Events of this thread take place in the early afternoon of March 20]
Yesterday at the store? Busy! Today? Not nearly as much so. She still had commissions, but she was a hungry little elf! So Lydia took her lunch rather early, picking up a sandwich from a nearby vendor outside, and a drink from Eddie then went back to A Stitch in Time. She headed upstairs to the office to eat, no clothing around there you see, much safer to eat and drink there.
Erin was in the office, fiddling with paperwork. She looked up when Lydia entered and pushed her glasses up on her nose. She'd been up there most of the day, catching up on things from when she was gone. "Lunch already?"
Pale blues blinka blinked as she smiled sheepishly. "Yeah, Carley's downstairs handling things though." The blonde haired elf was earning some trust... "If you're busy here though I can go elsewhere?" Her brows lifted faintly.
"No, no, I need a break before I go crazy." Erin took her glasses off and moved everything else aside. "Look, Lyds.. I'm sorry. I've been.. I don't know.. I haven't been right. I haven't been doing right by you..." She smiled a touch. "I know I'm behaving.. erratically.. but, I just want you to know that.. it'll be a mess for a while, but that I'm going to be okay."
Lydia canted her head, a few locks of green spilled over a bare shoulder as Erin's words were considered for a moment. Finally she smiled a bit. "I know.. yeah.. I know it will." She nodded. "These things just take time and.. yeah, you'll be yourself soon enough."
"Do you think..." Erin paused for a long moment, voice dropping a tad. "It's okay to date? Nothing serious.. nothing crazy.. just.. something to get my mind off of things."
Oh yes, sandwich! She had picked it up and took a healthy bite, chewing as she regarded Erin in her pause, blinking rather slowly at the question that finally came. A long moment to consider of her own, food swallowed, sandwich sat down.. "Erin.. you're married?" Her features took on a look of mild confusion.
"Am I?" Erin was frustrated, that was clear, it was in her face. A finger pinched her nose and she braced her head on the table. "He left me here. I just.. I don't want to sit around waiting for him to think if he wants me or not. What he said.. in the inn.. you saw it, right? In that blog? I just.. I don't.." She could only really sigh.
"I did Erin, yeah." Soft words as pale blues lowered to the desk between them. "You told me he wasn't going for good though.. I mean.. you're married. I might not understand it entirely, but it's supposed to be more.. serious than.." She shrugged. "..why do you ask that anyways? About dating?" The question was almost... almost dismissive in manner. As if the green haired elf believed Erin would consider such a thing? No, Erin wouldn't go that far.
"It's supposed to be more serious than picking up and getting on a ship till you decide it may be a good idea to come back." There was bitterness there. "Chi kissed me last night. And I didn't hate it." She shrugged. "It was the first time in a long time that someone showed me affection that didn't physically hurt. I.. I feel bad, but, I don't really feel wrong."
Pale blues lifted to look back to her sister. Confused? Of course. Understanding? Not at all. "Erin.. I'm not saying what he did was right, but gods, it doesn't give you an excuse to.." She trailed off, holding back still. So much she wanted to say, so much held in.. she teetered on the edge though. "So what does that mean? ..what are you doing?"
"I don't know what I'm doing. I have no idea." Erin pushed some hair behind her ears, fiddling with the glasses in front of her. "I guess I'm trying to forget him? I don't think I want to do this again.. if he comes back. I'm.. suffocating."
"..you never know what you're doing do you..?" Whispered words, the corners of Lydia's lips turned down into a frown. "Trying to forget him? After.. what.. four, five days? Gods it's not been that long Erin, yet you act..." She paused again, more words held back. "I can understand if you don't want to do this.. continue in your marriage.. but you need to end it before you decide to pursue someone else.. You probably shouldn't even..." Shoulders slumped as she sat back, a distraught sigh escaping her.
"I don't want to -pursue- anyone.. I don't think I could ever even be with--" That was a fear best left unfinished. "I don't know. I don't -know-. It's been well over a week, and he hasn't even written. He's just bloody gone. I don't.. I can't.. part of me wants to do this to hurt him, because he tore my heart out in front of the world.. over and over again and made me the fool." Erin shook her head again. "You think he's not out there drinking and flirting and.. I'm just so sick and tired of -being- the fool."
"If anyone has made you the fool Erin, it is yourself." Finally, words spit out, no long held inside. Lydia blinked rather slowly, looking shocked by them.
Yesterday at the store? Busy! Today? Not nearly as much so. She still had commissions, but she was a hungry little elf! So Lydia took her lunch rather early, picking up a sandwich from a nearby vendor outside, and a drink from Eddie then went back to A Stitch in Time. She headed upstairs to the office to eat, no clothing around there you see, much safer to eat and drink there.
Erin was in the office, fiddling with paperwork. She looked up when Lydia entered and pushed her glasses up on her nose. She'd been up there most of the day, catching up on things from when she was gone. "Lunch already?"
Pale blues blinka blinked as she smiled sheepishly. "Yeah, Carley's downstairs handling things though." The blonde haired elf was earning some trust... "If you're busy here though I can go elsewhere?" Her brows lifted faintly.
"No, no, I need a break before I go crazy." Erin took her glasses off and moved everything else aside. "Look, Lyds.. I'm sorry. I've been.. I don't know.. I haven't been right. I haven't been doing right by you..." She smiled a touch. "I know I'm behaving.. erratically.. but, I just want you to know that.. it'll be a mess for a while, but that I'm going to be okay."
Lydia canted her head, a few locks of green spilled over a bare shoulder as Erin's words were considered for a moment. Finally she smiled a bit. "I know.. yeah.. I know it will." She nodded. "These things just take time and.. yeah, you'll be yourself soon enough."
"Do you think..." Erin paused for a long moment, voice dropping a tad. "It's okay to date? Nothing serious.. nothing crazy.. just.. something to get my mind off of things."
Oh yes, sandwich! She had picked it up and took a healthy bite, chewing as she regarded Erin in her pause, blinking rather slowly at the question that finally came. A long moment to consider of her own, food swallowed, sandwich sat down.. "Erin.. you're married?" Her features took on a look of mild confusion.
"Am I?" Erin was frustrated, that was clear, it was in her face. A finger pinched her nose and she braced her head on the table. "He left me here. I just.. I don't want to sit around waiting for him to think if he wants me or not. What he said.. in the inn.. you saw it, right? In that blog? I just.. I don't.." She could only really sigh.
"I did Erin, yeah." Soft words as pale blues lowered to the desk between them. "You told me he wasn't going for good though.. I mean.. you're married. I might not understand it entirely, but it's supposed to be more.. serious than.." She shrugged. "..why do you ask that anyways? About dating?" The question was almost... almost dismissive in manner. As if the green haired elf believed Erin would consider such a thing? No, Erin wouldn't go that far.
"It's supposed to be more serious than picking up and getting on a ship till you decide it may be a good idea to come back." There was bitterness there. "Chi kissed me last night. And I didn't hate it." She shrugged. "It was the first time in a long time that someone showed me affection that didn't physically hurt. I.. I feel bad, but, I don't really feel wrong."
Pale blues lifted to look back to her sister. Confused? Of course. Understanding? Not at all. "Erin.. I'm not saying what he did was right, but gods, it doesn't give you an excuse to.." She trailed off, holding back still. So much she wanted to say, so much held in.. she teetered on the edge though. "So what does that mean? ..what are you doing?"
"I don't know what I'm doing. I have no idea." Erin pushed some hair behind her ears, fiddling with the glasses in front of her. "I guess I'm trying to forget him? I don't think I want to do this again.. if he comes back. I'm.. suffocating."
"..you never know what you're doing do you..?" Whispered words, the corners of Lydia's lips turned down into a frown. "Trying to forget him? After.. what.. four, five days? Gods it's not been that long Erin, yet you act..." She paused again, more words held back. "I can understand if you don't want to do this.. continue in your marriage.. but you need to end it before you decide to pursue someone else.. You probably shouldn't even..." Shoulders slumped as she sat back, a distraught sigh escaping her.
"I don't want to -pursue- anyone.. I don't think I could ever even be with--" That was a fear best left unfinished. "I don't know. I don't -know-. It's been well over a week, and he hasn't even written. He's just bloody gone. I don't.. I can't.. part of me wants to do this to hurt him, because he tore my heart out in front of the world.. over and over again and made me the fool." Erin shook her head again. "You think he's not out there drinking and flirting and.. I'm just so sick and tired of -being- the fool."
"If anyone has made you the fool Erin, it is yourself." Finally, words spit out, no long held inside. Lydia blinked rather slowly, looking shocked by them.