▪?▪ "To fall in love is awfully simple but to fall out of love is simply awful." ▪?▪
Waking to the soft coolness both eyes opened to the leathery surface of the couch that had been passed out upon. How long had she been out? Little did she realize it had been almost twenty-four hours. Not realized it yet that is..
Slowly uncurling she only seemed to realize now that her upper body was still quite nude. The scars that riddled her milky flesh always caused a frown just as they did now. Arms folded she glanced over her shoulder in expecting to find Toby sleeping on the opposite couch.
To look at him was painful. More painful then any words or motions could even tip to explain. Could she? And would she go through with what swam in her mind?
A raddled breath shook from her lungs at seeing the couch was...empty. She found it strange that...
She wasn't that surprised....
He was probably sick with her and wanted all the room he could have away from her presence .
It was simply amazing how so many people claim to know her and yet knew nothing. Explaining to Mayu how much she meant seemed like empty words to the girl. Jealous at every turn that she could not have what Toby had. But what more did Toby have that Mayu did not? And in the end she had to break down everything for the girl that should of realized on her own how important those words were coming from Katt. How deep and profound with their meanings. But Mayu wanted more.
Mayu would get it. And Toby, she was pretty sure, would be thankful to have the weight off of his back. Everyone wanted her to 'Love' Mayu. They didn't realize that she was already loved. Just not in the relationship way. It was..uncomfortable but..doable. She would make herself do it. If only make everyone happy.
Her words obviously didn't matter to anyone. They never truly listened. So why were her emotions any different? If she could do this Mayu would stay. She would be happy. Toby would stay, happy that Mayu was happy. Ixora would...be indifferent?
The sudden wet warmth against her cheeks brought her from her thoughts. She hadn't realized how hard she had been staring at the other couch. Or that she even started crying. Merry Christmas. She snorted coldly as she stood. There was no such thing. At least not for her. And more then likely never would be.
Head shaking she moved to the door and out of the tears into the blistering cold morning. Her first course of action was to return to the glen. To that spot. It was too long to catch a scent but maybe she could find some way to find Mayu from there.
She still wasn't quite sure what she would do when she found Mayu. Fuss at her? The girl wasn't suppose to leave. Fingers twitched with the remembrance of Mayu's neck in their grasp. She could of crushed the poor girl. Mayu's words boomed in her mind. 'Do it'. Would rather die then hurt her like that. Not like anyone cared what she wanted but it was true. That's why...
Things needed to change. She needed to change. She could no longer be who she was because all she did was cause pain among those she cared for.
She could be what they all wanted. Smile and cheerful demeanor. She could be Mayu's 'love'. She could.....
Let Toby go...
Couldn't she?
The hunt for Mayu would begin. Things to flower after that were still to be undetermined. But she would sacrifice...
For their Happiness.
Waking to the soft coolness both eyes opened to the leathery surface of the couch that had been passed out upon. How long had she been out? Little did she realize it had been almost twenty-four hours. Not realized it yet that is..
Slowly uncurling she only seemed to realize now that her upper body was still quite nude. The scars that riddled her milky flesh always caused a frown just as they did now. Arms folded she glanced over her shoulder in expecting to find Toby sleeping on the opposite couch.
To look at him was painful. More painful then any words or motions could even tip to explain. Could she? And would she go through with what swam in her mind?
A raddled breath shook from her lungs at seeing the couch was...empty. She found it strange that...
She wasn't that surprised....
He was probably sick with her and wanted all the room he could have away from her presence .
It was simply amazing how so many people claim to know her and yet knew nothing. Explaining to Mayu how much she meant seemed like empty words to the girl. Jealous at every turn that she could not have what Toby had. But what more did Toby have that Mayu did not? And in the end she had to break down everything for the girl that should of realized on her own how important those words were coming from Katt. How deep and profound with their meanings. But Mayu wanted more.
Mayu would get it. And Toby, she was pretty sure, would be thankful to have the weight off of his back. Everyone wanted her to 'Love' Mayu. They didn't realize that she was already loved. Just not in the relationship way. It was..uncomfortable but..doable. She would make herself do it. If only make everyone happy.
Her words obviously didn't matter to anyone. They never truly listened. So why were her emotions any different? If she could do this Mayu would stay. She would be happy. Toby would stay, happy that Mayu was happy. Ixora would...be indifferent?
The sudden wet warmth against her cheeks brought her from her thoughts. She hadn't realized how hard she had been staring at the other couch. Or that she even started crying. Merry Christmas. She snorted coldly as she stood. There was no such thing. At least not for her. And more then likely never would be.
Head shaking she moved to the door and out of the tears into the blistering cold morning. Her first course of action was to return to the glen. To that spot. It was too long to catch a scent but maybe she could find some way to find Mayu from there.
She still wasn't quite sure what she would do when she found Mayu. Fuss at her? The girl wasn't suppose to leave. Fingers twitched with the remembrance of Mayu's neck in their grasp. She could of crushed the poor girl. Mayu's words boomed in her mind. 'Do it'. Would rather die then hurt her like that. Not like anyone cared what she wanted but it was true. That's why...
Things needed to change. She needed to change. She could no longer be who she was because all she did was cause pain among those she cared for.
She could be what they all wanted. Smile and cheerful demeanor. She could be Mayu's 'love'. She could.....
Let Toby go...
Couldn't she?
The hunt for Mayu would begin. Things to flower after that were still to be undetermined. But she would sacrifice...
For their Happiness.