Topic: The Sea Forging Cold

NightRunner

Date: 2007-07-31 04:14 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
No More Heroes


"Devotion is as a double-edged blade. Mighty in its strength that exacts a high price."




He was trapped. Again.

And he was alone. Again.

He hadn't moved since he'd been put on the cell bed -- he hadn't dared try to move else he might try to escape. Which all instincts demanded that he do.

Harold was dead.
Not-dead.
Dead and not-dead.

He'd come to the Maritime and spoke of insidious things -- murders unremembered. Acts that disgusted him even if he couldn't remember doing them. The description was right but it frightened him.
He had written in his journal of ending up in strange places without the knowledge of getting to them.
And now, his hero -- dead and not-dead -- stood there telling him of things worse than ending up somewhere.
And that Home was not Home.

It terrified him. Confused him.
Still, in some strange way, he wasn't surprised.

He sat unmoving and were his eyes to see, it could have been said that he was staring off into space. He didn't care.
This wasn't home.
Even if he'd left a candle in the third floor window and cleaned the place 'til it shone, he wasn't there. He was here and this was not home.
Renne's mind soon drifted into the past -- the distant past, when he'd first run across the place.

It was rosy with its share of thorns.
And he'd have had it no other way except in one thing.

He could have been stronger.

Still, he came back.
Was welcomed back.

He thought on that for a while. Years and experience by then had both stripped away and given him things.
He no longer walked upright. His English had fallen into terrible disuse.
He looked like his true self. No longer could he put on any sort of facade to appear more humanlike.
That was all right.
He'd learned to be careful -- too careful almost -- and autonomous. He learned to be alone.
And that was not all right.

He was welcomed back in the cold of winter.

And told that Home was not Home in the warm light of summer.

It was wrong.

It felt wrong.

He kept on thinking. There wasn't much else he could do, really. So his mind wandered on and turned to darker, hazier paths.
There, his mind stopped.

He wasn't ready for an Analysis. Not yet.
It was too soon.

Far too soon.

-You will not Analyse?-
No.
-Why not?-
I cannot. It is too soon.
-You must.-
I will. Not now.
-Explain.-

His thoughts stopped again. Indeed, why couldn't he Analyse? Why couldn't he dissect the thoughts that so disturbed him? Why couldn't he pick apart and overcome the thoughts of abandonment and letting someone down?
He knew his own answer even as he remembered the night Harold had confronted him.

My hero is gone.

NightRunner

Date: 2007-07-31 04:23 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
Home and Wars

"It is well that war is so terrible - otherwise we would grow too fond of it."
Robert E. Lee



It was a violent night in that little jail cell.

The rage had come once more and it did so with a vengeance. He felt nothing as it came; just a swift, brick-wall onslaught of a rage he could neither explain nor remember when it ended.
But he was trapped.

And for once, that was ultimately, the better thing.

It possessed him entirely and he became the monster within stone walls.
But there was no prey for the predator.
No words of betrayal were spoken. No shouts of disdain were heard. No breaking of bonds were felt.
No partings were in the making.

So the rage was released upon the cell walls. He often thought in his years that walls could speak -- walls and other things could hold emotional remnants of those that touched or possessed them. Things, in essence, could speak.
Within the rage, he heard a female voice.
And he did not wish to hear her. He wanted her gone and gone forever.

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-It happened again, vivid and real. She was twisting her deceptive coils around her prey. She guided with the touch of a shepherd's crook and the allure of a siren. And then she sprung her trap.

He stood listening to her and then to two beloved voices in anger. This was not what tonight had begun as. This was not supposed to be a tragedy in the making.
But it was.
He listened for as long as he could bear it and then he fled. He ran from the memory, moving from beachfront sand to cold, bone-smooth roads and the rain-blood that was so familiar.
His feet pounded on the surface as the rain fell upon him, determined to knock him down. Voices spoke up in the rain, many voices.

-Let us see ye live through this!-
-You are a friend.-
-Hear what House Aventeal has done?-
-I'm proud of you.-
-Traitor. Charged of treason.-
-Don't be in any hurry...-

The voices overlapped one another like a great whispering throng. They followed him as he ran -- taking stands as good voices against evil. It was a war of words, thoughts, emotions and understanding. Still, he ran until he could run no more.
He heard her voice and finally cried out in his mind.
"Be silent, you betraying taker-of-harmony!"
He was right.
She had taken harmony and stripped it clean. But she wasn't the only one.

The Hunter laughed in the rain.-

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He came out of the insanity at just before dawn. It took almost an hour for him to regain his bearings and realise his whereabouts. It took him longer, far longer to control the tears falling from his eyes.
The righteous side of himself cried out in determination. Not for himself but for them.
Harold. Archie. 'Nathan. Cinder. Sarah. Kitty. Pendrell. Galos. Vicfryn. And many, many more over the years.
The evil side of himself screamed for justice, railed against the irrational thing. Abandonment. Failure. Fear. Anger.
Not-Silver. Not-Harold. Not-Archie. Not-Majidah. McGrath. Kaori. Fate. And the scars more than the names.

Renne pulled himself up off the floor and crawled wearily back up onto the bed that was his for who-knows-how-long. He pulled out his spyglass and held it close to himself.
Logically, he was glad that he was here.
And logically, he cried out for Home that he'd lit a candle for.

NightRunner

Date: 2007-08-01 00:05 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
Silver Wishes

"A wish is only a desire left unspoken to those that may hear it."



The rage had passed.

All day and now, on into the night, he did little more than meditate and bring out the treasures he had acquired over his years.
He went through the memories of each treasure. Sometimes, he smiled. Sometimes he shed silent tears.
*Godspeed, this bright millennium

He'd been to many places in eight years outside of his own realm. Some were wonderful and others were awful. But there was one that lasted much longer than the others.
When he came to his spyglass, he felt tears burn his eyes and let his mind wander backwards.
It was a sweet memory he found himself reliving. And somehow, it gave him the strength to compose himself enough.
Not to what he ought to be. But enough.

He put his spyglass away and took out pen, ink and paper.

His mind wasn't nearly as controlled as he'd like -- that was lost weeks, if not truly, months ago. Still, it was something.
And it was all for the small act of penning a letter.
On days when the sun is gone

It was difficult, to be sure, but it had to be done. It wasn't a begrudging task. It was one that required some concentration on his words. While he couldn't understand things enough to explain them, he could at least say what he felt. And then, when in a lucid moment, he could hope.
I'll hang on if I wish upon the moon

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It was done in a shorter time than he'd anticipated but that didn't matter. It was done He put his pen and ink away and without a sound, slipped his folded message under the cell door then returned to his original position on the cell bed.
Once more, his mind receded into the mists of memory.
It wasn't much. But for now, it was enough.
It had to be.

~<>~

*Someday, Celtic Woman

NightRunner

Date: 2007-08-01 03:32 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
Godsent Connections

"My armour is my mind. My shield is my memory. My blade. That is my pen."



Sunset was upon Rhy'Din by the time he'd come out of meditation and another futile attempt to straighten his mind out.
He kept on hearing the Hunter.
He still tried for many hours up until the sun began to sink beneath the horizon line.

It was then that he came out of it and penned another letter. He didn't have a clue where they were and he only knew one place to have his messages sent.
So only fate knew when they'd be found, if ever.
Who knew writing a letter could be both calming and harrowing at once?
He kept on and forced his mind to keep clear, determined to finish this one.

It wasn't to happen until later.
Some hours later.

The rage came down like a landfall and engulfed him before he knew it.
He attacked the prison-cell walls, mauled at the door and howled like some wild beast infected with rabies.
Even with all this, the true hell wasn't on the surface.

It was deep inside his mind, where the devils were invisible.

He struggled. He fought. He lashed out at the walls, the floor, the door. The monster raged until the exertion left him panting and crying in exhaustion.
His voice then let out that long, wailing howl until he could howl no more and fell into an exhausted state that was something akin to sleep.

The letter would be some hours late.
But it would get done and sent.

It was a mercy he hadn't expected to find in a place deemed a prison but this little spot was already beginning to turn up with some unexpected turns.
The holders of this place didn't lash at him once.
They didn't pin him down.
The most marvelous thing was that they let him write his words.

It was a small mercy that could change a world.

NightRunner

Date: 2007-08-02 01:53 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
Via Dolorosa

"Friends are family you choose yourself."



The outside world was becoming a mystery to him.

It wasn't because he wanted it to, or because he didn't try to listen to chattering outside of the four walls that surrounded him.
He didn't know why but the outside world was becoming slowly a mystery.
In a way, the whole of his time outside of his native realm had been a mystery he was meant to slowly unfold.

Back then and there, in a place too far to speak of, he had learned distant lessons. Here, in a place-time removed from his own, distant lessons came into stark perspective.
Disharmony was so easy to fall into here. Disharmony was too high a probability here without Documentation, Birth-Linking and the overall societal necessities that, back there, kept Renne's homeworld at a utopian peace for at least eight generations.
That kind of utopian harmony didn't exist here.
One had to create it.

The world was still a mystery to him. Confusing, terrifying, heartbreaking.

The world was still a mystery. Enlightening, strengthening, heartbreaking.

He still didn't understand much of it. Too much of it.

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Renne sat with his back to the cell door. He had no idea that he was now being watched by a lens; not that he'd really care much.
He sat on the bed and didn't speak a word. At least, not in English or any other bits of languages he'd picked up over the years.
He sat and spoke to himself in his native language.

He spoke to himself for hours in his language that sounds like a five-part group. It was never something he did often but now, he returned to it.
It gave him strength in the past and it did so now.

He spoke this way until he heard his cell door open.

The last thing he expected was a visitor.
Still, it was a small spot of comfort.

The visitor was Merit and a minute later, Santharina joined him. They spoke of little in that time but it was enough.
They spoke of Viking gods and their capriciousness.
They spoke of what holes in a mind could mean.

It didn't last long.

The rage had come upon him like it had for many nights before.
It came in Merit and Santharina's presence. Gaston ushered them out politely but in a decent enough hurry to keep them out of potential harm's way.
They left the prison with Renne's screaming howls carrying through the air and to their ears.

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It was hours before the raging insanity released him.

When it did, he found himself halfheartedly beating and clawing against the wall. He found disorientation, confusion and a queer dizziness that stayed on the border between irritating and nauseating.

The disorientation lasted for another hour or so but once it cleared, he found himself half-sprawled on the floor and half-against the wall he'd so passionately attacked earlier.
When the disorientation cleared, he found himself alone.
He was angry at that.

Not at Merit or Santharina.

He was angry at himself.

And he knew then that despite not remembering the rage or why he got so disoriented, he was a monster.

Anger bled through into shame.
Shame leaked into despair.

He soon crawled back onto his cell bed and moved into the same position he was in when he got here. The spyglass came out in short order.
And tipping his head back, his voice let out a long, keening wail.

He cried with more than his voice tonight.

CaptainTapole

Date: 2007-08-02 02:00 EST
The rocks slowly made their way along the docks. Luckily with it being nighttime and all, rarely anyone noticed the two chicken-egg-sized rocks that were rolling all on their own. And if anyone did, they probably thought they were hallucinating from too much alcohol.

Eventually, the rocks finally hit the door of the South Port Holding Houses. They continuously rapped on the door until someone answered it.

The Evening Warden grunted a bit as he peered up from the front desk; seeming that the evening receptionist forgot to tell him that he was going on his break.

"It's open."

No response. Just the continuous rapping. The Warden grunted again as he stood up slowly and stomped his way to the door; prepared to yell at the nightly hoodlums.

"If I catch ya'll. Ya'll be very sorreh."

But what he yelled was not heard by anyone. For when he opened the door, there was noone there. But there were two rocks that slowly split apart--like an egg cracking--showing a folded piece of paper. On the piece of paper--before even unfolded--it was stated for Horaetio Renne Arc'err. The Warden picked up the piece of paper and looked at it for a moment. It was the first known of anything for that Cell-Dweller. But he had specific rules for that one. He did not even open it, but by the time he did look back down towards the rocks, they were already gone.

Rather confused, The Warden simply shook his head and closed the door behind him. He then walked over a few steps, fished out the keys in his pocket to open the bars inorder to get into the long hall for all the Holding Cells. He then closed the bars behind him and pocket his keys again. Going down along cells; peeking in some every now and again, luckily it was late enough where most of them were sleeping. Granted there were only five there total; but he had to make sure anywho. Getting down to the last Holding Cell on the left--nearly four away from the others--he opened the piece of paper and slid it through the Peep-Window; not even bothering to read it. He then knocked on the door loudly.

"Finally someone realizes ya. Ya have a letter."

And with that, he walked away from the Holding Cell, going right back to the front desk; hoping that the receptionist is there so he could yell at him.


The letter was written how Renne can read it--with the raised letters. And plenty of his friends know how to do that, but there was only one person who would use the apostrophe punctuation so often...

Dearest Renne.
Ha'e I e'er told ye that I hate Outsiders--and ye do not count as one anymore. I hate Outsiders. And yer friends, Sarah and Cinder I belie'e their names were, were definitely not much of help whatsoe'er.

But if ye ha'e yet to figure out by now, yes, I am in the City. I am just trying to find the Holding Cells that ye are...umm...staying at.

I know I cannot say much, since I know that the Warden usually reads these things to make sure that all the words are allright. But if he does not read this, then good fer ye fer ha'ing such a strange accommodation.

To make this simple, I will do anything possible to get ye out of there and to make sure that yer punishment will not be too damaging. Now, granted I do not ha'e too much of the currency the crazy Many use here; but I will try me damnedest to get ye out of there.

Along the way to this hugantic City, I learned a few different languages. Me being half el'en, I ne'er knew one word from that language. So, a fellow tra'eler told I a few words that might help ye out with yer mental troubles.

Amin ten'nio ell ten min corm. Which roughly translates to "I am allways there fer ye, my Heart." I will find ye and rescue ye. I promise. Ye allways protected I.

Me turn.

Fore'er With Lo'e,

Your 'Nathan.
__________________________________________________ __________

(~I used the Holding Houses and the NPC Night Warden without permission. The person who technically runs the Houses and I could not get a chance to talk. And I also assumed the layout of the place. So, I apologize. But it had to be done.~)

NightRunner

Date: 2007-08-02 21:16 EST
The Sea Forging Cold
Ceraint ydy Deulu

"The greatest of gifts come in the smallest of ways."



It was another day at the Holding House. No different from many other days. A prisoner causing racket here, a guard patrolling there.
It was no different.
Just another day.

By the time two messages had reached the Holding House and passed through security, they were a little on the battered side. They got there though and that was the thing.
*Cast your eyes to the ocean

Within the solitary little cell, Renne sat on his bed with his possessions spread out around him once more. It wasn't even dusk yet but this tradition had no exact time. It was just done and done faithfully.
He laid out notes, letters, his journal and spyglass.
He picked up each item and let each memory wash over his mind. Each passed like a living dream -- hazy but clear, faint yet thundering in his mind.
Cast your soul to the sea

It was when he picked up one message in particular that he had a quiet epiphany.

He knew why he'd lit the candle in the window.

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He was a little surprised when he heard the messages drop beside him. While the only outward reaction was a flick of his left ear, he waited until he thought he was alone. Blissfully oblivious to the camera, he was.
He read each letter in quick order.

'Nathan's message made him smile.

Cinder's message brought his tears from the usual trickle to a steady stream.

"I should have known you'd stick it out..."

"...whom I call friend..."

Ffyniant.

He folded the messages and put his belongings away. It wasn't expected to happen before dark, but it did.
It wasn't for him to know until then that tears could bring the Hunter to laughter.
When the dark night is endless

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It passed quickly.

It began with the tears and ended with the disorienting wave of exhaustion. He didn't let himself sleep. Not yet.
He had to find words.
He had to find words for his pen even if words from memory rang loudly in his mind.

When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me.

~<>~

*Dante's Prayer, Loreena McKennitt