It was the perfect night for sitting on the porch and smoking like a chimney. There was something deeply pleasurable and primal in the act of smoking a cigarette. Inhaling pure, sweet smoke (or so Lelah told herself), feeling the burn, the tingling of nicotine as it reacted with neurons and pathways keyed directly to pleasure centers in the brain. Exhaling after a beat and watching the smoke rise, or playing around a bit and making smoke rings. It was a sensual act.
It was also a lonely act, exiled to porches and designated smoking areas, closed off and shamed like lepers. She knew she could go inside and enjoy a smoke and the added benefit of a scotch, but it had been so deeply ingrained into her that one did not enter public places with a lit cigarette. So she lingered, watching as the sky itself seemed on fire with longing for the sun's presence as it slipped beyond the horizon.
Gideon lay, stretched at length upon the couch, the very picture of insouciance, pomposity. Long legs in jeans stretched out, one foot resting over the other, arms crossed over the chest of his untucked white oxford, pale blue tie crumpled beneath. A cigarette clenched between his teeth, nearly spent, smoke wafting upward.
Quiet night. He sighed and it sent smoke flying. He shifted, drew the cigarette from between his teeth and threw the thing into the hearth as he surged upward in a smooth motion, and rose to his feet. Time to find dinner. Time to hunt. Hunger howled a quiet keening at the back of his mind, not to be ignored. He crossed the inn, floorboards creaking underfoot, and opened the front door, eager to leave.
He drew up, though, at the familiar back sat swinging on the porch, surrounded in her own halo of smoke. He smiled to himself and let the door shut quietly behind him, moved silently the three paces between them and bent to brush a kiss to her cheek. "Boo."
She glanced up at that kiss...and went still, dark eyes wide, pulse pounding at her neck. "Gideon," she breathed. She blinked and exhaled, not realizing that she'd been holding it. "Hello. Hi. How are you?" She gave him a nervous, quick-silver smile and tried to calm her racing heart.
"Hullo chickadee." He gave her a sly, half curling grin and rounded the porch swing to claim the seat beside her. "I'm good, how about yourself?" Again that panic in her eyes, and it wasn't entirely unattractive, though he knew somehow it spelled trouble. She never looked that way and there wasn't trouble far behind.
"Um," she said intelligently. "I'm... I'm fine." She stubbed out her cigarette and tried really hard not to shy away from him as he sat down next to her. "Thank you for the flowers. They were...beautiful." When in doubt, fall back on manners and good breeding, right?
He drew a long , slow breath as that smile faded, fell. "I'm glad you liked them." Tone of voice not really matching the sentiments. "Something wrong, Lelah? Your cold tap is stuck on again." He watched her calculatingly, glacial blues narrowing somewhat. What a change from the last time they'd been together.
She looked away, worrying at her lower lip for a moment before saying softly, "It shouldn't have happened." Memories rushed back - his hands, his teeth, his tongue, red weals on delicate flesh, murmured words spoken in the language of her ancestors...and woven all through it, like some Ouroboros swallowing itself over and over, the high. "What did you do to me?"
He glowered darkly at her before he looked away, rose, giving the swing a shove as he did so. He paced away, turned and lent against the railing, crossed arms over his chest like a portcullis coming down. "You wanted it to happen, Lelah. It was your idea. All I wanted was a kiss, and even that I didn't ask for..." He gave her a brief glance of consternation. "What did I do to you? Lelah, you aren't a virgin. You know damned well what I did to you."
"Oh, don't give me that horsesh*t, Gideon," she barked at him, shedding the fear and replacing it with a good old fashioned rage. "Don't put this on me! You clearly wanted it just as badly as I did. I'm not talking about the...the...sex. I'm talking about what you gave me. Was it smack? Did Alain tell you? Did you find out on your own?"
"What?" He stared at her in shock, genuine, honest, like she'd hit him in the face with a bucket of ice water. It lasted only a moment before fading into hurt anger. He shook his head slowly, side to side list of that dark countenance. "What the hell are you talking about? I didn't give you anything, Lelah. We f*cked. You were amazing, you were...free, like I've never seen you, like you were your own damned self for a change. You came and I thought you were going to pass out." He cut the air with a hard gesture, flinging hands upward. "Is this some kind of game for you? "
"A game? A f*cking game?" She laughed, a strangled, mirthless sound. "Christ God, that's the most condescending, arrogant thing I've ever heard come from your mouth, and that's saying something. You may think that I'm just another in a never-ending line of your whores, but I'm not. And I will not be treated like one, either. I don't know what you did to me, Gideon, but you bet your lily-white ass I'll find out." She didn't bother threatening him; it would be like water off a duck's back.
It was also a lonely act, exiled to porches and designated smoking areas, closed off and shamed like lepers. She knew she could go inside and enjoy a smoke and the added benefit of a scotch, but it had been so deeply ingrained into her that one did not enter public places with a lit cigarette. So she lingered, watching as the sky itself seemed on fire with longing for the sun's presence as it slipped beyond the horizon.
Gideon lay, stretched at length upon the couch, the very picture of insouciance, pomposity. Long legs in jeans stretched out, one foot resting over the other, arms crossed over the chest of his untucked white oxford, pale blue tie crumpled beneath. A cigarette clenched between his teeth, nearly spent, smoke wafting upward.
Quiet night. He sighed and it sent smoke flying. He shifted, drew the cigarette from between his teeth and threw the thing into the hearth as he surged upward in a smooth motion, and rose to his feet. Time to find dinner. Time to hunt. Hunger howled a quiet keening at the back of his mind, not to be ignored. He crossed the inn, floorboards creaking underfoot, and opened the front door, eager to leave.
He drew up, though, at the familiar back sat swinging on the porch, surrounded in her own halo of smoke. He smiled to himself and let the door shut quietly behind him, moved silently the three paces between them and bent to brush a kiss to her cheek. "Boo."
She glanced up at that kiss...and went still, dark eyes wide, pulse pounding at her neck. "Gideon," she breathed. She blinked and exhaled, not realizing that she'd been holding it. "Hello. Hi. How are you?" She gave him a nervous, quick-silver smile and tried to calm her racing heart.
"Hullo chickadee." He gave her a sly, half curling grin and rounded the porch swing to claim the seat beside her. "I'm good, how about yourself?" Again that panic in her eyes, and it wasn't entirely unattractive, though he knew somehow it spelled trouble. She never looked that way and there wasn't trouble far behind.
"Um," she said intelligently. "I'm... I'm fine." She stubbed out her cigarette and tried really hard not to shy away from him as he sat down next to her. "Thank you for the flowers. They were...beautiful." When in doubt, fall back on manners and good breeding, right?
He drew a long , slow breath as that smile faded, fell. "I'm glad you liked them." Tone of voice not really matching the sentiments. "Something wrong, Lelah? Your cold tap is stuck on again." He watched her calculatingly, glacial blues narrowing somewhat. What a change from the last time they'd been together.
She looked away, worrying at her lower lip for a moment before saying softly, "It shouldn't have happened." Memories rushed back - his hands, his teeth, his tongue, red weals on delicate flesh, murmured words spoken in the language of her ancestors...and woven all through it, like some Ouroboros swallowing itself over and over, the high. "What did you do to me?"
He glowered darkly at her before he looked away, rose, giving the swing a shove as he did so. He paced away, turned and lent against the railing, crossed arms over his chest like a portcullis coming down. "You wanted it to happen, Lelah. It was your idea. All I wanted was a kiss, and even that I didn't ask for..." He gave her a brief glance of consternation. "What did I do to you? Lelah, you aren't a virgin. You know damned well what I did to you."
"Oh, don't give me that horsesh*t, Gideon," she barked at him, shedding the fear and replacing it with a good old fashioned rage. "Don't put this on me! You clearly wanted it just as badly as I did. I'm not talking about the...the...sex. I'm talking about what you gave me. Was it smack? Did Alain tell you? Did you find out on your own?"
"What?" He stared at her in shock, genuine, honest, like she'd hit him in the face with a bucket of ice water. It lasted only a moment before fading into hurt anger. He shook his head slowly, side to side list of that dark countenance. "What the hell are you talking about? I didn't give you anything, Lelah. We f*cked. You were amazing, you were...free, like I've never seen you, like you were your own damned self for a change. You came and I thought you were going to pass out." He cut the air with a hard gesture, flinging hands upward. "Is this some kind of game for you? "
"A game? A f*cking game?" She laughed, a strangled, mirthless sound. "Christ God, that's the most condescending, arrogant thing I've ever heard come from your mouth, and that's saying something. You may think that I'm just another in a never-ending line of your whores, but I'm not. And I will not be treated like one, either. I don't know what you did to me, Gideon, but you bet your lily-white ass I'll find out." She didn't bother threatening him; it would be like water off a duck's back.