Dean had waited until he was sure Nim was asleep, trying to fall back asleep himself, but unable to, feeling restless, too many thoughts weighing on his mind. He didn't want her to wake from a nightmare and not find him there, promising himself he wouldn't be gone long. He left her with a kiss and a tender caress, drawing the curtains closed against the gathering darkness, pausing to look out on the night. An unexpected shudder shook him as he recalled the view outside the window of their future home, the ever-present darkness and the things that watched in the night.
That wasn't going to be their future, if he had anything to say about it. He wasn't going to allow it to happen. He'd made a deal with Death and one way or another, he was going to keep it. Quietly moving about the room, he gathered up the piles of discarded clothing, getting himself dressed, leaving the journal on the nightstand, along with his phone, wallet, Beretta, and amulet. He collected up the empty plate and beer bottles and made his way quietly to the door, a last look back at the angel he left sleeping in the bed, before stepping out into the hallway and quietly pulling the door closed.
Ellen Singer knew her husband. She knew hunters all needed a little Helper now and then. Hell, she'd even been on a few hunts herself; she could drink most under the table. But she knew when Bobby was pushing his luck, too, using the excuse of having guests to drink more than was good for him in a single evening. Still, he didn't try to stop her as she passed through the study, taking the bottle of whiskey off the desk between her husband and Bill Harvelle on her way to the kitchen.
The voices from below Dean were low and animated, hunters doing what hunters did when they got together - Bill and Bobby were trading stories of hunts they'd been on, the details of which were growing more and more exaggerated as the evening wore on. A radio was playing golden oldies in the kitchen, a calmer backdrop to Ellen putting her home to rights before settling herself in for the evening, listening with half-an-ear to the wildly fictional exploits being tossed back and forth in the next room.
Dean overheard the voices on his way down the stairs, uncharacteristically padding along quietly wearing only socks on his feet, purposely avoiding the chatter from the study, not really feeling like swapping hunting stories with Bill and Bobby as they tried to one-up each other. The kitchen was his destination, planning on dropping off the dirty dishes before retreating back up the stairs, maybe if he was lucky with a cup of coffee in tow, intent on reading as much of the journal as he could.
What he found in the kitchen was Ellen, of course. She seemed to know he was there just before he stepped into view, her eyes already trained on him before he rounded the wall as she wiped the table down. "You two had enough to eat?" she asked Dean almost before he had a chance to register who he was walking in on.
Something of a rhetorical question when it came to Dean. Like his appetite for sex, his appetite for food was never really satisfied, but he had to admit he was feeling mostly sated. "Yeah, thanks," he replied, freezing in the doorway as he rounded the corner and she came into view, faced with a woman who seemed to know him far better than he knew her.
She straightened up, one hand coming to rest on her hip as she leaned on the cloth against the tabletop. Chocolate dark eyes that were only a shade lighter than Nim's studied Dean for a long moment, disconcertingly shrewd as her lips pursed into an understanding smile. "You want a drink?" she offered in a lower voice, seeing the discomfort in him. The Dean she remembered had been a little scared of her at times, yes, but he'd never stood frozen in a doorway not knowing what to say. "Figure you've got a few things need sayin'."
He wasn't sure what kind of drink she was offering exactly. Back home, he'd have been right there with Bill and Bobby enjoying a little Hunter's Helper, but for some reason, ever since dropping into the alley behind the Landing, he had rarely felt the need. "I'll take some coffee, if you've got it," he told her, gathering enough courage to step past the threshold and into the kitchen, moving to the sink to drop off the plates and bottles.
Her brows rose, the surprise palpable as she watched him brave the dangers of her kitchen. "Coffee, huh' Guess Bobby wasn't talking out of his a$$ when he said you weren't from around here." She patted the back of the chair beside her, ignoring a sudden round of filthy laughter from the next room. "Set yourself down there, kid." Pulling a pair of cups from one of the overhead cupboards, she flicked the coffee pot on, turning to watch him quietly.
He shrugged his shoulders as he set the dishes in the sink, feeling her eyes on him, knowing without seeing that she was watching him, quietly observing him for any nuances. "I'm not the Dean that killed his brother to save the world from the Apocalypse, if that's what you mean." It came out a little more bitter than he'd intended, still feeling a raw sense of shock and grief over his brother's death, though he was doing his best not to dwell on it.
That earned him a look he had no doubt thought he would never see again. "Don't you pull that attitude on me," she warned him, pointing at the chair a little more firmly. "My Winchester boys went through hell together trying to stop the Apocalypse, tore 'em right up. Don't you judge a man you've never been just 'cause you don't think you could've done it." For all that it was a scolding, however, there was little fire in Ellen's voice, no anger in her eyes. Just pain at a long-held loss, the natural instinct to defend someone who had meant a great deal to her rising to the fore, and a wise understanding that none of this could possibly be any harder for her than it was for the impossibility standing in her kitchen.
He clenched his jaw at the scolding, not wanting to start an argument with her, but he was feeling as much grief at Sam's loss as she was, if not more. "Just stating a fact," he replied bluntly, pulling the chair out and dropping into it. "We did things different," he pointed out, not that it mattered. It wouldn't change what had happened here.
"So I'm told," she agreed, the fire softening from her voice once again. "I'm not lookin' to argue, Dean. You're here. Just 'cause you don't know me don't mean I'm not going to worry about you." She turned back to the coffee pot, pouring the newly brewed liquid into the two cups. "How're you taking this?"
"I didn't say I didn't know you, Ellen," he remarked, turning to watch her as she turned her back to him to pour two cups of coffee. "Just not the you that's Bobby's wife. The Ellen I knew back home is..." He trailed off, wondering if he'd gone too far, said too much too soon. "How do I take my coffee" You tell me," he challenged.
She smiled at the news that her place in Dean's life was different in another reality, finding it oddly comforting that she still did, at least, have a place there. The challenge made her familiar, knowing smirk rise on her lips. "You sassin' me?" she chuckled, the sound rich and warm. "Dean I remember took it black and sweet."
That wasn't going to be their future, if he had anything to say about it. He wasn't going to allow it to happen. He'd made a deal with Death and one way or another, he was going to keep it. Quietly moving about the room, he gathered up the piles of discarded clothing, getting himself dressed, leaving the journal on the nightstand, along with his phone, wallet, Beretta, and amulet. He collected up the empty plate and beer bottles and made his way quietly to the door, a last look back at the angel he left sleeping in the bed, before stepping out into the hallway and quietly pulling the door closed.
Ellen Singer knew her husband. She knew hunters all needed a little Helper now and then. Hell, she'd even been on a few hunts herself; she could drink most under the table. But she knew when Bobby was pushing his luck, too, using the excuse of having guests to drink more than was good for him in a single evening. Still, he didn't try to stop her as she passed through the study, taking the bottle of whiskey off the desk between her husband and Bill Harvelle on her way to the kitchen.
The voices from below Dean were low and animated, hunters doing what hunters did when they got together - Bill and Bobby were trading stories of hunts they'd been on, the details of which were growing more and more exaggerated as the evening wore on. A radio was playing golden oldies in the kitchen, a calmer backdrop to Ellen putting her home to rights before settling herself in for the evening, listening with half-an-ear to the wildly fictional exploits being tossed back and forth in the next room.
Dean overheard the voices on his way down the stairs, uncharacteristically padding along quietly wearing only socks on his feet, purposely avoiding the chatter from the study, not really feeling like swapping hunting stories with Bill and Bobby as they tried to one-up each other. The kitchen was his destination, planning on dropping off the dirty dishes before retreating back up the stairs, maybe if he was lucky with a cup of coffee in tow, intent on reading as much of the journal as he could.
What he found in the kitchen was Ellen, of course. She seemed to know he was there just before he stepped into view, her eyes already trained on him before he rounded the wall as she wiped the table down. "You two had enough to eat?" she asked Dean almost before he had a chance to register who he was walking in on.
Something of a rhetorical question when it came to Dean. Like his appetite for sex, his appetite for food was never really satisfied, but he had to admit he was feeling mostly sated. "Yeah, thanks," he replied, freezing in the doorway as he rounded the corner and she came into view, faced with a woman who seemed to know him far better than he knew her.
She straightened up, one hand coming to rest on her hip as she leaned on the cloth against the tabletop. Chocolate dark eyes that were only a shade lighter than Nim's studied Dean for a long moment, disconcertingly shrewd as her lips pursed into an understanding smile. "You want a drink?" she offered in a lower voice, seeing the discomfort in him. The Dean she remembered had been a little scared of her at times, yes, but he'd never stood frozen in a doorway not knowing what to say. "Figure you've got a few things need sayin'."
He wasn't sure what kind of drink she was offering exactly. Back home, he'd have been right there with Bill and Bobby enjoying a little Hunter's Helper, but for some reason, ever since dropping into the alley behind the Landing, he had rarely felt the need. "I'll take some coffee, if you've got it," he told her, gathering enough courage to step past the threshold and into the kitchen, moving to the sink to drop off the plates and bottles.
Her brows rose, the surprise palpable as she watched him brave the dangers of her kitchen. "Coffee, huh' Guess Bobby wasn't talking out of his a$$ when he said you weren't from around here." She patted the back of the chair beside her, ignoring a sudden round of filthy laughter from the next room. "Set yourself down there, kid." Pulling a pair of cups from one of the overhead cupboards, she flicked the coffee pot on, turning to watch him quietly.
He shrugged his shoulders as he set the dishes in the sink, feeling her eyes on him, knowing without seeing that she was watching him, quietly observing him for any nuances. "I'm not the Dean that killed his brother to save the world from the Apocalypse, if that's what you mean." It came out a little more bitter than he'd intended, still feeling a raw sense of shock and grief over his brother's death, though he was doing his best not to dwell on it.
That earned him a look he had no doubt thought he would never see again. "Don't you pull that attitude on me," she warned him, pointing at the chair a little more firmly. "My Winchester boys went through hell together trying to stop the Apocalypse, tore 'em right up. Don't you judge a man you've never been just 'cause you don't think you could've done it." For all that it was a scolding, however, there was little fire in Ellen's voice, no anger in her eyes. Just pain at a long-held loss, the natural instinct to defend someone who had meant a great deal to her rising to the fore, and a wise understanding that none of this could possibly be any harder for her than it was for the impossibility standing in her kitchen.
He clenched his jaw at the scolding, not wanting to start an argument with her, but he was feeling as much grief at Sam's loss as she was, if not more. "Just stating a fact," he replied bluntly, pulling the chair out and dropping into it. "We did things different," he pointed out, not that it mattered. It wouldn't change what had happened here.
"So I'm told," she agreed, the fire softening from her voice once again. "I'm not lookin' to argue, Dean. You're here. Just 'cause you don't know me don't mean I'm not going to worry about you." She turned back to the coffee pot, pouring the newly brewed liquid into the two cups. "How're you taking this?"
"I didn't say I didn't know you, Ellen," he remarked, turning to watch her as she turned her back to him to pour two cups of coffee. "Just not the you that's Bobby's wife. The Ellen I knew back home is..." He trailed off, wondering if he'd gone too far, said too much too soon. "How do I take my coffee" You tell me," he challenged.
She smiled at the news that her place in Dean's life was different in another reality, finding it oddly comforting that she still did, at least, have a place there. The challenge made her familiar, knowing smirk rise on her lips. "You sassin' me?" she chuckled, the sound rich and warm. "Dean I remember took it black and sweet."