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So ....this journal. I'd totally forgotten I had it until it showed up in an old box of mom's stuff. So weird that I would have thrown it in with her things when it came from him. But then, the year she died was weird for all kinds of reasons. I guess now's as good a time as any to start using this thing. It's not like I have anyone else I can talk to about the weird.
So, these are the things I know.
My name is Ayden Milligan. I was born on the 29th of September, 1990, to Katherine (Kate) Milligan, a nurse from Windom, Minnesota. Boring town, normal friends; I was a latch-key kid, but that was only because my mom had to work the graveyard shift to make ends meet. She never let me see how bad it was, though. I lived a completely normal, blissfully ignorant life. And it was good, me and my mom in our little house, just the two of us against the world.
My dad didn't figure into things until later. My mom always told me he was a hero, that he was out there saving lives, but I never really believed her. To me, he was just a face in a photo by her bed, until my twelfth birthday. Suddenly that face in that photo was standing on our front stoop in a cheap suit, giving me a journal wrapped in newspaper for a present, and asking my mom if he could take me out for a meal for my birthday. He did that every year. Every September 29th, he showed up on our doorstep and I went out for dinner with my absentee father.
One year, he was there for three days, and I found out what it was my father did with his time. He hunted monsters, and demons, and all the things you tell your kids aren't real and can't hurt you. I was fourteen when I found out about those lies the hard way. It's kinda hard not to believe in it when a ghoul has you strapped to a table with your veins open, bleeding out into tupperware bowls. My dad saved my life. He saved my mom's life. He killed the things that tried to kill us. And then he was gone again.
But he came back for my fifteenth birthday and for the first time, I had something I could talk to him about. He told me about my brothers, people I didn't even know existed, and I was so jealous of the way he talked about them. He was so proud of his boys. I was just the girl. I wasn't even good enough to train how to hunt, I got left with my mom in case I got them all in trouble. God, I resented them all for that so much. He gave me a necklace that year, made me promise I'd never take it off, and I haven't. Not once.
And then, on my sixteenth birthday, he didn't show. He wasn't there for my seventeenth or eighteenth, either. Or my nineteenth. My mom was worried, but she didn't want to call my brothers and ask what had happened. She wouldn't give me the numbers so I could call them. My dad just slipped into memory. It wasn't like there was much of him to miss, but every year, when September slipped by and he wasn't there, I missed him a little.
Then, a couple of years ago, all hell broke loose. Or maybe that should be heaven. Angels came for my mom and me. Friggin' angels. And seriously, they were dicks. They were not what I'd imagined when I said my prayers at night, that was for sure. Angels killed my mom because I wouldn't do what they wanted me to. To this day, I don't know why they didn't kill me, too. I guess because it would have been the merciful thing to do.
First thing I did was find my brothers' cell numbers in my mom's things, but they were a bust. I couldn't even get through, so I called my dad's number. One of my brothers, the next one up from me, picked up, and a couple of hours later, this gruff old guy showed up on my doorstep, bundled me into his truck, and drove me to Sioux Falls.
I got to meet my brothers, my dad's perfect boys, for the first time, and I gotta tell you, I felt real safe with them. They were totally shocked. Dad never even told them I existed; they had to get their pet angel friend to confirm everything for them before they believed a word I was saying. But I gotta give them credit - as soon as they did believe me, I was family.
I still don't really know everything that was going on, and what happened a few weeks after that still gives me nightmares. I can't put it down in just a few words to sum up my life - it's gonna get an entry all to itself when I get there. All I can say right now is that a couple of months after I met my brothers for the first time, they died, right in front of me, stopping something much much worse from happening to the whole damn planet.
So my whole family died at the hands of the lies people tell their children. And no one would let me hunt. No one would teach me, and every time I tried to go out there on my own, I was caught and taken back to my life. It took a while, but I did give up in the end. They were right - I was just walking bait with no one around to spring the trap for me.
So what now" I'm just your average med-student from Windom, Minnesota. Brown hair, green eyes, five foot six inches, maybe a little on the skinny side. I've got a good life, you know" Good friends, a decent job, a full ride at Stanford. It's all good. I took my full ride at Stanford; who wouldn't' If I can't be a hunter, I'm gonna be a doctor hunters can go to when they need strapping up that they can't do on their own.
There's only one real difference between me and the friends I've made here. I know what?s out there, in the darkness. And I sleep with a loaded shotgun under my pillow these days. Just in case.
So ....this journal. I'd totally forgotten I had it until it showed up in an old box of mom's stuff. So weird that I would have thrown it in with her things when it came from him. But then, the year she died was weird for all kinds of reasons. I guess now's as good a time as any to start using this thing. It's not like I have anyone else I can talk to about the weird.
So, these are the things I know.
My name is Ayden Milligan. I was born on the 29th of September, 1990, to Katherine (Kate) Milligan, a nurse from Windom, Minnesota. Boring town, normal friends; I was a latch-key kid, but that was only because my mom had to work the graveyard shift to make ends meet. She never let me see how bad it was, though. I lived a completely normal, blissfully ignorant life. And it was good, me and my mom in our little house, just the two of us against the world.
My dad didn't figure into things until later. My mom always told me he was a hero, that he was out there saving lives, but I never really believed her. To me, he was just a face in a photo by her bed, until my twelfth birthday. Suddenly that face in that photo was standing on our front stoop in a cheap suit, giving me a journal wrapped in newspaper for a present, and asking my mom if he could take me out for a meal for my birthday. He did that every year. Every September 29th, he showed up on our doorstep and I went out for dinner with my absentee father.
One year, he was there for three days, and I found out what it was my father did with his time. He hunted monsters, and demons, and all the things you tell your kids aren't real and can't hurt you. I was fourteen when I found out about those lies the hard way. It's kinda hard not to believe in it when a ghoul has you strapped to a table with your veins open, bleeding out into tupperware bowls. My dad saved my life. He saved my mom's life. He killed the things that tried to kill us. And then he was gone again.
But he came back for my fifteenth birthday and for the first time, I had something I could talk to him about. He told me about my brothers, people I didn't even know existed, and I was so jealous of the way he talked about them. He was so proud of his boys. I was just the girl. I wasn't even good enough to train how to hunt, I got left with my mom in case I got them all in trouble. God, I resented them all for that so much. He gave me a necklace that year, made me promise I'd never take it off, and I haven't. Not once.
And then, on my sixteenth birthday, he didn't show. He wasn't there for my seventeenth or eighteenth, either. Or my nineteenth. My mom was worried, but she didn't want to call my brothers and ask what had happened. She wouldn't give me the numbers so I could call them. My dad just slipped into memory. It wasn't like there was much of him to miss, but every year, when September slipped by and he wasn't there, I missed him a little.
Then, a couple of years ago, all hell broke loose. Or maybe that should be heaven. Angels came for my mom and me. Friggin' angels. And seriously, they were dicks. They were not what I'd imagined when I said my prayers at night, that was for sure. Angels killed my mom because I wouldn't do what they wanted me to. To this day, I don't know why they didn't kill me, too. I guess because it would have been the merciful thing to do.
First thing I did was find my brothers' cell numbers in my mom's things, but they were a bust. I couldn't even get through, so I called my dad's number. One of my brothers, the next one up from me, picked up, and a couple of hours later, this gruff old guy showed up on my doorstep, bundled me into his truck, and drove me to Sioux Falls.
I got to meet my brothers, my dad's perfect boys, for the first time, and I gotta tell you, I felt real safe with them. They were totally shocked. Dad never even told them I existed; they had to get their pet angel friend to confirm everything for them before they believed a word I was saying. But I gotta give them credit - as soon as they did believe me, I was family.
I still don't really know everything that was going on, and what happened a few weeks after that still gives me nightmares. I can't put it down in just a few words to sum up my life - it's gonna get an entry all to itself when I get there. All I can say right now is that a couple of months after I met my brothers for the first time, they died, right in front of me, stopping something much much worse from happening to the whole damn planet.
So my whole family died at the hands of the lies people tell their children. And no one would let me hunt. No one would teach me, and every time I tried to go out there on my own, I was caught and taken back to my life. It took a while, but I did give up in the end. They were right - I was just walking bait with no one around to spring the trap for me.
So what now" I'm just your average med-student from Windom, Minnesota. Brown hair, green eyes, five foot six inches, maybe a little on the skinny side. I've got a good life, you know" Good friends, a decent job, a full ride at Stanford. It's all good. I took my full ride at Stanford; who wouldn't' If I can't be a hunter, I'm gonna be a doctor hunters can go to when they need strapping up that they can't do on their own.
There's only one real difference between me and the friends I've made here. I know what?s out there, in the darkness. And I sleep with a loaded shotgun under my pillow these days. Just in case.