Topic: Part 1 - Rebirth

Gabriel Ashlocke

Date: 2008-08-10 06:28 EST
He lay sleeping. Peacefully. The night still, the air is calm and not a sound made. He had Rachel in his arms. Was a typical night sleep. Nothing eventful throughout the entire day.

But as many know there is no such thing as a truly peacefully night....

He rolled over. Eyes shutting tighter. His breathing slowly began to deepen. His body perspired. Mild twitching, then to slow movements of the leg. Then legs and arms. Then slowly add the head. He sat up breathing heavily and sweating profusely.

He headed for the bathroom. He propped himself up over the sink. He turned the water on and had it mixed between hot and cold water. He put his hands together to make a hand cup, dipped them into the water then splashed his face.

He looked into the Mirror? He could always see into his own soul. See the darkness that would probably one day consume him. He wiped his face down with a hand towel then held his neck.

He looked to the shower and thought why not. So he undressed and got into the shower. He stood under the water, steam rising from the water and the surface of his skin. A hand placed itself upon the wall.

Tilting his head down to let the water run over it. Every droplet that hit him echoed in his mind. Each time he heard one hit his head, he imagined them as a ripple in a lake. Ripple that soon created vast storms that consumed until it was gone.

He opened his eyes slowly and watched the water hit the floor. He tilted his head back and ran his hands over his face. He began to wash off and such.

What was troubling him so badly? Was it trying to be a better father then his old man? Or was it trying to figure out how to be a good father.

He looked into the glass and saw his father?s face, grinning evilly as if waiting for Gabriel to fail. He placed his hand upon the glass and rubbed it over the image. He then looked to his hands as he focused some of his energy there.

The dark aura swishing around his hands, small holes tearing through the darkness as water hit it. He noted how it drained all color from his hand?.As if it encased his hand in a pure blackness.

He let the powers dim and finally fades to nothing. His hand still there, water dropping and rolling off his hand, and more so rolling down his body, he asked himself who he really was.

Can one man take on so much?Do so much that he could never be forgiven for?Spill so much blood in his youth?Have hands so filthy that they can?t become clean again? Well that was one thing he would have to find out. But for now he must stay the course?Learn and grown?

Gabriel Ashlocke

Date: 2008-08-10 06:44 EST
Many times had he considered a "Rebirth" as it was called. A moment of time where he would just start over... Reset all his goals. Many would ask WHY one would need such a thing. Many experience the restarting of ones life.

Gabriel had yet to actually fully commit to a "Rebirth". He got married a little bit ago. Good start on a new life. Even had a kid...Even better.

As he stood there in the shower, letting the echoes ring in his ear, the steam play hell with his eyes and nose. His breathing slow and deep. He seemed like he was lost. His hands were propped upon the walls to steady himself.

He closed his eyes and tried to understand the flashing images that awoke him.

He focused on the first. just red splattered areas of a room. Screams. Explosions. He felt as if the water had turned to the very red that splattered the walls. AS if it had turned to blood, but it didn?t.

The second a more...frightening to him...The first time he had let his powers gain absolute control. At the beast he had become. It would scare him no matter how far into the past it was. For in that moment he new a second consciousness was laying dormant in the back of his mind.

He turned the shower off as quietly as he could. Stepped out and dried off. Grabbed himself a new set of night pants and T-shirt. He walked outside to the balcony and propped upon it. He looked to the horizon then just fell to his knees. Turned and sat pressing his back to the balcony railing.

His knees came up and his elbows rested upon them. Hands gently placed themselves upon his face. He dare not try to go on for he could almost feel the ever heating wild fire that spread under his flesh. The encroaching shadows upon him.

He dare not let himself become consumed by such things but yet he dare not try to fight. Why was it? Why was he so afraid of this new start in life? Was he afraid of losing everything once again? Of losing all he loved and cherished, and built with his own hands?

Maybe?Maybe?

Gabriel Ashlocke

Date: 2008-08-21 18:02 EST
A week passed. Still the same wake up every morning. This one was far different.

After the shower he looked into the mirror over the sink. He placed his hand on it and wiped away the water fogging it up. He looked into it and didnt like what he saw.

He roared and punched the mirror. Breaking it. A few shards of glass stuck into his hand. He gritted his teeth and left his hand where it had slammed into the glass.

He was worse then his father. A good father maybe but a worse husband. He placed the bleeding hand on the sink and fell to a knee. He gritted his teeth as the water from his hair ran down his cheeks. Or atleast thats what he would plea if Rachel walked in on this.

He couldnt hold the tears back. He was failing left and right. A massive weight gets lifted from his shoulders but something even worse is placed upon them.

He could play that night over and over in his mind. The very night he placed a curse upon himself. The very night he let his darkness reign supreme over him. It ws the first time...The first time he spilled blood...His families blood...His mom and Dad...

He snapped out of it and stood. His eyes open normally but they seemed distant....Strange...Broken...