There are some plans you make an intend to keep, then there are those you know will never happen unless you make them
::Steady footfalls carried him toward the Inn. He had spent the better part of the day just wandering the nameless streets and alleyways. Thrice he had tried to penned something in his journal of the prior nights' activities, but words simply failed him::
::The wind mage sat on the porch hugging her cloak close.Writting in that simple journal upon her very round stmach. The inn beyond humed with conversation. But jade hues lingered upon the darkness beyond the inn. Shea was not in any hurry::
: :: Quill met paper in flowing words written in elvish. A loose leaflet of a papge hung out from that journal. It was a letter she was writing. That hood was drawn over her head, dark blue tendrils of hair swept out.It would be hard to tell who she was if not for that dark green cloak witht he silver dragon etched on it, or perhaps that dark blue hair and round pregant belly. Jade hues flickered in the darkness under her hood, the yellow light of the inn cast to the page before her.::
::He had pondered throughout the day as to what might lie outside the city, what other mysteries might be laid bare. He was resolved to dedicate some time to exploring in the future. He pressed a boot to the first step and steadily ascended to the porch::
:: Hues cast up tot he darkness and the scent on the wind that brushed past her face then back to her letter. Once it was finished she would fold it thrice in half then sealed it with a spark of magic easily seen. Then the winds came and curled around that letter like a hand and swept it off.::
: ::He gave a passing regard to the green-cloaked individual sending missives aloft before reaching for the door and setting it ajar::
: ::Sitting back against that porch swing those green gloved hands ran down her round stomach as a soft kick she could feel. At last she would lower that hood and sahke free thsoe dark blue lockes before smotthing her gloved hand smoothed them down and behind her elven ears:: Quel undome Connar ::Jade hues glanced to his passing figure::
: ::His hood was lowered as he moved to enter the inn, a wash of warm, musty air sent in greeting. He paused at the mention of his name, preceeded by indiscernable gibberish. He smiled and gave a nod:: Good eve, Shea.
::A pause as he regarded her. Perhaps things were as they always were. Perhpas nothing more.Elven hues drifted back to the shadows that lay beyond the porches light.::
::He stood at the door and gave a slight chuckle as she turned away, her gaze directed away:: Is it something I said?
Nae :: simply said and a long glance back towards him and Shea rose slowly, walking towards that open door.::
: ::He held to door open for her as she approached, not sure if she were coming or going::
::Witht he door open Shea could glance inside and also be met by the warmth of the commons as she passed, then slowly shea crossed within with the door behig held open for her and all.:; thank you. :: a nod to Connar as she crossed inside ::
: ::He paused for a moment, a glance back out toward the darkening street, as lamplight from the open door flooded over the porch. He loosed the cloak about his shoulders and left it to hang on a peg by the door and then continued in::
: ::Towards the bar with slow easy steps her hands resting on ehr round belly. A nod was given to Sid whom stood behind the bar. Hands braced against the bar it was far to hard to move in to a stool at the moment, and standing seemed right at the moment.::
: ::He felt oceans apart from who or whatever he used to be and from the people he once knew. He stood in the midst of the commons, an eye on Shea as she struggled, heavy with child::
::A glance was given back at Connar she could feel his gaze upon her. Dark brows rose softly before looking back towards Sid, thinking of what tea to have to realx::
: ::A heavier lean given to the bar,a glance to the table a feet paces back. Shea was watching everything and everyone.It wasnt to busy,that was good.::
: ::The silence in that gaze was heavy, overpowering any other sounds and conversations in the room. After lingering a bit, he moved to a table, taking a seat and pressing his back against the wall::
: ::Shea wondered if that pepermint tea was relaxing.She'd never had it before. Another look back at Connar wondering for a moment if she'd suddenlly had horns or something.An idle hand checked and double checked.Before she Waved Sid down:: Sweet darling Sid, tea for me too please.
: ::He draped his arm over the back of the chair, as he sat somewhat askew, more comfortable with the surprises the inn offered, though not totally at ease all the same. It was a feined act at best on his part. He thought Shea wanted to be left alone, he couldn't read her expression or mood, so he waited::
: ::There were no horns on her dark locked head,no wings at her cloaked back.Nothing. Shea would wait for her tea.::
: ::After Piper had grilled him about his apparant wanderlust, he had questioned exactly just what kind of a citizen he had been to the women of the realm. All he met, it seemed, he had abandonned at one point or another::
: ::His finger absently traced the deep gouges in the heavy wooden tabletop, his thoughts drifting over a myriad of hazy ideas and emotions::
: :: Once that cup was placed before her and paid for Shea floated it before her as she made her way abck and invited herself to sit at Connar's table. That cup floated down to meet the table top:: Do I have horns I can nae see or feel?Or is that look ye give me for some other reason? :: tea cup lifted by a gloved hand and tea within sipped::
: ::He looked up and chuckled as Shea neared, standing and trying not to be distracted by the floating cup of tea:: Should ye have horns, Shea? ::He paused, still looking at her:: Ye must forgive me if I don't know quite how to act normal, for I know not what "normal" might be.
::Shea grinned as she adjuasted in that chair::Nae I have never had horns Connar. We hadnt established a normal bewteen us, so tis alright.
: ::He nodded and sat back down in the chair, regarding Shea across the table:: Tis like starting anew in many respects, me being here, though I cannot escape the history that preceeded me.
Not that anyone in all of Rhydin should act normal,tis not a normal city. ::Another sip of tea:: Aye,I do understand. A new start is just what you needed.
: ::He shook his head:: Nae, it isn't what I needed, though it may very well be what I deserve.
::A soft glance given to him then:: I am not one to say. Thing will always been unnormal.
: ::He nodded, thoughts drifting from one place to another. He looked at her and smiled:: Where's Victor?
Home,in Nosgoth having a meeting with Lord Alcar.
: ::He tried to cache the blank expression, none of the places or names rang familiar. He knew Victor's name from his journal, and nothing more:: I would suspect that he must miss ye something terrible when ye are here and he is somewhere else.
: ::another long soothing sip of tea was taken:: Yes, well sometimes he gets enough of me. We will have many hours to spend together when Adamina is born. And his meetings are imprtant, so much to do before the festival arrives.
: ::He nodded. He had read much of the Winter Fest in Shea's homeland...probably the last time he had been anything resembling happy:: A festival and new baby...quite the potent combination. Ye will be ready for a vacation
: ::A long glance given to him then, she noted he seemed different, but he always seemed different to her. Yet he was not the man that had come back he was changed yet again.But Shea had gotten used to that at the very least.:: aye well, with so many births happening I doubt I will get much of one of those. ::meaning a vacation:: but I have plenty of time for rest, an eterinty
Ye say the word "eternity" as if ye might hold a bit of disdain for it.
Immortal life isnt everything it is cracked up to be Connar. You live one hundred years and things chnage, people that once were in your life are no longer there.My family will always be there, but the people in Rhydin in two hundreed years will be very different. Though I will have changed little. Whuile ghosts and the darknesses come and go. I will remain.
: ::He nodded, comtemplating his own existence; long and forgotten:: If ye be in the midst of eternity, even now, then ye walk in heaven's clouds, free from death's sting.
: ::another kick rocked her form and made her wince softly before taking another sip of tea. Shea would be glad to be rid of her kicking duaghter in her womb. The tea settled down to the table floating its way there:: I have seen the lights of the elven after life three times Connar. There is a afterlife that would be grnated to me should I die one day.: death will come by arrow or sword or soemthing worse.One day. Not even I am free from deaths sting. This time when it happens I will let it come.
Tis all relative, I suppose. To the horsefly, who's life is but a month or two, a mouse must live for an eternity. And yet, the tiny mouse lives but a scratch of time compared to mortals, and long as our lives may seem at times, they compare not to the earth and trees that extend their branches skyward century upon century.
:;a nod to that:: aye well said
: ::He smiled:: Don't mourn for we flies and mice, for the time spent under your branches enriches our lives.
::another long sip of tea then, the cup now bare:: the lives of elves are often like the trees they grow and chnage with seasons but they dwell for long times until they are cut or struck down. Such has always been the way
: ::He nodded:: To keep your sanity, ye must look thorugh the eyes of the trees and not through those of the mouse. ::He chuckled:: I sound like those damned tomes I spent too many weeks reading. I'll stop now.
::shea shook her head at that:; ye need not, tis fine. Ye sound fine to me Connar, your way with words has not been lost.
::He grinned:: Well, I almost had my tongue cut out...some might say I missed my just deserves.
:: a brow was arched to that:: almost, well. You and I have had many a close call tot hings of that nature,, luck be on our side.Nae if you could not speak it would be not of a good thing.
: :;He looked at Shea, a study of those jade hues, this history, pain, joy and loss they must feel:: Ye wanted to sit down over a cup of tea, is this what ye wished to talk about...my tongue?
: :; a smirk to that:; nae, tis not. :; a gaze given back to him. Yes there was pain,loss , joy,saddness and love between them in the past.:: It has been a coons age since I saw you last. Last time I stood at that bar with you behind it and I was not so round and you said goodbye to me as if we'd never speak again. But I knew better. Youv'e gone and changed on me again. I should come to expect that after all this time.
: ::He nodded slowly, though he had no recollection nor writings of that last night so many months ago:: I've changed on ye more than once? How so?
Well when you first came back after I though you were dead, you were not the man I recalled you being. But then I knew things had changed between us. I had chosen to move on, and then. It was like seeing Adaron all over again, but ten times worse and ten times better. Ye were different yet the same. I wanteds to be friends, and I still do.No matter our past. But it has been hard. Then your gone again and here you are, and its like your different again but in a way I cant explain well. Tis like you look at me now as if you've never seen me before, its like that first time we met,spoke to each other. Tis hard to explain
: ::He smiled:: Tis not hard to explain at all, for tis just as ye say. I know not whether I was once preserved by divinity's hand or if it were just plain luck, but I feel different now, more vulnerable, less assured of my place.
Well we have all been there unsure of our place. You have luck, and your cunning tis what makes you a good warrior. I know not of divinity's hand in any of it. ::A long glance given to him then,her eyes glancing over his face. Those jade hues swirlled to silver for a moment as she studied him::
The only thing I can surmise is that, in my greed for life, I was not contented to receive heaven's reward for eons of service, and so doing was cast back to earth to fend for myself, to have the life I so foolishly pined for while on god's errand.
::she listened to him then:: well one day I am sure you will greet those fields of gold and green and feel the sun on your face and wind at your back, and knwo your in the graces of soemthing beyond. But I do not think that day is any day soon. Tis not foolish to wish for a different life Connar. And to eb cast out of the light of heaven I know all to well, but take what i told my son before the first time I was nearly dead. When all that you want to do and need to do is done, when everything: is at last complete then the graces of ehavn will welcome you and not cast you out. Your here for a reason, you just have to decied what to do
::He nodded, looking at her, studying her face, amazed at how well she seemed to know him, not just him, but his soul:: I'm left to wonder if I am striving to become what I once was...to be Connar Valdor once more, or if that hope is lost to me now. I'm not sure what to make of the life given me.
::that tea cup rose up floating in mid air back to the sink far behind the bar.:: If one thing I have elarned from my time in Rhydin, it is a good place to find yourself who you want to be or who you wish to be, its alsoa good place to loose yourself. Become someone else. In time you'll find out. :: jade hues sparkled those dark green eyes so lit from within by that silver light. Those dark blue locks touched her cheeks as she shifted:: But what I wanted to say was this, I hope that we can be: friends dispite our past. And to tell you that what my dear Lupine friend said was true.
: :;He smiled:: Your "lupine friend" said quite a bit, ye might have to be a tad bit more specific on which detail ye speak of.
Shea smirked::Jade has a big mouth. And a temper to match. I know she said much, she likes to torment you. For she knows how it annoys me.She might have said that I love you, and that part is true as far as what else she might have said.Take it all witha grain of salt.
I'm not sure ye can hold love for someone who left ye as I did and who lacks the memory and will to love ye in return. ::He paused, thinking of Jade:: Did I know her before? What did I do to vex her so? She seemed bound and determined to have me feel some sense of....well...I'm not sure what she wanted me to feel.
::Shea shook her head:: that is where your wrong I understood then as I understand now why ye left. It does not matter if you remember or not.There was love between us, and dispite all else I will always love you.And yes you met Jade before. You did nothing to Vex her. She is just hard to understand. She knows my affection towards you and feels it is misplaced... but in her own way she understands. Do not let her bother you.
: ::He smiled, hazel eyes gazing on her:: I think I agree with Jade. If anything, I've learned that I had a nasty pattern around here, one of careless regard for the feelings of others. I know of Mercy, Elessaria and of ye, I wonder how many others I had wronged.
:: Gloved fingers rose through her hair tucking those dark locks up and behind her elven ears:: Jade is wild, untamed and at times dnagerous tis her lupine spirit.Think nothing of her ways. ::Shea shook her head again:; ye did not wrong me Connar. As for miss Mercy for what I recall of your and her relationship there wasnt much to speak of and Lady Eless cares for you yes, how much i do not know but I do know that her heart does not feel broken beacuse of your and her friendship.
: ::He nodded, a tinge of frustration in his voice:: Aye, aye...but others like Piper, hold me in disdain for my wreckless regard toward those feelings. My journal is silent on the matter, but did I do nothing but win over faint hearts only to abdone them? From what little I know, I should have been more a monk than a man. Seems my actions tell a different story.
But ye never wronged me, we have had our moments and I am sure we may have many more. But I would not forsake what I remember,not any of it the joy, the bliss the love or happiness. The tears, the sadness the darkness or death. The fear nor any of it. So dispite what anyone might think or say. My feelings towards you will never change :; a slight lean forward:: you have always been a man of honor and duty. I knew that and any other should know that.Your not frm Rhydin, your oaths were to another place and I understand that,being a knight of GreenStone, being a warrior. Out of every woman in Rhydin who has known you, enjoyed your company or anyelse. I know ye the best, and your not an arse.
even when all is gone and changed those feelings would remain
::He nodded slowly, trying to give a place to her words of assurance, though that was tough doing:: Did I make unfulfilled promises to ye or to any other?
Depends on what you mean. But to every word to me you kept. Nothing ever hapened between us, nothing in the realm of the physical nature save for a few moemnts but as far I I do know youve been nothing but a man of your word. A friend, a warrior and champion.
::He smiled, assured by her honesty and compassion:: Thank ye, Shea for saying so. It means more to hear that from ye than ye may know.
::a nod was give:: well tis true. I am a woman fo my word. ::slowly shea would shiftout of that lean upon the table and back in that chair before she would rise:: I did not think this talk would come,pehaprs more shall come in the days to follow.But for now I need to head home.
::He nodded, rising to his feet as she stood:: Aye...the hour grows late. I do appreciate our talk, Shea, and would welcome it any time.
::a nod given as she slowly dres that dark green hood over her
head:: and do remember should ye need a ear to listen I am never far. :: and being the wind mage she was those wisps of wind swirlled about her for a moment before she was gone the smell of fallen elaves left in her wake::
::He had to blink as Shea was wisked away, a shake of his
head as if to question whether he had imagined her being there. He picked up her empty cup from the table and walked toward the bar, placing the cup in the wash
basin::