Topic: Second Chances

Lelah

Date: 2011-05-04 22:10 EST
((This scene is the continuation of this post. Thanks so much to Alain DeMuer's player!))


It's not normal that Alain goes to Mass at the Perp Miz, as the locals like to call it, or at this hour... but his normal Sunday morning's been wrecked, and a "person of interest" was in attendance.? It is this reason, with Fate likely playing a minor role, that one of Lelah Rivka's chief investors exits the cathedral in time to see her deer-in-headlights look, and the shady figure retreating but not that far away yet. Enough to know the point of origin?? What Alain has or hasn't seen isn't immediately clear.? "Lelah," he says with a faint smile, approaching her once he parts ways with his company.? As always he is at least decently dressed when he goes to Mass, today in a tieless wool suit.

The time it takes Alain to cross the street and arrive at her side is all the time she needs to compose her face into the bland, neutral mask of pleasantry she most frequently uses with reporters who ask uncomfortable questions.? "Alain," she says and tries not to notice the trembling of her hands as she stuffs them into the back pockets of her jeans.? Her dark eyes tick from the church to Alain's face then back again with all the regularity of a metronome.? "You've just come from Mass?"

"That's right," he says with a flicker of a grin; "it's not far from my brewery, ironic as that is.? What about you?? I don't think I've seen you in this part of town before..." It becomes more obvious as more time passes, but he's assessing her, picking up little details in the people around him but, more so than anything else right now, in her.? He spent two years as a private investigator, and a longer time still as a mercenary, and certain of those skills remain as sharp as ever, if not more refined by experience now.

A bubble of panic bursts in her breast.? Had he seen her buying gear?? No, he couldn't have.? The doors of the church had been closed and the street had been empty when her new dealer had put that bag of pearls into her hand.? But Alain could have seen the tag end of the deal, the dealer walking away and Lelah walking in the opposite direction. "I've been exploring the city," she answered after only a minute's pause.? "I saw the bell tower from the bridge.? It's the only one I've seen and I was curious."? It was plausible, right?? Surely he'd believe it.? Except that she was alone and she'd been in Rhy'Din long enough to know that pretty girls did not venture into WestEnd alone...not if they wanted to leave again.

"WestEnd's beautiful in its own way, I've long believed that... but it's an easy place to get lost."? The widening of the grin does not reach his eyes.? "They're not kidding when they say the streets change here."? He offers his arm to her and asks, "Were you headed back across the river?" Perhaps if she had not been unwell in the Inn before, so strangely feverish, and perhaps also if Alain had not tried and failed to rescue an addict in the past, or if he had not run his own background investigation in every major investment he made, would he add all the factors together now.? But he does, however quietly.

She pulls a clammy hand from her back pocket and slowly slides it through his arm to rest on his forearm.? "I was, yes.? Back to New Haven, actually.? Do they perform the Mass in Latin there?" She turned a bit and nodded towards the church behind them. Distract and redirect was the name of the game right now.

He'd played this game with her once before, and she was very good at it, but the card twice seen is recognized. For the moment, though, he keeps playing.? "They do... which I'm not very used to, but it's not the first time I've seen it.? We Gallican Catholics have done things a little differently for a long time..."? He walks them slowly, strolling on a pleasant day out of WestEnd and towards the bridge.? Flatboats float along the river, strong-armed men (and a great many other races) steering their craft and their cargo with long poles. "Are you feeling any better?"

"Hmm?" she asks, distracted by thoughts of bliss, of what that bag in her pocket means.? He's talking about the last time they saw each other, the night after the jonesing had hit her so hard.? When she was still feeling the sweats and the shakes and the fever.? "Yes, thank you.? I think it was just some 24-hour thing."? She is impressed by how nonchalant her voice is, how sincerely she lies.? Not for nothing did she have that Oscar sitting on her mantle.

It's such an effective lie that he's calling that part of the assumption into question, though not the conclusion he's arrived at:? that not only did she recover at her home, in America, but here she's suffering from a relapse.? "That's good...? I have to admit, I was worried...? It reminded me of a time my friend got very ill."

She pauses in her steps at his side and covers it with a downward glance.? Apparently she's caught her heel in the broken sidewalk.? He knows.? Alain knows.? Of course he knows - he checked her out before investing.? Someone as smart, someone with his background, would never just jump in blindly.? Deciding to chuck the facade and confront him, she looks up at him, haunted eyes meeting his.? In a soft, desperate voice, she asks, "What do you know, Alain?? Do you know everything?"

Lelah

Date: 2011-05-04 22:10 EST
He looks right back down at her, his gaze is not cruel or harsh, surprisingly.? There's sadness in it.? He's good at masking how he feels, but likely not good enough to deceive an Oscar-winning actress.? "I know some.? I'm sorry," he says, and no further apology or justification for his actions, investigating her, prying into her life.? "I'd like to hear the rest of it from you."

Anger - at herself, not at him, yet directed at him - washes over her face and she takes her hand back from its resting place on his arm.? She crosses her arms defensively over her chest, glares at him and in a petulant, childish voice that does nothing to hide the overwhelming shame she's now feeling says, "What rest?? I'm a junkie.? I like smack.? Is that the kind of stuff you want to know?? Or maybe you'd prefer to hear about the awful things I did in order to get my drug of choice?? Or the many, many nights when I was so f*cked up that I'd just lie there in my own..."? She cuts off, clamps her mouth shut, nostrils dilated with anger. She takes a deep breath, regains some small amount of composure and says, "I can't give you all your money back, Alain.? I don't have it.? I have some of it, about a third.? I can give you the rest...? Well, I can pay you back in installments."

"I'm not getting into an installment plan with you, Lelah," he counters, staring evenly at her.? "But I have given you three quarters of a million dollars, and you've spent most of that.? I've done what I can to help you in this city...? I'd like to think I've earned a little honesty."? His face is a lot harder now than it was just a moment ago.? "From the beginning, Lelah."

Tears well up and she reaches up to angrily push them away.? "The beginning of what, Alain?? The beginning ten years ago when I landed a part in a movie about a bunch of teen-aged girls who slept around and did drugs?? I'm a method actress, you know? So I had to try whatever my character was trying in order to act the part.? She paused for a moment, swallowing in a dry throat.? ?Would you like to know about when I got hooked and nearly died?? Or when I spent almost an entire year in rehab?? Or how about when I left the party scene in LA to move back to New York?? Or how I haven't had a date or a boyfriend since I was seventeen?? Is that kind of stuff you want to know?"? She darted a look around the street, wondering just how much attention they were drawing.

"Yeah," he says bluntly in reply.? "That's the kind of stuff I want to know.? I could stand here and chew you out about responsibility, take your money and kick over the studio, play the part of the ruthless businessman and get something valuable out of it, one more reason for this city to fear me.? ...But I'm not going to." His hand is stretched back out.? "Everyone who comes to this city seems to be looking for a second chance... I did, and you're no different, and I want them all to have it and run with it.? When everyone else in the world looks at you and think how good you've got it, I see how hard it's been and how hard it is every day, and it breaks my heart.? And so help me God, if you tell anyone in the Multiverse I said that last part, I will kill you."? He looks down at his hand, then back up at her. "So come with me... I'll make time... and we'll talk about this."

The tears well up again and her lower lip does that trembling thing that men seem to hate with a passion - probably because there's nothing they can really do to stop it and it's usually the source of their undoing.? She swallows and slides her hand into his, nodding as she does so.? "I'm sorry I yelled at you.? You didn't deserve it."

"I'm always doing something that deserves a little yelling...? We'll just say you gave it some balance."? He doesn't think anyone heard too much of what they've said, not all at once, though he is just a little concerned someone will catch him walking into New Haven holding Lelah's hand.? Not frightened enough to stop, though.? "Your place?? I can put on some tea." He's also rather studiously not looking at her due to the trembling lip.? He's built up a bit of an immunity due to his years of friendship with 'Lanta, and by virtue of being her boss, but it's not nearly strong enough to be trusted.

She grinned at his comment about deserving to be yelled at; it was a watery, slightly strained grin, however.? "You're not allergic to dogs, are you?? I have one, you see.? And if we're headed to my loft, well...he'll be there."? And now she's talking just to talk, to cover up the nervousness she's feeling, that horrible itchy feeling right between her shoulder blades that she can't reach, that can only be taken care of by what is lurking in her pocket.

"I love dogs," he says, giving her hand a reassuring squeeze in his much bigger one.? "I've had one named Jean for a little over three years.? He's magical, kind of... it's hard to explain, you'll understand once you meet him."

Lelah

Date: 2011-05-04 22:16 EST
The interior design of Lelah's loft was a strong indication that its inhabitant was a girl.? A very girlie-girl.? Everything was done in shades of pink, with highlights of brown, orange, and cream thrown in for good measure.? It wasn't an overpowering pink, but a warm, friendly, tasteful pink.? There were flowers everywhere - tulips, mostly, but a few roses and daffodils were present as well.? Atop the cream-colored stone fireplace sat her Oscar, flanked by the two Golden Globes she'd also been awarded.? She'd served tea at the small, round, white-washed wooden dining table that sat in front of a floor-to-ceiling window with a beautiful view of most of the city.?
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"I'm not sure what to tell you, Alain.? I mean...? You seem to have done your homework on me already.? Did you at least read the articles in the New York Times and not the Mirror or the Daily Mail?"? She takes a tentative sip of her tea.? "What else can I tell you?"

"You turned to it because of method acting, right?? And just so we're clear... heroin?"? Alain sips at his tea, too, and tries not to feel too old-fashioned in her rather modern and fashionable loft.? He comes from a world with blaster pistols, cybernetic arms and proto-fusion technology, yet in spite of it, he seems to have fallen into the 1930's once given his own playground to stretch out in.

"Yeah, heroin.? I turned to it because...? Oh, hell.? There's lots of reasons why.? My parents were very lenient with me.? They never taught me boundaries, they never said no to me.? I was their bread-winner; I guess they were afraid to say no to me."? She frowns softly.? "Please don't misunderstand.? I'm not pinning the blame for my addiction on my parents.? No, I own that fully.? I'm just trying...? I'm just trying to give you some context.? I was 15, I'd just severed my relationship with my parents, and I got this part."

"I understand," Alain said, folding his hands and nodding for her to continue.

"I went crazy.? I was an emancipated minor, legally recognized as an adult, and I just went nuts.? I did everything my character did and still held it together well enough to get the project done and in the can.? When filming wrapped, everything went downhill."? She pauses, glances down at the table and traces its grain with one finger.? The smack in her pocket is an uncomfortable presence and she longs to dump it somewhere to be dealt with later.

"You were fifteen... sixteen, when filming wrapped?" he asked, trying to use the lingo the best he could.? "You said the last time you dated... you were about seventeen."

"I was sixteen when the film was done.? Fifteen when I got hooked.? Seventeen when I over-dosed and started rehab.? I wouldn't call what I was doing dating, per se, either.? But the last time I..."? She bites her lower lip, searching for a delicate way to explain meaningless, one-night hook-ups where no names or other personal details were exchanged.? "The last time I enjoyed the company of a guy I was seventeen."

"I get it," he replies.? Speaking of addictions (though this one far more benign), the sudden stress of today is really making him crave a cigarette.? He makes himself take another sip of his tea rather than ask if she has a pack.? "It was all tied together, in those two years...? Did rehab make things better?"

She nods readily.? "It did.? It cleared my head, showed my what was important.? Made me want a life, a career.? Made me want to do anything I could to have those things."? She sets her tea cup down, stands shakily.? "If you'll excuse me a second.? Nature's calling."

"Certainly," Alain said, though his eyes rose when she stood, lingering on her face for a moment before turning to the window.? He sipped his tea and checked his wristwatch.? People were angry about the changes in his schedule...? He was the Baron of St. Aldwin, he rationalized, and they would get over it.

Lelah

Date: 2011-05-04 22:21 EST
She slips into her bathroom, dumps the pearls into her vanity, trying hard not to stare too longingly at them before she slides the drawer shut.? Then she flushes the toilet, washes her hands and splashes water over her face.? She could do this.? She could sit through this interview with Alain, answer his questions truthfully, and try really hard not to piss him off.? Then she could go for a run with Oscar and then have dinner and go to bed.? And then she could get up the next morning, go to work...all without thinking about the smack or wanting it...or tasting it.?

He sat and stared at the view of this end of New Haven, one he was a little less used to than the rather wooded stretch around his own New Haven home, and thought about what she was doing in the bathroom.? Probably putting away whatever she had bought outside of the Perp Miz.? Using it, probably not, maybe... but time would tell.
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There was a line here, he recognized.? He was this woman's business associate, an investor literally from another world, and he was already stretching his boundaries about as far as they could go.? If she came back high... there wouldn't be very much for me to do about it, would there, he murmured to himself in Newbreton French.

She came out of the bathroom, looking exactly the same as she'd gone in.? Maybe a touch steadier, a bit more confident.? Certainly not high - there was no blissed out expression, no pin-prick pupils.? "So, what're you gonna do about this, Alain?"? There was nothing accusatory in her tone, only curiosity, perhaps a touch of fear and dread.

"Have you relapsed before?"? There were still a few more pieces of information he wanted, the puzzle not quite complete.? Then his mind would be able to decide what to do.

"No."? She shook her head and sat down again, putting one foot on the seat and resting her chin atop her bent knee.? "Gonna make me pee into a cup randomly?? Gonna tell the other investors?? My employees?? The Post?" Now there was a fine thread of resentment in her words.

"Darien Fenner should die in a fire," Alain said very plainly.

She laughed at that.? He'd pinned the tail on her opinion of newspaper men the Universe wide.

"And no... I'm not going to tell the other investors, or your employees.? I've entrusted you with my money, and with this studio, which means you're going to tell or not tell whoever you decide to... but I'll tell you it's better to be honest now if you think it'll matter to them, than to have them find out on their own.? You're not lying to them, Lelah, and you didn't lie to me... but that doesn't change the fact that it can't help but feel like a lie."
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He folded his hands again and looked across at her.? "But I don't need you to pee in a cup to tell if you've been using.? I have a fair idea what happened outside the Perp Miz... and it'll show, if you start.? Things'll happen to you, and they'll happen to the studio, and I'd rather these things not happen to either.? I'm giving you my trust right now, as I did when I first gave you that money -- to help you pursue your dream -- but you should know I'd never heard of baseball before I came to RhyDin, so I've never believed in the strike system.? You have your second chance here, now... and I expect you to make the best of it."

She nodded, her face serious and sober.? She licked dry lips, took a deep breath and said in a soft voice, "Thank you."? What else was there to say?? She could ply him with promises, swear to not indulge, give her word that she'd toss the drugs.? But really...? She was a junkie, even if she hadn't used in seven years.? Even if the last taste had nearly killed her, she was at her core, a junkie.? And what did the promises or the word of a junkie mean in the long run? Exactly nothing. She'd have to show him.

"Thanks for the tea," Alain said, rising to collect his jacket.? He paused by her chair, the scarred fingers of his right hand resting over her shoulder, and was silent for a moment before continuing.? "Please stick around, Lelah, and make movies.? I'd like to become your friend."
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He knew friendship too well to think it was something suddenly and immediately earned, and with people who started as business associates it seemed to prove even harder.? They were friendly, he and Lelah, but they were not friends... not yet, but he could hope.? He let go of her shoulder and let himself out.