Topic: The Lady of Avalon

Natalya Bristol

Date: 2012-10-21 04:26 EST
Avalon was a place of mysticism, a place of devotion, of mysteries beyond the understanding of mortal man or woman. Here, the ancient lore and power was studied, gathered, protected and learned, all under the supervision of the Handmaidens. And they answered only to the Lady. Few knew her true name, though many had made guesses that in turn flattered or insulted. In truth, it did not seem to matter what her name was. She was the Lady, and it was by her that Avalon was maintained and protected. Her power was myriad, palpable even in the most ordinary of moments here on the Isle. Yet she made time for anyone who wished to see her, for anyone who needed to see her. She was as loving as she was implacable, all things balanced and in moderation, the template for the Goddess many had once thought dwelt within the mists of Avalon.

The sun was beginning its ascent to noon when Rhys Bristol was led into the Temple itself, only to discover that his destination was a garden set apart from all others, gathered close in a cloister of natural stone where no sound could penetrate. The greenery grew and twisted about itself, seemingly impassable, until his ageless guide spoke. "Lady, he is here." There was a pause, and very slowly the entwined branches of trees and shrubs began to part, slithering with a soft sussuration until the way was open for him to enter the garden within. His guide bowed, gesturing for Rhys to enter. "She is waiting for you, Rhys Bristol."

Rhys took all this in with the same quiet wonder with which he'd taken in everything he'd seen and encountered in Avalon since his arrival only a few hours ago. He had no idea who the Lady really was - a goddess, a saint, an angel, someone or something completely unique unto herself. Certainly someone of great power and mystery, causing him, like Natalya before him, to question everything he'd ever previously understood or believed in. That there were Knights in her service did not really surprise him; that the Order of Templars was still as alive and well today as it had been centuries ago was a fact he could easily accept.

That this place - Avalon - even existed seemed a matter of fact. He was here, he was seeing it with his own eyes, unless he was dreaming. He had thought to ask Natalya if all this was real, but he already knew the answer to that question without asking. "I'm really not in Kansas anymore," he muttered to himself as the trees and shrubs parted, like the Red Sea, to allow his passage. Everything he'd ever believed in was being questioned here and now, and he wondered how many other mysteries were waiting for him to try and understand, thirsting, burning for knowledge and understanding.

As he stepped into the garden, it opened up before him, the vines and branches at his back braiding themselves together once again to close him into a place that was by far the most beautiful of all the sights to be seen upon Avalon. Yet it was not through tending or even the rarity of the plants that beauty reigned over this small piece of the Temple. It was the serenity, the peace, the unspoken understanding that this was the source of Avalon's unique sense of belonging, be it outside time and space or in a person's heart. A small path led him between swaying branches, into the full burst of sunlight that painted the dappling foliage all around him and reflected in rippling caress from the surface of a small pool that stood exactly in the center of the cloistered garden.

And there, standing at the edge of the pool, her back turned toward him, was the Lady of Avalon. She was tall, almost as tall as him, crowned with a head of tumbling golden hair that spilled like liquid sunshine over her shoulders, shining against the natural hue of her rough-silk gown. As with every woman who inhabited the Temple and its grounds, she was ancient and youthful, ageless and timeless, innocent and wise, weaving about herself with effortless ease a sense of safety and security, of maternity in all its myriad forms. She turned as he approached, and the beauty of her face was breath-taking, stunning to behold and yet inviting, welcoming. Her smile was gentle, and when she spoke, her voice seemed to be that of every mother, sister, and daughter who had ever loved him, echoing the words his own Natalya had given him only hours before. "Welcome to Avalon, Rhys Bristol who was once Rathanael. I have been waiting for you."

He was once again struck by the beauty and serenty of the place, even more so the deeper he strode toward his destination. Even the water in the small pool seemed serene, calm, the sky clear, the sun warm. There could not be a more perfect day if he had asked for it, and not for the first time, he wondered if Avalon was a place outside of time and space, if it was part of Heaven itself. And then she was there, ageless and timeless and more beautiful than he could have ever imagined. He felt like a boy beneath her gaze, an insignificant child, though his soul was as old as the ages. He found he could not meet her gaze, unworthy as he was, and without thought, he dropped to one knee on the grass before her, head bowed in reverence and respect, unable to speak, unable to find words that seemed worthy of speech.

It did not take her more than a moment to move toward him, one lily-white hand unfolding from her skirt to gently curl beneath his chin, drawing his face upward to meet her gaze. The eyes that looked into his were as blue as the sky at the height of midsummer, and it was there that the signs of her truly ancient soul resided. But the gaze was without judgement or chastisement, simply warm and welcoming, and sternly refusing him the chance to avoid seeing the Lady for what she was ....chosen, yes, gifted with a life far longer than any other, but mortal, human, and not so very different from himself.

"You have many questions," the Lady said quietly, drawing the backs of her fingers down his cheek in a motherly caress. "I may have the answers you seek." In a rustle of silk, she lowered to kneel with him, her hands folded in her lap. "But you will never know unless you ask."

He felt tears prickling at his eyes, but he wasn't sure why, as she forced him to face her, awestruck by her beauty, but by something more, something deeper. She reminded him of someone he'd once loved, someone he'd lost so many years ago. Like so many others, he'd tried to save her and had failed, the woman who had born him and given him life, his very first love, that of his mother. "I don't know where to start," he told her, his eyes following hers now that he'd dared to meet her gaze. "You're beautiful," he said, the words tumbling out of his mouth before he could take them back. "Sorry, I..." He stammered, words failing him. He didn't find her beautiful in the same way as Natalya; her beauty was different, like the beauty of a cloudless sky on a summer day, warm and comforting as a mother's smile.

Surprisingly, his stammering compliment brought forth a laugh that was as youthful as her eyes were ancient, a peal of mirth that wrapped about them and filled the little garden with light and sound. "Never apologise when you speak words that come from the heart," she told him through her merry smile. "But perhaps now you see why I rarely venture from the Temple. Even those who are used to me find it difficult not to stare." As she spoke, the ripple of amusement that ran through her words deepened, wry and knowing, understanding that the gifts she had been given made her as much an object of intimidation as she was an object of admiration.

There was one thing that struck him about her, even as she tried to comfort him, even as beautiful as she was and ancient as she seemed. Perhaps he understood it because he, too, had once possessed immortality, choosing to sacrifice it in exchange for a mortal life because of love. "Isn't it lonely?" he asked, his curiosity overcoming his fear or his intimidation. He'd been alone; he'd felt alone all his life, though there had been those who loved him and helped him along the way. He'd known that, in the end, it was up to him to fulfill his own destiny, and there had been loneliness in the knowledge that the world's fate was on his shoulders. All of that was over now, but he thought she might understand, if not feel the same.

Natalya Bristol

Date: 2012-10-21 04:33 EST
Perhaps she did understand, better than any other might have. Her smile softened, her mirth fading beneath a gentle swell of sorrow that did nothing to detract from the warmth of her smile or the beauty of her face. Indeed, that sadness, that deep abiding knowledge of the darker side of human nature, seemed to deepen the beauty that clung to her. "There is a price for everything we are given," she said softly. "I was chosen to play this role, yes ....but I chose to take it upon myself. I was given so much, and I have given more in return. There is a saying, on your Earth. With great power, comes great responsibility. Perhaps I would change it ....To appreciate any gift, there must first be sacrifice." It was a gentle confirmation of his curious suspicion. Yes, the Lady was lonely, but it was her path and no one could walk it with her. It was her destiny.

"In every life, a little rain must fall," he countered, in agreement. So, he wasn't too far off base; she understood sacrifice and loss, but how did one go on from there" How did she live with the knowledge that her life would be like this forever, never changing, never ending" "I think I've made more than my fair share of sacrifices," he told her, trying not to sound too bitter about how things had turned out. He wasn't complaining really. Meeting Natalya had changed everything. There was hope now where there was none before. "I sacrificed immortality to be human. You did just the opposite." It was a guess again, but one he thought was pretty close to the mark, and he couldn't help but see the irony in their opposite fates.

There was a little too much understanding in the Lady's gaze as he spoke, a little too knowing of the bitterness he naturally felt but did not want to express, the tumult of feeling his memories and unmemories had left him with. "I do not like to think that I have sacrificed my humanity," she told him gently. "I retain my soul, yes, but ....perhaps you are right. I am now something more than human, and at the same time, something less. But if humanity is to be preserved, then there is nothing else I could be. And nothing else you could be."

Her hands reached for his, long, strong fingers enfolding his into her grasp, dry and warm and comforting with touch. "You have been given the greatest gift, Rhys. You are the bearer of a human soul, precious, indestructible. Not only that, but your soul is linked with that of another. No matter your choices, no matter where your life may take you, from now onward death is no longer an ending to be feared. It is simply the next step on the journey you both will take together."

Her touch, both warm and comforting, sent a shock through him, like an angel enfolding him in her wings. He was an angel no longer; he was only human, but as she'd said, to be human - to have been given a human soul - was the greatest gift of all. His lips moved, but overcome with emotion, he bowed his head again as if to try and compose himself, control the tumult of emotions - human emotions - that were tugging at his heart. "I don't know what I'm supposed to do now." There was a certain joy in knowing he was finally free, and yet, without a clear purpose, he was unsure what he should do with that freedom, other than to live. "I'm a soldier. That's all I've ever been."

The Lady's smile deepened, pleased with his grasping, questioning words. "That is also a part of being human," she told him gently, her gaze soft on his face, watchful for any sign of distrust or untruth. "Some very few are blessed with the knowledge of their path, with an understanding of the destiny ahead of them, yet most live their lives without knowing if they are truly following their purpose. To be human is as much an act of faith as it is a gift of the gods." Her hands folded his between her palms as she spoke, the precursor to the as-yet unoffered embrace of a mother he had so little memory of.

"You are more than a soldier. A soldier lives to kill, that is his purpose. He will obey, even if he does not agree. That is not you, Rhys. In time, your purpose will branch and become ever more myriad. No one has simply one role and one alone. As time moves on, you will be guardian of the beloved, hunter of evil, gatherer of knowledge, teacher, husband, father. You will be all these things and more. But you will never simply kill because you have been ordered to." Her smile turned knowing and amused once more. "Even as an angel, you had a distressing habit of questioning the more obtuse orders handed down to you."

He lifted his face to her, unable to hide the emotion that was like a storm waging inside him, unable to hide the truth from someone who so obviously knew the deepest, darkest secrets of his soul, who knew things he did not even remember. "I want to be all those things," he confessed, his heart open, his soul naked to her, tears glittering like diamonds in eyes of emerald green. "How can you know that I will be all of that' How can you know if I'm worthy?" It wasn't enough that he'd been an angel, not to him. How could he judge his own worth on deeds he didn't remember"

"It is one of my gifts, and one I may show you, here and now." The Lady touched a finger to his cheek, stealing an unshed tear onto her fingertip to let it drop into the pool beside them. "Look into the water, Rhys, and see what I have seen."

The surface of the water shimmered, growing opaque with the grey hue of the mists that hid Avalon from time and space itself, swirling about as images formed upon that surface. The scene, as it became clear, was a simple one ....a woman possessed of tumbling chestnut curls and loving brown eyes, sat at a desk, studying what seemed to be blueprints of some highly secured building that she could no doubt break into. Beside her on the table were piled books of varying ages, materials of research, no doubt, into what she planned to steal next. She looked up, straight into Rhys' eyes, and he knew her to be his Natalya, even before she spoke.

"You are going to have to do most of the work on this one, you know," she said, her voice echoing down through time and mist. "I am your wife, and I love you, but I am not going to squeeze through a ventilation system when I barely fit into my own clothing these days." Laughing, she rose to her feet, moving toward the surface of the image, and it was clear that she was with child. More wonderful still was the sight of her bending to lift a sleepy toddler, a little girl achingly familiar to Rhys' eyes, up into her arms. Mother and child turned their eyes to his, and even through the years that separated them, vision from reality, the love that bound the little family was palpable.

Beside him, the Lady smiled at the future and the present, passing a hand over the surface of the water. The vision faded into mist, settling once more into the dappled ripple of sunlight on water. Her hands returned to take those of the man knelt at her side. "I know you are worthy, because this promise has been made not simply by your Heaven, but by other powers far older than the Christian God. From your bloodline will come a Lady of Avalon, though I do not know which generation that will be. You have sacrificed much, Rhys. Do not doubt your reward, simply because you do not understand it."

The tears that had only been threatening in his eyes now flowed freely, spilling over onto his face as he turned his gaze to the vision in the still water, opening his heart to that vision, the innermost yearnings of his heart, that of a wife and family, to love and be loved. He watched with rapt attention the scene that was taking place before his eyes - something that had not yet happened yet, but that was to happen if he continued along this path, -a daughter, as lovely as her mother, and later a son. It was more than he could have ever hoped for or dreamed of, robbed of a family twice already - once when he was nine and then when he was he was older. There was no doubt this was his destiny; he was only afraid that if he failed, he would lose her again, and it would destroy him.

Natalya Bristol

Date: 2012-10-21 04:38 EST
He was at a loss for words, his heart aching for the dream, the vision, the promises that had been made, the gift that had been given. He wanted it so much it burned like fire in his heart; all he had to do was believe and trust.

Gentle arms enfolded him in a warm embrace, wrapping him about in a love deeper than any he had touched before. It was a love that transcended time and space, a love that was greater than the sum of its parts, a love that could only be given by one who had given herself over to the care of so much more than herself. The Lady was as myriad a role as any other, and here, in this moment, she was mother to the child in his heart, enveloping him in that protective blessing. "Her Master shall not bar your path," the Lady murmured to him in the peace that surrounded them. "You have my blessing to wed and seek this future together."

He made no attempt to resist the arms that enfolded him in her loving embrace, reminded somehow of his mother so many years ago, so long ago it almost seemed like another lifetime. Something broke inside him and he wept openly, not only tears of sorrow, but tears of joy, washing his soul clean. Perhaps he'd realize later the full implications of her words, that the Lady's fate was tangled with his own, with Natalya's, that one of their bloodline would one day in the future free her and take her place. He was too overcome with emotion now to absorb this, but when he had time to think on it later, he would understand that he was exactly where he belonged and that he was much more important to the fate of the world than he could have ever guessed.

It seemed a long time that she held him there, like a mother holding a child safe in her arms, until at last the storm that waged inside his soul passed, the clouds cleared, the tears faded, sorrow replaced by renewed hope, even if he didn't completely understand. He turned a tear-stained face to her, eyes watery with the last remnants of tears, like a rainstorm that had faded to a gentle shower. "Who are you, really?" he asked, unable to hide the wonder, reverence, and awe.

She was gently solicitous of his easing emotive state, softly brushing the water from his cheeks as he drew back from her, her smile only half-touched with amusement at his question. It had been asked of her many times, and those who had recieved the answer they truly sought could be counted upon one hand. But this man who had once been an angel, who would found a bloodline that would someday give her a child to draw into the mysteries of the Isle ....He deserved the truth. "I am the Lady of Avalon," she told him quietly, drawing her hands back to lie soft in her lap. "But I was born Elaine of Corbenic, daughter of King Pelles, when Avalon still dwelt where mortal men could see it."

He didn't bother to wipe the tears from his face; she had already seen them and brushed them from his cheeks with a touch as gentle as a mother. He arched both brows at her reply, not really expecting an answer, but the question had been asked in honesty and reverence, and the answer did not entirely surprise him. In that moment, he was touched by her own sacrifice, not quite understanding her own purpose and destiny, but somehow knowing they were linked, that perhaps everything and everyone was, in a way, linked.

She understood him better than he understood himself; she understood the deepest desires of his heart. She knew who he was and all that he'd done, and she'd still found him worthy of her secret. It was his turn to reach for her hand now, daring to lift it from her lap and press it to his lips, overcome with a feeling of destiny and purpose, admiration and even devotion to this gentle Lady of Avalon who seemed to have taken him under her wing. "I would be honored to serve you, Lady, if you would find me worthy."

Again, her smile warmed, her head tilting to one side as she watched him press her hand to his lips, understanding the gesture for what it was. "It is not my place to find you worthy of Avalon, only to guide you if you wish it of me," she told him, but her expression was not the rejection her words might have been. "I fear the knights are to be disappointed once more, for my intention is not only to take you into my service, but your beloved also. You will drink from the Grail as the dawn breaks, and you will become a Guardian of the Temple of Avalon, one of my knights, to guard your beloved and the children you will conceive. For you and your Natalya are more precious to me than any other, and more important to Avalon and the world beyond than even a Grand Master can comprehend with ease."

He let her hand slip away from him, eyes widening in wonder once more as she declared the importance of not only his life, but Natalya's, as well, and he felt his heart swell with pride. He did not feel as though he was being forced into a life of servitude, but choosing with free will and an open heart to dedicate his life to a greater cause, knowing what the rewards would be along the way - the love he'd always longed for was all the reward he ever needed. He accepted what she told him, accepting her guidance, accepting the place she offered him in Avalon, drawing strength from her belief in him, somehow knowing he would succeed. Once again at a loss for words, he stammered a response, words failing him. "I-I don't know what to say. I am honored, Lady. I will do my best."

"You had better." The Lady laughed again, moving to rise to her feet, reaching down to draw him up with her as her blue eyes danced with knowing mirth and fond understanding. "Your Natalya has quite a talent for getting herself into trouble. There are very few mortal women who have entered Hell and returned unscathed. And you have your brothers to thank for it."

She reached out, touching her hand to his cheek, looking into his eyes with a strange sense of detachment from this world. "When the lack of memory becomes too much, call on Lailah and she will answer," she told him in a low tone. "And one more thing ....Some day as yet unknown to me will bring a shadow of the past to your family. When it comes, know that Avalon is open to you, and do not be too proud to ask for our help. I cannot tell you more than that, but remember it, for all our sakes."

Natalya Bristol

Date: 2012-10-21 04:44 EST
He moved to his feet at her bidding, entranced by her beauty and her goodness. One look at her and it was all over - he was doomed to do her bidding. He would have done nearly anything she'd have asked of him. Was it any wonder that he had vowed to serve her, that he'd already decided in his heart before he'd even stepped through the portal"

"Hell?" he echoed. Natalya had been to Hell" She'd said nothing of that to him, but then, it had only been a few days, and in that time, there hadn't been much time for talk, too busy renewing their love for each other in ways that required no words.

And then, the Lady was moving on, and the opportunity for questions had passed, though what she revealed next confused him further. More questions, more puzzles, more mysteries. Lailah' He hadn't heard from his supposed guardian in months and had decided she'd been nothing more than a figment of his imagination. Where had she been when he'd needed her" He seemed to contemplate this a moment, his gaze drawn back to the Lady when she seemed to portend some trouble that was yet to happen. "What shadow?" he asked, though he seemed to sense that she could tell him no more for the moment.

"I do not know," the Lady confessed, and there was a sense of disappointment in her own Sight that she couldn't tell him what he wanted to know in that moment. "Some shadow that has haunted you or she, or both, will arise again. That is all I know. If something more comes to me, I will not leave you wondering." Her smile returned slowly, easing past the troubled light in her eyes to warm the moment once again. "The afternoon and night are yours. In the hour before dawn, you will be gathered to the Abbey in my company, and the Grail will test you. Now is not the time for dwelling on the darkness of past or future. Now is a time for renewal."

"Only tell me this, if you can....It isn't demons, is it' It isn't Abaddon?" he had to almost stifle a shudder at the mention of that name, the name of the one who had nearly taken everything from him, who had nearly destroyed the world. "Please tell me he's defeated," he continued, a pleading tone to his voice, needing to know that particular entity would never haunt his life or Nat's again. He knew by instinct that this visit was almost at an end, but he needed to know this one thing, if he was to rest easy.

"Abaddon the Fallen is gone from the world you know, and the world beyond it," the Lady told him, each word ringing with confidence and certainty. "I saw the moment of his destruction, I know this to be true. He and his closest allies will never return. You are safe from him, and his wretched Triad."

He sighed in relief at that bit of reassurance, believing her with all his heart, knowing whatever darkness he and Nat had to face in the future, at least, that was behind them, never to haunt them again. He sensed again that his visit had reached its end, and unsure what protocol to follow, he back away a step and offered a short bow. "Thank you, Lady. I will see you in the morning."

She inclined her head to him, accepting his leave-taking with gentle acquiesence. "Helene, who brought you here, is waiting to return you to your Natalya," she told him, one hand gesturing toward the path he had taken from the cloister. A sussuration from the trees suggested that the doorway was opening itself for him once more. "Oh, and Rhys?" She paused in the act of turning away, showing him that knowing smile once again. "Wear what you are given to the ceremony tomorrow. And do not bear your gun into my presence again." Her expression was fond, but the words were a gentle warning. Though he went nowhere unarmed, she would not tolerate him bringing a weapon like that into the heart of Avalon again.

He arched a brow at the warning, having forgotten that he'd slipped a handgun into a hiding place before leaving Glastonbury. Rarely without a weapon, even in sleep, one was kept close at hand. Under other circumstances, he might have argued, but in reverence and respect to her, and knowing he truly did not need a weapon in her presence, he only nodded his head dutifully. "Yes, Lady," he acquiesced, bowing a final time before turning to find his way back the way he came and return to Natalya.

With a smile far older, far wiser, than any other, the Lady of Avalon marked his leaving with her own respectful silence, listening close to the currents and eddies of mind and soul that spun themselves around here at the heart of the Isle. Her summer blue gaze returned slowly to the pool before her, to the residual images left by the tear she had taken from him. Images he was not yet ready to see; of Hellfire and Heavenly battles; of those who had been lost along the way; of the last battle he had fought as an angel, not with swords but with words, demanding his right to the reward that had been promised to him.

Her hand passed over the pool once again, and the vision shimmered to reveal a face that would one day be as dear to Avalon as her own. A girl, born of angelic bloodline, who would be the next Lady of Avalon; the child whose very existence relied so precariously upon the fates of her ultimate grandparents, whose own lives were just now being guided to their natural place.

The Lady's smile turned gently thoughtful as she considered the future, her reward for long, faithful service, her hand falling to a womb that had never borne fruit and never would. Yes, this life was a lonely one, and many sacrifices had been made through the years. But how much greater could the ultimate reward be, to know her successor generations before her birth, to be offered the chance to guide the family as though they were her own kin" Her hand left the smooth silk that covered her womb, the momentary longing for what would never be set aside as all her personal grievances had been down through the centuries. There was work still to do, a purpose to define and allow to bloom. Destiny, in this instance, needed just a little push, and the pieces would fall into place.

High above her, the sun rolled on through its stately march across the sky, casting the shadows of early afternoon in perpetual midsummer, offering warm benediction to all those who toiled in Ancient Avalon below. It had seen the beginning of true faith, the first gatherings of power; war, and peace, and the years between where fate stood on the edge of a knife. It had weathered the fury of the new religion, when any suspicion of old wisdom or ancient power was looked upon as something evil. Even when the world without had turned its back upon Avalon, the guardians who dwelt there had never given up on Earth.

Still their hands reached out to guide and protect, and still their presence was felt in the world they had left behind. And now that world, for all its faults, had promised to Avalon something more precious than anything that could have been conceived. Yes, the rewards were great for such service, as Rhys would learn over the years to come, as he watched over the family that was finally his, made flesh by the power of Avalon.

((I think this is possibly one of my favorite scenes I have ever played. Truly madly deeply splendifloriously wonderflonious thank yous to Rhys' player!))