It had been nearly thirty years since Mary Winchester had died, since John Winchester had taken to the road to find his wife's killer. Nearly thirty years since Dean Winchester had vowed to take care of his little brother Sammy, no matter the cost. Countless battles had been fought in the war between Heaven and Hell - some won, some lost - with the fate of humanity hanging in the balance. Countless lives had been sacrificed, some friends, some foes. Nearly thirty years and a thousand tears later, and it was finally reaching a climax, at least, as far as Dean Winchester was concerned.
In a way, no matter what Ellen or Bobby or Ayden told him, Dean felt like a failure. He'd failed to keep his brother safe; he'd failed to protect Andrea and Lucas, but he was determined not to fail his sister. Nearly thirty years, and he had at long last reached the Point of No Return. Sam had said yes to Lucifer, just as they'd agreed, and Dean was about to say yes to Michael. The brothers would have their showdown, but it would be between them. Dean had certain conditions that needed to be met before he would agree to becoming Michael's vessel, but he knew this was one battle he wouldn't be coming home from.
The plan was made, though most of the detail had been kept specifically vague. By now, Lucifer would know that they thought they had a way to win - it was all in Sam's head, after all. Pretty soon, Michael would have the same information. Which was why some promises had been made that were going to be broken, regardless of either Winchester's insistence. But for now, at least, certain things had to happen. The four of them had gathered, not at B&E Salvage, but outside Sioux Falls, somewhere nice and deserted and nowhere near the safe places Bobby, Ellen, and Ayden were expected to return to.
Ayden, in particular, was silent. Over the course of just a few weeks, she had learned of her father's death, watched her mother die, been hounded by angels, grown to love her brothers, and just yesterday, she had said goodbye to one of those brothers. Now she had to say goodbye to the other, and it was breaking her young heart.
Bobby was his usual grumpy self, and the whole situation was not making him any less grumpy. Getting in touch with his feelings was not his best suit, and saying good-bye involved doing just that. It had been hard enough with Sam, but he knew it was going to be even harder with Dean. Of the two, it was no secret who Bobby favored. Sam was the kid everyone wanted to protect, but who'd grown into a man who was more than capable of taking care of himself. Dean was the more tragic of the pair, the more damaged one. Maybe he saw this as some way to redeem himself, but in Bobby's eyes, it was nothing short of suicide. It was no secret he wasn't happy with the plan the two Winchester boys had concocted, and yet, short of locking them up in the safe room for the rest of their lives, there wasn't much he could do to stop them.
Ellen, too, was close to heartbroken, but she was tougher than the younger woman. She knew this had to happen, whether she truly wanted it or not. Maneuvering her wheelchair over gravel, she approached Dean where he stood, looking up at the man who had been like a son to her for a very long time. "This is it, sweetie," she said quietly. "Point of no return."
"Yeah, well....it's not like I haven't been there before," Dean remarked stoically as Ellen wheeled her chair close. As hard as he was trying to keep his own emotions at bay, Ellen was the one person who knew him well enough to know what he was feeling and to see past the mask he wore for the rest of the world. The stoic expression wavered for just a moment. He didn't want his last goodbye to be tearful, and yet, he needed them to know how much they all meant to him. He wanted them to remember him for his courage, not his weakness, but seeing them all gathered there to say goodbye was doing nothing for his conviction. Saying goodbye to Sam had been hard enough. At least, after this, there would be no more goodbyes. He seemed to consider a moment whether or not to give in to what he was feeling. It would have been so much easier just to leave in the middle of the night without ever having to say goodbye.
After a moment, he crouched down so that they were at eye level. Whatever it was he wanted or needed to say to Ellen had already been said long ago. He loved her like a mother; she knew that already. There wasn't much more to say. He reached for her hand, pressing it between his own. "You take care of Bobby and Ayden for me, okay?"
She held his gaze, her eyes watery but clear. There was no way she was going to let this goodbye be marred with tears - she had done as much for Sam, she couldn't do any less for Dean. Folding his hands in hers, she squeezed tightly. "You know I will," Ellen promised him, this promise intended to be kept. "You just take care of the rest." There was a pause as she swallowed against the tightness in her throat. "No matter what happens, Dean, I'm proud of you. I've always been proud of you."
"You know I will," he promised with a weak, watery smile of his own that was meant to reassure. If one thing could be said of Dean Winchester, it was that he always kept his promises. Healing her was one of his conditions, and though neither mentioned it, they both knew it. He didn't need to tell her how much she meant to him or how thankful he was to have had her in his life. All of that went without saying because he'd said it all before, but there was one thing he did need to say, and it was something that didn't come easy for him. "God, I feel like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz," he said with a sad smile.
Ellen's smile was wry, understanding that though this was hard for her, it was harder for Dean. One hand uncurled from his, gently cupping to the back of his neck in that familiarly maternal gesture of affection that was all her own. "Fresh out of ruby slippers, kid," was her answer. "But you are goin' home."
That brought a small frown to Dean's face, as he couldn't disagree more. He'd been to Heaven, and Heaven wasn't home, but maybe he'd at least have peace there. "Sioux Falls is home, Ellen. Home is with you and Bobby. Has been since I was six." Like Dorothy, Dean had learned that home wasn't a place, necessarily - home was being with the people you loved. Home was Sam and Mom and Dad and Andrea and Lucas and Bobby and Ellen and Ayden and Cas. "Maybe I'll see Andrea again," he admitted quietly, for her ears only, ducking his head to hide the threat of tears.
In a way, no matter what Ellen or Bobby or Ayden told him, Dean felt like a failure. He'd failed to keep his brother safe; he'd failed to protect Andrea and Lucas, but he was determined not to fail his sister. Nearly thirty years, and he had at long last reached the Point of No Return. Sam had said yes to Lucifer, just as they'd agreed, and Dean was about to say yes to Michael. The brothers would have their showdown, but it would be between them. Dean had certain conditions that needed to be met before he would agree to becoming Michael's vessel, but he knew this was one battle he wouldn't be coming home from.
The plan was made, though most of the detail had been kept specifically vague. By now, Lucifer would know that they thought they had a way to win - it was all in Sam's head, after all. Pretty soon, Michael would have the same information. Which was why some promises had been made that were going to be broken, regardless of either Winchester's insistence. But for now, at least, certain things had to happen. The four of them had gathered, not at B&E Salvage, but outside Sioux Falls, somewhere nice and deserted and nowhere near the safe places Bobby, Ellen, and Ayden were expected to return to.
Ayden, in particular, was silent. Over the course of just a few weeks, she had learned of her father's death, watched her mother die, been hounded by angels, grown to love her brothers, and just yesterday, she had said goodbye to one of those brothers. Now she had to say goodbye to the other, and it was breaking her young heart.
Bobby was his usual grumpy self, and the whole situation was not making him any less grumpy. Getting in touch with his feelings was not his best suit, and saying good-bye involved doing just that. It had been hard enough with Sam, but he knew it was going to be even harder with Dean. Of the two, it was no secret who Bobby favored. Sam was the kid everyone wanted to protect, but who'd grown into a man who was more than capable of taking care of himself. Dean was the more tragic of the pair, the more damaged one. Maybe he saw this as some way to redeem himself, but in Bobby's eyes, it was nothing short of suicide. It was no secret he wasn't happy with the plan the two Winchester boys had concocted, and yet, short of locking them up in the safe room for the rest of their lives, there wasn't much he could do to stop them.
Ellen, too, was close to heartbroken, but she was tougher than the younger woman. She knew this had to happen, whether she truly wanted it or not. Maneuvering her wheelchair over gravel, she approached Dean where he stood, looking up at the man who had been like a son to her for a very long time. "This is it, sweetie," she said quietly. "Point of no return."
"Yeah, well....it's not like I haven't been there before," Dean remarked stoically as Ellen wheeled her chair close. As hard as he was trying to keep his own emotions at bay, Ellen was the one person who knew him well enough to know what he was feeling and to see past the mask he wore for the rest of the world. The stoic expression wavered for just a moment. He didn't want his last goodbye to be tearful, and yet, he needed them to know how much they all meant to him. He wanted them to remember him for his courage, not his weakness, but seeing them all gathered there to say goodbye was doing nothing for his conviction. Saying goodbye to Sam had been hard enough. At least, after this, there would be no more goodbyes. He seemed to consider a moment whether or not to give in to what he was feeling. It would have been so much easier just to leave in the middle of the night without ever having to say goodbye.
After a moment, he crouched down so that they were at eye level. Whatever it was he wanted or needed to say to Ellen had already been said long ago. He loved her like a mother; she knew that already. There wasn't much more to say. He reached for her hand, pressing it between his own. "You take care of Bobby and Ayden for me, okay?"
She held his gaze, her eyes watery but clear. There was no way she was going to let this goodbye be marred with tears - she had done as much for Sam, she couldn't do any less for Dean. Folding his hands in hers, she squeezed tightly. "You know I will," Ellen promised him, this promise intended to be kept. "You just take care of the rest." There was a pause as she swallowed against the tightness in her throat. "No matter what happens, Dean, I'm proud of you. I've always been proud of you."
"You know I will," he promised with a weak, watery smile of his own that was meant to reassure. If one thing could be said of Dean Winchester, it was that he always kept his promises. Healing her was one of his conditions, and though neither mentioned it, they both knew it. He didn't need to tell her how much she meant to him or how thankful he was to have had her in his life. All of that went without saying because he'd said it all before, but there was one thing he did need to say, and it was something that didn't come easy for him. "God, I feel like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz," he said with a sad smile.
Ellen's smile was wry, understanding that though this was hard for her, it was harder for Dean. One hand uncurled from his, gently cupping to the back of his neck in that familiarly maternal gesture of affection that was all her own. "Fresh out of ruby slippers, kid," was her answer. "But you are goin' home."
That brought a small frown to Dean's face, as he couldn't disagree more. He'd been to Heaven, and Heaven wasn't home, but maybe he'd at least have peace there. "Sioux Falls is home, Ellen. Home is with you and Bobby. Has been since I was six." Like Dorothy, Dean had learned that home wasn't a place, necessarily - home was being with the people you loved. Home was Sam and Mom and Dad and Andrea and Lucas and Bobby and Ellen and Ayden and Cas. "Maybe I'll see Andrea again," he admitted quietly, for her ears only, ducking his head to hide the threat of tears.