Cinder stirred in the sanctuary, he pushed himself from the desk and turned seeing his body slumped over the table, his hand loose upon a quill. It was so sudden he thought looking at his signature in the guest registry. Myon?s Notebook stored the names of guest who had special permission to visit the deceased it was rare to have a visitor since this place was now unknown hidden deep within the forest of death. It was simply known as Myon?s woods but those who knew wanted to keep people away. Cinder had been given two slots, he just used his last invite up to see her for the first time since she was alive, the other he visited was his mother.
He smiled for a moment and turned away from his body, he looked at himself as he was now, He was pleased to find his ghostly body was intact, his arm was a pair his right and left were united his hair was much longer and his claws were erect as if he did not grind them down, he was very much a Kalveas.
He heard what he expected to hear in this place when one separates from their body. A loud creak and the sudden chime of a grand clock rang in the distance. He drifted through the walls and below the old floors into a room only available to those who were dead. There he came into chamber an old wooden table with faded gold accents, two chairs matched the table, one was occupied by a woman. She was expecting him, she smiled stood and went to embrace him at the steps to a grand door, light gleaming from the cracks.
He was shying unsure what to expect he knew this was brief and there would be not another chance to see her till it was time.
?Where did you go, did you find what it was you were searching for??
He shook his head, it was painful to see her but he needed this and he mustn?t avoid his reason why he came.
?I?m thinking that I did. It?s been a long time. You know why I came??
She smiled and gave him another hug
?You look beautiful in the sunlight Cin, don?t hang under the shade, you?re getting very pale?.
?Yeah I know, it?s all the work and studying I had been doing. I?ve worked so hard? I need a vacation.
Do you remember our trips to Palbadores??
She smiled rubbing his back. ?Of course I do! You know I think we drank too much Sangria that week end. Still it was nice to see that place it was warm, the people were very friendly and laid back. We took a tour of an old market, we tried some interesting foods?.
He nodded. ?I wouldn?t mind going there again with you, we could go there you know to Palbadores, swim in the turquoise oceans with all the colourful fishes. That food was good; I wish I could make those filled bread things. Fishing was good?It was much better than the time we went to Darumni, I hate monkeys?.
She smiled and led him over the doorway. ?I know you didn?t come to reflect on our vacations, Cin? what troubles you? You know I cannot go back there with you and you do not belong in this realm, not yet?.
He hesitated, he turned away, it hurt being alive yet severed from him body, it hurt even worse for the reason why he came. ?I think I would rather stay here with you? besides Delliah has lost faith in me and Rewa, she doesn?t understand that I can love only you. Kristae, won?t you stay??
She placed her hands on him and kissed him softly. ?I think you know the answer to that, I?ll be on the other side waiting for you. So what troubles you dear??
He nodded with a shrug. ?Dandelions ? do they mean anything to you??
She shook her head. ?No, If anything I know you dislike them that is all. You said in your youth you liked them, you loved to kick them up in the air watching the seed pods float like snow?.
?So, I am troubled that is all?.
?Why are you troubled??
?I?ve had dreams more like flashes of memory, dandelions floating down to the ground, blood soaked upon my hands. I can feel the warmth on my fingertips I can hear somebody screaming, it all happens so fast, I don?t know if this is real or just a dream but it troubles me?Kristae??
?Yes??
?When you died?who killed you? Did I??
?If it wasn?t my father then you killed an innocent man, but no? you didn?t kill me if thats what you think nor was my father an innocent man. I am sorry you are haunted by an image such as you described...I hope you find what you are looking for".
She opened the door for him, it was blinding and warm. ?I want you to go through this door, return to our house and be with our family. I want you to be happy, don?t suffer. I know...? She paused even for a ghost she was still fearful of this man he had become.
?I would have lived with you Cin, I would have gone with you and I would have aged. How many years would I have left thirty, forty years? I know that would have been even harder on you and who would you have taken revenge on then, time itself? You already froze time for yourself; it wouldn?t have made a difference for me. I love you please love me and remember me but remember yourself, you make me sad seeing you?I never thought you could hate so much??.
Cinder nodded and kissed her lips and nodding gently against her. ?I am sorry my love, my sweet Kristae. I?ve betrayed you and myself I learned to hate more than I do love?
Forgive me?.
He smiled for a moment and turned away from his body, he looked at himself as he was now, He was pleased to find his ghostly body was intact, his arm was a pair his right and left were united his hair was much longer and his claws were erect as if he did not grind them down, he was very much a Kalveas.
He heard what he expected to hear in this place when one separates from their body. A loud creak and the sudden chime of a grand clock rang in the distance. He drifted through the walls and below the old floors into a room only available to those who were dead. There he came into chamber an old wooden table with faded gold accents, two chairs matched the table, one was occupied by a woman. She was expecting him, she smiled stood and went to embrace him at the steps to a grand door, light gleaming from the cracks.
He was shying unsure what to expect he knew this was brief and there would be not another chance to see her till it was time.
?Where did you go, did you find what it was you were searching for??
He shook his head, it was painful to see her but he needed this and he mustn?t avoid his reason why he came.
?I?m thinking that I did. It?s been a long time. You know why I came??
She smiled and gave him another hug
?You look beautiful in the sunlight Cin, don?t hang under the shade, you?re getting very pale?.
?Yeah I know, it?s all the work and studying I had been doing. I?ve worked so hard? I need a vacation.
Do you remember our trips to Palbadores??
She smiled rubbing his back. ?Of course I do! You know I think we drank too much Sangria that week end. Still it was nice to see that place it was warm, the people were very friendly and laid back. We took a tour of an old market, we tried some interesting foods?.
He nodded. ?I wouldn?t mind going there again with you, we could go there you know to Palbadores, swim in the turquoise oceans with all the colourful fishes. That food was good; I wish I could make those filled bread things. Fishing was good?It was much better than the time we went to Darumni, I hate monkeys?.
She smiled and led him over the doorway. ?I know you didn?t come to reflect on our vacations, Cin? what troubles you? You know I cannot go back there with you and you do not belong in this realm, not yet?.
He hesitated, he turned away, it hurt being alive yet severed from him body, it hurt even worse for the reason why he came. ?I think I would rather stay here with you? besides Delliah has lost faith in me and Rewa, she doesn?t understand that I can love only you. Kristae, won?t you stay??
She placed her hands on him and kissed him softly. ?I think you know the answer to that, I?ll be on the other side waiting for you. So what troubles you dear??
He nodded with a shrug. ?Dandelions ? do they mean anything to you??
She shook her head. ?No, If anything I know you dislike them that is all. You said in your youth you liked them, you loved to kick them up in the air watching the seed pods float like snow?.
?So, I am troubled that is all?.
?Why are you troubled??
?I?ve had dreams more like flashes of memory, dandelions floating down to the ground, blood soaked upon my hands. I can feel the warmth on my fingertips I can hear somebody screaming, it all happens so fast, I don?t know if this is real or just a dream but it troubles me?Kristae??
?Yes??
?When you died?who killed you? Did I??
?If it wasn?t my father then you killed an innocent man, but no? you didn?t kill me if thats what you think nor was my father an innocent man. I am sorry you are haunted by an image such as you described...I hope you find what you are looking for".
She opened the door for him, it was blinding and warm. ?I want you to go through this door, return to our house and be with our family. I want you to be happy, don?t suffer. I know...? She paused even for a ghost she was still fearful of this man he had become.
?I would have lived with you Cin, I would have gone with you and I would have aged. How many years would I have left thirty, forty years? I know that would have been even harder on you and who would you have taken revenge on then, time itself? You already froze time for yourself; it wouldn?t have made a difference for me. I love you please love me and remember me but remember yourself, you make me sad seeing you?I never thought you could hate so much??.
Cinder nodded and kissed her lips and nodding gently against her. ?I am sorry my love, my sweet Kristae. I?ve betrayed you and myself I learned to hate more than I do love?
Forgive me?.