," he added, finding it difficult to explain. "I am not very....experienced at being a man." It was true, he had not been human for very long, but he ached with the desire to make Rachel happy more than anything he had ever wanted before.

Natalya smiled gently, squeezing his arm. "Surely you must have noticed in your long time of watching that lovers do not always make each other happy?" she asked him quietly. "You are what she wants, she has been very clear about that, and I think you both make each other happy in the best way. But there will always be mistakes or misunderstandings that will make a little tension between you. So tell me ....what has happened that makes you think she is not happy?"

"I do not know," he replied, frowning a little as he tried to sort it out in his head and put things into words. "I think I disappoint her sometimes. I am not sure I give her what she wants." From the look on his face, this seemed to be troubling him, though it was difficult to put into words exactly what the problem was.

Oh, good lord. Marital difficulties were not something Nat was an expert at; she'd only been married herself a little over a year, and besides that, she and Rhys seemed able to avoid misunderstandings such as this one. "Have you asked her what it is she wants?" she asked Zach curiously. "You cannot know if you are failing, if you do not know what it is that is wanted."

"Natalya..." he started, coming to a halt and turning to face her. "The Lady has told us it is not yet time for us to have a child. I think this troubles her somehow. Why do you think that is?" he asked, almost as innocently as a child. He was definitely not ready for New York and the modern world, no matter how many millenia he might have observed humanity.

Ah. The penny dropped, and Nat thought she might actually understand what was going on here. "I think I understand," she smiled, holding Zach's hands gently between them. "All her life, Rachel has been denied one thing that we have all had in some way. She was denied family. Now she has the beginning of it, and she wants it all, now, before it can be taken away from her again. Perhaps she resents the Lady for denying her a child just now, but you can reassure her, you can promise her children. I know, because I have seen them. Not this year, not next year, but I think the year after, you will be ready for a child, both of you, and you will have him. But that is no reason for either one of you to hold your affections back from one another. The Lady will not allow it to happen until you are both ready to be parents."

Zach listened intently as Natalya very patiently explained what she thought the problem was. Most of it made sense to him, except for one thing. "I do not hold back my affection, but..." There was that look of troubled confusion on his face again and perhaps a little sadness. "A year is a very long time. How will we know when it will be the right time" Will the Lady tell us when we should..." He broke off, leaving the rest of the statement unspoken.

Nat stared at him. "Oh, please, bratishka, tell me you have not been refusing to make love to your wife," she said, in a warning tone.

"Refusing?" he echoed. "I do not deny Rachel anything. Whatever she wishes, I am happy to give it." Maybe not, but a woman who was as innocent as a child might not quite know how to communicate what it was that she wanted. "We have consummated our marriage," he replied awkwardly. "I do not wish to....to force myself on her if she is not ready to have a child."

"Oh, dear." It was a bit of a struggle not to laugh at this point, as Zach fumbled his way through confirming her suspicion without actually saying it aloud. Unfortunately for him, however, his sister-in-law was a blunt sort of person. Drawing him off the path and into some semblance of privacy, she gripped his hands, looking into the former angel's eyes, daring him to lie to her. "Have you had full penetrative sex with your wife since you consummated your marriage?"

He looked a bit startled by her reaction as she led him off the path, his expression turning serious and a little embarrassed at the question that followed. "No, I..." He broke off again, that confused expression returning to his face. "Have I done something wrong, Natalya" I only wish to make Rachel happy." He looked not only worried, but a little ashamed.

"Zachariel ..." She sighed softly, wondering just how to explain this to him so he would understand. "When the Lady says you are not ready for children, she does not mean physically. You are more than capable, you and your wife, of conceiving and of bearing a child. But you are both barely more than children yourselves. Your minds need to learn how to be adult, mortal, together. You need to reach a point where you do not learn something important every day that comes. A parent is not just the one from whom you come. Your parents are your protectors, your teachers. How can you teach, if you do not yet know? That is what the Lady means by not ready. But if she knew you were denying yourself and Rachel one of the most basic means of sharing love ....she would be speechless."

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:03 EST
"Then it is not just about....procreation?" he asked, curiously. He was old enough to remember Sodom and Gomorrah and the punishment that came to that place, but he and Rachel were not immoral in their desire for one another, were they' They were married; the Lady herself had joined them in marriage and blessed their union. Zachariel sighed, looking much younger than his countless years. "It is confusing, being human."

"Oh, bratishka." She reached up to pat his cheek gently, letting her smile show. "You have watched humanity for so long, and yet you learned so little. It is not just about procreation - if it were, Rhys and I would have stopped as soon as I became pregnant. But we have not, and we will not. There are many ways to show you love someone, but the most powerful, the simplest, the most primal, basic way is to make love to them." She sighed softly, shaking her head. "Too many rejections hurt deeply. Rachel may begin to believe that you do not care for her, because you do not show her how you want her."

"I love her more than life," he tried to explain, once again, mere mortal words inadequate to explain his feelings. "She is everything to me. She is the reason for my existence." He was starting to understand that, even after eons of observation, he still had a lot to learn about being human. "I do not want her to feel unloved."

"If you do not show her how much you love her, if you keep your distance and hold your passions back from her, they will begin to be just words," Nat warned him gently. "She will stop believing them, because you offer her only words and nothing else. A touch can say more, a kiss even more so. Think, then, what a night in each other's arms can say." She watched him carefully, hoping he was understanding what she was saying. Rhys would probably kill her for actively encouraging the continuing carnal corruption of his sister, but it wasn't his marriage at stake here. "The Lady will keep you from conceiving a child until the time is right. You have no reason to deny each other your passion, bratishka."

"You are certain this is what she wants" That this will make her happy?" he asked, needing that little bit of reassurance and guidance. He had no one else to ask these things of really; no one to give them guidance, too shy to ask such things of the Grand Master or the Lady. He turned his head in the direction of the modest but cozy home he shared with his beloved, wondering if it was too late to make it up to her.

"I think it would be a good place to start," his sister-in-law assured him softly. "And you will find that words come more easily after you have shared your love in that way. Whatever happens, Zachariel, you must always talk to each other. Misunderstandings can cause a great deal of damage."

"I did not understand. I am sorry," he said, hanging his head in shame and guilt. The last thing in the world he wanted was to make Rachel unhappy.

Nat raised her fingers, snapping them together in front of his nose. "Enough of that," she told him sharply. "How is that going to rectify the situation' The moment she feels you have changed your ways because of some shame you feel, because of the words we have shared, is the moment you lose her. She will think you have only come to her because I have told you to, or because your guilt compelled you. And that will hurt her more than anything you can think of."

"Then how am I to change things" How am I to explain" How do I make it up to her?" Should he just tell her the truth, like he'd just told Natalya" Would she forgive him or blame him' "I truly love her. You must tell me what to do." He looked almost frantic with worry. If he lost Rachel, then there was no point in living.

"If you truly love her, then you must feel some desire for her, da?" Nat eyed him, her brows raised as she considered this conundrum he'd laid squarely at her feet. "You must have been suppressing that desire, that need, to be with your wife in the closest sense. Stop suppressing it. And when you are done, and she asks you why you have changed your mind, tell her the truth. Do not lie. But do not let her think that you have acted out of anything but love for her."

He nodded slowly, as this answer seemed to make sense, and turned to start back toward the house as though he was ready to set things right then and there, that very minute. Of course he both loved and desired her, but eons of being taught that lust was wrong had led him to believe that he was doing the right thing in trying to remain chaste until she was ready to have a child.

Left behind, Nat paused for a moment to laugh helplessly at the situation. Since when was she the voice of reason' What on earth had possessed Zach to wait until he saw her to start asking questions? Perhaps the Grand Master was right - the Champion was the strength of the Isle, the Priestess its sense. Perhaps. Still chuckling to herself, she hitched up her skirts to walk after Zach in the direction of his house, hoping like hell Rachel hadn't spilled the beans to Rhys while they'd been waiting for them.

It wasn't that Zach wasn't thoughtful enough to wait for Natalya, but now that he understood what he'd done wrong, he was in a hurry to set things right as soon as he was able, and there was no time like the present. Perhaps it was a blessing that Nat and Rhys had chose this time to visit, unknowingly healing two hearts and possibly saving a marriage in the process. A long stride took him quickly to the house he shared with his beloved wife, glancing back only once to make sure Natalya was following safely behind him, unworried for her safety. It was Avalon, after all. There was nothing here that would cause her any harm.

What greeted Zachariel as he came within earshot of the goings on within his own home was the sound of a wooden spoon hitting the back of Rhys' hand, accompanied by the gentle peal of Rachel's laughter. "Let them cool," she was saying, turning away from the table where the cakes had just been set from the oven to replace the spoon she'd just assaulted her brother with. "You'll burn yourself if you try eating them now."

The fallen angel burst through the door without any fanfare, his gaze sweeping the room before settling on his wife. "Pardon me, Rathanael, but I must have a word with my wife," he told his brother-in-law without looking his way.

Rhys arched a brow, the chuckle at his sister's scolding dying on his lips. "My name is Rhys," he reminded the other former angel, not for the first time.

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:04 EST
Zachariel's unexpected entrance made Rachel jump, green eyes turning toward the door with alarm at the sight of him. His announcement to Rhys didn't help, either. "What is it?" she asked worriedly. "Has something happened" Did I do something wrong?" She glanced over his shoulder, wondering where he'd left Nat.

"No, you have not done anything wrong," he replied as he crossed the room toward her, reaching for her hand. "It is only that I want you to know how much I love you. I need you to know how much I love you, Rachel."

Rhys' brows arched higher, wondering what the heck was going on and what had been said between the angel and Natalya to bring this sudden outpouring of affection forth. Whatever it was, he thought it might be a good enough distraction to steal a cake. Of course, it was just like Rhys to think of his stomach.

Rachel blinked in confusion, those large eyes not quite quick enough to hide the painful sting that came as her husband spoke. "I do know," she tried to tell him as he took her hand. "You tell me every day, my love."

Behind Zach, Nat reached the doorway, smirking at the sight of her own husband stealing a cake from the table. She raised a hand to beckon to him, having a pretty good idea of what was about to happen, with or without an audience.

"Yes, but I have not shown you. I have not loved you properly as a husband should," he continued, ignoring or forgetting that Rhys was there and that Nat wasn't far behind. He had already warned Rhys that he needed a word with his wife. It wasn't his fault if the other man didn't listen.

As for Rhys, he looked over at Natalya with a curious look on his face, gesturing toward the couple as if to ask what was going on.

Rachel blushed deeply, acutely aware that her brother was still in the room even as she looked up at Zachariel. "Y-you sh-should not do it if it is n-not something you w-want to do," she managed, her stutter always there when she was confused or concerned, or at a loss.

Nat glared at Rhys, her gesture for him to come out of the house getting a lot more pronounced. He would regret it if she had to come in there to get him, that much was obvious.

"I do want to, Rachel," Zach told her gently, a soft smile on his face as he gave her hand a gentle squeeze. "I have always wanted to. If it is what you wish, my beloved. I only want to make you happy."

Rhys tossed Nat another look, shaking his head lightly, as he reached to steal a second cake, finding this all very interesting and entertaining.

"B-but you said no," Rachel stammered, uncertain and growing distressed just at the remembrance of the times she had tried in her own clumsy way and been gently put down. "You always s-say no."

There was a long-suffering sigh from the doorway, and Nat marched into the house, taking hold of her husband's arm and pulling him bodily out into the sunshine.

"No?" Rhys echoed aloud, brows furrowing as Nat tugged him from the house, but not before he could snag a third cake, taking full advantage of the situation. Before he could ask any more, he had been dragged from the house and out into the sunshine, leaving the newlyweds to sort things out in private.

Shutting the door behind them, Nat pinched the end of Rhys' nose. "Be glad you do not know what is happening in there, milaya," she told him cheerfully. "Just be thankful that they will both be in a better mood this evening."

One of the cakes was already being scarfed down by the Lady's Champion, who seemed to have an insatiable appetite and not just for food. He smirked as his nose got pinched, and slipped an arm around his wife's expanding waist. "I can make a pretty good guess," he said around a mouthful of cake.

She laughed as he drew her close. "I take it your sister is a passable cook, then," she commented on his enjoyment of his theft cheerfully, glancing back at the house they had just left thoughtfully. "Do you want me to tell you the mistakes of their marriage, or would rather present yourself to the Lady?"

"More than passable," he replied with a smirk. "I would rather make love to my wife," he added as he offered her a bite of one of the stolen cakes. He knew very well that every marriage was full of mistakes and misunderstandings, but he was confident there was enough love between his sister and the fallen angel to pull them through. He couldn't think of any better way to spend the afternoon, though he knew they would have to greet the Lady sooner or later.

"Then perhaps we should visit our own home," she suggested, taking a small bite of the stolen baked good, surprised and impressed by how well it tasted. "And make sure the bed is in working order. Da, dusha moya?"

"Da, dusha moya," he replied with a grin as he popped the rest of the cake into his mouth. He handed the last cake to her, before sweeping her up into his arms and carrying her off to the place that served as their own home in Rhy'Din to make sure the bed was in proper working order.

In the little home they had left behind them, Rachel stared up at her husband, confused and uncertain. "W-why are you saying these things?" she asked him, distressed that she didn't understand the sudden change in him. "Y-you have always said no, always. And now y-you want to do this with me, but nothing has ch-changed. I don't understand."

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:04 EST
"Because, my beloved Rachel," he started as he gently stroked her cheek, a soft smile on his face, despite the feelings of shame and guilt and stupidity that hung over him, "I have only been mortal for a little while, and I do not always understand mortal things." He took her face in his hands, fingers gently stroking her hair. "Can you ever forgive me for being such a fool" I love you and want you with all my heart and mind and body," he said, hoping she'd understand what it was he was trying to tell her.

She couldn't help melting at his touch, at the sight of that smile, deeply susceptible to her husband's gentle manner, no matter how resentful she might feel about his self-confessed mistakes. Her hands crept up to rest against his chest, fingers gently tugging at the fabric of his tunic, utterly unable to deny her own desire for him, born of the love she felt. "I could forgive you anything, Zachariel," she promised him in a tender whisper, the uncertainty still there but easily pushed aside by other, more immediate wishes. "I-I thought you didn't want me anymore. That ....that y-you didn't love me anymore."

His voice gentled, his gaze softening further. "I have always loved you and will always love you. I need you, Rachel. My life is empty and meaningless without you," he told her, sliding his arms around her to take her into his embrace. "I just want to make you happy."

"And ....and you have decided that you want a baby?" she asked, still a little confused as to what, exactly, was going on here. And just why it had been necessary to let her brother see the beginning of this conversation in the first place. She loved Rhys, but she had a feeling he wasn't above teasing both of them about this.

"We will have a baby when the time is right," he replied. "As the Lady has promised. But until then, we are to love each other as husband and wife in all ways possible." He stepped back a pace so that he could take hold of her hands. "If you will let me, I promise to be a proper husband and to never let you think I don't love you again."

The confusion in her gaze eased as he explained to her, as she slowly came to realize that what she had assumed was his absolute certainty had been his mistake. That her mistake had been to think that he didn't want her, simply because he didn't act upon that feeling. Her hands gripped his tightly. "Then why are you backing away?"

"Because I want to show I mean what I say," he explained, pulling her toward him as he backed his way out of the kitchen to lead her to the bedroom. It might take all afternoon to make up for the few months they'd missed, but he was determined to prove his love to her the only way that mattered.

She followed, soft eyes a-glow with hope and loving desire, an expression he must have memorized by now. It had been turned to him so often over the past months, always rebuffed as gently as possible, always fading into quiet distress and disappointment. But not this time. As he drew her from the kitchen, Rachel felt a smile creep across her face, suddenly lunging forward to throw her arms around her husband's neck and kiss him as fervently as she could.

All the months of repressed passion and desire seemed to come to a head in that moment as she lunged forward and he caught her in his arms to return her kiss with equal fervor. How could he have been such a fool" But it was better later than never, and he would never make the same mistake again. He gathered her close and swung her up into his arms to carry her off to the bedroom where he intended to make up for his foolishness and show her what it was to be loved in every way possible.

Hours passed by in a haze of love and loving, and it was only when the twilight began to draw on that Rachel roused herself from the little bubble that contained Zachariel and no one else. One afternoon could not make up for months, but it had been a good start, and one she intended to make sure was continued, regardless of her husband's objections. Nose to nose, she kissed him over and over again, drawing her fingertips through his hair, small and fragile against his tall, strong frame, loved and protected and wanted in a way she had been longing for since the day they had been married. "I should cook," she sighed reluctantly, nuzzling close to him. "We should send word to Rhys and Natalya that they can come back now."

While one afternoon might not make up for months of misunderstanding, it was only the first of many days and nights to come for the remainder of their days. "We should, but must we" Can it not wait until morning?" he asked, as he held her close, reluctant to let go of her, even if it meant skipping dinner one night. "I have a thought," he said with a smile on his face, eyes shining in the dimming light.

To be fair, Rhys and Nat were probably not expecting to be invited back this evening, but Rachel felt better for having suggested it, anyway. There was time enough to spend with her brother and his wife tomorrow and the days that came after. Curled into her own husband's arms, she giggled softly at the smile on his face, touching her own smile to his lips before she answered him. "You have had a lot of thoughts today," she pointed out sweetly. "I haven't objected to any of them."

"Then perhaps you won't object to this," he said before pressing an affectionate kiss to her forehead. "A simple dinner in bed. I will take care of the preparations, while you relax here," he told her, touching a finger to her nose. "And then perhaps a bath. Together," he added, so she made no mistake and there was no misunderstanding.

That soft giggle made a reappearance as he laid out his thoughts for her. "You're going to leave me in bed while you cook?" she asked him curiously. "When you have been at work with the Grand Master all morning, and with me all afternoon' All I have done today is cook and clean and love you."

"I did not say I was going to cook," he pointed out with a rare teasing smirk that might leave one wondering what was going through the ex-angel's mind. It seemed he was slowly developing a sense of humor. Perhaps there was hope for him yet.

"Then what are you going to feed me for dinner?" she asked through her own smile, refusing to roll off him until he answered her seemingly unending questions. And, of course, the longer they stayed like that, the more likely it was that she was going to derail the dinner idea altogether with those tender kisses that kept peppering his face and neck.

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:05 EST
"Mmm..." he murmured as she continued to kiss him, nearly derailing his thoughts of a meal. "Food," he replied simply, giving nothing away, though the more she kissed him, the less he wanted to eat and the more he wanted to stay there with her, one appetite giving way to the another.

"We have food," she murmured, her voice somehow losing the sweet innocence that charmed almost everyone she met in favor of a huskier sound, infinitely more seductive and for his ears alone. "Uncooked food. You are being deliberately mysterious, beloved."

Reluctantly and only with immense will power, he very gently untangled himself from her embrace, his body betraying the rekindled desire he was feeling for her, the desire that he had kept under wraps for far too long. "Mmm, Rachel, I am not finished with you, but you should eat or you will grow weak." So maybe it wasn't his own stomach he was concerned with so much as it was hers, and he simply wanted to do something nice for her. They had been married for several months now, and yet, he felt closer to her in that moment than he ever had before.

So this was what Natalya had meant when she had told him of his mistake. Rachel sprawled across the bed with a playful pout, immodest when she was sure only his eyes could see her. "Perhaps you're right," she sighed impishly. "I would never forgive myself if I fainted on you." Rolling over, she reached for the matches to light the candle by the bed, casting flickering golden light over herself and the man she adored.

He frowned a little, not out of sadness, but only because now that he understood what he had missed, what they had both missed - this coupling, this coming together, this sharing of bodies in a blessed union of love - he was reluctant to leave her, if only for the few minutes it would take him to gather together a simple meal of bread and fruit and cheese. "I do not wish to leave you," he said, lingering, admiring the way the candlelight played upon her body.

She stretched lazily, brushing golden blonde hair back from her face as she gazed back at him, as admiring as he was. "I could always come with you," she suggested, before a thought occurred to her. "How do they do it, do you think, Rhys and Natalya" How do they spend so much time with one another in the company of others and not embarrass themselves or their companions with how much they want each other?"

He had not come into his own just yet as a lover and still had much to learn, but he had gotten off to a good start. He felt desire stirring inside him once more, unable to hide it from her, even if he wanted to. He reached out to touch her, almost shyly, smoothing a hand against the gentle curve of her hip, admiring her beauty with wonder and awe. "I do not know. Perhaps it gets easier with time."

She shivered under his touch, the flush of color pouring across her skin more than evidence enough that it was not the temperature that brought on the gentle spasm. "Or perhaps they are just more experienced at it," she murmured, raising her hand to echo his caress in a soft trail of fingertips over his thigh.

"Perhaps," he replied in agreement. The more she touched him and the longer he lingered, the less inclined he was to go in search of food. In that moment, it seemed she was all he'd ever want or need. He frowned a little, unsure if he should tell her the truth of why he'd had a change of heart. He could not tell a lie and he though an omission of the truth was very nearly a lie. "Natalya..." he started, frowning worriedly. "She explained to me that a husband and wife should be....intimate together. That it is how they show their love for each other. It is a sacred union between a man and a woman. I did not understand, but I understand now."

Rachel's expression mirrored his frown in quiet confusion, not wanting to take hurt but uncertain quite what he was telling her. "Then ....then you would not have done this with me, if she had not told you to?" she asked uncertainly.

"It is not that, Rachel. I am not here with you because Natalya told me to. I am here because I love you and because..." He seemed to struggle with the words a moment or the concept of physical desire. "Because I want you. Natalya explained things to me, but I am here because I want to be. Do you understand?" he asked, uncertainly, hoping she would try to understand a little.

One thing both Nat and Zach seemed to underestimate in his little golden-haired wife was just how much trust she had in her husband. Rachel smiled gently, reaching up to stroke his cheek with one small hand. "I do understand," she promised him. "You said no because ....because the way you have followed all your life has told you that feeling this way is wrong. That even a married man shouldn't feel desire for his wife." She'd been paying attention to her lessons, it seemed. "But they are wrong, aren't they' Why would we feel this way for one another if it was so forbidden" I think Natalya is right. And I am glad that you think so, too."

"Yes, but how can there be anything wrong in such a beautiful thing as this?" he asked, clearly in awe of what they had shared and would share again and again in the days to come. "Rachel," he started again, as something else came to mind, something that excited him and that he thought he should share. "We are going to have children," he told her, with that soft smile on his face again, his eyes shining with happiness, thought it had not happened yet. "I do not know how she knows, but she knows." Not child, but children, plural. More than one.

Whatever else she might have said in agreement with him was swept aside in the sudden shock and wonder of this news. Natalya's Christmas vision had not been passed on to her in so many details, so this was amazing to Rachel. "We will?" She laughed with delight, moving to curl her arms around him. Children to fill their home and bring a greater sense of family, to wipe away the mistakes and troubles of the past - it was a greater gift than she had ever thought to have. "Not just one" When?"

"A year or two..." he replied uncertainly. "I'm not sure. When the time is right. Perhaps you can ask her tomorrow," he suggested, hoping Natalya could better explain what she knew and how she knew it than he could. "It is strange for me to think that I might be a father one day."

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:06 EST
"You will be a wonderful father," she promised him tenderly, curling close to touch his lips with fresh kisses. "Our children will be blessed to have you in their lives." Our children. Not his, or hers, but theirs.

"It is more than I could have ever hoped for. You are more than I ever hoped for," he told her returning her kisses and sweeping his fingers across her cheek in a gentle caress. "I love you, Rachel. More than anyone or anything I have ever know."

She had learned by now not to tease him with declarations that she loved him more, however tempting that might be. Instead, she drew him into a kiss that poured her heart and soul into him, breaking it only to whisper words that meant the world to them both. "I love you. Until the end of time, I will always love you."

He kissed her back, opening his heart to her with that kiss, perhaps more than he ever had before. He had been willing to sacrifice his life for hers because he loved her, because he had loved her for as long as he could remember. It seemed as though he had loved her forever and would love her forever, but forever was a very long time. "I wish we could stay here in Avalon always," he whispered, not trusting his voice not to give away his emotions, his heart swelling with the rush of feelings that rose inside him at her words.

Rachel smiled, that innocence in her heart and mind enough that she had never considered leaving here. "Why can't we?" she asked him softly. "The Lady has given us a home, and one that is made for us to live in, not to visit. I am frightened of the thought of living on Earth. As much as I love my brother, I do not think I would like this New York place. I am happy here, with you. You have a purpose, and I am sure I can find one for myself, once I've learned all I need to look after my home and my family by myself. Why do we have to leave?"

When put like that, he wasn't sure how to answer. Why, indeed" He had never considered that they might stay in Avalon and live their lives there. He had always assumed she would want to join her brother on Earth, but Earth was not a place that held good memories for either of them. It was peaceful on Avalon, and though he'd been an angel, the Lady had given him the gift of mortality and allowed him to remain, if only for Rachel's sake. "I do not know," he replied, not for the first time. It seemed that despite his longevity, there was a lot he didn't know. "Perhaps we should ask the Lady for permission to stay."

"I would like to ask her for permission," she agreed softly. "Though I am sure she already knows how we feel. If we truly were intended to leave here, surely someone would have said something by now." At least, she hoped that was the case. A small part of her would break if she was forced to leave Avalon, she was certain of it.

"We will ask her then," he agreed, kissing her again, gentler this time, feeling as she did - that if they were no longer welcome here, they would have known by now. Instead, the Grand Master had taken him under his wing, and it was only a matter of time before Rachel found a purpose here herself. Somehow he knew nothing here was an accident - there was a purpose for everything and the Lady knew what that purpose was. It was only a matter of time before she shared it with them. "But for now," he continued with a smile, pausing a moment to tap her gently on the nose. "It is time to eat."

She sighed playfully, kissing his finger for his trouble. "I suppose that means you want me to get off your lap now, does it?" she asked innocently. "Didn't we already try getting something to eat and ended up closer than before?"

"We did, but I suppose we should try again or risk starvation," he teased, showing a hint of the sense of humor that was starting to make itself known since becoming mortal.

A giggling kiss was placed on his lips for that flicker of humor, and finally Rachel drew herself away from him, dropping down onto her back to pull the sheets over herself, attempting to eliminate the temptation that pulled at him. "Is this better?"

He was sorely tempted to launch himself atop her and start all over again, but there was the matter of food and it wasn't going to appear in their room like magic. "It is for now, but I will unwrap you later," he promised with a shyly impish smile that showed there might be some hope for him yet, given time. He rolled off the bed, grabbing a pair of pants almost as an afterthought, in case Rhys and Natalya decided to visit.

"You won't have to unwrap me," she threatened as he rolled away to find a pair of pants to cover himself with. "Maybe I'll dance for you. The Handmaidens have been teaching me to dance. They say every woman should dance for her husband when the night of Beltane comes by."

That gave him momentary pause, glancing over at her as he pulled on his pants and arching both brows curiously. "Dance for me?" he repeated, uncertainly. He was her husband, after all, so it shouldn't really have come as such a surprise, but somehow it did.

She beamed back at him, almost teasing in her delight at how obviously he didn't know what she was talking about. "Perhaps I'll save it for Beltane," she mused sweetly. "Give you enough time to ask what to look forward to."

"Will we be part of the celebration then?" he asked as he pulled his pants up over his hips and turned to face her. He still wasn't quite sure where they fit in here and what was expected of them, nor was he very certain of the customs and traditions just yet.

"Everyone takes part," Rachel told him. The gossip between the women of the town and the Handmaidens had given her an insight into what might happen on the first day of May that she hadn't realized Zachariel wouldn't share. "Even the Lady comes away from the Chalice Well and chooses her partner for the night. The only ones who don't celebrate the fertility of the world are the monks from the abbey, and that is only because of their vows."

"The Lady chooses a partner?" he echoed in obvious surprise. He had certainly heard of Beltane and witnessed various celebrations over the course of his many years as an angel, but no one told him it was celebrated here.

She nodded, rolling onto her side as they talked. "Every woman does," she said thoughtfully. "At least, that's what they told me. Every year, the Lady chooses someone different, and they can never tell who it will be. The only thing they can say about her partner each year is that somehow he needed to be chosen more than anyone else."

Rachel Bristol

Date: 2014-04-20 07:07 EST
Zachariel considered that a moment, thoughts drifting back to the Grand Master and the look that touched his face whenever he spoke of the Lady. It was not hard to see how he felt about her, doomed to love a woman he could never have. The Lady's fate was not much kinder, but perhaps that was why he loved her so. He did not have to ask who Rachel would choose as her partner; there was no question it would be him. "She is lonely," he said, an observation that was not hard to make. Despite all of those who loved her and served the Lady here in Avalon, he thought it must be lonely to be her. He remembered his own lonely existence before he'd died and become mortal, and his heart ached for her, as well as the Grand Master, to know love but never to be able to share it.

Rachel's tender heart ached with his, her insight much the same as her brother's. "She says that is the price she pays," she said quietly, picking at the sheet beneath her hand. "That nothing comes without a cost, and she pays her price willingly. But at least now she knows her time is finite. A child is coming, she says, who will take her place."

He arched a brow, wondering if the child Natalya was bearing would be that child. He had not heard much about the prophecy the Lady had made concerning the Champion and Priestess of Avalon, only mutterings here and there, whispers and snatches of gossip. Sir Lionel kept him too busy to spend time worrying about such things, though he was curious. "A daughter," Zachariel mused, knowing that much, at least, had to be true.

"Or a grand-daughter," Rachel murmured, pushing herself to sit up as she reached out to brush her hand against his arm. "Two or three generations is not so very long to wait for someone who has lived more than a thousand years, is it?"

"No," he answered without hesitation. If anyone would know what that was like, it was him. A thousand years was a blink of an eye when measured against the Dawn of Time. "No," he repeated, realizing with sadness how short this mortal life could be, and yet, it was only one life, among many, and this was his first. He glanced at her, drawn away from his own thoughts by her touch, remembering he was about to gather them some food for dinner. "I will go fetch us some dinner," he told her, leaning close to offer her lips a soft kiss.

She smiled, stroking her fingers through his hair. "Don't be long," she whispered to him tenderly. "Or I'll come looking for you." And knowing Rachel, that was not so much a threat as a promise. If she started parading around their home in nothing but her skin, they would very quickly learn that the bed was not the only place they could share this new-found passion of theirs.

It was only a matter of time before they discovered it anyway, but at least he'd had the sense to don a pair of pants before he parading around their small home. "I won't be," he promised, giving her face a gentle touch, before turning for the door and making his way toward the room that served as their kitchen where the cakes were still laid out, but had long since cooled.

As he left, she let herself fall back against the sheets, releasing a loud peal of delighted giggles that reverberated around the house. All those months of worrying, of wondering, of fearing that he had been mistaken in his love for her, all forgotten in the heady rush of love shared, finally, in the way of true lovers. Her eyes turned to the rounded window that looked out on the setting sun, the silhouette of the Temple as night drew on. "He loves me." A wide smile curved her full lips, brightened her sweet face, until she fairly shone with happiness. "Thank the Lady, he really does love me."

As for Zachariel, he could hear her giggles even from the kitchen, and smiled in amused happiness, knowing he was most likely the source of her joy. So, this was what it felt like to love and be loved. It was like nothing he'd ever felt before, and though he couldn't know what his beloved was thinking at that very moment, his own thoughts closely mirrored hers, only it was not the Lady he thanked, but a much older being - one who had created them all at the Dawn of Time and one who he hoped was happy with His children. He smiled as he gathered bread, and cheese, and fruit, and wine for a makeshift feast to be shared between him and his beloved. For the first time in his long existence, he knew what it was to be truly happy.

((Rhys and Nat have the best timing! Marriage saved! Decisions made! And just in time for Easter!))