BOUND BY LEATHER: Embossed With Flame
The Journal of Elessaria Devabriel, The Lady Fire of Evandar
RhyDin Red Dragon Inn The 5th of October (2007); Sometime After Midnight
I am definitely regaining my strength after all this time. My gifts have returned much stronger than before my empathic breakdown as I have tried to explained it. Still, I am not confident in my ability to wield them. Luckily I did not hurt Jake when I let him feel what empathy is like. I have no idea how to explain it otherwise " especially to someone who doesn't possess any magical gifts. I was so afraid of injuring him that I only just let him brush along the surface, plus I did not wish to delve any deeper than he would desire. That is my cardinal rule.
I am not sure what I would do if he came to harm. I felt so helpless the night he truly allowed himself to believe RhyDin is real and that the zombies were real.... and that I am an elf. That was not only an exhausting few days; it certainly was uncomfortable as well. So many I care for were in danger! He is so patient, sweet and honest. One of RhyDin's few true gentlemen as I like to say. I thought that Jake and Erin were sweet on each other. I just assumed they were; so, to avoid any troubled friendships I stepped away and ended up making things more awkward. Erin and I discussed this and everything is fine now. I worry about her....we may not be close, but still even when I felt blind without my empathy, it was obvious she is going through a difficult time. She asked me if I were sweet on Jake. Fair is fair! I was not quite able to describe my feelings accurately. I still cannot. I am very attracted to him on many levels" from his good looks to his genuine heart. I guess I am afraid. Afraid of many things these days. Everyone I care for always seems to vanish or die. He is human and I am afraid that the servants of the Dark may harm him in their pursuit of me. I am selfish too. I do not want to have my heartbroken again as well. He called me the prettiest girl in RhyDin when I introduced him to the lovely Cieara. Wow! I am blushing all over again just writing it! He'll end up learning just how keen elven hearing is! He's not rushing things; I am not either. It is nice to just let life happen naturally.
~E
The Journal of Elessaria Devabriel, The Lady Fire of Evandar
RhyDin Red Dragon Inn The 5th of October (2007); Sometime After Midnight
I am definitely regaining my strength after all this time. My gifts have returned much stronger than before my empathic breakdown as I have tried to explained it. Still, I am not confident in my ability to wield them. Luckily I did not hurt Jake when I let him feel what empathy is like. I have no idea how to explain it otherwise " especially to someone who doesn't possess any magical gifts. I was so afraid of injuring him that I only just let him brush along the surface, plus I did not wish to delve any deeper than he would desire. That is my cardinal rule.
I am not sure what I would do if he came to harm. I felt so helpless the night he truly allowed himself to believe RhyDin is real and that the zombies were real.... and that I am an elf. That was not only an exhausting few days; it certainly was uncomfortable as well. So many I care for were in danger! He is so patient, sweet and honest. One of RhyDin's few true gentlemen as I like to say. I thought that Jake and Erin were sweet on each other. I just assumed they were; so, to avoid any troubled friendships I stepped away and ended up making things more awkward. Erin and I discussed this and everything is fine now. I worry about her....we may not be close, but still even when I felt blind without my empathy, it was obvious she is going through a difficult time. She asked me if I were sweet on Jake. Fair is fair! I was not quite able to describe my feelings accurately. I still cannot. I am very attracted to him on many levels" from his good looks to his genuine heart. I guess I am afraid. Afraid of many things these days. Everyone I care for always seems to vanish or die. He is human and I am afraid that the servants of the Dark may harm him in their pursuit of me. I am selfish too. I do not want to have my heartbroken again as well. He called me the prettiest girl in RhyDin when I introduced him to the lovely Cieara. Wow! I am blushing all over again just writing it! He'll end up learning just how keen elven hearing is! He's not rushing things; I am not either. It is nice to just let life happen naturally.
~E