Topic: An Urge Toward Happiness

Piper

Date: 2008-07-17 23:21 EST
Piper stood at her window and flirted with nature. It was there, just on the other side of the panes, evident in the shoots she saw popping up from the terrain. Over the last few days, someone - in all these years in Rhydin, she had never seen a person working in the garden - had raked the ground on the property across the cobbled road, though she noticed it only now. Tiny white flowers were visible amidst the grass, and those fearless little ones that hugged themselves close to the ground, the names of which she could never remember - the little yellow and pink ones - sprouted from the freshly turned earth.

She opened the windows and felt fresh air flood into her overheated studio. It brought with it the scent of new growth or rising sap or whatever it was that led to spring fever and an atavistic urge towards happiness. Birds, she noticed, were busy on the ground, no doubt pleased to discover that the worms had somehow been lured to the surface. Two of them squabbled over something, then one flew away, and Piper watched it disappear to the left of the stables.

So it was on a crystalline, perfectly deep blue evening in July, after a day of angry pewter skies and the threat of driving rain, she was preparing to end hers. The scene all around the walled in garden was a palette of greens. It was as if this were the first evening of the world, perfect. Even the garter snakes slithering under roots, over rocks, over roots to seek out their warm beds for the night seemed a part of the evening's jubilance. Fireflies caught her eye as they darted about the quiet setting, starlike.

However, if she had learned a lesson from life it must surely be that it was fraught with insecurity and could change drastically in the space of a few days.

A couple of crows cawed back and forth, announcing her advance into the garden with a mug of steaming Irish coffee in one hand and the earlier delivered missives in the other. Her previously and mysteriously missing journal, newly found tucked behind a loose stone in the hearth, was folded under her arm and held there with slight pressure. A slim sliver of sharpened coal was also tucked into the mass of hair pinned atop her head.

Gazing up at the darkening blue sky, she searched for the black birds she heard. She listened, counting the crows by their caws. One for sorrow, two for mirth. In her pocket, she possessed a piece of thick oval-shaped hardtack, sailor's bread so hard you could snap a tooth off trying to bite through it. As a rule, she kept a piece in the front pocket of her dress when in the garden. It was a gift for the fairies should the tiny creatures appear fluttering before her.

She settled at the sandstone table nestled under the weeping willow tree. With the items spread out before her on the table, she allowed herself the selfish indulgence of doing absolutely nothing but gazing upon the kiln across the expanse of the rather large walled in yard and garden. Her personal oasis from the madness of the multiverse.

After a moment of reflection, she reached for the first missive and thumbed the seal free with the tip of her thumbnail. As she read over the words, that ghost of a smile stole over her lips. "Haydee"My sweet, sweet mysterious friend.."

Placing the letter aside to be answered once she finished the soothing pleasure of her evening in the garden, she lifted the next missive and opened it in the same fashion. With evening came the darkness. She tilted the letter upwards and to the side to catch the light spilling out of the windows of the studio behind her.

My dearest,

You do not know me but I know you! I have been watching you forever so long from afar: wishing, hoping, dreaming ??".. With each exclamation point her eyes grew wider until she was sitting up straight. "What the devil!?"!?

Piper

Date: 2008-08-02 16:10 EST
The craft had always brought her peace. Sinking her hands into the cool clay distracted her from herself in ways nothing else or any one else ever could. Her escape from the insanity of the multiverse they all cohabitated in together in this placed called Rhydin.

Her cousin, Cooper and the keeper of her own secrets, had he been there with her instead of off sailing around another place and time seeking treasure and fame with Krane, would have admonished her rightly for being a coward and hiding once more from the world and her own demons.

"You were wrong, you know. Not everyone owes you an explanation for not being forthcoming."

She could hear him in her mind. It was easier to ignore him. Especially since he wasn't there to berate her for insinuating herself into some one's life who obviously didn't welcome her concern or want her help.

"She could have told me. She talked to me about him! Damnation! Why would she not tell me about not being allowed to practice her own vocation?" In was no wonder she'd spent the last two days locked in the studio stewing over matters she had no control over. Going over and over in her mind the conversation she'd had with Eless, Rena and Sylvia about the diamond. That stupid diamond.

Splitting the coins up three ways to assist with three worthy establishments had seemed like the idea solution. She certainly had no need for so many coins. Three of her dearest friends and others by default could share in the wealth; the misfit's depleted funds for adventures with the denizens, Eless" new venture with the scents and oils, a free clinic to be run by Eva. That stupid diamond.

She was glad that Antonio still had possession of the bothersome stone. Out of sight, out of mind. Except now it was constantly on her mind and the trouble she had caused because of it. If only she'd never been told about the lack of a license.

Overcome by another bout of annoyance, she took it out on the square of clay she beat and kneaded into submission, only to unexpectedly be once more overwhelmed with a keen sense of loss. And shame. Shame for attacking Eva for keeping secrets. Did she not harbor her own secrets like a jealous lover"

As the wheel spun and she manipulated the clay upwards into a large cone and then pushed it further into a vase of immense proportions, the constancy of a frown creased her brow as she labored.

"So she's an addict and wants to get drunk to forget' are you going to hold that against her" You have no right. It is none of your business. You can't help her. She doesn't want your help. She doesn't want a damned thing from you.?

She couldn't stop the sheen of blinding tears that blurred her vision and accompanied the sudden helpless want to help Eva find peace. Worse, she couldn't stop the curious contemplation of what had drove Eva to be an addict.

Even now, as she sat before the wheel staring blindly at the knob of clay that had only moments before been the beginnings of a lovely vase with fluted edges - which she'd methodically reduced into another meaningless lump of clay with her battering fists - she could only wonder if she'd destroyed a friendship as well and as thoroughly as she had destroyed the fragile walls of pliant clay.

She needed a distraction from herself. Roughly she wiped at her eyes to rid herself of the evidence of weak tears and sucked in a far from calming breath as she looked around the studio in desperation for an escape.

Her haunted gaze fell upon the forgotten but no less mysterious missive from a supposed Secret Admirer.