"Between the desire and the spasm, between the potency and the existence, between the essence and the descent, falls the shadow. This is the way the world ends."
T.S. Eliot
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:Prologue:
He was alive".
He was alive"
He could feel the water closing around him. A sore in his chest burned at the caress of the salt water. The chill of the sea ripped through him, yet for some reason he couldn't rid himself of it. His eyes couldn't open; it was too much water, too much salt. Instantly he knew he was in the ocean.
Something was off. He shouldn't have been alive. His mind raced over the thoughts before him. He could remember the bullet to the chest; he could remember falling back into the water. Yet, he could remember things that weren't his.
Air. He needed it as much as he needed her. Each measure of the oppressing water into his lungs was making him sick. His whole body rose like a heavy weight against the resistance above. When the air hit his lungs he rasped, coughing viciously to rid himself of the putrid water. Any man should have been dead.
Why not him'
The ship was still in view, still under the purge of a battle that he initiated. It was a mess. Rope and sail were strewn all over the lapping sea. Fire was torn at the very heart of the ship; it seemed as if the breast of the bow was lost to the carnivorous heat. Inch after inch of the Norwegian design was being ripped apart like a feather to the cruel realities of the elements.
One hand clasped at the nearest rope leading to the ship. He still felt as if the weight of the hole in his chest was holding him into that unforgiving sea. Something pushed him. There was a voice in the back of his mind urging her to do it for her, telling him that without him she'd be lost, a mess that would never follow her heart again. It was something that he would never be able to live with.
Not marble nor the gilded monuments
Sonnet 55
by William Shakespeare
Not marble, nor the gilded monuments Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme; But you shall shine more bright in these cont"nts Than unswept stone, besmeared with sluttish time. When wasteful war shall statues overturn, And broils root out the work of masonry, Nor Mars his sword nor war's quick fire shall burn The living record of your memory. 'Gainst death and all-oblivious enmity Shall you pace forth; your praise shall still find room Even in the eyes of all posterity That wear this world out to the ending doom. So, till the judgment that yourself arise, You live in this, and dwell in lovers' eyes.
It burned, the hole in his chest. Even as he rose upwards he cried out in agony. The blood upon the deck was refreshed with his own while he surged forwards into the fray. Hours, it felt, but it was not clear how long his body would have to endure before the battle was won. In the end, only his few remained.
The haze gripped him. A smell of blood so vivid took it's hold upon him. Despite his weary steps, he found strength. All his focus carried him towards one thing and one thing alone, home. He needed to get home. His eyes of mist saw no other goal.
Even as hands all around him reached out and steadied him, he fought to push forwards. The glittering sea almost looked like green grass, a field of which could carry him towards home. In hurried calls he was pulled back, kept apart from a cruel reality. One arm out stretched, almost as if he could hear the pained sobs of a woman he had only breath for.
"R?" No, they stopped him from speaking. It was too much, the blood was too much.
He shouldn't be alive. No one could explain it. Word it. They just stared in awe at the void within his chest. Blood pooled around him and the man holding him. Many of the men were like his brothers, all weeping, all fearing the end of some fate he had thought he had overcome. Even in these hazy moments, he could not feel death?s grip within reach. A tormenting veil kept that cold grasp further away than he would ever realize.
"Sleep?" Such pain and sorrow was behind that voice. He knew it so well, but even then it was so strange to him. It was as though his heart broke at the grief within this tenor tone. "Sleep?" Again a bit of his heart broke. He didn't know this voice; it was so much like his own, but yet so different. Each bit of his body knew this voice, related to it, understood it. Yet, he couldn't. "Sleep, and all will be for the best' It's what she needs. Have faith."
Breath, defiance, what more could he do so near the end. His hand reached, pulled, and brought his friend to him. Forehead to forehead, he spoke with broken breath," You" you make" her" live...You make her" live. Believe" Believe" in my...life. Believe" in" my spirit!"
"Fight it' FIGHT IT!" Several voices all had faith. But this one saw the depth behind the words. He had to in order to hold faith.
"Sleep ye stupi" man.." The voice held strength now. Determination and strength he knew oh so well. He had known that voice for so long; it had always been with him. He knew it. Yet he didn't know how to explain it.
"You" you? make?" Weakness overcomes all, and right as he gave those words. Right as his thought carried him away," Rabbit?" Sleep came upon command.
"TRISTAN!!"
Darkness swallowed him whole.
T.S. Eliot
__________________________________________________ _________
:Prologue:
He was alive".
He was alive"
He could feel the water closing around him. A sore in his chest burned at the caress of the salt water. The chill of the sea ripped through him, yet for some reason he couldn't rid himself of it. His eyes couldn't open; it was too much water, too much salt. Instantly he knew he was in the ocean.
Something was off. He shouldn't have been alive. His mind raced over the thoughts before him. He could remember the bullet to the chest; he could remember falling back into the water. Yet, he could remember things that weren't his.
Air. He needed it as much as he needed her. Each measure of the oppressing water into his lungs was making him sick. His whole body rose like a heavy weight against the resistance above. When the air hit his lungs he rasped, coughing viciously to rid himself of the putrid water. Any man should have been dead.
Why not him'
The ship was still in view, still under the purge of a battle that he initiated. It was a mess. Rope and sail were strewn all over the lapping sea. Fire was torn at the very heart of the ship; it seemed as if the breast of the bow was lost to the carnivorous heat. Inch after inch of the Norwegian design was being ripped apart like a feather to the cruel realities of the elements.
One hand clasped at the nearest rope leading to the ship. He still felt as if the weight of the hole in his chest was holding him into that unforgiving sea. Something pushed him. There was a voice in the back of his mind urging her to do it for her, telling him that without him she'd be lost, a mess that would never follow her heart again. It was something that he would never be able to live with.
Not marble nor the gilded monuments
Sonnet 55
by William Shakespeare
Not marble, nor the gilded monuments Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme; But you shall shine more bright in these cont"nts Than unswept stone, besmeared with sluttish time. When wasteful war shall statues overturn, And broils root out the work of masonry, Nor Mars his sword nor war's quick fire shall burn The living record of your memory. 'Gainst death and all-oblivious enmity Shall you pace forth; your praise shall still find room Even in the eyes of all posterity That wear this world out to the ending doom. So, till the judgment that yourself arise, You live in this, and dwell in lovers' eyes.
It burned, the hole in his chest. Even as he rose upwards he cried out in agony. The blood upon the deck was refreshed with his own while he surged forwards into the fray. Hours, it felt, but it was not clear how long his body would have to endure before the battle was won. In the end, only his few remained.
The haze gripped him. A smell of blood so vivid took it's hold upon him. Despite his weary steps, he found strength. All his focus carried him towards one thing and one thing alone, home. He needed to get home. His eyes of mist saw no other goal.
Even as hands all around him reached out and steadied him, he fought to push forwards. The glittering sea almost looked like green grass, a field of which could carry him towards home. In hurried calls he was pulled back, kept apart from a cruel reality. One arm out stretched, almost as if he could hear the pained sobs of a woman he had only breath for.
"R?" No, they stopped him from speaking. It was too much, the blood was too much.
He shouldn't be alive. No one could explain it. Word it. They just stared in awe at the void within his chest. Blood pooled around him and the man holding him. Many of the men were like his brothers, all weeping, all fearing the end of some fate he had thought he had overcome. Even in these hazy moments, he could not feel death?s grip within reach. A tormenting veil kept that cold grasp further away than he would ever realize.
"Sleep?" Such pain and sorrow was behind that voice. He knew it so well, but even then it was so strange to him. It was as though his heart broke at the grief within this tenor tone. "Sleep?" Again a bit of his heart broke. He didn't know this voice; it was so much like his own, but yet so different. Each bit of his body knew this voice, related to it, understood it. Yet, he couldn't. "Sleep, and all will be for the best' It's what she needs. Have faith."
Breath, defiance, what more could he do so near the end. His hand reached, pulled, and brought his friend to him. Forehead to forehead, he spoke with broken breath," You" you make" her" live...You make her" live. Believe" Believe" in my...life. Believe" in" my spirit!"
"Fight it' FIGHT IT!" Several voices all had faith. But this one saw the depth behind the words. He had to in order to hold faith.
"Sleep ye stupi" man.." The voice held strength now. Determination and strength he knew oh so well. He had known that voice for so long; it had always been with him. He knew it. Yet he didn't know how to explain it.
"You" you? make?" Weakness overcomes all, and right as he gave those words. Right as his thought carried him away," Rabbit?" Sleep came upon command.
"TRISTAN!!"
Darkness swallowed him whole.