The bed was strange. The room was full of unfamiliar shadows. The house made strange noises. But none of these were the true reason why, barely three hours after falling to sleep, Ayden was awake again, dressed, staring out the window into the dawn over the scrap yard that seemed to surround the blue house she'd been brought to. She'd managed a couple of hours, but there had been nothing to keep the nightmares at bay, no one there to hold back the darkness and give her peace a little while longer. She felt raw, frayed around the edges, startled by every little creak or groan from the floorboards or walls, certain that it was the angels returning for her.
When, after almost an hour of watching the sun rise, she realised she couldn't stay in here forever, that the residents of the house would be rising any time soon, Ayden drew herself away from the window, pulling on her college sweatshirt as she made her way to the door. The house was quiet still, the upstairs corridor coming to life with the sounds of sleeping breath behind doors as she crept past, making barely any sound on the stairs. She needed fresh air, to feel the sun and appreciate that it was real, and her feet took her straight to the side door by the kitchen without noticing if anyone was still up down here. And there, out in what had to be where Bobby fixed what could be fixed before selling it on, was a sight she hadn't seen in years.
There, sleek and dark and shining in the gentle gold of the dawning sun, was the first good impression John Winchester had made on her twelve-year old self. A '67 Chevy Impala, beautifully maintained; the car that had inspired her to find and buy her own car, back in Madison. A car she hadn't seen since she was thirteen. She'd thought he'd gotten rid of it; he must have given it to Dean or Sam instead. Unexpectedly, Ayden felt tears prick her eyes, even as a small smile touched her lips. She reached out, laying soft fingers against the gorgeous car's hood, murmuring a quiet greeting to the Impala. "Hey, baby."
As for Dean, he had just as much trouble sleeping, but for different reasons. He'd crashed on the couch, hoping to catch a few hours' sleep before the house started to wake, but after an hour or so of tossing and turning, he'd given up. Lying there on the couch, he'd gone over the events of the last few days, over and over in his head, trying to sort out what the options were and still coming out with the same solution to the problem - saying yes. But saying yes to Michael meant Sam saying yes to Lucifer and more than likely killing each other. It was a solution that no one wanted; it was a worst case scenario, a last resort, but Dean wasn't seeing many alternatives.
He heard movement upstairs, light footsteps on the stairs, and he knew without doubt that his newfound sister was having as much trouble sleeping as he was. He listened as she moved quietly through the house, tracking her footsteps in his head, down the stairs, through the house to the back door near the kitchen, and out into the yard. He wasn't afraid of her going anywhere, as there was nowhere to go, and she'd come here for protection. He wasn't afraid of any harm coming to her, so long as she stayed close. He heard the door bang quietly shut and frowned thoughtfully. It seemed as good a time as any to meet his baby sister. He had to do it sooner or later, and he wouldn't have to worry about competition from Sam or dirty looks from Ellen or Bobby to egg him on.
After a while, he shoved a hand through his hair and dropped his feet to the floor, moving just as quietly through the house to the kitchen, where he poured two cups of coffee and slipped out the back door to have a Folgers moment with a girl who was as much a stranger as his flesh and blood.
What greeted him when he stepped from the house was a scene that most men who were a little precious about their cars might have objected to. Ayden was on the far side of the Impala, her back to him as she leaned against the hood comfortably. One hand was tucked into her sweater; the other stretched out on the shining paintwork, fingertips gently stroking the car as she talked, oblivious to her new audience. "Kinda figures you'd still be going strong," she was saying, speaking to the car as Dean stepped out into the freshness of the morning. "I never got why he switched up to that monster truck, but then I didn't really know about the others then. All I knew was that his cool car was gone. Probably just as well - I don't think he would have forgiven me for bleeding all over you, baby."
But Dean wasn't most men. Though his baby was his most precious possession, he noticed how she touched the hood with an almost loving caress; how she talked to her with familiar fondness, as though she was an old friend. Dean realized this was not the first time she'd met his baby, and she felt a pang of jealousy or envy, wondering just what kind of relationship she'd had with his - no, their - father. Be polite, Dean, he told himself, reminded of what Ellen had told him. He came up quietly, a cup of coffee in each hand. "She's a beauty, isn't she?" he asked, making idle conversation to start them off. "I found her in a used car lot back in Lawrence. Dad wanted a van, but..." He shrugged his shoulders before handing her a cup of coffee, black.
Ayden's reaction would have been funny if it hadn't been so heartbreaking. She jumped, a gasp tearing its way from her throat as she lurched out of her lean to spin about and face Dean, green eyes wide with fright and wary shock. Zachariah had done quite a number on her if even a gentle greeting like that could frighten the girl. Realising that Dean wasn't about to make her start spontaneously bleeding or yell at her for abusing his car, she drew in a shaky breath, forcing herself to calm down as her hand wrapped about the offered cup. "Thank you," she managed, remembering her manners in lieu of anything else to say. Her eyes turned back to the Impala, red-rimmed and dark with fatigued bruises. "Is that why he got the truck in the end?" she asked curiously, grateful for the segue into conversation that wasn't too heavy. "Because he didn't want her?"
Dean smiled, both at the memory her question triggered and just out of pure instinct. Whether he realized it or not, he was, by instinct and by habit, a protector of those he deemed needing protecting. Whatever his personal feelings in the matter might be, it was plain to see that she was frightened and needed someone with a calm demeanor to make her feel safe and welcome. "No, because I turned sixteen and wanted to drive. I used to take her out without his permission, and he finally just let me have her." He sipped at his coffee, slanting a glance at the sky as the sun rose over the piles of scrap metal in Bobby's yard. "Here's to another sunrise," he said, lifting his cup in celebration. No one knew that he secretly thanked a God he only half believed every morning at sunrise for another day.
"So I guess it was a fluke those two times he had her when he came to Windom," Ayden murmured thoughtfully. She was relieved by his smile, reassured that the big brother who'd been conspicuous by his absence the night before wasn't actively avoiding her. She even managed to raise a wan smile at his description of wearing their father down. But it didn't last. His benediction to the rising sun wiped the smile clean from her face, and she hurriedly ducked her head, hiding behind the fall of brown hair as her throat tightened. There was one person who'd never see another sunrise again, and the loss was like a brand on her heart. It would take a long time to be able to feel anything but pain at such thoughts.
When, after almost an hour of watching the sun rise, she realised she couldn't stay in here forever, that the residents of the house would be rising any time soon, Ayden drew herself away from the window, pulling on her college sweatshirt as she made her way to the door. The house was quiet still, the upstairs corridor coming to life with the sounds of sleeping breath behind doors as she crept past, making barely any sound on the stairs. She needed fresh air, to feel the sun and appreciate that it was real, and her feet took her straight to the side door by the kitchen without noticing if anyone was still up down here. And there, out in what had to be where Bobby fixed what could be fixed before selling it on, was a sight she hadn't seen in years.
There, sleek and dark and shining in the gentle gold of the dawning sun, was the first good impression John Winchester had made on her twelve-year old self. A '67 Chevy Impala, beautifully maintained; the car that had inspired her to find and buy her own car, back in Madison. A car she hadn't seen since she was thirteen. She'd thought he'd gotten rid of it; he must have given it to Dean or Sam instead. Unexpectedly, Ayden felt tears prick her eyes, even as a small smile touched her lips. She reached out, laying soft fingers against the gorgeous car's hood, murmuring a quiet greeting to the Impala. "Hey, baby."
As for Dean, he had just as much trouble sleeping, but for different reasons. He'd crashed on the couch, hoping to catch a few hours' sleep before the house started to wake, but after an hour or so of tossing and turning, he'd given up. Lying there on the couch, he'd gone over the events of the last few days, over and over in his head, trying to sort out what the options were and still coming out with the same solution to the problem - saying yes. But saying yes to Michael meant Sam saying yes to Lucifer and more than likely killing each other. It was a solution that no one wanted; it was a worst case scenario, a last resort, but Dean wasn't seeing many alternatives.
He heard movement upstairs, light footsteps on the stairs, and he knew without doubt that his newfound sister was having as much trouble sleeping as he was. He listened as she moved quietly through the house, tracking her footsteps in his head, down the stairs, through the house to the back door near the kitchen, and out into the yard. He wasn't afraid of her going anywhere, as there was nowhere to go, and she'd come here for protection. He wasn't afraid of any harm coming to her, so long as she stayed close. He heard the door bang quietly shut and frowned thoughtfully. It seemed as good a time as any to meet his baby sister. He had to do it sooner or later, and he wouldn't have to worry about competition from Sam or dirty looks from Ellen or Bobby to egg him on.
After a while, he shoved a hand through his hair and dropped his feet to the floor, moving just as quietly through the house to the kitchen, where he poured two cups of coffee and slipped out the back door to have a Folgers moment with a girl who was as much a stranger as his flesh and blood.
What greeted him when he stepped from the house was a scene that most men who were a little precious about their cars might have objected to. Ayden was on the far side of the Impala, her back to him as she leaned against the hood comfortably. One hand was tucked into her sweater; the other stretched out on the shining paintwork, fingertips gently stroking the car as she talked, oblivious to her new audience. "Kinda figures you'd still be going strong," she was saying, speaking to the car as Dean stepped out into the freshness of the morning. "I never got why he switched up to that monster truck, but then I didn't really know about the others then. All I knew was that his cool car was gone. Probably just as well - I don't think he would have forgiven me for bleeding all over you, baby."
But Dean wasn't most men. Though his baby was his most precious possession, he noticed how she touched the hood with an almost loving caress; how she talked to her with familiar fondness, as though she was an old friend. Dean realized this was not the first time she'd met his baby, and she felt a pang of jealousy or envy, wondering just what kind of relationship she'd had with his - no, their - father. Be polite, Dean, he told himself, reminded of what Ellen had told him. He came up quietly, a cup of coffee in each hand. "She's a beauty, isn't she?" he asked, making idle conversation to start them off. "I found her in a used car lot back in Lawrence. Dad wanted a van, but..." He shrugged his shoulders before handing her a cup of coffee, black.
Ayden's reaction would have been funny if it hadn't been so heartbreaking. She jumped, a gasp tearing its way from her throat as she lurched out of her lean to spin about and face Dean, green eyes wide with fright and wary shock. Zachariah had done quite a number on her if even a gentle greeting like that could frighten the girl. Realising that Dean wasn't about to make her start spontaneously bleeding or yell at her for abusing his car, she drew in a shaky breath, forcing herself to calm down as her hand wrapped about the offered cup. "Thank you," she managed, remembering her manners in lieu of anything else to say. Her eyes turned back to the Impala, red-rimmed and dark with fatigued bruises. "Is that why he got the truck in the end?" she asked curiously, grateful for the segue into conversation that wasn't too heavy. "Because he didn't want her?"
Dean smiled, both at the memory her question triggered and just out of pure instinct. Whether he realized it or not, he was, by instinct and by habit, a protector of those he deemed needing protecting. Whatever his personal feelings in the matter might be, it was plain to see that she was frightened and needed someone with a calm demeanor to make her feel safe and welcome. "No, because I turned sixteen and wanted to drive. I used to take her out without his permission, and he finally just let me have her." He sipped at his coffee, slanting a glance at the sky as the sun rose over the piles of scrap metal in Bobby's yard. "Here's to another sunrise," he said, lifting his cup in celebration. No one knew that he secretly thanked a God he only half believed every morning at sunrise for another day.
"So I guess it was a fluke those two times he had her when he came to Windom," Ayden murmured thoughtfully. She was relieved by his smile, reassured that the big brother who'd been conspicuous by his absence the night before wasn't actively avoiding her. She even managed to raise a wan smile at his description of wearing their father down. But it didn't last. His benediction to the rising sun wiped the smile clean from her face, and she hurriedly ducked her head, hiding behind the fall of brown hair as her throat tightened. There was one person who'd never see another sunrise again, and the loss was like a brand on her heart. It would take a long time to be able to feel anything but pain at such thoughts.