.: June 3rd - early morning :.

Making sure that it won't break and disappear
I just want to treasure this feeling I have now
Dreams and hopes are overflowing from those hands held together
That's what I believe in so
I can continue on without getting lost

There isn't anything that overwhelms this feeling but
I do become sad at times when we get near
I just don't want to be taken only by things I can see

Don't speak with sweet and kind words
Because it stings my heart and make me want to cry
Because you're always by me and giving me strength
And because you're protecting me
I want to sing

The time spent together just makes me happy
I want to feel this destiny with you now
I can't tell you, but there are days I want you to embrace me
I'm attracted towards you so much
I can't help it

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A certain warmth could be felt through that cheek that settled so nestled in it's place. Only a few hours had passed or that's how it felt yet rest had been disrupted by some nagging at the back of her mind and she roused but barely so. Slow rhythm of breath rocked her and a strong beating of a heart not her own filled her ears. Slowly eyes drifted upward without the need to raise her chin. He was fast asleep or what seemed to be. Either that or napping, it was hard to tell with him.

A slow smile crept into place and she nuzzled that cheek against the firm surface of his chest. The smile faded a little as she glanced along his chest, gaze finally resting on the vial.

I don't ever want you to leave, or go away. I always want to see you. *Always.* And I know that you're not going to just get up and do it. But there's a difference..between wanting that, and not wanting to keep you from doing something you want to..

Those words, even a few days cold, still swam around in her mind. Along with some other words that he had said that night. She wasn't quite sure where the sudden spur of words came from and she still found herself thinking them and his actions that followed. Thinking of them very heavily. Under other conditions she might of thought something different of them. But she knew better..

She knew better then to even attempt at hoping..

But that was okay! That didn't mean the words didn't have a warming effect on her heart. It was comforting too even if she didn't really completely believe him. But...with the past could he really expect her to just accept his words at full face value? He had a horrible track record of changing his mind on a whim and of course the whole withdrawal thing. The past riddled with reason to make her question the measure of truth that came with his words. But they were still welcomed. They still made her feel important.

The hand against his chest shifted, fingers curling in the gesture he had done. Stuck together. She wanted to believe that. Stuck together. Her lips twitched faintly when she remembered his words defying her own..

Well I think in the future we may have to become a little unstuck..But that doesn't mean I still won't be around

No, we don't.. Stuck is good..

She stared at her crossed fingers against his chest with a quite little chuckle. A quite little sigh escaped her soon after and she settled back into the warmth that bathed her. She could just enjoy the moment and try not to dread what would eventually come to pass again. They were not as inseparable as the words made it seem but it was a nice pipe dream.

Eyes drifted closed and a small sigh escaped her. Dreams were for the dreamer. And that was what she was suppose to be doing right? Sleeping...dreaming...

She hadn't been sleeping well and she couldn't help but wonder why as she started to drift back into slumber. She also, by his own words, haven't been eating normally. Been eating less. She wasn't upset. In fact she was quite happy and why wouldn't she be?

Mayu was completely and totally in love. Without a doubt her little ..sister? was completely and utterly in love. Constantly she found herself mentally squeeing for Mayu. Even if Mayu didn't see or feel her as a sister any longer, that sisterly protection remained ever intact for the younger female.

Ixora was going to see her mother. Family was important. It was a good thing she was going! And she was going to keep true to her word. If Ixora came back hurt she was going to kick everyone's rear end that was on the ship!

And she... She was at her best friend's side where it was nice and warm. Safe...

Maybe she needed more blood but the idea of feeding from him again so soon saddened her for some reason. She was taking too much from him. Even if he offered it...

Slowly her body began to sink into that wanted place, feeling a touch fuzzy as sleep began to creep back in. She could sleep...

...for a little longer...

.: June 12th :.


In a dream I could see you are not far away.
Anytime, Anyplace. I can see your face.
You're that special one that I have been waiting for.
And I hope you're looking for someone like me.


In my dreams I can hear you calling me.
In the night, everything's so sweet.
In your eyes I feel there's so much inside.


In the nights, dream delight;
I want to see you standing there.
In the nights, dream delight;
I've found someone who really cares.
In the nights, dream delight;
I want to see your smile again.
In the nights, dream delight;
You're the one I waited for.


In a dream we can do everything we want to
There's no where I'd rather be but here with you.
The stars above light the way only for you and I.
I'm so glad I've found the one I've been looking for.



Of the one you're hoping for
Love can come through an open door.
Just be strong.
And you're sure to find the one,
the one, the one, the one.

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The air was thick with mist but there was no way she couldn't tell whom it was that sat at her side. Sitting on the flat span of a cliff they were faced over a beautiful green vast of land. If it were not so misty they probably could of spied other colors. Legs drawn to his chest he was all but balled up from the edge, shoulders squared to keep himself balanced.

She sighed. It was peaceful but there were some things she just couldn't set aside.

"It's okay to hope, you know." his voice was soft to her ears.

She snorted quietly, feet bouncing off the edge of the cliff. Hope. He had told her to hope at one time. Then told her that he had hoped it would change. But it didn't. Lips curved down into a frown. "No. I can't hope." It finally came out with a sigh. She could see from the corner of her gaze that he started to frown as well.

"Why not?"

That..was such a stupid question and her head turned to give him a flat look.

Sheepishly he grinned at her and waved a hand. "You want to. We both know you do."

Scowling she looked away. He was right. She wanted to. She just..couldn't bring herself to do it. It was just a heartbreak waiting to happen. Again.

"I know you believe I am sorry. For everything done.."

She blinked slowly and lowered her chin. She did believe him. Why couldn't they be together. Why couldn't they be a couple like Mayu and Evelyn? Why couldn't they...

"Because I don't love you.." he stated simply and she blinked. Pupiless greens drifted over to him. How did he know what she was thinking? He grinned at her and she felt herself frown. Heavily. "We are confused.."

"Yeah.." Sighing she looked forward. She didn't feel like looking at him very much after that. It was okay. She could keep it bottled away. Even if she basically told him that she wanted to be his and he hers.

"You don't get it yet do you?" He inquired curiously, watching her intensely with those aqua jewels of his.

"What?" She murmured quietly. Her mind was in a whirl. If he didn't love her then why did he say all those things to her. If he's been feeling them why not tell her in the first place?

He chuckled at her and nudged into her shoulder softly. "Because I don't think it's fair, remember?"

She blinked and peered at him. "What the hell..?" He was peering back at her, grinning like a cheshire cat. "How isn't it fair? Do you or do you not want me to feel that way about you? If I did then wouldn't it be ..shared?"

He shrugged at her. "I don't know. I'm confused.." The grin faded into an also sad expression that tugged at her heart.

"That makes two of us." she sighed and leaned back.

"No. Only makes one of us." He sounded like if he was correcting her. He still received a confused look from her and soon enough he was grinning again. "You don't get it yet?" Inquired yet again.

"Get..what?" she asked very carefully.

"Really, Katt? Do you think we'd be sitting here in Silverymoon, by ourselves, talking about this so soon after-"

He was cut off by a choking sound. "Oh for the love of..I'm freaking dreaming?!"

He laughed at her squeaking voice.

A hand met her face roughly. "Well no wonder 'we' are confused! And why you keep seeming as if you are reading my mind!"

"Because I am you.."

Hearing him say that sounded-

"-Creepy" The both of them said at the same time. She laughed a bit nervously. "Geez.."

The both of them started laughing and looked out to the scenery.

"Do you really want to be mine?" He asked and she scowled him...herself..uh..Gawd it was confusing. "Heh." As if he knew she was confused. "I mean after you told me that you know I could change my mind."

"Yeah..I know." Drawing her knees to her chest she attempted to hide her face among her knees.

"Do you really want me to be yours?" Another question that was stupid.

Of course she did. But that hope was..

"It might be okay...I mean..I told you all that stuff and I kissed you. Maybe there is a chance in hell?" He raised a brow at her.

She shook her head, arms drifting over her head to hide herself. She didn't want to hear this. It was strange enough that she was attempting to persuade herself through HIS face!

"You do. You like the idea that there could be a sliver of chance. Of hope." He continued.

"Shut up.." She murmured. She felt his finger poke at her forehead suddenly.

He was laughing. It was warm and happy. "Oh come on you like the idea that there could be just a little chance that I c-"

"Shuddup!" She all but screamed. She didn't. She couldn't! "I don't want to! I don't want to believe there is a chance..Because it's not true. I could never be true.."

He was staring at her, finger lingering near her forehead. "You are afraid that it is true." Conclusion given voice. "Maybe I don't feel the way you do about me but there is something..Something I am confused about. Something I feel that I am not suppose to feel. Like that stuff I told you about me being jealous.." His shoulders raised slowly. "Maybe in time I will figure out what it is.."

"Time.." She murmured quietly. "You have all the time in the world. I am not..going to go anywhere. And ..my feelings for you are nicely bottled away.

"They aren't so bottled. And we both know it."

She whimpered quietly. "I'm trying. I don't..want you to feel guilty for not l-l...for not feeling the same way I do about you.."

"But I told you already. I don't feel guilty anymore." He reached out finally with that finger, poking at her forehead a number of times. Each time she grunted quietly.

"Brat.." That single word he hated so much but coming from her it was a term of endearment. Held quite a bit of affection when it was spoken.

Steady strides that silently struck steep, steel frames of street lamps carried that blazing ball of cardinal red from one road to another--distance traversed in the manner of minutes counted as mere seconds. Thick, encroaching midnight was Phantasneko's aegis. Dull, idle banter was her distraction. Her source of transportation equally became a source of residence; gripped by the warm frame of glass for unrequired assurances that she would not topple.

Katt's lips parted to state something but decided it was best not to go there. Instead she shrugged and glanced at her feet. "I guess.."

"Well, really..who would want glue in their shoes..?" He grinned, leaned his head back to stretch his neck..watching the sky instead of the street. "Are you really asking me to..?"

Katt's shoulders bounced in a single shrug. "Doesn't matter either way.." The way it was spoken was as if she was pretty much shooting and killing the subject, burying it. R.I.P!

The glint of pure white met a lower, plush lip as four separate ears drank from the forbidden pool of conversation that lingered not too far ahead. A slithering tail uncurled from the waist, motioning in suggestion for the owner to take flight and continue on. That mix of christmas cheer complied, launching from another post and taking residence on another lamp. Paces were paces; she but yards away now.

"Yeah, it does.. There's a difference between joking about it, and being serious.." He really hated this conversation. It'd probably be easier if he just wore the damn things.. He grinned wryly at the half covered stars..studied something he thought he saw some distance before them, then looked down at Katt.

Target designated. A methodic voice like a dull breeze acknowledged. "Roger..." the cardinal shade replied. Lifting upright, tail snaking about the waist it originated from, the christmas themed woman prepared herself; exposed digits sneaking into the folds of her ruby dress to acquire as-of-yet unseen equipment.

Katt shook her head a single time, not looking up if only because her shoes were mildly interesting. "Mrph. Andddd...how long have I been 'bugging' you about wearing shoes?" That should pretty much sum up an answer now shouldn't it? She shrugged after a moment. "If after this long you don't want to do it..sort of just seems to be more like I am bothering you so ..yeah..doesn't matter.."

"In the end, I guess I should.. Since then you won't have to keep worrying, or something..and then you won't feel like you can wander around without shoes and get sick again, so.." He grinned. "But..really..now the condo's all the way back there.. He glanced over his shoulder. And I kinda don't want to buy new ones..I've got a bunch already.."

Activate. That secondary voice stated, carrying spirited vigor. Slipped between several fingers were spheres no larger than jellybeans, bright like the starts that speckled the velvet night. Those shards of glistening wonder were coiled into a balled fist, and thrown with accurate precision in the vicinity of the two present below. Contact with the ground was the intended, but any disturbance that might be had following the release would result in the same reaction: a vibrant, green mass of waking light.

"Or I should just stop bothering you about it alll together and you won't have to be bothered by it." Her free hand lowered to point at her shoes.

"Yeah.." He jumped and turned..squinting horribly fast. His head jerked to the side, free hand lifting..crossing over his face to protect his eyes. Everywhere else was dark..it made the light stick out so much more.. "What the hell..!"

Katt blinked and tilted her head also, brows slowly lowering as she slowed. " Mrmmmm...d...dunno.."

Favorable success. "Right!" The blossoming explosion of pure light was the cue for the cute, agile, feline-type woman to make an entry; leaping from the street lamp that she was on. Dexterous like the cat she resembled, she acrobatically somersaulted onto the scene, landing perfectly onto the large pair of shoes that she wore. A rush of white ribbons, snapping greens, and tightly-fit crimsons blurred onto the scene precisely where the orbs shattered. From seemingly nowhere, a hand had found itself a steel, pink rod with a firmly planted golden star latched onto the end. Brandishing the air with it, she proclaimed, "I, Phantasneko, has arrived! Citizens of this awkward, yet familiar city, beware! Truth and Love shall... hold on." A freehand produced a sheet of paper, squinting at it as the bright light she produced had begun to wane. "...That's right. Truth and Love shall prevail in the face of all that dare challenge it! Do you, strange people, dare challenge such!?"

He shuffled backward, his hand tugging at Katt's..trying to get somewhere away from the light..since it seemed to be everywhere. His eyes felt like they were full of knives. He thought he'd heard another voice somewhere.. "Strange people..?" He rubbed his watering eyes with his knuckles.

The sheet of paper was thrown aside, and the rod Phantasneko carried was lowered to instead be brandished on the one that asked such a question. "That is what I said!" Strange and Awkward.

Katt hissed at the light, driving back as she was tugged yet attempting to slide herself between the voice and Toby. "Ach. Newcomers. Hey? Um..mind dimming the lights so you don't make us go blind?" Her free hand rose to rub at her eyes and/or shield at them from the bright light.

"Uh huh.." He shook his head. He couldn't remember what the person had all said..something about challenging things.. He dared open eye. It sounded like a girl..

Phantasneko's rod was lifted, angling it aside to the woman. Despite the easing of the blinding light she made her entry with, the star-tipped staff continued to glisten with a faint hue. "Never! The light is a required effect for the entry for one Phantasneko!" Glorious Entry.

"Least the stuff is going away.." He waved his hand, like the light was smoke..blinking, staring out through a slit thin space in his eyelids at the person that was in front of them.

Katt sighed quietly. "Ummmmm. If the light is too bright for people to see you isn't it sorta like..lacking the point of a showy entrance?" She rubbed at her eyes and attempted to lower her hand some. "And what do you mean by..um..challenge?"

A pointed, dangerously sharp tip of the star was moved to throw cascading teal over a narrow, exposed shoulder. "We sensed something strangely conspicuous around these parts!" Unsettling. "As I see you two, I am left with no choice!" Another sheet of paper was produced from the folds of the cardinal ruby shade of fabric. This one came with swipes and slashes of thick black calligraphy. It was pinched between two fingers, and lifted toward the woman first; runes faced outward. "Truth and Love requires a test!"

He rubbed at his eyes again, this time with the heel of his hand..then finally lowered it, glancing down to Katt in front of him..and the person beyond.. Who apparently had a piece of paper.. He blinked in surprise. Truth and love..?

Katt squinted at the figure and for a brief moment thought she saw..teal? And ears? Instantly she thought..Mayu~Nyan? But..that voice wasn't Mayu's. A blink, which she would regret after a moment and started to blink a few more times. "Uh. I still don't get it..?"

"There is no need for you to understand. Only for you to destroy this unsettling feeling inside my heart!" Terminal Eradication. "Truth and Love demands such!" The sheet of paper shimmered to life, burning with a hazy blue aura that didn't consume the paper much like it would were the flame a natural element of the physical plane. Curling her arm inward, Phantasneko extended her arm in a sidelong heave; launching the sheet from her possession with the velocity of a bullet from a rifle. The intended target was that which stood in front of her.

"What the hell.." He frowned softly, shoved his thumb against Katt's hand to get it to let go. It was just paper..that sparkled.. It couldn't really do much, right..? How are we supposed to challenge it if we don't know what it is..

"Mrmmm.." Katt was confused... Toby's hand was released but she didn't budge from her place in front of him. Nope! She blinked seeing something zooming her way. "Uh.." Fire paper? A hand reached up in attempts to grasp it. Like Toby she thought..was just a paper..Even if it made impact..umm worse that would happen would be a papercut?

The paper's approach was hasty, but nothing that the supernatural eye couldn't keep track of. The hazy blue hue resembled a serrated end of a blade; yet encompassed the very most of the sheet itself. Were it to naturally be caught, it would unnaturally slice something in half. The questions that were meant for her ears came without reply; as her focus was set on the sheet of paper that she'd enfused and used as a weapon.

Depends on what is said about natural right? Considering Katt thought it was nothing but paper she attempted to grasp it upon approach. She found her palm bitten into at the force. Not expecting that nor the force behind it, elbow bent and the tip of the paper met skin elsewhere. Springing forward her hand attempted to pull the paper from it's resting place. She found herself wondering..if she had been human..would that of sliced her in two? Kind of a scary thought..

The element that infused the sheet tapered off almost immediately following impact. Another had already been drawn into the same hand, this time aimed at the male. It was without the haze of blue so far--the presentation a matter of principle for the moment. "Does that answer your question, sir?" For the record, she's holding onto the sheet for the time being. It hasn't left her grip.

"They fixed it?" Problem solved. "Wasn't the idea here to eradicate it? That's not doing it!" Reapply. "It's not like I brought a huge cache of cards, you know." Fingers pinched another sheet, lifting it up into the moonlight. The calligraphy glistened and rippled like water as it began to show face. It had been written on without pen; without physical contact.

He wanted to hurt that girl..at least after he figured out what she did, why nothing short of this didn't help him get control. He followed Katt's direction without protest, weak coughs shuddering through him. Crimson dribbling out of both corners of his mouth. He watched the fuzzy looking sky from under half closed eyelids. He was sleepy.. He could deal with this stuff later..after a nap..

The vial was removed with shaken hands and Katt found herself pausing. Looking over at the movement she glared. "Haven't you done enough damage?!" She managed a pair of droplets between Toby's lips before replacing the vial. She wasn't..She wasn't going to let this happen again. "I am not..I am not.." She raised to her feet after the dagger was collected, lip turned up into a snarl at the girl. "I am not going to let you hurt him anymore!"

Blink. Blink. "Then you challenge Truth and Love! As the protector of the sacredness, I have no choice but to remain and defend its purposes!"

His eyes had closed. He could barely see the sky anyway.. He didn't need to see when he was asleep.. The muscles of his neck relaxed, his head dipped to the left. Blood dribbled from his mouth even after the wounds had begun to fill in from the inside. There were voices..fuzzy voices..interrupting his sleep. They should just..be quiet..

The dagger was spun sharply in Katt's palm then grasped firmly with the blade posed for strike. "Listen..I don't know who you are. Or what you think you know. But if you are fighting for 'love and truth' then why the hell are you hurting people you know diddly squat about? We've been through enough crap. We don't need this..or you to tell us what is truth..and what is love.."

He sucked in a sudden breath and choked, rolling over..quickly coughing out whatever blood was in his way so he could breathe..spit..repeat the process. He pounded the outside of his fist into the ground in frustration, then started to push up. Sleeping..wasn't going to happen..

"Truth and Love reprimands all things that challenge it! Foul creatures such as that are a bane to Truth and Love all together!" She nodded once. "I, Phantasneko, battle all things that dare defy or damage what brings Love and Honesty to the world at large! And if things threaten it...!"

"Threaten.." He spat again, dragged the back of his hand across his mouth..staring groggily in their direction, his eyes flicking between Katt, and the girl. If the girl could do that..release his yoki.. He had to get up..

Sliding forward once she saw Toby move Katt planted herself before him, pupiless greens glaring at the girl. She hissed. How...dare she call Toby that. "If you have problems with him then you've problems with me. And I am not letting you touch him again. So you can either leave or I'll gladly rip out your spine and shove it down your throat." She glanced back to Toby when she heard him speak. She felt..a very heavy relief.

Phantasneko's fingers tightened about the paper that she held. At first, to the man's movements. Then to the woman's words. "Such angry words!" Bitter and Spiteful. The sheet she held flared to life, the golden hue shaping around the page in a larger, more vibrant hue. It was infused with excess energy. "Take that back!"

He touched his chest, fingers skidding around the blood splotches..feeling for the wounds. They weren't there. He just..felt tired.. He was still pushing to get to his feet..one hand on the ground to support him as he righted his legs. "Don't.." He grunted, his eyes widening. They matched the golden, cat version of just minutes earlier. He lifted his head to the girl beyond Katt. "Don't hurt her.."

"Like hell I will! First you ruin our date and then you attack him! You could of made me lose him forever. I will not forgive that." Katt hissed, trying to keep herself in front of Toby. "I am..not going to let anyone.." She couldn't leave him. Not with that girl flaring her shiny paper. He could get hit again. And at this point it was an 'over my dead boy' feeling.

Toby hobbled forward, having enough faith in his body to not topple over for at least the few steps it would take to stand at Katt's left shoulder. Golden eyes flicked to the paper the girl held, then back to her face. He shook his head once.

The card Phantasneko carried was infused with energy to the point that it had developed the ability to hum quietly. It wasn't overloaded, or to the point of no return, but it did intend to share that the bark was not without some bite. Menacing, were the previous example needed to be drawn upon. Teal locks shivered as her head shook. "As I said! I, Phantasneko, do not carry the power to draw harm! Only Truth and Love can decide such things!"

Maybe that was what she called her damn paper.. "Then tell truth and love to knock it the f*ck off.. We're not challening anything.." He glanced over to Katt..then back to the girl.

"But you are a threat to everything peaceful" Unruly havoc. "That is the judgment!"

Oh to hell! She was challenging to no end! "Only thing threatening peace tonight is YOU!" She barked at the female and attempted to press herself back in front of Toby.

He blinked..his eyes flickered back to silvery aqua once. He forced them to burn again. He didn't know what to say..

Phantasneko carried a sad countenance. "That is an unfortunate opinion!" Discussion over. She lifted the star rod up into the air, brandishing it at the speckled sky. The card that burned with a glorious golden hue, like a king stapled to a throne, was curled inward to her navel, and thrown outwards much like the previous two had. It spiraled as it made it's direction known--the male that was hunched over on the ground yet again. Her eyes followed the trajectory of the card more intently, this time...

He palmed his back, finding the hilt of his dagger..flipping it over. His arm flung out much like the girl's had..weapon zipping through the air at her person so quickly it whistled. If he was going to get hit again..he was going to do something too..

"Funny how your opinion is the only one you give a damn about!" Katt blinked and turned quickly to Toby, wrapping her arms around him in a hug. She would take the hit. She didn't care if the damn thing sliced her in two. She was not..letting it hit him again. She was not going to lose him. She had barely managed a shift of person, skin bleeding into a white that her hair now matched with. A single feathered appendage tore free from her shoulder, arching skyward then dipping around to shell around he one she held. What looked to be another pair of spined wings remained arched but not as feathery in glory.

The blurry motions of a knife caught the Phantasneko's attention, which meant the built up power of the spirit card that she had thrown was no longer under her guidance. With her manipulation faltered, the card itself shred into two, and imploded on a spot. Hazy, golden residue graced the air in a gaseous cloud--that which surrounded the pair as the presence of the card itself had grown only mere inches from connecting into the woman before it had done so. She was forced to shift in her posture, feeling the bite of steel tear into an exposed arm. It was better than getting it in the skull, she had assumed.

"What.." He gripped Katt to him, trying to see her back..feel it..for any irregularity, blood.. Anything.. "What the hell are you doing.." He hissed, weakly shaking her..then curled his arms tightly around her torso. He was hardly paying attention to the wings surrounding them..or the wispy spit of gold in the places that the wings didn't take up.

The fact that the female pretty much ruined the night annoyed Katt. Hands shifted up to nudge Toby's shoulders. " I am not losing you. Deal with it.." There was no impact. She didn't know why. Didn't want to know why. She grunted quietly. " Go...Please? Whatever she did to you..I ..We can't do that again.."

"Shut up. I'm not f*cking leaving you here, do you understand me? Don't even say that sh*t to me.. She didn't do anything.." He lied.. " I'm fine.." What the hell was this stupid gas..? It didn't smell like anything. He tensed, though. His eyes died back to their original state, but he grunted as they were forced to change..again..

Katt sobbed out a sound that was joyous. She quickly sped from her spot and towards him. Once close enough she flung her arms around his neck so that he would have her to lean on instead of falling to the street. Which it looked like he was heading. Her muscles twitched to the point they ached. She didn't sit still. Fingers felt like they had to brush up against him. He as okay? Really? " Toby.."

He was too surprised. He was allowed to cry for a little bit.. He didn't know what else to do, and he couldn't lift his arms to hug her back yet.. He shook his head weakly against her grasp. "Almost.. I..alm-most.." He couldn't believe that part either..

Elbows dipped against him as she tried to pull him tighter to her. His words made her want to cry even more. Katt wasn't sure if she was happy or terrified. Both? Tears spilled from her eyes none stop, dripping from her chin and onto his shoulder.

"I had to..bel-lieve..that I could d-do it.." His voice broke, he shook his head again..his arms tentatively touching her back. Still scared.. He didn't want to hurt her.. He was surprised that he didn't.. "And..that I wouldn't h-have to..d-die..to stop i-it.."

" You kept your promise.." Katt sobbed the words out. It nearly caught in her throat. " I..I was so..s..scared.." And if her shaken breath wasn't evident enough her trembling body probably was.

He laughed. It sounded pitiful even in his own ears. "Y-yeah.." His face crumpled, he sniffed..drawing his weary arms carefully around her back. He wasn't the only one that was supposed to feel better. "So was I.."

Katt didn't seem like she was going to be easing up just yet. In fact her arms tightened up more and she buried her face against his neck. She was mumbling something repetitively but it was muffled. There was absolutely no care if her dress got blooded. She just..needed to make sure...

He sniffed again, swallowing..blinked to get tears out of his eyes. "I didn't th-think..anything was gonna happen.. I c-couldn't..'cause then it w-would.." His lips and chin trembled..feeling her clutch at him. I didn't m-mean to scare y-you..

Katt's head dipped down, just enough to allow herself the ability to breath past his skin. " You didn't think anything was going to happen to you?" But it did happen. He turned...Her body suddenly felt very..heavy..She felt like she was about ready to pass out and both arms latched more to him.

"I couldn't f-focus on it.. Or what I'd do if I awak-kened.. " He grunted softly at her added weight. He felt like he needed to keep her up. He could do that.. Really.. "After you he-helped..I was thinking ab-bout stuff.."

Her head shook rapidly. Helped him. HA! Her fingers curled against his back and she shook her head even more. " Stuff..?"

"Yeah.. " He didn't want to tell her to let go..but he wanted to see her.. He bit on his bottom lip, gently tugging at her shoulders and leaning against the hold she had on him.

Katt's arms released him against her will. Depending on how she was moved she probably looked a bit slouched. She looked..drained. And her face was soaked with tears. She wanted to go home with him and just..curl up. To hell with the world and it's crazy people..

He slid his hands along her neck, capturing her jaw in his stained hands..nudging her face with his thumbs. He tried to see her. It was..sad.. "Stuff.. Like what I'd say..if I *did*.." He trailed off..huffing a breath. He had to finish that. "...*did* die.."

Katt obviously didn't want to think about that. There was a twist of expression as she looked up at him helplessly. At that moment the only thing really keeping her head from slouching was..his thumbs. His words only provoked more tears to flow and all she could really see of him was a blur.

Toby been expecting that. It wasn't really a good subject. He gave her a sad smile..constantly wiping tears from her cheekbones as they came. "And.." He licked his lips. "I didn't want to..without being able to.." He looked over her face. This was the weirdest time..

Katt figured her mind missed something because she didn't understand. But that was okay for now. Because was okay. She tried to smile back but her lips only shook with effort.