Topic: Between the Darkness, and the Light

Sid

Date: 2006-07-12 09:25 EST
In through the alley door and quickly up the steps to the second floor without looking, she moved slowly down the hall to room number three. After leaving Saturday night, she had locked the door. The two who would visit this room now had no need to bother with such. Violet rippled her form and she leaned against the inside of the closed door, glamoured blue eyes staring at the figure lying prone to his bed, paused in time. "Oh, Jodiah."

Walking across the room, Sid lit a candle and placed it by the window. A turn of her head to view the man as one arm rested at the opened sill. "Ye know, Scottie be tellin' me tha' I should jus' let ye go. Tha' we all be on the wheel an' tha' mayhaps 'tis ye time an' I 'ave nae right to meddle. But, I canna do tha', Jodiah. Ye asked me for help an' I be bound to it. Beyond tha', though... "

The Ancient took a deep, full breath of the night air, her face turning to look out the window. Her voice now soft and thoughtful. "Beyond tha', Jodiah, be selfishness." The hint of wry chuckle murmured behind closed lips. "Seems I be gettin' the hang o' these emotion type thin's, aye? The good kind jus' dun seem to take, howe'er."

Another of those wry, self-effacing chuckles and she moves to the bed. Folding her lank frame down to the floor, her back resting against it, her head dropped to the mattress and muted elflocks brushed to his fingertips. "I canna let ye go, Jodiah. Pure selfishness on m'part. I dun wan' to let ye go. Ye took me suggestion an' parted ways with me as lovers, but I willna lose ye completely to Death. Nae yet."

Shifting, she placed a silken cheek against the back of his hand, those damnable tears she could not rid herself of wetting his aged flesh. "Please, Jodiah, dun leave me. There be so much I 'ave nae shown ye. So much ye 'ave nae shown me." And, as snowy lids drooped and her voice got softer and farther away, her breath evening out as it flowed across his skin, one arm lifted and draped feather-light atop his chest. Last words spoken barely a whisper before she finally fell to slumber. "Dun go jus' yet, love. Nae jus' yet."

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-12 14:12 EST
"Dun go jus' yet, love. Nae jus' yet."

Words barely heard on the edge of his imagination. A breeze barely felt, hardly enough to even stir the thin, sparse strands of hair over his arms.

His eyes opened, and he leaned up. His chest felt tight, but the coughing fit he was sure that was to come... didn't.

He turned his head, peering off to the side. Blackness. To the other side? Blackness. Beneath him? Blackness. It wasn't dark like night, though -- he could see his skin and rent clothing as easily as if he were standing in the noon sun on a cloudless summer day.

There was light, but it seemed not to radiate anywhere. A single lantern burned off to his flank. Rising to his feet, he crawled on weak, staggering legs to the little thing. His hands extended for warmth, he felt the need to sigh.

But he couldn't.

The last thing he remembered was falling to the ground. He thought he heard someone call him paladin, but he wasn't certain.

This scene had repeated itself for two days now, near as he could tell. He wakes up, he crawls to the lamp, and he sits for hours and hours until he collapses from... what? Exhaustion? He couldn't remember. He just knows he awakens, and crawls, and wonders.

This time would be different though. He lifted his head, blinking into the pitchy dark around him. "Where am I?" he asked aloud, his voice sounding tinny and hollow even to him.

Silence responded. He lowered his head, wanting to sigh again.

What was this? Is this what death is? Eternal solitude, with no company but the dim, uncast light of a single lantern?

"Of course not, Jodiah."

A voice. This was.. new. He lifted his head again, blinking into the darkness. Black against black, he could barely make out the vaugest of outlines standing just on the edge of reach.

"Hello?"

Silence.

"I say, hello?"

Silence.

He lowered his head again, rubbing his hands now against the warmth of the lantern's fire. So cold...

"This is not death. But you are dead."

Jodiah rose to his feet abruptly, glaring, stalking toward the darkness where he saw the figure. He took three steps and -- stopped. As if he had slammed directly into what might've been a wall.

All he saw was black, though.

"Who are you!?" He shouted into the blackest of black, all around him.

And silence was his only reply.

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-12 16:04 EST
Days seemed to stretch. He couldn't tell for sure exactly how long - there was no sun and there was no moon, nor were there stars. Only the ever-burning lantern that never seemed to need more oil. With the exception of what he himself said, there was absolute silence around him -- even his boots made no sound as he walked (or, once, ran) about, searching for something, anything, besides the pit of blackness he was thrust into. One time, he moved in a single direction for what felt like hours, and did see a light in the distance...

...it turned out to be the lantern, burning quietly there on the ground.

"So I'm trapped forever." he said, finally, with something that may have been resignation.

"Not forever. Just until you pass."

The voice again. Nowhere and everywhere. Ayreg looked up, frowning, then turned around and around. He saw no figure; just the endless sea of black upon black.

Still, he humored the voice. "But you said I'm already dead."

"It is true that you are dead, but this is not death. This is.. an abomination."

An abomination? "An abomination?"

Silence for a time. And then..

The voice was heard again, much clearer now and near. Jodiah Ayreg spun around on his heel, and there was now the image of a man, hooded and cloaked, kneeling over the lantern as if to warm his hands. He could tell even from here that the man was old, and bent. "Consider, if you will, a clock."

"A clock," Jodiah repeated, incredulously.

"Yes. Things coorperate by design. Cogs that fit. Springs that push and reset. Tick surrenders to Tock, to raise a new Tick. Sit with me for a time, Jodiah, and I will tell you."

"Tell me what?"

"Of you."

What choice did he have? Ayreg lowered himself to the ground.

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-12 18:43 EST
"Do you not see?" the man asked.

"No." Jodiah replied, simply.

"You're dead."

"Okay..."

"Yet you linger."

"Okay..."

"This is not the Shadowlands. This is not Malfeas. This is not Oblivion."

"...Good to know. Who are you?"

The hooded and cloaked man lifted his head, wizened features pulling apart in a toothy sort of smile that never touched his eyes. "Why does it matter?"

"Because for all I know," Ayreg started, feeling positively bristled, "you're Corlagon invading my mind as I and he lay dying. If so, just get this on with."

"I am not the Destroyer. But, truly, what does it matter? If I told you my name was Kaleen, would it make a difference? Is the knowledge you gain worthy of the asking?"

"I don't understand."

"That's why you're here."

"Speak plainly."

"I am. It is you who are not listening plainly."

"Not listening?"

The old man smiled again.

"Plainly," he said at last.

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-14 03:36 EST
"What?"

Gra mo chroi mo phaistin fionn
A croi 's a haigne ag gaire liom
A ciocha geala mar bhlath na n-ull
Is a piob' mar eala la Marta

"I did not stutter."

"...You're daft, old man."

"You're old, daft man." Wizened face parted in a grin.

"I'm in Hell, aren't I? This is insanity."

Ayreg rose to his feet, wanting to growl. The man was silent. Jodiah turned around, stalking away a few steps before the silliness overtook him. Head sagging, his shoulders slumped and he turned around and moved back to sit around the lantern.

There was no other choice.

Cara mo chroi mo phaistin fionn
A dha gru' ar lasadh mar bhlath na gcrann
Ta mise saor ar mo phaistin fionn
Ach amhain nuair a olaim a slainte

"What is that voice?"

The old man lifted his head, listening. It was a fel voice, just barely heard as if on the wind, or upon the edge of the conscience. "Your friend."

"Who?"

"Manon. The one who made you like this. She sings for you."

"That doesn't explain to me what I'm doing here."

"She stopped you. Tick surrendered to Tock, but she stepped in and paused you."

"So, what you're saying..."

"What I'm saying, junior, is that somewhere between releasing life and succumbing to death, you're stuck."

Da mbeinnse sa bhaile 'mbionn sugradh is greann
No idir dha bhairille lan de leann
Mo shiuirin i m'aice 's mo lamh faoin a ceann
Is sugach a d'olfainn a slainte.

"Stuck?"

"Stuck."

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-14 12:47 EST
Jodiah Ayreg had the feeling of a need to take in a long breath. He didn't do it actually, of course, just felt the need to.

"Tell me how to get unstuck."

"The easiest way?"

"...Sure."

"Do nothing."

"Do nothing?"

"Do nothing."

"How does doing nothing help?"

"Because the magics that bind you will fade, and wear away, and break. When they do, you will surrender to Tock by default, continued on your normal path."

"The normal path lies down into Oblivion's gullet. Thanks, but I think I'd rather an alternative."

"The alternative," the hooded man said, "is Tick."

Drawing his knees up to his chest, Jodiah Ayreg felt the need to blink at the man. So many things had changed now since he was dead. Open wounds that don't bleed. The lack of a need to blink. No breathing. It was very odd, Ayreg having been doing these things for (almost) all of his existance.

"...Explain."

"Tick is life. You walk, you talk, you breathe, you dance, you laugh, you love."

"Okay. Got it."

"Tock is death. The cold embrace of Oblivion."

"Okay.... and I've got to choose?"

"Yes."

"Fine. I choose life."

The old man smiled.

"It is not that simple."

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-16 13:37 EST
"Why is it not that simple?"

"Because it is not me you have to tell."

"Who is it, then?"

"Yourself."

Jodiah felt like blinking, but of course did not. He shifted there on the ground next to the lantern.

"I've got to tell myself?"

"Yes."

"Okay..."

Clearing his throat, Ayreg spoke in a loud, clear voice, "Self. I choose life."

And nothing happened. Jodiah looked to the old man. "What?"

"Clearly," he said, "you don't believe you. I don't believe you, either."

"How can I proove it, then?"

The old man leaned back, drawing the hood from atop his head. The man's lips turned up into a full, toothy grin.

Jodiah Ayreg shifted uncomfortably again.

The Guardian

Date: 2006-07-17 10:50 EST
From the darkness surrounding them, there was a white sort of glow. Jodiah Ayreg turned his head to see what appeared to be an ephemeral shape taking form. Ghostly, at first, it came together from nothingness until it stepped forward one pace, and then was as visible and as plain as if the figure itself was standing in the noon sun.

Gleaming white, standing tall and proud, the figure was a very, very young man. Youth and innocence were written across his face, which by Ayreg's reckoning was too young to have seen a razor's first shaving yet. Polished plate and mail greaves, vambraces, and bracers were startling to behold, but no less startling than the snow-white tabard worn over equally polished breastplate, and the shining white cloak draped over his shoulders.

What struck him the most, though, was the hand-and-eye embroidered in gold on his tabard, and a large, ostentatious pauldron worn on one shoulder, with the cloak drawn back over it. Ayreg recognized it immedieatly. The Guardian's Guard, given to all Guardians of the Temple of Life.

The hand-and-eye. Symbol of the Prime Healer.

Jodiah Ayreg... saw himself. A very, very young form of himself...

"There are many reasons to return to life, Jodiah. Your path has not yet been walked to its end. The Crow spoke the truth, when he whispered the Truth to your ear."

"Then... why am I dead still?"

"You were too far gone even for the Truth he spoke to save you, but not so far gone now as that you cannot save yourself. If you believe."

"What do I have to believe in? What is there that I could possibly have to believe in?"

"Redemption."

The Scourge of Worlds

Date: 2006-07-17 11:02 EST
"Redemption?"

Ayreg turned his head as another form took shape. Blacker than even the endless dark surrounding him, this one also stepped forward and became illuminated -- but the armor made him so dark as to still make it hard to discern him from the shadows around him.

Snake-like plates interlocked and overlapped, one atop the other, with vicious spikes and strips of human flesh. The breastplate, an inky pitch in color, was laquered in vivid, blood-red the icon of The Plaguebringer. Other icons were painted on as well, elsewhere; other symbols of the Nihil, and of Malfeas.

It was Thrakan armor. The null-magic soulforged armor of Malfeas, given to the Death Knights in the service of the Nihil. Corlagon wore such a suit of armor when he was risen up against, and torn to pieces by the Rhy'Dinians.

Jodiah Ayreg recognized the face as soon as he saw it, peering up over the rim of the gorget at the neck. All hard angles and vivid lines, with a scarred visage. Younger than he himself was, though older than the boy in the gleaming plate-and-mail.

He saw himself, again, twisted and evil; a man who'se eyes gleamed only hatred out for the rest of the world that surrounds him. A man bent on a single goal, turning all of his resources and skill and power and strategic mind to the fruitition of a single, driving purpose:

The destruction of every living thing that walks the earth of the world.

The Scourge of Worlds.

It was Jodiah Ayreg as he waged his war of the Golden Years, before he was cast down by the combined might of the White Dragon's Vengeance and their allies.

"Surely you are beyond mere and simple redemption, Jodiah. Do you think you are beloved in the world? Do you think - if they knew - that they would believe that all is past, and that you would be free from the consequences of your actions!? You are a shattered shell, Jodiah, but your crimes are many. Surrender to death, man - it is the easiest way for you."

"The easiest path is not always the right path."

The Scourge of Worlds threw his head back, and laughed. "You have become a fool, Jodiah. Since when have you ever cared about what is right, and good, and true? Since when you have ever cared about anything other than yourself?"

"I care..." Ayreg started

"..about nothing!" the Scourge of Worlds interrupted, "Give it up, Jodiah. Oblivion is the only path left for you now."

The Guardian

Date: 2006-07-17 11:51 EST
"You hear the words of a deciever, Jodiah, do not trust them." The Guardian looked down upon the seated Ayreg. As he was in life, this Guardian of the Temple of Life was a man of seriousness despite his youth and noble upbringing. The seriousness was reflected in those eyes, hardened even at such a young age. "He is poison."

"He is me."

"As am I."

"I... I don't know either of you anymore."

It was true. Jodiah Ayreg was distraught. He had always come to know true death as simply the cold embrace of Oblivion. A lack of understanding, a lack of conscience. A simple ceasing to exist. Those that lack true death would appear as a wraith on the paths of the dead -- called the Shadowlands by those that exist there. It was a tortured existance of passion, and pain, and raw, unbridled emotion.

"It is not for you to reclaim either of us, Jodiah. Your history is your history, and is beyond your reach."

"Then why am I here now, and why do you speak to me of redemption!?"

The Guardian smiled softly.

"The Temple of Life is gone, Jodiah. You cannot change the past. You can, however, decide your future. Here, and now. You must simply find the strength to resist the Scourge of Worlds, and the call of Tock. That way leads to Oblivion. There is still strength in you, Jodiah -- you fought and raged against the Destroyer until your last breath, did you not?"

"I... I barely remember it."

"But that does not mean it did not happen. Steel yourself, Jodiah. Life awaits those who would cleave to it."

On the opposite side, Jodiah Ayreg heard the sickening, glutteral laughter of the Scourge of Worlds once again...

The Scourge of Worlds

Date: 2006-07-17 12:05 EST
"What has happened is that you betrayed your closest friend, and only ally."

Images of faces flashed across his mind's eye. Faces of those he has met, or those he has rejoined with after so many years, since his rebirth in the bowels of the ruined Doomhammer Keep, so far in the Great Desert of the southlands.

"That's not true. I have allies."

"You have those who are unwitting, and are afflicted either with ignorance, or rust yet to be shaken from their memories."

"You lie."

The Scourge of Worlds lowered his chin; thin lips twitching in what could only be described as amusement.

"Do I?"

"...Yes."

The man in the dark, dark armor laughed again. Pompous. Arrogance. Hubris. "You don't sound convinced, Jodiah."

"I have allies. There are those who would draw steel if I did. Those who would stand at my side."

"Then they do not know you. You were once a god among men, Jodiah. Shall we explore what others think of you, then? It would be unkind not to invite them to this wonderful little soiree we're having."

"They will disappoint you."

"It is you they will disappoint."

The younger man with the raven-wing hair and the scarred face grinned. A cold shiver rose up his spine, and he could swear he saw the steady light of the lantern flicker a bit.

Jodiah Ayreg felt the need to sick up.

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-23 02:06 EST
Light and shadows swam, resolving after interminable moments into a tall, lithe figure with crimson eyes and white-gold hair, motionless and seeming a statute of alabaster clad in shadow silk. A black-bladed sword, the soul-forged weapon Angylsblud, was dimly apparent in her left hand. Her right hand was held behind her.

Alysia Skye. High Priestess, and Emperess of Rhilshen. Of all the images the Scourge of Worlds could have brought forth, why this one? Why first? Jodiah blinked in shocked, stunned surprise.

A hint of a sneer became apparent on her pale, elven features. Her eyes narrowed somewhat as she spoke. "I remember you now," drawled Alysia in a sardonic contralto. "Jodiah Ayreg."

Jodiah blinked from his place there on the ground. Almost in automatic response, he rose from his seated position to a kneeling one, then felt the need to blink a few times. This isn't real he told himself. He rose to his feet, looking the equally-tall new arrival in the eye. "What sort of devilment is this?"

She snorted softly, shaking her head. "Devilment? I'm demonspawned, Jodie, I can bring any damned sort of devilment that I wish, should I be sufficiently angered."

Jodie

A lilting sort of taunt envenomed the nickname, giving it a rather embarassing tone to it, and Alysia regarded him dispassionately. She raised her right hand, and hellfire flickered at her fingertips demonstratively. Her hand closed into a fist, extinguishing the flames.

The pale woman started to walk a slow circle around Jodiah. Her stride was predatorial, her tone, cool and conversational. Jodiah Ayreg had seen her like this frequently. It was the look she had just before announcing someone's execution. "You know, there's one thing that has always driven me close to madness, that has ignited my temper like an inferno. Can you guess what that might be?"

Ayreg turned.

The figures around him were gone, leaving only Alysia, the burning lantern, and the impenetrable darkness. Her voice was cold, hard, and as unforgiving as her scarlet stare. Then -- Jodie. Her name for him back then, all those years ago.

His head lowers, thin lips dipping with them into a frown. Even as she moved around him, he felt a familiar itch in the middle of his back, just between his shoulder blades. It was the feel one got just before a dagger plunged in between one's ribs.

His secret had been discovered in a moment of rememberance.

His voice was harsh as ever it was, though low, and quiet. "Betrayal."

The ambient temperature seemed to drop, turning the chill embrace of death into cold. "Your guilt must be potent, that you should remember betrayal, after so very long," hissed Alysia. "As it should be."

"There were very few things that ever set you off in such a way, Alysia. I stood and watched as you dealt with several traitors to your banner."

She stood before him now, staring evenly at him. A hint of color flushed her cheeks. Alysia's eyes were smoldering with anger and mistrust. As she spoke, her voice became almost strident. "It is ironic that you left my service to become a knight, of all things. Aren't knights supposed to be paragons of honor, true to their word at all costs? Yet you just... pranced off one day, practically disappearing to pledge yourself to another's cause."

Alysia spat at his feet, punctuating her ranting. "Honorless, mercenary cur. Very few have betrayed me and lived beyond a month. Yet somehow..." Her voice dropped, lowering to a dramatic near-whisper. "Somehow you remain alive."

She stood there, staring at him. Her words bit into him as she brought up the debacle that was Takhasis. A Knight of the Dark Queen; mind, body, and soul. He lifted his finger, then, pointing fiercly. "That's not how it happened!"

But.. the truth was far worse, wasn't it?

That was the birth of the Scourge of Worlds. He left Rhilshen to wage his war in the name of the Nihil, who had already owned him in such a way. That's why he wasn't admitted into the ranks of Takhasis.

Never before, though, never in the bitter vehemnance of her words then, or now, had he felt such shame as when she spat at his feet just now. This woman he revered like the shadow-made-flesh. And, to her, he was now perhaps worse than the cur she named him as.

His hand dropped back to his side.

No! It's an illusion!

"Alive? Hah. The term is starting to be used somewhat loosely in these times, Alysia. I imagine you have your own definition, now?"

"Hmmmm. My own definition," Alysia muttered, taking a step back. Lambent energy glittered on the blade of the sword she held, and she examined it. An expression of simmering resentment colored her features before she looked at him again.

"There's no point to definitions - treachery is in your blood and bones, and regardless of what I say, it will not change the past. You abandoned me, left Rhilshen, at a time when you were needed."

"I trusted you," she snarled. "And you repaid that trust with... with what? Betrayal. That's a sin punishable by slow death in Rhilshen."

Narrow fingertips flexed, clenched into a fist...

The Guardian

Date: 2006-07-23 14:49 EST
The image of Alysia Skye broke into swirling mists and vanished as the young man in the gleaming white tabard and cloak, and polished plate-and-mail moved through her figure.

Just an illusion...

He continued on, moving a few paces before turning and looking now at the old man, tensed as if readied to recieve a blow.

"The Scourge of Worlds is a deciever. He would make you think that this is how it will be, Jodiah. Know that the future is fluid, and the minds of the sentient are unbiddable."

"What.. do you mean?"

"That this future is but one of many. The Scourge of Worlds would have you believe that Alysia despises the memory of that boy you were."

"Does she not?"

"Extinuating circumstances, Jodiah. They exist."

Ayreg's head tilted back and he sighed, softly, slumping down to the ground to sit again. From somewhere beyond, the dancing light of the lantern flickered.

"Show me what you speak of. What circumstances?"

"Very well."

From beyond, the shadows stirred and swirled again, coming together into another form..

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-26 20:48 EST
Line reference in The Coming Twilight expanded upon, and fleshed out a bit more. There's also a particularly lengthy "memory" sequence, denoted in almost all italics. It was written from a log made almost ten years ago. Omg, teh ancient history~!

Ayreg turned his head as the lantern flickered a bit. The High Priestess of Rhilshen was there, again, forming from the mists of the darkness on the edge of vision. She stood with her arms crossed, quietly observing Jodiah as if she had been present for quite some time. At length she spoke; her voice that smooth contralto again, without the vile spite it held mere moments before. "Jodiah... what are you doing here?"

Moments before, she was on the other side. Now, she was there. No longer vile, no longer cruel, no longer hating. She sounded as warm as the Emperess ever could, or did. Compared to the image of her before, it was a considerable, considerable change. For the better, of course.

"...Alysia?"

"Mmmhmmm."

She half-smiled at him, then glanced over her shoulder. Her expression as quizzical, if not a bit concerned. "Are you quite alright?" The priestess clasped her hands at the small of her back, the half-smile still tugging at the corners of her lips.

"...You are a dream." Feeling exhausted suddenly, he lowered himself to the ground. This was becoming too tedious to keep up each, and he imagined there were going to be much, much more.

"Just a moment ago you were readied to cleave me in twain for abandoning Rhilshen. And now this...? This is insanity. I must be dreaming."

A gentle shrug of her shadowsilked shoulders was made before she seated herself on the ground before him. She stretched her legs out, leaning back onto her hands. "Maybe I'm just moody," she suggested with a voice that was entirely calm.

So different from moments before, with her barely-contained rage.

"And I've been called a dream of death before. Not for years, though." She wrinkled her nose, as if swimming in the memory of being called that, and that it was not a pleasant dip at all.

"You always were a bit moody, Alysia. I remember that well enough." He smiled, weakly, the sudden change still a bit hard to overcome in his mind. She continued on as if he hadn't said a thing.

"But with all that... with what's been said, there are other things I should say, or I'd be betraying my own sense of honor." Alysia set down Angylsblud at her left side and drew her knees up, wrapping her arms around her legs. So different in her reactions and manner. Ayreg could do nothing but stare, very nearly slack-jawed.

"Your treachery... abandonment... probably was only a matter of my wounded pride. I never blood-bonded you, and you were always free to depart Rhilshen." The priestess grinned a little, and nodded at the black blade of the soulforged sword on the ground near her hip. "But even if there was betrayal, you remedied it, Jodiah."

He listened as she spoke.

She never had to bond him - then or now. Inside Ayreg's heart and mind stirred a dark secret that he would never reveal. Not to anyone. Perhaps, at one time, many years ago he would have said something of it, but now?

No.

Never.

________________

He had identified himself by his first name. That was the way Alysia had known him as, for the most part. From within, the Black Queen — the Emperess — listened to his voice, and then the heavy steel bolts on the iron-strapped thick wooden door slid open ponderously. "Jodie?"

He looked up as she opened the door. Clad in a robe blacker than pitch, his thin lips twitched, while his eyes wandered across her pale cheekbone to her scarlet eyes. "Hello, Alysia."

She leaned against the frame of the door, looking him over quickly. She was not incautious, and it was nearly instinct that drove her to examine everyone as if they could be an assassin sent against her in these tumultous times. Perhaps, also, there was a bit more there. "What's up?"

She was younger then. A bit impetuous. No more than he. Neither were nearly as dignified in their speech and manner as they were now.

Smiling, Jodiah's head canted slightly to the side. "Oh, I was just dropping by to say say hello... you know? See how you were doing?"

Such a fool he was.

She smiled to mimic his, crimson lips parting to reveal perfect rows of neat front teeth. "Was watching the stars..."

He looked up to the ceiling, overhead. He blinked once, staring at the cut stone of the Rhilshen fortress, then looked back to her. Brilliantly green eyes flickered red for a brief instant, though it was likely the ambiance cast by the magelights dotting the corridors. "I can't see them from here."

She shrugged, almost carelessly, and reached out. Pale white fingers wrapped around his as she took him by the hand. "Of course you can't, there's a ceiling over your head." Into her chambers she led him, out to the balcony. With a singular glance back to him, the Emperess pointed up into the midnight sky.

He had made no motion to remove his hand from hers. Niether did she, for a moment. It was a very short few seconds of staring upward before she turned and lowered herself onto a chaise out there on the balcony.

Her head reclined back against the chaise lounge, peering up into the sky. After a few moments, she turned her eyes back to him; scarlet dancing. "There's a meteor shower happening... you can see the stars flying across the sky every now and then. Some superstitious types say it's an omen. Only time will tell. I don't have the gift of foresight."

But she did have many other gifts.

He had removed his armor. Overlapping iron plates, snake-like in appearance, with spikes and skulls and large leather straps. Worn beneath was much more form-fitted black leather, not nearly as massive or imposing as the vicious Thrakan armor that now lay on the cut black stone. He leaned against the chaise, eyes trained upward upon the sky again, but not before sliding down her figure. They discussed business, for a moment; there was a tournament being held within the Undead Association. She had asked him to fight Lord Fabian, since the two needed to be rematched anyway. Once that business was completed, she rose to her feet and moved to a cabinet against the wall just inside the stone archway of her chambers, "Something to drink, Jodiah?"

"Sure. Surprise me with it."

You always liked surprises, didn't you?

"Are you a blood drinker?" she asked, glancing back over her shoulder to him. He had turned his eyes away from the sky, though, watching the graceful motion of her body beneath the shadowsilk robe. Enticing to the senses; he was, after all, a man.

"Yes, mi'lady..." Jodiah Ayreg was no vampire, yet he knew the taste of blood. The coppery taste was known to him both on the field of battle, and the field of rituals. Many of the Nihilian rituals involved the drinking of the blood of the one being sacrificed. At the time? He had even grown a taste for it.

She smiled, very slyly, as she pulled a glass stopper from a fluted bottle, spilling dark, glittering liquid into two glasses. "Good."

She turned, returning to the chaise and sitting upon its edge. Handing him one of the glasses, she went about to explain. "Vintage bloodwine, with Tsend bloodspice."

She explained to him the purpose of bloodspice; that it was a drug, of sorts. It was his first time having tasted it, and it gave the bloodwine a bit of a tangy aftertaste in his throat. "So tell me, what does this 'drug' do?"

"Different for everyone. Alters your state of mind, drops you into a light empathic trance, makes you hallucinate or have true visions... puts you into a killing frenzy." She offered a lazy, relaxed smile as she drank lightly from her glass; it turned into a grin. "It usually enhances my empathy. You did say to surprise you, Jodie..."

"Wouldn't put me into a frenzy. I go into those by myself."

"Mmm. So do I."

Not a peaceful man at all. She was about as equally peaceful. The two were engines of destruction; both as reckless as the other in these times — these Golden Years.

His head tilted to the side, feeling the heady sensation of the bloodspice wondering at his senses. Blotches of color sprang to his vision, but were gone just as quickly. Even so, he did take another sip. "Good stuff."

"Yes," she started, watching him evenly, "and very, very rare. The Tsend elves aren't too keen on donating blood to get someone else high."

He looked up to her, then, his eyes peering over the rim of his glass. His face was smooth, then; Jodiah was a young man at this time. Not even thirty — but not far from it. "So I am special to be sharing this with you, then?"

"Of course you are," she replied, matter-of-factly.

Ayreg smiled.
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That night, a fire was put to wick. That candle still burned for her, as it has since that time nearly immemorial to him now, but she would never know of the flickering little flame. Not from his tongue. He had no great desire to have it cut off by the Emperess for being so impertinent.

Looking up to the illusion that took the form of Alysia Skye, he nodded faintly -- with a little grin of his own. "Remedied it, did I? And to think — all over a damsel-in-distress wandering the streets alone, one night."

Then his expression turned more serious. "I will serve you until such time as you force me to depart Rhilshen under pain of death, Alysia. I feel as if I can never overcome the debt I owe to you for my deeds."

She shook her head remotely."You saved my life, Jodie." A wry smile now to take the sting from that unlikely nickname, used previously as a taunt mere moments before. "And you have killed for me, those who would have killed or destroyed me. And you regained Angylsblud. I could go on and on and on..."

Alysia Skye, the High Priestess and Emperess of Rhilshen extended a suede-booted toe, nudging his own booted foot lightly. "And now I'm in your debt. But what I really wanted to say is that there are no debts unpaid to me, Jodiah -- even though sometimes I might feel otherwise. And you should know by now that I'm a creature ruled by quicksilver emotions. Do not let guilt over some ancient perceived treachery darken your thoughts overlong, hm?"

Ayreg remained silent. What else could he possibly say?

Lord Ayreg

Date: 2006-07-29 23:45 EST
Yeah, I raped a Babylon 5 script. So sue me, I was ready for this to be done with.

Iron-soled boots stomped against the ground, though despite the apparent force there wasn't much actual noise to be made. Those boots moved into the seated form of Alysia, and the mists dispersed back into shadows and dust, leaving no trace of the Emperess, nor even any clues that she had been there at all. The man in the black Thrakan armor sneered, showing all the hate and malice that the Scourge of Worlds had to offer.

"You think she would be that way, Jodiah?" he spat, "Really? Do you honestly think that she would be apologetic? That a woman of her station and power would ever stoop so low?"

"Be silent."

"What?" The Scourge of Worlds blinked, looking almost taken aback.

The Guardian spoke again, looking up now to the Scourge of Worlds, then back to Jodiah. "He has made his decision."

"You be silent, too. The two of are aren't helping. Not in the least. I... I need to think."

"We are here to help you, Jodiah."

"Or at least to give you a good, swift kick back on the path you were destined to travel."

The old man who called himself Kaleen smiled beneath the hood covering much of his face. "Yes... you are closer now, aren't you? But closer to tick? Or close to tock? I cannot tell."

Jodiah sneered, rising suddenly to his feet. "You. This is your doing, isn't it? This is some kind of trick!"

"Is it a trick? Perhaps it is merely truth that you care not to hear, Jodiah." The old man's smile turned into a grin. "Tick, a possibility for joy is gone. Tock, a careless word ends one path, and begins another. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock, always running out of time."

"Am I running out of time?"

"You are. Nothing goes on forever, Jodiah. Not time, not you, not me, not love, not life. Entropy consumes everything. We all run out of time."

"I can't run out of time. Not yet. I have... I have duties. I have responsibilities."

"The only way out is to surrender to tock. Surrender.. to death."

"No. I can't. There are others... they need me."

"Important things?"

"Things worth dying for."

"It is easy to find something worth dying for, Jodiah. Do you have anything worth living for?"

"I... I don't know. I've.. I've never thought of it."

"Most don't. You can't turn away from death simply because you're afraid of what might happen without you. That's not enough."

The old man leaned forward, intently. "You're not embracing life. You're fleeing death. So.. you're caught in-between, unable to go forward or backward."

"...You know of a way."

"Perhaps. I know that your friends need what you could be when you are no longer afraid. When you know who you are, and why you are, and what you want. When you are no longer looking for reasons to live... but can simply be."

"But life for the sake of life is meaningless."

"So you have always believed..."

The flickering light from the lantern faded a bit. What little light it offered dimmed, and Ayreg blinked.

"It's getting dark."

"Yes. You are surrendering to death."

"I can't see you anymore."

"As it should be. You must let go. Surrender yourself to death. The death of flesh; the death of fear. Step into the abyss... and let go."

"What if I fall?"

"You were caught before."

"Will I die?"

"I cannot create life. But... perhaps... perhaps there is a spark left upon the embers. Just enough to breath them back to flame. There is only one way to find out."

The old man drew the hood back from his face.

"Who are you? The wicked and vile Scourge of Worlds? Or are you righteous and pure, and everything a Guardian was meant to be?"

The lantern flame flickered, and dimmed again. It was almost entirely dark now. The last little bit of light still clung to it, but it was only the faintest glow in the sea of darkness that engulfed him.

"I... I am neither. Not righteous. Not wicked. I am just a man."

The Scourge of Worlds turned, and walked away. Long before Thrakan armor vanished into the darkness, though, the mists from which he form dissipated and were carried off by a breeze that was unfelt. "Fool. You have only one destiny, Jodiah. A short life, and a painful death."

"You're close..."

The Guardian turned, and walked away. Long before gleaming plate-and-mail armor vanished into the darkness, though, the mists from which he form dissipated and were carried off by a breeze that was unfelt. "You are a better man than you think, Jodiah. Not righteous. Perhaps not even nice, or kind, but... you're still a good man."

"I am me."

"Then let go."

And he did.

Jodiah Ayreg surrendered to death.