October 15
My first night alone for the Change seemed more frightening than usual. Perhaps it was just because I didn?t have the added comfort of knowing that had I attempted to break through the cellar door, my family would have been there to secure it. Here, I have no such security. I wonder if, perhaps, my nights in the cellar would be more calm if I had something to feed the wolf. For years we?ve starved it, but I may have to try finding a small animal as a sacrifice.
This new town isn?t at all what I thought. Wolves here walk freely and even announce their curse to anyone who would listen. I met one such man very shortly after I arrived. He?d gotten into a fight and was boasting about his abilities. He made me cringe; it?s men like him who give us a bad name. I patched him up as best I could, if only to be close enough to tell him to be silent. Not all of us are so open with our secrets. I?m frightened, though. With so many lupine-like beings around, I?m afraid that my secret won?t be mine to tell should the day arise. But I?m not always frightened. I have met some people in this place that warm my spirit. At times, I?m reminded of home and what used to be. I?m finding that I can be happy in this place, even if I do miss my family.
I rented a little cottage from a very nice family whose business is just that. They seem very nice and more than willing to invite me into their family as a surrogate daughter. They have two children. Quinn, who is their eldest and quite handsome. He?s very busy, so I don?t really see him that often. Then there is Ginny and I do love her dearly. She is just a little younger than me and so much more beautiful. I envy her at times, but not when she?s being silly in front of men. She?s a little crazy, I have to admit.
I?ve met others through visiting an inn and spending time there. Nothing to relate to the bond I have with Ginny, but I suppose more relationships like that will come with time. But I can?t really spend all of my time there, now can I? I need to find a job, but it?s so late in the year? I?m afraid I won?t be able to find a proper teaching position. We?ll see.
My first night alone for the Change seemed more frightening than usual. Perhaps it was just because I didn?t have the added comfort of knowing that had I attempted to break through the cellar door, my family would have been there to secure it. Here, I have no such security. I wonder if, perhaps, my nights in the cellar would be more calm if I had something to feed the wolf. For years we?ve starved it, but I may have to try finding a small animal as a sacrifice.
This new town isn?t at all what I thought. Wolves here walk freely and even announce their curse to anyone who would listen. I met one such man very shortly after I arrived. He?d gotten into a fight and was boasting about his abilities. He made me cringe; it?s men like him who give us a bad name. I patched him up as best I could, if only to be close enough to tell him to be silent. Not all of us are so open with our secrets. I?m frightened, though. With so many lupine-like beings around, I?m afraid that my secret won?t be mine to tell should the day arise. But I?m not always frightened. I have met some people in this place that warm my spirit. At times, I?m reminded of home and what used to be. I?m finding that I can be happy in this place, even if I do miss my family.
I rented a little cottage from a very nice family whose business is just that. They seem very nice and more than willing to invite me into their family as a surrogate daughter. They have two children. Quinn, who is their eldest and quite handsome. He?s very busy, so I don?t really see him that often. Then there is Ginny and I do love her dearly. She is just a little younger than me and so much more beautiful. I envy her at times, but not when she?s being silly in front of men. She?s a little crazy, I have to admit.
I?ve met others through visiting an inn and spending time there. Nothing to relate to the bond I have with Ginny, but I suppose more relationships like that will come with time. But I can?t really spend all of my time there, now can I? I need to find a job, but it?s so late in the year? I?m afraid I won?t be able to find a proper teaching position. We?ll see.