Entry One
As I scribble my first entry in this little black book, I wonder if anyone will ever read the words on these pages. Will I be remembered at all, or will I just turn to dust' No one lives forever, after all, except maybe Death. If anyone remembers me, I don't want to be remembered as a hero or a martyr or an angel. I just want to be remembered as a man who did his best to always do the right thing.
A man who's seen the future, and the future is bleak, a world of perpetual darkness. No sunlight, no hope, a world that's slowly dying. There's no way of telling what time it is there, what day, what year. None of that matters. It's Hell on Earth, never-ending and without hope. You envy those who've gone before you. They had a kinder fate than yours. You pray for death, but it doesn't come, and you wonder if it ever will.
And where is God in all that' God doesn't care. God has abandoned His children. Well, I'll be damned if I'm gonna stand by and do nothing while Hades destroys the world. I may not have been born here, but I have a life here. This is my world now, and I'm not abandoning those I love to a world of darkness and despair.
The gods knew what they were doing when they brought me here. They knew what would happen. Jo's the only woman I've ever really loved. She can call herself Nimue, but it doesn't matter. A rose by any other name and all that. She's my Jo, from my world, and though it scares the hell out of me to admit it, I love her. She's my reason for waking up every morning and for going to bed every night. The gods knew I'd fall in love with her all over again, and they knew I'd do everything in my power to keep her safe. So, here I am.
I've seen the future, and the future is bleak, but I'm gonna change that future, not only for me and Nim and our children, but for all those other families out there who don't deserve this, who just wanna live.
God may have abandoned them, but I won't. One way or another, I'm gonna change the future, or I'm gonna die trying.
Dean Winchester Sioux Falls, South Dakota July 2012
As I scribble my first entry in this little black book, I wonder if anyone will ever read the words on these pages. Will I be remembered at all, or will I just turn to dust' No one lives forever, after all, except maybe Death. If anyone remembers me, I don't want to be remembered as a hero or a martyr or an angel. I just want to be remembered as a man who did his best to always do the right thing.
A man who's seen the future, and the future is bleak, a world of perpetual darkness. No sunlight, no hope, a world that's slowly dying. There's no way of telling what time it is there, what day, what year. None of that matters. It's Hell on Earth, never-ending and without hope. You envy those who've gone before you. They had a kinder fate than yours. You pray for death, but it doesn't come, and you wonder if it ever will.
And where is God in all that' God doesn't care. God has abandoned His children. Well, I'll be damned if I'm gonna stand by and do nothing while Hades destroys the world. I may not have been born here, but I have a life here. This is my world now, and I'm not abandoning those I love to a world of darkness and despair.
The gods knew what they were doing when they brought me here. They knew what would happen. Jo's the only woman I've ever really loved. She can call herself Nimue, but it doesn't matter. A rose by any other name and all that. She's my Jo, from my world, and though it scares the hell out of me to admit it, I love her. She's my reason for waking up every morning and for going to bed every night. The gods knew I'd fall in love with her all over again, and they knew I'd do everything in my power to keep her safe. So, here I am.
I've seen the future, and the future is bleak, but I'm gonna change that future, not only for me and Nim and our children, but for all those other families out there who don't deserve this, who just wanna live.
God may have abandoned them, but I won't. One way or another, I'm gonna change the future, or I'm gonna die trying.
Dean Winchester Sioux Falls, South Dakota July 2012